He had found Haruka. Makoto and Haruka had been reunited in an unlikely place. At first Makoto just accepted it, relishing in the fact that they were together again. However, two days later, the reality of it hit him. He felt really happy and giddy. So happy that he actually thought about grabbing Haruka's hand right there in the breakfast line, even though he knew that probably wouldn't go over too well for them.
The whole red lines thing still really bothered Makoto and he had to hold himself back each time he saw them. He wanted to know why Haruka would do that to himself and starve himself like that as well. The thought alone was enough to make Makoto feel sick. He hoped that Haruka would be able to open up to him about it soon so that he could help. He couldn't bear to think that the one he loves-
"Tachibana-kun? Are you listening to me?" A voice interrupted Makoto's thoughts.
Oh. Right. Makoto was in the middle of a therapy session.
"I'm sorry, what were you saying?" Makoto asked, snapping fully out of his trance.
"I said 'hello. It's nice to meet you. I'm Miho Amakata and I will be your therapist during your stay here.' " The lady, 'Amakata', repeated, writing something down on the clipboard that she had. She crossed her legs, her ankles peeking out from beneath her pastel pink pants. "I was wondering how you are feeling today?"
"Okay, I guess." Makoto replied honestly, blushing a little and looking down at the ground.
"Oh? And why is that?" She giggled.
"Nothing much."
"It seemed to me like you're a little too happy for it to be 'nothing much'. Why don't you tell me what's making you happy, Tachibana-kun?"
Makoto thought for a moment. "I'm just happy to be here. Well, not like here, here… I would much rather be someplace other than here, but… At the same time, I'm glad I'm here."
She paused, "Okay, what makes you glad that you're here?"
"Uhm… Well…" I found the love of my life. My the one after searching for him for a whole year. He thought.
"Go on. You can tell me. Everything that is said here stays between us, okay? You don't have to worry about that."
Makoto still hesitated. "I… Lost someone. About a year ago. But here, I found him again."
"Congratulations!" Amakata said, giving him a warm smile that showed off her dimples. She moved some of her hair behind her ear. "So why is it that you want to be somewhere else, Tachibana-kun?"
"Isn't it obvious?" Makoto scoffed, "I don't belong here! I'm not crazy and I'm not suicidal at all! There's just no reason for it."
She frowned, "You jumped off a bridge, Tachibana-kun."
"That doesn't mean anything."
"Obviously it means something to someone, or else you wouldn't be here."
"Well, that person isn't me."
"Then who is it?"
"... Probably my friends."
"Your friends? Why? Why do you think they would take immediate action like this and have you sent here?"
Makoto sighed, "They're been really worried about me lately, I guess."
"Why do you think they're worried about you?"
"I don't know. It doesn't really make sense to me."
"Okay." She said, then taking a minute to write something more down. "So why don't you tell me about your friends, Tachibana-kun? What are they like?"
"Well… Nagisa and Rei have been together for a while. They're like me an Haruka, but luckier, evidently. Nagisa acts kind of child-like most of the time, and has looks to fit the part, so if you don't really know him well, it can be kind of surprising to hear something so… Adult-like come from him. Rei always gets easily flustered by this, but Nagisa always outwardly flirts with him anyway. It's usually pretty amusing for me. Unless Rei doesn't care for whatever it was. Then he'll go on and on about how not beautiful it was."
"I take it the three of you get along well?"
"Huh? Yeah, of course we do. Nagisa and I have been friends ever since we were little and Rei we met a few years ago, too."
"Alright. What about that other person you mentioned? Haruka, was it?"
"Haruka? He's here, in this hospital!"
"Really? Is he the one that you met last year?"
"Yeah."
"Okay, so tell me a little about him. How did you meet?"
"I was on a train to go see my Aunt. We sat next to each other."
"But what happened? If you really like each other, why didn't you try to get in touch?"
Makoto stopped. He didn't want to remember that that accident even happened, let alone talk about it. It was a better topic, now that he had found Haruka again, but that didn't make the images that had been burned into his memory any easier to remember. The bloody hand of the person in the seat next to them, the wretched smell that could make him vomit just by thinking about it, the sticky wetness of the pool of blood, and worst of all, the look in Haruka's eyes as if he were dead.
The event made him realize how quickly things could turn for the worst in the world. One moment he was lovingly gazing into Haruka's beautiful eyes, the next they are on the brink of death.
A few days ago was like that as well. One minute he was simply talking with his two best friends and then the next he is waking up in a hospital because he literally jumped off of a bridge.
