Rose stretched in the single bed the TARDIS had created for her just for the night. The doctor skipped in and clapped his palms together with a grin, "morning" Rose yawned as she sat up. "Morning to you too" the doctor replied. "Why are you so cheery?" Rose raised an eye brow, "you get to design you room today!" The doctor exclaimed, "I didn't get to do that before" Rose pursed her lips, "yes, but that was years ago!-new TARDIS-new rules and new ideas!" The doctor clapped his hands again and spun around "c'mon!" The doctor exited the small guest room the TARDIS had provided.
Rose rolled her eyes in a good manner and dragged herself out of the bed, she was still wearing the black dress she arrived in and the trench coat was hanging on the post of the bed with the bow tie and fez hanging at the top and the "sand shoes" as the new doctor like to call them, were set at the foot of the bed. Rose grabbed the trench coat and rolled it on over her shoulders and rushed out the door to catch up with the doctor.
Rose's bare feet smacked against the metal floor as she neared closer to the doctor and finally slowed to walk at a similar speed next to him. "You made it" he looked down at her holding his hands together, Rose just laughed and followed him towards another hallway, where they met up with Amy and Rory. "Hello, Amy! Rory!" The doctor shouted lifting his hands in the air running towards them, "hello doctor" Amy and Rory said together. "So Rose, you ready to design a room-with your mind?" The doctor looked at her grinning madly, "wait-she gets to design her room but we don't" Rory made a face, "yea!" Amy complained, "you have no sense in style" the doctor held his nose up. Amy glared "and she does?" Amy pointed to Rose, "yes-yes she does" the doctor smiled. "You just think she does cause you saw her in your bow tie and fez" Amy accused the doctor "no!" The doctors cheeks turned a brilliant shade of red, "looks like I'm not the only tomato here" Rory snickered. "Oh-whatever, come on Rose. let's go create a room" the doctor reached for Rose's hand and pulled her past Amy and Rory stomping away from the married couple who couldn't stop laughing at his reaction.
"You okay" Rose giggled "yes" the doctor answered bluntly, "you sure?" Rose grinned, "Yes" the doctor sighed "uh-huh" Rose rolled her eyes and followed the doctor to a second hallway. They made their way to a TARDIS Blue door, with what Rose assumed was gallifreyan writing on it, and the doctor pulled a key out shoving it into the key hole. "Who's room is this?" Rose questioned the doctor, "mine" the doctor responded focusing his stare on the key in the lock, he rarely entered this room, but it also contained a few personal things from the past, there were painful memories as well as good but the doctor still couldn't bring himself to stay in his own room very long. As the pair entered the room, Rose noticed that everything seemed to be TARDIS blue, silver and gold, Rose scanned every shelf and what she found on them were all similar in a way. There were pictures of old companions and what she assumed were items that had probably once belonged to them.
Rose walked forwards towards a book shelf and turned one of the picture frames towards her, it was a picture of Amy, Rory, a curly haired women, and the new doctor all standing next to each other with their arms laid over each other's shoulders. "Doctor" Rose looked up to find the doctor was standing over a table next to his bed, when she got no answer she called his name again "doctor" she turned away from the picture and slowly padded towards him.
The doctor lowered to his knees staring at the picture of his past regeneration next to the blonde girl. He relaxed his legs as he slumped down, he would Never see her the same, she was no longer his pink and yellow human, his eyes stung with tears, why? It was unfair, to her. He could be happy, no longer the last of his kind, but he would still live with the burden of killing everyone he once cared about. He would be guilty of letting Rose become something more than human, and he couldn't reverse it. His fingers trembled as he reached to touch the cold metal of the frame and drag it towards himself; he rubbed his finger over the image and pushed it into his chest trying to fight back tears. How often did he cry like this? He hadn't felt like this since... Since the day he lost her, it almost felt as if he was losing her all over again, she was different, she was aged and had seen things, and she was more experienced with more knowledge. "Doctor" her soft voice spoke, "yes" he managed to get out, "what's wrong?" She asked as she pressed a hand to his shoulder, the doctor didn't answer as he bit his tongue, not sure how to reply.
