I woke up with Stella's hair in my mouth. It's not the most pleasant taste, but I felt needed at the moment. Her eyes fluttered open and smiled at me. "You were self-destructing." She said. I nodded.
"Thanks Stella." I murmured. She nodded, sitting up with the blankets wrapped around her. "You needed me, so I helped you. And I'll always help you, but not always in that way." She blushed. I chuckled.
"Hey, but if you want some advice? You think that girls don't want or need you, but there is one who does. Next time you feel the need to do what we did, why don't you ask Sam?" She smirked.
"Sam? What the heck why?" I started. She narrowed her eyes, smirking at me. "I know how she feels about you, and you felt about her. Even when you were dating me you had feelings for her. Cameron may not have worked out, but give Sam a chance. She will be the one to save you from yourself." Stella smiled, gathering up her clothes and exiting the room.
I watched her leave and threw on some sweatpants to walk her to my door.
"How does she feel about me Stella?" I asked before she left, not thinking she heard me. She turned around to my surprise.
"Why don't you ask her yourself?" Stella smiled, waving and leaving. I sighed and nodded, grabbing a t-shirt, not even caring that my scars and cuts were exposed and heading out the door. I got in my car and headed towards my tree, getting my phone out illegally and texting Sam.
Sam [sent] meet me the tree?
Sam [rec] …yeah of course. See you soon!
I smiled nervously and threw my phone in the passenger seat when I passed a cop. It vibrated a few more times but I didn't check it and focused on parallel parking. When I somewhat successfully parked, I grabbed my phone and checked it.
Cameron [rec] can we talk? im sorry.
Tucker [rec] sam seems worried, u ok?
Tucker [sent] yeah, i just need to talk to her, ya know?
Tucker [rec] Cameron wants u to text her.
Tucker [sent] lol no.
Tucker [rec] fair enough. What are you talking to Sam about?
Tucker [sent] bye (;
Tucker [rec] I hate you.
My first thought was: Why was Tucker with Cameron?
My second thought was: holy shit, Sam is already here. Sam was sitting with her back to me on the hill. I took a deep breath and started walking up. She turned and smiled sheepishly at me.
"I have a car, how did you get here before me?" I asked, sitting it in the grass next to her. She paled. "Umm, well I was in the neighborhood!" She lied. I raised my eyebrow. "Really? You are going to lie?" I asked.
"…I can't tell you were I've been." She said. "Why? Gotta a boyfriend?" I asked playfully.
Please say no. Please say no. Please say no.
"Nah. It's just-a secret." She said. I nodded.
"Now, I'm going to ask you a question, and you can't lie to me." I said. She nodded. "I can handle that." She said.
"How do you feel about me?" I asked. She paled and laughed. "You are my best friend!" She drawled. "I didn't ask about our relationship status, I asked how you felt about me." I said.
"….I don't know how to answer that, Danny." She laughed. I narrowed my eyes. "Okay, maybe I should go about this differently. "What did I tell you when I tried to kill myself?" I stood up.
"Daniel!" She hissed. I glared. "Well you won't answer me directly!" I growled. She stood. "You shouldn't bring that up! Is that what this is? You are going to kill yourself and you want to know how I feel about you so you don't have a guilty conscious? Well that isn't how I roll and—mmmm!"
Sam was abruptly cut off by me forcefully smashing my lips on hers. She threaded her fingers in my hair and increasing the passion. I lifted her into my arms, her feet leaving the ground.
We parted, breathing heavily. We were blushing heavily and Sam's arms were wrapped around my neck, keeping her close.
"…Danny?" She asked, looking me in the eyes. "Oh shit, I didn't mean to do that." I blushed, detangling our bodies. "Danny, wait." She tried to stop me.
"I'm sorry, I just thought—oh you probably hate me." I said, quickly going invisible and flying back to the house. I went visible and laid down on the bed. My phone started ringing. "Hello?"
"Hey! You didn't come to the door last night! You okay dude?" D's voice sounded over the phone. I took a deep breath. "I don't want to do it, dude." I said, standing up for myself.
"….You will drink with me." He demanded. I shook my head. "No D. I'm not going to. Goodbye."
I heard his gasp of shock before I hung up, throwing my phone onto my bed, feeling triumphant. I knew Sam was probably going to come home soon, so I stayed in my bedroom.
I played on my phone, surfing on the internet, when I got a text message from Tucker, which immediately made me roll my eyes.
Tucker [rec] :D
I thought about what that could mean before just asking him.
Tucker [sent] ?
Tucker [rec] you and D's friendship split!
I let out a deep breath. Thank god no one knew that I had kissed-
My door slammed open. "Sam!" I screeched, looking at the fuming Goth girl in my doorway. She stomped her feet over to me and placed her hands on my hips. "…What are you thinking?" She spat.
I let my head droop down to the floor, not wanting to meet her angry gaze. Stella lied to me….
