The doctor hit his head against the wall a couple times, Rose was still laying in his lap, you can't do this, you know you can't,-yea-but she's broken, I have to help-you can't just fix the broken, sometimes the broken...should stay broken-I have to try. The doctor fought with himself silently, Rose shifted and the doctor stroked her long blonde hair, time can be re-written, -don't, time can be re-written, -don't you dare, the doctor huffed, he only wanted one thing and he had it, just not the way he'd expected. What about River, River yes, you love her-but, but Rose-lonely and broken-and different and-and, she was first. The doctor looked down at a peacefully sleeping Rose, I have to help.-your lonely, you need to-no! No you don't! –You were born out of loneliness, what did you expect?, you have Amy and Rory and River to worry about-I HAVE TO HELP HER. The doctor grumbled, out of everyone he couldn't even manage to agree with himself. Rose rolled over letting her eyes flutter open, her mind immediately thought back to her nightmare and her lashing out, "morning" the doctor greeted her, "I'm sorry, about last night" Rose was quick to apologize, "it's fine, we'll talk about that later" The doctor replied., letting his head roll to the side and his gaze fall to the floor, "what's wrong?" Rose pulled herself up, thinking about how many time's she had asked that in the past three days, "it's nothing Rose" the doctor sighed, "it's me isn't it" Rose assumed, "it's nothing" the doctor repeated wishing he didn't and wouldn't have to explain things to her. Rose stayed quiet for a minute, "do you want me gone?" she questioned, the doctor turned his head to look at her, when he said nothing Rose's heart rate became faster. The doctor let his gaze wandered over her body, she was here-real, in his world-in his TARDIS, sitting next to him, his eye's met with hers and he noticed the quiver in her lip-of course he didn't want her gone, but what about the effect she would have, what about River? He couldn't simply tell River to leave, River deserved better than him though, and he was falling for someone else, the girl who had fixed him-saved him.
Rose turned away afraid the doctor might notice the sadness that was drowning her, does he really want me gone? She asked herself, they both sat in silence for awhile, as the day wasted by, Rose had finally gotten up and wandered away to her bath room. Why didn't you answer her? Because the answer doesn't just hurt her it hurts me! The doctor slammed his head against the door again, "stupid" he muttered. He grabbed the door knob and pulled his body up off the floor, and exited the room and shuffled down the hallway until Amy turned around a corner, "where were you?" Amy asked, the doctor didn't say anything in return just stalking off towards the console room "aye! Where were you?" Amy said again. "With Rose" The doctor yelled as he kept walking away, Amy chased after him "why?" she quizzed, "she had a nightmare" he explained "oh" Amy looked down, "nothing else?" she questioned him some more. The doctor thought back to last night, he had kissed her tears away gently, he didn't stop himself, he was too caught up with having her back and her being there so he could help her, he was trying to fix his broken Rose. "No" he said coldly and finally entered the console room, "I know,- who Rose is, to you doctor, I know who she is to you and what she is" Amy said sternly, the doctor said nothing as he began flipping levers and hitting buttons and typing in numbers for coordinates. "Just remember River" Amy tried to be gentle, "I know!" the doctor shot at her "I know-Amy, I do, and I'm trying" he was breaking and trying to hold himself together long enough, he had already said to much. "Pardon?" Amy raised her eyes brows, "I know" the doctor finished and the TARDIS engines started creating their whirring noise, "what aren't you telling me" Amy glared at him "nothing" the doctor responded heading towards the TARDIS doors.
"I'll be back, just, let Rose know...I'm sorry, that I didn't come" he directed Amy "wait-what?" Amy asked confused, "she'll get it!" the doctor responded as he ran out leaving Amy alone in the console room. Amy stood for awhile, confused, until she heard feet padding towards her from behind, she turned around to see Rose, "where did he go off to?" Rose eyed the TARDIS doors, "not sure, he just said to let you know, he's sorry he didn't come" Amy informed her. "Oh, well thanks" Rose looked down at her feet, Amy noticed that she was still wearing the same black dress she had arrived in, "why are you still in that dress" Amy rolled her eyes and grabbed Rose's hand, "come on, let's find you something descent, where's your room?" Amy babbled. "Down the hall on your left" Rose instructed and Amy began to pull her along down the hall until they stopped at the red door, "this yours?" Amy inquired, Rose nodded her head and Amy continued and entered Rose's room guiding herself and Rose towards the walk -in closet.
Amy shuffled through clothing, flipping items back and forth on their hangers and pulling dresses and tops down, well rummaging through drawers. Rose looked around, a shirt caught her attention, it was the union jack shirt she'd been wearing when she'd met captain Jack Harkness. Rose looked around some more and discovered one of her old hoodies, she hadn't thought of these, did the TARDIS keep her clothing? "okay here" Amy held up a few outfits she put together, the first was a red blouse and denim skirt, it looked kind of like the outfit Amy had on, Rose shook her head and Amy put the ensemble down revealing a new outfit. This time it was a purple dress with thick straps and a black velvet Design on the chest, "no" Rose said almost to quickly, Amy pouted and dropped the outfit revealing the last outfit she had created, it was a flowing TARDIS blue shirt, that had a red bowtie designed on it, with black high wasted shorts, and the yellow trainers Rose had found the other day. Rose grinned manically, "yes" she grinned and ripped it out of Amy's grasp to go put it on. Amy exited the closet well Rose left to try it on in the bathroom, sitting on Rose's bed Amy noticed a silver picture frame, as she walked closer she realized it was a picture of Rose and a man with wild hair in the same trench coat Rose had been wearing the past couple of days. Amy could see the soft wet spots on it, like someone had been crying over it, she didn't think much of it though and quickly placed it on the bed side table sitting herself on the bed waiting for Rose. Rose exited the bathroom twirling in circles letting the shirt flow around her, "what'd ya think?" Rose grinned a tongue tipped smile. "I like it" Amy responded, Rose ran over to the bed post and grabbed the trench coat that Amy hadn't noticed, Rose slid it on and put her hands on her waste, "now it's complete!" she laughed. "Why couldn't you have had fashion sense, your just like the doctor, I hope your next regeneration does" Amy threw herself against the bed making a face of disappointment. "Actually I do, I just choose to be myself" Rose told Amy, "And I don't regenerate, I'm a time lady mixed with TARDIS, basically My body heals it's self if I'm extremely injured or not, and so my looks don't change and nor does my personality" Rose explained. Amy looked at her with a brow raised, "you mean to say, your body doesn't change completely and your personality doesn't change either, so you'll always be Rose?" , "exactly" Rose gave a toothy grin in reply.
"I have to ask, but what's with you and the doctor, why was he in such a rush? And what did you talk about with him? Last night?" Amy probed Rose, Rose took a second and thought about her answer, "Nothing is with me and the doctor, he's married-to your daughter and you know that, and I'm not sure why he was in a rush, and we didn't talk about anything" Rose half lied. "You and him-you go back a long time yea?" Amy sat up hair splayed across her shoulders, "yea" Rose answered a bit suspicious, "so you had something once, didn't you?" Amy raised an eyebrow. "Yes, but that was a long time ago" Rose looked down, "how was the parallel world,what was it like?" Amy changed the topic, as she was beginning to understand the question was making Rose uncomfortable. "It was okay, for awhile, I worked to get back to the doctor but then he sent me away again, with a duplicate, I was going to explain about bad wolf and being a time lady but he left to fast, and I just had to forget him, it was hard and I dragged the duplicate down with me, it just wasn't the same, I didn't belong in that world..." Rose paused looking down, feeling the heart ache that was building inside of her. "I, I just ignored the fact that he left me, but I never truly could, I held the burden of being the same as him, he left giving me a human version of him, he thought he was giving the best he could, but in truth it wasn't even close, I could've stayed with him, and so I had to watch the human duplicate die for me, at the hands of the master and the Cybermen, he tried to save me, but he could only stop the Cybermen, and so...the master got to me." Rose blinked away tears forming in her eyes, "what-what happened?" Amy felt bad, but she was hungry to hear more, if anything it could help Rose to talk about it. "I was tortured...and-and..." Rose let out a small sigh trying to hold back a cry,- he never came" she finished, and then Amy understood what the doctor had meant, "have you spoke to the doctor about this?" Amy asked Rose in worry, "no-and I don't want to, not yet at least" Rose begged "please let me have some time" , "then why did he tell me to tell you he was sorry he didn't come?" Amy questioned Rose. "Because...last night I had a nightmare, and when he woke me, I freaked out, got upset and yelled at him, I kept asking why...why he never came, why he didn't come for me" Rose admitted, Amy wrapped her arms around Rose , who was a bit shocked at the gesture but returned it by hugging Amy back and trying not to cry."It's okay, your safe, on the TARDIS" Amy held Rose tighter, how could he do that, leave Rose behind?...would he do that to her? Amy thought to herself as the idea became more real in her head.
The doctor wandered through the streets of 2005 Cardiff, marching towards the Torchwood building he came across the buzz pad, pressed a few numbers and a shrill ringing sound began, "hello?" Jack's American accent rang through the speaker, "hello, Jack" the doctor spoke back, "who is this?" Jack asked cautious, "The doctor, new body" the doctor introduced himself in his new body, "technically I'm from the future...I just have a few things to ask Jack, possibly favors" The doctors face turned red at Jacks response, "does it involve you, me, and a bed?" Jack chuckled. "Stop it-I'm being serious, it's Rose, In the future I find her again, and there's a metacrisis thing and a duplicate is created of me, I send him away with Rose back to the parallel world she was trapped in and the walls closed again, but she returned Jack, her duplicate doctors dead, and-and she can't die either, she's been effected since the game station. I want to help, but I'm married, and ...I'm a new man yes, but, Jack..."