"What's wrong" Rose asked again and leaned to see over his shoulder, she crouched down next to him and rubbed her thumb on his shoulder. She could just see the silver edge of the picture frame and looked up to the doctors eyes which were closed. Rose gently slid her finger between his chest and the frame; the doctor opened his eyes and watched her as she spoke "may I?" She glanced at the picture. The doctor loosened his grip and let her pull it away from him, Rose turned it around and gave a gentle smile as she realized who it was, her and the past doctor, she took her left thumb and felt the texture of the trench coat, she missed that doctor just as much as her first. She could feel a tear slip from her eye as she placed the picture back on the bed side table, she flinched a bit as the doctor wiped it away.
"I-" Rose tried to say something, "Rose" the doctor said her name so sadly,
"I should leave" Rose lowered her head and gripped the side of the trench coat. "No" the doctors voice was hard "please, no" the doctor begged. "But-" "but, nothing" the doctor interrupted her. Rose said nothing else as he stood up and she followed towards a long silver box almost the size of her. "What's this?" Rose looked up at the doctor in question, the doctor tapped the box four times and wiped the top of it as a screen turned on and showed an image of a blue almost glow like hand. "This is how you design your room" the doctor smiled tapping the "ROOM" option on the screen that had appeared, "did you make this?" Rose eyed him, the doctor grinned proudly in reply.
"Now you're just gonna place your hand on the screen that's appeared on the side of the box" the doctor explained and reached for Rose's hand, Rose pushed her hand to the screen before he could do it for her and the glow of the screen turned white instead of blue. "Okay, now you can close your eyes or keep them open and just imagine what you would like in your room, make sure to add every detail you want-like a clock to clothing and the design of your floor" the doctor reminded Rose "m'kay" Rose grinned and closed her eyes thinking of every detail to add to her new room.
Rose didn't know what had happened but the second she had finished and opened her eyes the doctor hand grabbed her hand and started dragging her down the hall yelling "Geronimo!" Rose stumbled a bit as the doctor stopped at a deep red coloured door with the words Bad Wolf spray painted at the top of it and a wilting white Rose that wrapped it's self around the door knob. The doctor stared at the door a bit surprised "you imagined this?" He cocked his neck to the right, Rose just nodded smiling at how the TARDIS had brought her idea to life in a matter of minutes. Rose grasped the door knob and slowly turned the handle, this was the beginning of something new she could walk in with her past attached to her or she could take that one step and forget everything and begin a new adventure with the new doctor and her new friends living a new life in the TARDIS. Rose knew though, no matter where she went, even after 85 Years, she would never forget the past, because that's what started it all.
The door pushed open with a click and Rose entered scanning the room, to check off everything she wanted, the bed spread was covered with black and white checkered squares like a chess board and the walls were TARDIS blue, and above the black bed frame where her head would lie, was a picture of a golden wolf howling time energy at a silver moon. Next to the bed was a black bedside table, on it was a red vase with fake Lilly's in it and a picture frame with an image of her and the past doctor. Rose grinned, everything she really wanted was in the room, out of the corner of her eye there was the door to her on suite, and next to it were to large French doors to a walk in closet. Rose ran around the room with excitement, making sure to check out the on suite and closet. The doctor stood examining the contents of the room and what Rose had created, it was almost dark in a way, morbid maybe, but she was happy he watched as the blonde laughed and smiled and threw herself on the bed like a toddler. He couldn't help but wonder as he watched what the past 85 years had been like for her, she was strong and tough on her own, but sometimes it seemed as if the smallest things would break her, just like the smallest things would break the doctor. He came back to reality to find Rose still in his old trench coat was spinning around the room and yelling "thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" His breathe hitched as she wrapped her arms around him and tightened her grip until he practically couldn't breathe. "Oh, I missed this!" Rose sighed calming down, the doctor fidgeted as he was losing breath, "Ro-" she held on to him, and not a second later his eyes were rolling to the back of his head and his legs became weak. He grabbed Roses arms and pulled her away at arm's length, Rose arched an eye brow "to tight" the doctor gasped "sorry..." Rose looked down sheepishly.
"What'd ya think?" Rose asked as she looked around her room again, "it's-interesting" the doctor tried to think of what to say "artistic" he added in, "as long as you like it, I love it" the doctor wolf grinned, "can we have chips" Rose asked out of the blue "that was what we had on our first date" the doctor replied" your married! He argued with himself, "off to the kitchen then" Rose turned around trying to get out of the situation, he's married! She scolded, but couldn't hold back a smile at his comment.
Rose skipped into the kitchen to find Amy and Rory were sitting chatting at the small café like table; Amy looked up and furrowed her brows "why are you so happy?" Amy questioned, "New room" Rose laughed as Amy rolled her eyes. "chips-chips, chips!" the doctor exclaimed running into the kitchen searching frantically in the fridge and the cupboards until he whipped around and panted "Amy, do we-have any, chips?" Amy stared at him, "since when, do you eat chips?" she remarked. "I eat them" Rose held her hand up and glanced at the doctor, "we don't have chips" Rory informed the group, "can't the TARDIS just whip some up?" Amy quizzed the doctor, "nope" both Rory and the doctor answered. "How about-" the doctor opened the freezer again "fish fingers and custard!" he suggested. "Fish fingers and what?" Rose looked at him with an almost horrified face "custard! C'mon you'll love it!" the doctor pulled the custard out of the fridge and began setting everything up, Rose just stood watching until it was ready.
"Viola!" the doctor announced the food was ready and brought a plate over to Rose, who was now sitting next to Amy, "this is going to be interesting Rose made a nervous laugh. "It's actually not half bad" Rory spoke up, "you've tried it?" Rose looked up from the plate "are you kidding, we have to try everything around here" Amy informed. He's different Rose
Reminded herself, the doctor walked over next to the table and watched "go on try it" the doctor whined, "okay, okay" Rose agreed and began to dip the breaded fish into the custard, she finally took a bite and stopped to think about it as she chewed and then swallowed. Everyone was starring at her waiting for her opinion on it, "it's not half bad" Rose smiled at the gangly man standing beside her, who returned a massive childish grin. "Told you" Rory nagged as Rose finished her food and put her dish in the sink.
Hours later after running off to walk on the moon, Rose was finally settled and comfortable in her bed after repeatedly assuring the doctor she didn't need water or an extra pillow and that she was fine. Rose rested her head against the red pillow and shut her eyes, he's not here, he's gone, he's only in your nightmares, he's not here, the Master, is, not, real. Rose thought to herself and slowed her breathing pace until her vision morphed into something different. She sat strapped to a chair in a mirrored room talking to herself about how the doctor will save her-he always does! But in truth he never comes, not in this nightmare, "hello" she questions the word, "hello!" she yells this time and the word echoes off the mirrors.
"Doctor!" she screams, an image appears on all the mirrors surrounding her and when he speaks all the voices seem to fill her head "you're the Bad Wolf! The moment, but I can feel-what-what else are you! Tell me!" he goes on and on until she can't take it "I don't know!" she cries "I don't know-I don't know!" he plays with the words "yes-you-do!" his voice hurts her ears and she grinds her teeth trying to fight tears. "Doctor!" she yells again, "oh shut it!-he's not coming!" he spits "yes he will!" Rose argues, "whatever, tell me-what. Are. You!" he demands "I don't know!" Rose repeats "yes you do!" they battle with each other, Rose and the man in the mirrors. "I'm a time lady-the big bad wolf-now who's scared of the big bad wolf!" Rose screams, gold floods the brown of her eyes and tears stain her cheeks as her arms rip out of the straps and she walks towards the mirror in front of her. The man cackles wickedly, "I'm not afraid", Rose ducks as the mirrors smash into bits, the chair disappears, and the room becomes completely white. The man walks out of thin air in front of her and she's sitting on her knees, "hello, Rose" he drags her name "stand up" he commands and she follows his order, "big-bad-wolf" he grins, Rose spits at him and he grabs her hair, "tell me-wolf, who am I?" he eyes her as she answers, "the master" she mutters, "and who am I to you" he smiles, "My master" Rose sinks to the ground lowering her head as a belt comes in to contact with her back and the name escapes her mouth "doctor!" she cries again and again, but he never comes.
The doctor fumbles with wires in the TARDIS console trying to fix some of the damage caused by Rose's entrance, pointing his screwdriver at a wire every so often and ripping out burnt wires. He hums to himself and finishes locking the compartment and wandering down the corridors of the TARDIS, he purposely passes Rory and Amy's room and continues to follow past his bedroom and towards Rose's room when he hears screaming. "Rose" her name jumps out of his mouth and he's bolting to the rescue, he throws the door open running over to the blonde who is hitting and rolling around on the bed tangled up in the sheets. "Rose!" he yells gripping her shoulders shaking her, he climbs up onto the bed shaking her harder "Rose!-it's just a dream!" he yells again and she finally calms down sobbing and shaking and rolls over to face him, he pulls her into a hug rocking her but she forces against him pushing him away "doctor?" she questions him, "yes-Rose it's me, it was only a dream" he pulls her in to hold her again, but she pushes again "why didn't you come?" she asks, but he doesn't know how to respond, "why didn't you come?" she says it harsher this time "what do you mean?" he knits his eye brows in confusion. "Why didn't you come!" she sobs throwing herself into the bed, the doctor reaches a hand towards her but she pulls herself off the bed, "what's wrong" he asks, "why" she sniffs, he gets off the bed and she starts to walk away towards the door, "why didn't you come!" she cries again, "Rose, tell me what did I do?" the doctor begs.
The doctor grabs for Rose's hand but then she begins to run to the door as he follows behind, "Rose!" he's getting frustrated now, "why! Why?, why didn't you c-come...you all-ways-come!" Rose sobs, pounding her fist against the door with each word well sliding down until she's sitting on the floor." Rose, what's wrong please tell me" The doctor pleaded, "why-why?, why?" Rose shakes her head pulling at her hair with her fingers. The doctor sits next to her and places a hand on her knee, "I don't know why I didn't come Rose, it was only a dream, I promise, I'm here now, and I'm not leaving you behind" he concludes. Rose looks at him, face wet with tears, The doctor pulls her against him letting her rest in his lap, all he wants is to hold her, your married! He tries to stop, but at the time, he could care less. He looks down to see Rose's gaze darting around his face watching him "I'm not leaving you behind" he repeats.
Rose watches him, not sure what to say anymore, just "why?" and then he promises he'll never leave her behind but she doesn't say anything and let's him hold her, all she wants is him, to hold her-no one else. He's here now; doesn't he know he's married? She asks herself but doesn't really acknowledge the fact and then he leans down and smiles softly at her, "Rose Tyler, I've missed you" he voices. Rose blinks letting more tears slide down her cheeks, She doesn't move or flinch as he does it she just closes her eyes and drifts away counting each kiss he plant's to each tear. His lips next to her cheek and then gone, one, two, three, she sighs. She wanted this. She needed this. Curse emotions
Authors note: Oh my! Thank you for all the follows and favourites! Please review too!, and sorry for my late night updates-that seems to be when I work best though. It's 4 AM for me right now XD, I loved writing this chapter it made me feel all good inside and what not I hope you enjoyed reading it~ thanks for following please review they are greatly appreciated!-Lex (I apologize in advanced for any spelling mistakes/errors , because no matter how many times I check I tend to miss a few ;(