A/N: Thanks for all the reviews… This chapter will be short…
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After speeding away from Casa Walsh Dylan decided to just drive around. He loved the freedom he felt driving his Porsche with the top down and right now he felt he needed the freedom. He had so much running through his mind he wasn't sure if his mind would ever be straight again.
His feelings and emotions were all over the place. He felt happiness, sadness, anger, love and hate all at once. He couldn't even tell where one ended and another began. He was that messed up. What he wanted more than anything was a drink but he gave that up years ago. He didn't want to turn into his father.
He drove up to the lookout that he hasn't been to in years because of the memories it brings him. He has always loved Brenda and he still loved her which is one of the reasons why he lashed out at her today. He was hurt and angry. As he leaned his head back onto his seat he closed his eyes and sighed. He couldn't remember a time in his life when he hasn't loved Brenda and now he may lose her without fully making her his. He didn't like the hurt that he felt with that thought.
He thought about what the girl said to him and his heart broke. He knew that the girl was telling him the truth. When he looked at her he could tell what features she had of Brenda and what features she had of him. He was just angry that Brenda had kept his daughter from him for so long. Though if he really wanted to analyze it he couldn't blame Brenda for it. He was the one who messed up ten years ago just like he once again messed up today.
He wanted nothing more than to drive back there and tell Brenda how he felt but he knew her well enough to know that she would be hurt right now and wouldn't listen to him. He knew her well enough to know that he had to give her a little time to get over the latest hurt he had inflicted on her. He just hoped that he had time to give her. He knew he had to think of some way to make Brenda realize that they belonged together and no longer apart.
He stayed sitting in his car overlooking the bluff as he thought about Brenda and thought about the daughter he now knew he had. He smiled as he thought about Brenda being pregnant. He wished that he would have seen her pregnant. He would bet anything that she looked beautiful pregnant. He vowed to himself right then and there as the sun set and he watched it that as soon as Brenda was better he would find a way to make his thoughts become a reality.