noaai: "Hi! I would like a prompt about April and Jackson finding out Meredith came back again to Seattle with a new baby. It kind of shakes them but they at first hide it at the hospital. Later at home, when it's just the 2 of them they can't help to comment it. They speak so little about Samuel... I would like to see them talking about him, what did they expected from parenthood and obviosly what kind of do expect about this in the future. Thank you in advance!"

I changed this idea slightly but I love the idea…hope you like this. It might be a quick one.

100 Encore, Day 39: "Someday, Maybe"

The door slammed, making Jackson jump and look away from the game. April stormed to the couch, flopping down. "What today?" He had returned his attention back to the game and didn't look up again. She didn't kiss him.

"Oh the baby kept her up aaaaalllllll night last night, she just couldn't get annny sleep at all. It was oh so difficult for her to do even the most simple thing today….like check a patient's chart for allergies. But I don't have a baby. I remembered to check, saved the patient from an allergic reaction to penicillin. 'Oh April, thanks so much, nice catch…sorry. I'm just soooo exhausted.' You're welcome Dr. Grey…for doing the most simple part of your job…I mean if she's not ready to work why did she even come back? I would kill for a baby and…."

"Oh I…" She stopped herself. This was the first time they'd ventured around a topic close to Samuel since she came home two weeks ago. In fact they hadn't talked about much at all.

"April, her husband is dead." He squeezed her hand, cautious. This was a very random time for whatever conversation this would turn out to be.

"I know, I just…I didn't come back to work until I thought I was ready."

Jackson shrugged. "Then you ran away too, so…"

April looked away from him. "I came back for you, though," she whispered.

"Did you come back for you?"

She turned to look at him again. "Yes…yes, I promise." She reached for his hand and he gave it to her. They'd kissed since she got back, had sex. But this was the most intimate moment they'd had, and they both knew it. They looked down at their intertwined hands and smiled.

"So you want to be here?"

"Yes!"

"It just, doesn't seem like it lately."

"Because work is torture lately…'How's Ellis Meredith?' 'She's beautiful, tell us everything about her.' It's all anyone talks about. Because they're scared to ask about her. That's why people tiptoe around us, barely ask questions. With Meredith, Ellis is a distraction. Doesn't it bother you?"

"Kind of, yeah. I mean…They do talk about the kid a lot. And I wish I could ask them to shut up. I miss him."

"Me too." April whispered and looked down, but kept hold of his hand. "She got a baby…twice….we lost one, twice…Sort of…" She bit her lip.

"Hey, hey….that's not fair. Be fair to yourself. You weren't pregnant the fist time. And we weren't ready."

"But we were ready for Samuel."

"We were."

"It's just…frustrating. I get that loss is hard. I get that having a kid is hard. But I would give anything to have my son and…well, I wouldn't want you dead but…"

"Thanks…"

"Even if she was still in so much pain. I just wish she smiled sometimes when she talked about that baby…She answers questions but…that's really it. After her deepest pain God brought her the greatest joy. After our greatest pain came…"

"A fight. But I'm in it with you, until we win, OK?"

"Ok..yeah…Me too. With you…"

He squeezed her hand again. "And someday, maybe we'll…"

She cut him off, not ready to think that far ahead. They were still fighting for their marriage. She couldn't think about having another child right now. "Yeah. Someday…Maybe…"