He wants to scream and shout, wreck everything in his path, but instead he's rooted to the spot with a look of disbelief on his face.
His mum is dead and he doesn't know how it's possible because she was fine the day before.
How can someone be okay one day and dead the next?
And if Ada wasn't sobbing, Arthur wasn't punching the wall and if Tommy didn't have tears streaming down his face while Aunt Polly tells him everything will all be okay, he would think that it was all a sick joke.
People were always playing jokes on him, but not this time, not now when he really wants all of it to be a joke it isn't. He wants his mum, he wants a hug from her and he wants her to be alive.
John wants to stamp his feet like a small child, he still is a child just not young enough to get away with stamping his feet in a tantrum but he can't do anything.
He just stands there like a statue, unable to voice how he's feeling with words, unable to show how he's feeling by crying or breaking things.
John just stands there with a storm raging inside his heart and invisible to his family.