Hey just wanna say that I know that this is OCC, especially Matt, I was always worried about people not liking it because it was that way but I'm hoping that once things start coming out about character back ground it makes a little more sense and once that happens they should start sounding and acting like the Matt and Gabby we know and love.

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Chapter 3 – Got It All Wrong

"Geez Gabs, you ok?" Gabby eyed him for a moment his height, his build, his hair colour, his voice finally registering in her head as she looked back at him, realising who was standing there, who was holding onto her.

Blowing out a deep breath she didn't know she was holding, Gabby relaxed, Kelly's warm hands soothing out any worries that she had, any fears that lingered inside of her. She was shaking and it wasn't from being out in the cool air while she was still wet, it was from what she was feeling. The memories flashing in front of her eyes, "Yeah, yeah, I'm alright…" She looked away; hating that Kelly could see right through her.

But clearly he didn't need to look into her eyes to know she wasn't ok, it was written all over her face and her body, he could feel her arms tense under his touch. "Come on, that's crap and you know it. What's going on?" He had seen the fear in her eyes when she looked back at him, looking straight through him as though he wasn't even there.

Realising they were standing in the middle of the bathroom, where anyone could see her barely dressed, Kelly walked them back towards the showers, sitting beside her on the bench as he waited for her to give him a straight answer. Leaning against his knees, he watched her as she stared at the floor, her hands locked together as she tried to think of what to say to him.

Gabby sighed, shaking her head, causing more water to drip down her body from her hair, she was still in a towel, nothing else, but she knew if she let Kelly walk away for her to change, she would never open up to him. "I dunno, Kel. I just…I got into it with Casey earlier and he called me princess…" she rubbed her hands over her eyes, hating that the name could still affect her so much. "I guess it just all came back to me…" She knew he understood what she was saying, she had told him about that name.

She shrugged again, knowing that she didn't have to give him too much more information; he understood exactly what she was saying. She felt him sigh against her, wrapping his arm around her shoulder, placing a kiss against her forehead, "It's alright Gabs...it's gonna be alright…" He really wished it was going to be ok.

Kelly knew he couldn't really help her with how she was feeling but damn he would help her with Casey. He had seen how they had been around each other, not really understanding what had caused them both to be so nasty to each other but there was a line that Matt had crossed and he was tired of him always at her. Not that Gabby was innocent, no way, she could bite just as much as he could but after everything Gabby had been through, Kelly wasn't going to let Matt pile it on.

But he held her, his arm wrapped around her shoulders as she tired to calm herself down, letting her deal with her emotions how she needed to. After a moment Kelly turned to look at Gabby, bringing her face into his hands, forcing her to look up at him. "You are with people who love you here Gabby, never forget that ok?" He leaned forward and placed a kiss on her forehead, feeling her shiver under his touch, she was wet and cold still, but she needed this. She nodded against him, fitting herself into his side.

Gabby listened as Herman and Otis argued about Molly's, it had become a topic of discussion recently as it seemed as though they had come into some money troubles. Something about the past owners and the banks, Gabby didn't ever actually hear the start of their conversations, most of the time she wasn't really listening. But tonight was different; she was sitting at the table, her head down over her iPad, but she had been intrigued by what they were saying, it was clear that things were getting worse.

"What? You think the bank is just going to ignore it because we are new owners? No chance!" Otis laughed as Hermann huffed next to her, Otis across from them, Kelly sitting besides her reading the paper, tuning in and out as they argued. Matt and Shay had joined them at the table, falling into their own conversation easily.

Hermann, leaned back in his chair, his eyes furrowing at Otis who just shook his head, they really didn't know what they were going to do. "Well unless you can come up with 10 grand in the next few weeks we are going to lose the best thing that has happened to any of us."

It was really sad to know that if they couldn't come up with the money they would lose the bar, all of them spending more than enough time there that it had become their third home, after the firehouse of course.

"You know…you could help out…I'm sure they would give you a stake of the claim…" Kelly leaned over into Gabby's ear, whispering to her so only she could hear. But the movement and Gabby's furrowed look on her face was enough to catch Otis' attention.

"What? You got an idea?" He really did hope she did, or even Kelly, because for lack of a better idea, they were stuck and in trouble.

Had Gabby thought about offering her help? Of course, but she never thought they would be accepting of the help, she was the new guy in the house and didn't want to push too much, even thought the money would be a big help. She shrugged, thinking over Kelly's words, she wouldn't be helping out because she wanted to join in ownership, she would want to help out because it was the right thing to do. "If you need the money that bad, I could help you out…"

Every single person in that firehouse stopped what they were doing, Kelly sitting back with a smile on his face, Otis with his mouth wide open in shock and Hermann staring at her like she had grown another head. He leaned closer to her, turning his head to the side so as though it would help his hearing. "You what now?" Was all he could say, unsure that he had heard her correctly.

The whole house was silent, staring at her, making her feel a little uncomfortable. She sighed, shrugging again, she really didn't want to make a big deal of this, "I said if you needed the money I could help you out…"

Hermann leaned forward, looking at her closely, "You mean to tell me you have 10 grand just sitting around?" He didn't believe her, up until this point; Gabby hadn't said a word about helping out at Molly's and now she was talking about giving them 10 grand. She nodded again; maybe he would believe her soon. Kelly smirked by her side, knowing that she had the money but loving the fact that everyone seemed so unsure about it. "How?"