"How could you kiss me—"
"I don't know I was stupid!" I cut her off
"Shut up, Danny! How could you kiss me and run away?" She said, her tone softening. "…what?" I looked up at her and she was smiling, her hands dropping from her hips. I let a weak smile form, when she sat next to me, taking my hand in hers.
"…I-I really have wanted you to kiss me since seventh grade." She said sheepishly. I grinned widely, hugging her tightly. "I thought you hated me!"
"No! I could never hate you Danny. I hated you because you left me alone in the park without kissing me some more." She grinned. I put on a seductive smile. "We are alone now…" I winked. Her smile, if possible, widened more and suddenly she was on top of me, pressing me into the bed.
"I was completely kidding." I breathed, letting my phone drop out of my hands, even while it still vibrated with questions from Tucker.
"I wasn't." She winked, pressing her lips softly against mine, before I pulled her down to pull our bodies together. I allowed myself to loose myself in the moment, and get lost in Sam.
Before you say anything, I understand that I had just had Stella last night, but I don't know what's happening to me. It's like a fire started in the room and that we were in the middle of it.
I ran my fingers up her shirt to her back, before pulling it up to remove it entirely. I kissed her neck as she ran her fingers up my stomach to my chest, stopping at my collar bones. Her hands traveled over my shoulders and down my arms, and stopped at the bandages on my wrist, and old scars. I stopped kissing her and watched as she removed the bandage, revealing the red, raw skin and kissed them.
"These are a part of you Danny." She whispered. "I wouldn't try to change them. I think they are beautiful."
"How? They're ugly…" I said. She shook her head. "Each scar has a story of how you overcame something horrible. I think that is the greatest thing. You have tons of scars from ghost fights, but these… these are the ones that I will look at and think, 'Danny is a hero' because you saved yourself." Sam said, smiling down at me.
I was feeling too emotional so I pulled her attention away from my arms and pulled her in for a deep kiss.
She removed my own shirt before placing her hands on my bare chest, stopping me for a moment. "I know that you and Stella had, you know, last night, so we don't have to do anything you don't want to. Or will regret." Sam said.
I raised an eyebrow.
"A pretty girl who loves me for who I am wants to have sex with me and you think I'm about to deny that?" I smirked. She giggled, kissing my forehead. "Just giving you an option to get out."
I flipped us over so that Sam was lying on her back, looking surprised up at me. "I don't want to get out, if you know what I mean."
At that, Sam burst out laughing. "I honestly hate you." She giggled. I smiled down at her, attaching our lips again. She curled one hand in my hair and let one hand trail down my still back. It reached the waistband of my sweatpants before retreated back up.
"You are the bravest person I have ever met." She whispered against my lips. I smiled, pecking her lips and then her cheek. I went to say something cute to her, but I was cut off by my phone ringing. Sam continued kissing my neck as I felt around my bed to get to my phone.
"Hello?" I gasped.
A snort followed my greeting. "Hey dude. Why won't you answer me?" Tucker's voice sounded.
"…uh, yeah. About that. I'm a bit preoccupied." I told him, trying to hold in the gasp that happened to want to escape when Sam bit down on my collarbone.
"Anyways…Look there's this party tonight at the high school, and you should come. Cameron and Stella will be there, which ever one you are into at the moment." Tucker offered. I laughed and Sam raised an eyebrow at me.
"Look Tuck, I'm not really into them anymore…I'm kinda with a girl at the moment, so if you could just HANG UP." I squeaked when Sam decided to jab her fingers into my ribs.
"OH, I getcha. That's why you sound really weird. Well, who is it?" Tucker teased. I growled and Sam giggled and held her hand out for the phone. I rolled my eyes and sat down on the bed, handing her my phone.
She sat crisscross and smirked into the phone. "Hey Tuck."
I heard his reaction clearly. "FINALLY!" Sam laughed and hung up the phone and attached her lips back on mine.
"Okay, just making sure this is what you want."
"Shut up Sam."
…
Sam played with my bangs as we cuddled under the covers. "Your hair has gotten so long…" She whispered, her voice hoarse. I smiled, messing up the hair at the top of her head. "Yours has too."
She stuck her tongue out at me before I wrapped my arms around her waist, resting my head against her neck. "I'm tireddd." I whined. "Then go to sleep, doofus." She laughed.
I nuzzled her neck and closed my eyes, trying to fall asleep. She continued to play with my hair before I heard the door open.
"Jesus Christ. I didn't think you guys were going to go that far." Tucker's voice said loudly before Sam shushed him.
"How did this happen?" Tucker whispered. "Oh, and by the way, Jazz is here and covering her eyes."
Sam scoffed. "Stella probably told him, or hinted at it at least. She, um, calmed him down last night." Sam said awkwardly.
"And you calmed him down today?" Jazz asked sarcastically. "…he wasn't upset?" Sam said sheepishly.
"Okay, well, so…is he actually asleep?" Tucker asked. I smiled. "You are such a dork, Daniel." Sam said fondly.
