A/N: So I had this chapter wrote out and then I lost my notebook… So I'm going to do a short chapter with how Brenda feels since she knows that Kelly told the gang about her health problems and about how she feels about seeing Dylan again… I'm sorry for the delay in posting the chapter…
Disclaimer: I don't own BH 90210!
Brenda woke back up about thirty minutes after she fell back asleep. She laid still though with her eyes closed so that Brandon and Kelly would think that she was still asleep if they were to check on her. She needed time to think and this was the best time to do it.
She knew that within a couple hours Donna, David, Steve, his wife, and Dylan would all be here. She knew that it was going to be good seeing everyone again. She was worried about seeing Dylan though. She knew that as soon as he looked at Brent and Brandon that he would be able to tell that he was their father.
She wanted so much to be able to just throw herself into Dylan's arms when she sees him later but she knows that she can't do that. No matter how much she wants him by her side he wasn't hers and she wouldn't let him get back with her out of pity. She had no doubt that he was blaming himself for something that is out of everyone's control. She knew Dylan as well as she knew herself if not better even though it has been a three and a half years since she has seen him.
She smiled slightly as she thought about Dylan. She has always loved him and she had no doubt that she would always love him. To her it felt as if she was born just to love him. She wondered how he was going to take seeing her for the first time in three years, six months, sixteen days, seven hours and twenty two minutes. Yes she knew how long they had been apart down to the minute. She chuckled lightly as she thought about how pathetic she sounded even to herself.