The doctor trailed off as a gate opened next to the speaker and Jack stepped out, "what Doctor, your a new man and what?" , "Jack...I-I...I'm still in love with Rose" The doctor informed Jack, "how far in the future are you from?" Jack quizzed the doctor, "years" the doctor replied not really sure how far, "you want to help Rose and –wait, you got married! Thought you didn't like domestics"?" Jack eyed the doctor, "yes well. Technically it wasn't real and it's hard to explain but Jack, I'm here because of Rose, she's been alone for 85 years, and she's broken but If I send her away...it might just break me, but she has you right?" the doctor looked down and then back up, "your different, you know that, but Rose fixed you, she's lonely doc, and it's up to you, you can fix her this time or send her away, it's your choice-no one else's" Jack explained and gave the doctor a quick squeeze, let me know what's going on when you know, I've gotta go look into some stuff" Jack told the doctor and left. The doctor stood in the windy noon for a few minutes it's up to you, it's your choice.
"I'm sorry" Rose sniffed smiling "everyone needs to cry once in awhile" Amy smiled back at Rose, "I can't imagine what you've been through, but please-for me Rose, tell the doctor. "Okay" Rose looked down, "promise" Amy waited for Rose to respond, "promise" Rose breathed and let Amy leave to go find her husband who now had the nickname "Tomato."
As Amy made her way down the hall she could see into the console room, her raggedy man was hunched over in the pilot seat, she made her way towards him and he lifted his head up at her arrival, Amy saw the tear streaks that stained his cheeks but she didn't want to ask. "You should talk to Rose" was all she said and as she was about to walk away he spoke up, "she might have to leave" , Amy turned around and said the one word coldly "why?" she spat. "You-It's, Amy..." he tried to explain but he didn't know how to, "doctor, what aren't you telling me? Why would she need to leave?" Amy walked closer to him and crouched down to his level, "I'm married..." was all he could say, "so...you...you still" Amy didn't want to say it, she understood but at the same time she didn't want to be mad or happy, Rose was wonderful but her daughter was to. "River doesn't deserve me, but I don't want to tell her that, but we both know, how I feel right now, and what if the only way to stop this is to leave Rose behind?" The doctor gave her a saddened look. Rose was tortured and sent away by the doctor, more than once, she had defended him and herself, and split worlds just to see him again, and she still had the courage and heart to forgive him, because she loved him. Amy knew it, she could see it the moment Rose said his name, the sadness and despair that had filled the blondes brown and gold specked eyes, the doctor could admit River deserved better than him and Amy applauded it, but in truth, it was Rose who deserved better then the man who was willing to send her away, maybe it was to save her once or twice, but he didn't give Rose the chance to explain things or show him that she loved him and didn't want to be left behind, but she lived with it. What the doctor really needed to say, was Rose deserved better than him, but Amy saw it, Rose loved him-no matter who he was, because she could accept change, and Rose was brave for that, because she didn't know who or what he would become it was like an illness and Rose wouldn't leave him because he got sick or changed, because she remembered him the same-always.
"You should go talk to her" Amy looked back towards the hallway that led to Rose's room and then to the doctor who was looking to the hallway as well, "please" Amy added and then the doctor got up and slowly, stalked towards the hallway, he would have to figure things out himself one way or another. As he approached Rose room he stopped and stared at the door, the Rose that wrapped around the handle had changed from white to red, he gripped the knob but then rapped at the door instead and heard her sad voice "yes..." she sighed, "may I come in" he asked, "I guess" Rose allowed him in. He entered the room and saw she was laying on the bed in bright yellow sand shoes and the trench coat along with a TARDIS blue shirt that had a red bow tie designed on it. "Your dream last night, Rose what happened?" was he first thing he asked and Rose explained, everything to the last detail, to screaming and crying his name and he broke. More than he had ever been broken, "I'm the bad wolf-" Rose sobbed "I can see everything, " she paused "all that is, all, all that was...and-and" she cried into his chest, I need a doctor" she lifted her head up her face wet with tears and eyes sparkling gold. The doctor spoke "you have one, and this time I'm not sending you away my wolf" she smiled sadly and his lips found hers they pressed together, it wasn't a dream or something that turned into a nightmare, after calling for years she found him again, and he wasn't sending her away and she wasn't losing him, they fell against the mattress tangled in each other's limbs, not letting go. They were falling for each other all over ,the wolf and the doctor.
Authors note: yay! finally some moe 11/Rose love, I would really appreciate if you guys could take the time o reveiw-Please, :)and I hope you enjoyed it, even thought I may, or may have not started crying well writing, and maybe you guys could leave some suggestions on what you think might happen next? , hope you having a good day. QOTD: do you have a cat or a dog, or any animal, if not do you want one ~Lex (sorry for any errors or spelling mistakes, but I'm pretty, sure I've got them all)