"Tachibana-kun?" Amakata interrupted his thought. "Are you feeling okay?"
"I'm sorry." was all Makoto replied with.
"What happened?"
"It's nothing. I just space out a lot, I guess."
"If you say so… But you didn't answer my question. What happened on the train to keep you and Haruka-kun from seeing each other?"
"... I don't really want to talk about it…"
"Fine. How about this one, then. Has he changed from what you remember?"
"Yeah, but I think it's from the memory loss. He doesn't really remember much more than from when he woke up here a week ago."
"Hm. Doesn't your roommate have amnesia as well?"
"Well, yeah, of course. They are the same person after all."
"Do you mean as in split personalities?"
"No. Haruka is Haruka and no one else."
She rapidly scribbled something down on her clipboard. "I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but your roommate's name is Haruna Manami. He isn't Haruka."
Makoto glared at at the woman. How dare she insinuate that he wasn't Haruka! Especially after Makoto had just told her how much Haruka meant to him!
"Can I… go? Please?" Makoto asked, letting his irritation seep into his voice.
She glanced up at the clock on the wall. "We still have about half an hour." They stared at each other, Makoto still glaring. She sighed, "Tell me how you feel right now."
"I'm irritated." Makoto simply replied.
"And why are you irritated?"
"Because. Everyone seems set on pulling me away from Haruka, even you now."
She looked confused, shocked almost, "Tachibana-kun, that is not what I am here for. All I want to do is help you, I promise you that. It's just not healthy for you to-"
"How is it now? That is definitely Haruka out there!"
She closed her eyes for a moment. "Why don't we bring him in here for a moment and see what he has to say on the matter. Is that okay?"
"... Fine." Makoto huffed. He already knew how Haruka felt about this, as he had said so in their very first conversation since a year ago.
Amakata wrote something more on her clipboard, then left the room, telling Makoto to wait there.
At the beginning of the session Makoto didn't mind talking to this Amakata. Now he realized that she was basically like everyone else. No, in fact, she was worse than everyone else. It was one thing to say he was gone when there was no physical evidence of him being there, but to say that when he was right there was a load of bullshit. And the more Makoto thought about it, the more it pissed him off.
He heard the door open and in walked Amakata, Haruka right behind her. She took her seat while Haruka sat down on the sofa next to Makoto. He gave Makoto a worried uneasy look, so Makoto smiled at him reassuringly. Amakata sat in her chair with her little pen and clipboard. She stared at the two for a moment, maybe expecting one of them to say something first. However, Makoto wasn't paying much attention to her and Haruka was probably waiting for an explanation as to why he was brought in in the first place.
She sighed and addressed Haruka, "Your name is Haruna Manami, correct?" It isn't. Makoto mentally answered, holding back a glare.
Haruka shrugged, "Maybe."
"But Tachibana-kun seems to think otherwise. What do you have to say about that?"
Haruka gave Makoto a sideways glance before looking back at Amakata. "I don't know." he replied with another shrug, "I don't remember."
She scribbled something down, then stopped to think for a moment. "How long have you two known each other?"
"We met last year." Makoto cut in, "I told you that already."
"You did, but I need to hear Haruna's side already." Makoto's lip twitched. He really wished she would stop calling him that, already!
"I don't remember." Haruka replied again.
"What do you remember?"
"Nothing past a week ago."
"Okay. And how does all this make you feel?"
He thought for a moment. "I want to believe him."
She froze for a moment, seeming almost surprised that he would rather believe someone who knows him more than other people who don't know him. She wrote something down, much slower than before, then looked up at Makoto. "Thank you for seeing me, Tachibana-kun." She said, "However I would like to speak to Manami-kun alone, if that it alright with you."
Makoto looked at Haruka to see if he was against it or not, kind of hoping that he would be, but saw nothing change in his expression. Makoto nodded, then stood up to leave.
"I'll see you later this week, Tachibana-kun."
"Okay." Makoto grumbled on his way out.
He held himself back from slamming the door closed behind him. When the session first started, Makoto didn't mind talking to that Amakata, but after… He felt like she was just like everyone else, trying to split him and Haruka apart for whatever reason. How dare she insinuate that he was lying to Haruka! In fact, that's probably what she wanted to talk to him about in private. How dare she! It's not like they were causing anyone harm by being together! (Well, except for that train attendant, but all things considered, Makoto didn't feel that bad about it, since he had been with Haruka until now. It was only fair that he was Makoto's now.)
Suddenly Makoto bumped into someone. He gla- looked down and saw a head of gray hair, belonging to a boy who looked to be about his age, or maybe a year or so younger.