"You guys are disgusting." Tucker said. I cracked an eye open and stared at them. "Get out." I mumbled at Tucker. He scoffed.
"Ooo I'm so scared of—EEK!" Tucker screeched as I shot an ectoblast at him and my sister and they promptly left the room, leaving me and Sam alone. I opened my eyes fully and stared at her. Her hair was messy and she looked beautiful. She smiled at me.
"…I love you, Sam." I whispered. She grinned and nodded. "I know. I love you too." She countered. I sat up, letting the blanket cover my waist and raised an eyebrow. "How did you know?" I laughed.
She looked at me sheepishly. "Don't get mad…I didn't know how to tell you. When you, uh, tried to…you know…you sent everyone goodbye except for me. You told me that you loved me." She breathed out. I blinked at her and then nodded. "I think I remember that, somewhat. I remember asking Tucker a couple nights ago...actually I never asked him." I laughed.
Sam cocked her head to the side.
"When I fainted in the shower. I had a dream that Tucker told me that the text had said that I loved you and that we had went on a flight but you told me we would never work out, so we kissed and then I woke up." I told her. She laughed.
"Well, your dream tried to tell you something you already knew." Sam said, brushing my bangs away from my eyes, the comforter tucked under her arms. I brushed a strand of her hair behind her ear and cupped her face, bringing her lips to mine.
"…Tucker told me about a party tonight?" I said. Sam nodded.
"Yeah I did, and you should probably get ready." Tucker said from the outside of the door. I threw a pillow at it before laughing with Sam.
I think if Sam was always here next to me to help me live through another day, I could beat the demons that haunt me.
…
"Do I look okay? You said it was pretty formal." I blushed. I was wearing a white button up with a black skinny tie and black dress pants. My black converse high tops were tied normally on my shoes. Sam looked me over and nodded. She herself had on a black dress that was strapless and stopped at the knees. It had a white lace bodice and she was wearing black low top converse to complete the look.
"I say you look fine. This party really isn't anything that fancy, but we still want everyone dressed up." Sam explained. I raised my eyebrow.
"We?" I asked, feeling suddenly nervous. "Jazz, Tucker, and I." Sam lied. I sighed, wrapping my arms around her waist. "When will you stop lying to me?" I asked, sadly. She sighed. "When I can tell you the truth without your life being in danger." She said, pecking my lips.
"So what is this party anyway?" I asked when Sam and I were on our way. Sam was driving her black BMW to the party so I didn't have to drive. "It's like a school dance, since ours got cancelled because someone keeps crashing into the school building and delaying repairs." Sam teased. I laughed, laying my hand on her thigh, smiling when she smiled at me.
"…So, are we a couple? Or am I overreading this?" I asked shyly. She laughed. "We can be a couple if you want to be. I know that you and Cameron just got done with whatever you guys had."
"Sam I knew her for three days." I deadpanned. Sam shrugged. "You knew Stella two hours before you kissed her."
"Nu uh! It was longer than two hours because we got high in the park—"
"What?!" Sam demanded, turning her head sharply in my direction as we approached a red light.
"I mean….nothing." I smiled sheepishly.
"That's how you guys met? Getting high in the park?" Sam snorted. I nodded. "Well…Frank invited me and told me Stella would be there. It wasn't really my intention to get high."
Sam gave me a look. "I promise!" I said, raising my hands. Sam sighed. "Whatever," She laughed, "We are here, good sir."
The park was decorated in bright lights and people were everywhere. Fairy lights hung from the tree tops, and there was a dance floor with tables surrounding it.
I gaped in awe and smiled. "Woah…is this prom? I feel like this is prom." I squeaked. "Yeah, it is. Daniel Fenton, welcome to your Junior prom!" Sam said, getting out of her car. I followed quickly, grabbing her hand and letting her guide me through the crowd. She spotted Tucker and Valerie sitting at a table together, and quickly made our way over to them.
"Hey guys!" Sam greeted. Tucker winked at me and I just blushed. "You could've told me Prom was tonight…" I grumbled. "I probably would've dressed nicer."
"Danny, you already looked wicked handsome so shut up." Sam said, bopping me on the nose. Valerie pointed at us. "When did that happen?" She asked.
"They fucked this afternoon." Tucker said, taking a sip from his drink. I coughed and stood up quickly. "Okay, Sam, we are dancing away from Tucker." I screeched, pulling Sam away from the table.
When I was younger I saw,
My daddy cry
And curse at the wind.
I grabbed Sam and pulled her close, letting her rest her head on my shoulder. She sighed happily.
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore
That she would
Never let herself forget
"And that was the day that I promised, I'd never sing of love if it does not exist." I sang into Sam's here, who gasped, but I felt her lips twitch into a smile.
"Darling, you are the only exception, you are the only exception." She sang back. I laughed and pressed my lips to hers, swaying back and forth softly.
You are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing.