hey guys hope you like this chapter . i hope this story isn't going to slow for you'll if you want me to fasten the pace then i definitely will .

i took a really long time to write this chapter and I'm sorry for that my pace will definitely be more persistent . I'll post the next chapter tomorrow.

I fucking hated hospitals.

they were filled with despair and death something that always seemed to hunt my life .

running down the halls trying to find the door that belonged to bella,i found myself longing to disappear away from this sickly hospital that seemed to taunt every one in here . passing the faces of broken mothers and widowed wifes

i sighed in relief when the nurse directed me to the room for patience with minor bruises and cuts .

i stopped in my tracks as i watch Edward converse with Rosalie and a man that looked and his early thirties. it was then that i realized i was looking at Carlisle Cullen there adoptive father i had the pleasure of meeting him once when the bear attack occurred .

the man had soft feature with almost platinum blonde hair . his eyes were that silky gold color that all the Cullen's seemed to have the pleasure of having even with out the ability to inherit any type of genes from each other.

"Edward"

i announced my presence with that single statement "can i talk to you".

Rosalie turned giving me a look of annoyance "why aki , a pleasure to see you again" voiced to me "I'm glad to see your doing much better " i smiled giving him gratitude for helping me previously .

i turn staring into Edwards eyes my hearts leaps as i stare at him for a moment willing myself to look away but alas i was stuck in a swirl pool that was Edwards eyes, why did he have this hold me .

"what is it you wanted to talk to me about"

i blinked it was then that i realized we were now alone .

"how did you do it ".

his eyes squinted twisting into a small glare .

"what do you mean" he questioned feigning innocence . he was hiding something ,something big something that could ruin his families life if they were found out .

something that should be best kept a secret .

"thank you"

i slightly bow to him" if you weren't there to protect Bella she would have been dead ,and for that I'm am grateful". I turn to walk away but he quickly grabs my hands twirling me around once again .

my heart has quickly started to race as i am once again stuck In a penetrating stare off with Edward Cullen .

he smirks at me then ubruptly walks away .i quirk my eyebrow at his odd behavior .

i touch my wrist and shudder at the coldness of his skin . what was happening to me ?

i was never one to be a blushing girl . i was a coldhearted bitch yet with just one stare he had me questioning who i really was .

that night i lay awake thinking about Edward ,he was filled with mystery in all honesty his whole family was .

i turn facing Bella who decided to sleep with me today .

i softly run my fingers through her hair . her eyebrows squint together a little then she relaxes into exquisite harmony . i softly get off the bed approaching my mirror looking into it i stare at my eyes that have hardened over the years and sigh why did i go down this path .

self hatred was such an ugly thing . i close my eyes to inhale ,exhale, inhale exhale . i look in the mirror once again but the appearance wasn't of me

I now stare at the native American man who seemed to hunt my dreams . i watched frozen in my spot as he mouthed words that I could not hear .

"what do you want" i whisper he's now screaming at me yet it was as if his voice was muted he seemed almost aggravated now as he slowly mouthed the words to me .

"the pale one "

i whisper ,the Cullen's quickly flash into my head .i turn to see Bella tossing and turning i look at the mirror once more to see that the man was no longer there .

i look at my sweating shaking hands and realize that one feeling was going through me, fear.

SCHOOL

Field trip were suppose to be fun full of joy and happiness ,well if sitting next to Eric and his mouth the whole ride to some plant farm was called fun then shit I'm never going on a field trip again .

I stare at him as he speaks quickly looking quite animated as he moves his hands around I find myself wondering how he is able to talk for so long without gasping for air.

I quickly get out of my seat as the bus come to a complete stop .3

I roll my eyes at the fact that Eric was now following me to the teacher stopping in my tracks I turn to him looking him in his eyes he stop his cheeks becoming a auburn color at my intense stare "shut up " I voice out to him walking away going to find Bella .

Entering the greenhouse i was hit with beauty of it all. their were all types of plants filling the room . colors sprayed everywhere .

i was never one to see beauty in plants that weren't ganja and i smiled at the new thing that i found out about myself .

it was then that i felt a figure next to me .

"it's beautiful " i whispered almost to myself "yea it is" Edwards deep melancholy voiced whispered in my ear i turned realizing how close we were .

he was staring intensely at me and of course me loving a challenge i stared just as intensely . his eyes were now looking down lingering on my lips ."E-Edward" a familiar voice broke out behind me . i turned watching Bella blushed face look down .

"could i talk to you" she whispered . i stared at her silently questioning her , she ignored my stares as they walked away Edward giving me one last glance .

my moments with Edward Cullen were just filled with stares .

i sit next to bella one the ride back i roll my eyes as i stare at her pouted lips indicating that she was defintaly upset.

i smirk taking something out my pocket that would instantly change he rmood .

a blunt

quickly i slashed her the perfectly rolled blunt her eyes widenedand i small smile was replaced on her face . she looked at me and layed on my shoulder the rest of the ride back .

we were now in the woods hitting the blunt . bella stared at me at me for awhile i scrunched my eyebrows out giving her a "what bitch" face .

she smiled then went into a full on laughing mode . "don't give me that look" she commanded it was when i gave her the same look that she smooshed my face causing me to fall back dropping the blunt . quickly i scrambled up picking the ganja up "your gonna cause a forest fire " i roughly spoke which just caused her to laugh more . "dick" i whispered to myself .

"you and Edward talk a lot huh"

i stop my mumbles of evil sister and looked at her face that was void of any humor .

"not really" i answered "why".

she blushed slightly "no reason" . Bella was very easy to read actually most females were . the reason she asked was to see if she had any worthy competition ofcourse most females had a undying crush on the emo-ness that was Edward yet none have even had a conversation with him except me .

"you like him" i dead pinned . she looked at me wanting to deny it but yet no words came out . just a slight nod .

"he's different and so very mysterious " she whispered softly . "he slightly scares me , like i shouldn't talk to him yet i ant help but do the exact opposite of what my mind is telling me not to do."

i grimace at this my heart clenched a little at the confession. Bella has been through a lot especially due to me .

it was then that i realized that whatever pull Edward had on me had to stop .

"you seem to have a really big crush" i smile hoping it looks like a real one.

she hugs me snatching the burning blunt from my hands .

hope you like the chapter sorry if it's super short the next chapter will be twice as long if you guys like it don't be afraid to tell me . my next chapter will have more of the pack in it and it will show how Bella interacts with them .

SNEAK PEAK : I smile as we dance around bare foot our feet digging in the ground i stare at Seth and i can't help the feeling of wanting to dominate this boy . i throw my hips in a circular motion slowly lifting my hips up and down as if to put him in a trance . i stare down at the line of girls who seemed to be sensuously rolling there hips up and down . i smirk at the dazed happy looks of the girls who were high on narcotics .

i glance at Bella who seemed to stare into Jacobs eyes and him he r. he slowly gets up and direct her to these rocks . she willingly follows , i sigh at Bella oblivious antics and Jacob hopeful glances .

thank you to the people who are enjoying the story and the ones who are giving me knowledge about writing .

R&R