"U-uhm, excuse me." The boy said in an almost girlish voice.
"It's fine." Makoto replied. "Hey, are you okay?" The boy's eyes were wide and seemed to dart around a lot.
"I'm okay." The boy replied, "B-but you should t-t-try to c-ca-calm down. They don't allow p-people to b-be so angry here." Did he really seem that angry? And he was trying hard not to show it, too. "J-just. Take deep breaths? That usually he-helps me calm d-down? A-and it's easy! Just in- out-. In- out-."
Deep breaths. Right. Calm down. It's not that big of a deal. Nothing bad can happen if he didn't allow it, right? It was their lives in question. They could be with whoever they wanted to be with. These people couldn't tear Makoto and Haruka apart even if they tried.
But was that really true? Could they not, with the swipe of a pen on paper, say move one of them to a different location if they saw fit? Could they not lead Haruka to believe that he was not in fact Haruka Nanase, but this Haruna Manami instead? Makoto could feel his blood start to boil just thinking about it.
"E-excuse me!" The boy's voice interrupted his thoughts, "P-please calm down." he was biting his lower lip, eyes now trying to fix onto Makoto.
"Right." Makoto said out loud, "Take deep breaths… I'm okay."
The boy sighed, "Thank you." The two began to walk and sat down on a near-by sofa. "U-uhm. I-I-I'm Aiichiro Ni-Nitori." He stumbled to find his words."
"Makoto Tachibana." It was obvious that Nitori was trying to start something of a conversation with him, but Makoto wasn't feeling it at the time, not that he would say so. He was too worried about what that Amakata would be talking to Haruka about in there.
"It's nice to m-meet you, Tachibana-k-kun.
"Yeah. It's nice to meet you."
"D-do you have a roommate? I-I mean, most people here have to have one, b-but maybe you don't."
"I have one."
"Really? Who i-is it? If you d-don't mind me asking."
"Haruka Nanase."
"Haruka? Do you mean Manami-kun?"
"That's not his name." Makoto instantly snapped back, causing Nitori to flinch.
"I-I-I'm s-sorry. That's all I've known him as since I-I met him."
Makoto sighed, trying to push back the anger. "When was that?" He truthfully did want to know. Maybe Nitori would know more about him than he himself did.
"He was here when I g-got here. That was a-about a month ago, I think."
" A month?!" Nitori flinched again.
"Y-yes, I think so. B-but I never really t-talked to him much, so-"
"So you wouldn't know much about him. Got it."
"I-I'm sorry."
"It's okay. Thank you, Nitori-kun." Makoto said before standing up. He wasn't sure where he would, or rather could go, but he just didn't feel like talking at all anymore.
A/N: So it ha been brought to my attention that something I wrote into this can be a little confusing, so I figured I should try and explain it. (And excuse me as I completely ignore the fact that it has been over a month since my last update... Whoops!)
Anyway, so you know how Makoto calls Haruka his the one? Well, that's not just Makoto saying that because he really loves Haruka. No, it's actually a thing. Basically whenever someone locks eyes with someone that fits them perfectly, someone that they would easily and happily be able to spend every moment of their life with, they get this inexplicable feeling, like the one that Makoto an Haruka got when they met. What is even better is that if they were together in their past lives, they will remember the other person's personality, what they like et cetera. (This is why back in the first chapter, Makoto was sad, because he did not remember anything about Haruka, not even his name, which meant that they had never been together before in a past life.) However, just because someone is perfect for someone else, it doesn't mean that that person would be perfect for them as well. (Like, say for example Makoto could of been perfect for Haru, but it doesn't have to be the other way around. [Though it is pretty rare.] If that makes sense.)
Furthermore, there can be multiple people that are perfect for each other. However, once someone finds one person who fits them, they cannot find another. So, again, in the first chapter, when that attendant, if you remember him, shows up, he had his (as I like to call them) eureka moment, but Haru had already had his with Makoto. And what's worse for people partly like Rin in this case, may never know if this is what happened or if they were never fit for the other person at all. (With Rin, I will say that he did regain memories with hi and Haru's past lives together, so he does know, but if he were Makoto instead, he would have no idea... Therefore it is safe to assume that in those past lives, Makoto was in the position of assuming that he wasn't fit for Haru.)
Okay, I think that about covers it? I'm sorry if it's still confusing. Let me know if you would like me to explain better!
Also yay! Nitori has entered the story! Now, I'm not entirely familiar with how therapy sessions work, like the one in this chapter, but after a lot of research, this is what I came up with. I hope you enjoyed reading !
