I give myself another look in the mirror it's 6:55 and Sean sent me a text message saying he would be here to pick me up at 7:00. I can't believe I'm this nervous over having dinner with a friend and colleague, sure we used to be a couple and I still have unresolved feelings for him but this shouldn't be this big of a deal right? It's not like it's a date. Unfortunately for me things aren't always as they should be which is why I'm a nervous wreck pacing around my living room waiting for my ex-boyfriend that I can't shake to pick me up. I check the clock for probably the millionth time seeing it's now 6:59 I watch the clock turn to 7:00 and as If cue I see headlight pull into my driveway. I fluff my hair and adjust my clothes before heading out the door.
"Hey em" Sean greets me as I open the passenger side door getting into his red Dodge Charger he's obsessed with this thing. I can't help but take notice of how good he looks tonight but then again I always think he's the most attractive guy I've ever laid eyes on.
"Hey back" I smile taking a seat.
"You look beautiful as always" He compliments making my heart flutter.
"You don't look so bad yourself." I reply flirtatiously. He smiles at me before putting the car in drive and spending down the road.
"You know I'm pretty sure there is a speed limit for a reason." I scold him on his driving. He's racing down the road like he thinks he's in NASCAR.
"You should know I could never completely be tamed." Sean chuckles teasing lean I can't help but laugh to he has a way of making me let loose.
"Is that so I'm sure my dad would love to hear all about his School's couch being so reckless." I say jokingly
"You wouldn't dare miss Nelson" He replies with a smirk playing on his lips though he's trying to keep a serious face.
"and why is that?" I ask tilting my head to the side.
"because you love working with me." He answers grinning, I laugh shyly but don't reply because I don't want to admit he's right.
We arrive at the restaurant shortly after the rest of the ride was quiet but enjoyable. I'm a little shocked he picked something so upscale it's not his typical style. He could probably win the lottery and still chose to eat at McDonald's. I love that about him he doesn't look material things well other than his car that's a different story.
"Why didn't you tell me we were coming somewhere like this?" I ask looking around at the beautiful dimly lit dining area.
"Well that would ruin the surprise, wouldn't it? He ask rhetorically giving me a look that says it should have been obvious.
I roll my eyes at him, then the waitress comes out showing us to our table. I notice a candle in middle as romantic as it would be if this were a date the logical side of me can't help but think it's a serious fire hazard. We make small talk over the huge variety on their menu while deciding what we're going to have. It doesn't take long to decide, once the waitresses comes back taking our order and bringing us our drinks I can't help but bring up the couple I met today. I fill Sean in on everything I had witnessed and to my shock he knows the boy.
"Eli Goldsworthy? Short, black hair?" He asks trying to make sure we're talking a lot the same boy.
"Yes that sounds like the same boy" I respond waiting to see what he has to say about him.
"He's a good kid but sometimes he can be a little out there, he has bipolar disorder from what I know it was worse last year but sometimes he has his moments." Sean fills me in. Now he behavior earlier makes more sense.
"I want to help them but don't want to push her" I sigh thinking about Clare who looked so lost.
"She's a smart girl I'm sure she'll come to you if she needs help. They kind of remind me of us when we were in highschool not as teacher's that is." He laughs having the same thoughts I did earlier.
"I thought the same thing, I hope it turns out differently for them." I say sadly.
"What happened to us?" Sean asks in a serious tone catching me off guard.
"life, being young stupid and in love." I answered his question looking down playing with my glass.
Our waitress appears bringing us our food I don't know if I'm happy or upset our conversation was interrupted. We spend the rest of dinner avoiding the topic or anything serious altogether but we had a good time, we always have a good time. I don't regret the relationship we had when we were younger but sometimes I wish we had waited until we mature then maybe things would have worked out.
We spend the car ride back to my house reminiscing on old times and talking about how crazy it is that Jay and Manny are getting married. I won't say it out loud but I'm jealous I always thought it'd be me and Sean not Manny and Jay but the world works in mysterious ways. We pull back up to my house and Sean gets out coming over and opening my door for me. I get out and we silently walk to my front door. Know we reach it I turn to look at Sean.
"Well goodnight" I say quietly biting my lip.
"Goodnight" He responds rubbing the back of his neck as if he's in thought over something.
I smile at him then he starts his walk back to his car. I turn back around rummaging through my purse to find my key knee I find it I push it in the hole twisting it to unlock my door just as I turn the knob to open it I hear Sean yell.
"Emma wait!" I turn around before my eyes have time to focus I feel his warm lips pressed against mine sending chills through my body.
"wha-what was the for?" I stutter in shock as he pulls away.
"I love you Emma I always have" He answers pressing his lips against mine again more heatedly this time I kiss him back with just as much heat pulling him inside my house.