This was when Gabby glanced towards Kelly, hating that fact that she had to explain, thankfully he jumped in, "Gabby grew up with money, she always used to talk about wanting to own a bar, figured this was her chance…" He shrugged, knowing that it wasn't entirely true but it was enough.

Silence came over Hermann once again, until he jumped to his feet, wrapping his arms around her shoulder, "You have got to be freaking kidding me! This is amazing! Thank you! Thank you!" He was too excited to let Gabby speak, but she was happy that she was able to help. He rushed off from the table, heading towards the bunkroom to call the bank and see what had to be done.

Otis leaned over the table, "Are you sure?" He didn't want to take her money; he wanted to make sure she was ok with helping them out. 10 grand was a lot of money.

But Gabby nodded, smiling wide, "Trust me, it would be my pleasure. Mum and dad always used to talk about using our money for good and what greater good is there than helping Molly's, which has become a third home to many of us." She shrugged again, smiling as Otis leaned over the table and squeezed her hand in a thank you, happy that this problem had been taken care of.

Looking around the table, Gabby was greeted with smiles and laughter, until she got to Matt, who had focussed on her, his eyes narrowing. "Grew up with money? That explains a lot…" Gabby's eyes narrowed at him also, wondering what he thought he was going to get out that statement.

Matt knew he was being a dick, he knew he was being unfair, but he couldn't help it, when he looked at this girl, something came over him. He wasn't sure if it was hatred for her or just for the beautiful girl that she was but she got to him.

Gabby opened her mouth to bite back, she had almost just about enough of his crap, they had been going back and forward for months now, and it never seemed to get any better. "At least my parents taught me the meaning of manners, which it's clear is more than I can say about you. What daddy didn't love you enough, didn't care enough?"

Whatever was in Matt's eyes fell away as she spoke, his whole body hardening at her words, the rest of the common room falling silent again. He shouldn't have been surprised with what she had said, he was asking for it, even he knew that but it still shocked him to hear it, especially from her.

In a rush of moments, Matt pushed himself from the table, his chair scraping against the floor as he did so, every pair of eyes on him and his reaction, all of them, except Gabby, knowing enough about his family to understand his reaction. After a few moments of watching him leave the common room in silence, the tell tale thump of his office door sounded, the sound of the glass shaking as he did so.

Slowly Kelly leaned over towards Gabby, touching her hand, "Matt grew up in a pretty rough home. Dad was abusive, mum a drunk. She killed his dad when he was 15, he had been in and out of homes for the next three years." He looked sad as he spoke, obviously knowing what had happened in Matt's life but Gabby never thought it could be that bad.

Turning in her chair, Gabby looked towards the bunk rooms, a heavy feeling settling over her as she thought about what she had said to him and what Kelly had told him. She hated that she had said it, Matt just got on her nerves, but she had really hurt him, more than she wanted to and she doubted that an apology would do any good at that moment.

Matt slammed the door to his office, his anger levels at an all time high. He should have expected her to bite back with a comment like that one day; he had been a dick to her but now he just couldn't get past what she had said. He had thought about apologising for everything, thought about talking to her but he was just too angry now, too blinded by everything that had been going on.

Sitting down at his desk with a thump, Matt groaned, too frustrated with everything that had happened just now to do any work, his hands shaking from holding back the words he could have said. He didn't even hear the sound of his office door opening and closing he was so lost in his own thoughts.

"You know, none of this would have happened if you hadn't been acting like a complete jerk around Gabby..." a voice had pulled Matt from his thoughts. Kelly had held off saying something to Matt after the incident where he found Gabby freaking out as she got out of the showers last shift, but Kelly knew them both well enough that this was going to end badly if he didn't step in. Someone needed to say something to them both.

Matt just rolled his eyes, ignoring his best friend as he tried to reason with him, truthfully Matt knew he was right, but he was too stubborn to listen to him. "Dammit Matt, the two of you have been at each other from the very beginning and it's getting harder to work with you both. Either you need to man up and apologise or just let it go. Just ignore each other."

But Matt did stand now, hand raised to stop Kelly in his tracks, "You know what Sev, I don't need your advice and I don't want your advice ok. She may be your fuck buddy but that doesn't mean I have to bow down to her. She is just as much at fault about all of this as I am. But it's clear you wouldn't say anything to her about it…"

Kelly's face dropped, his eyes narrowing at Matt, what the hell was he talking about? "You may want to think about what it is that you are saying right now Casey, coz you are way out of line." Fuck buddy? What the hell was he talking about? "I'm not sleeping with Dawson…" Gabby was like his sister, he loved her deeply as did Shay but there would be no way in this world or any other would he be sleeping with her.

Matt scoffed, crossing his arms over his chest, "I saw you both last shift in the bathroom, couldn't even wait to get her home, you had to get her while she was in the showers…"

Sudden realisation came over Kelly, Matt was talking about last shift where he was calming Gabby down, after she had freaked out in the showers, after something Matt had said to her had freaked her out. "Take a step back right now Casey. You don't know anything about Gabby and you don't know anything about what was going on last shift…" Kelly turned, he needed to leave this small office or else he would probably knock Matt out, it wouldn't be the first time the two best friends had gone at each other like this.

"You need to start thinking Casey. Because this, whatever this is, it's not you." Kelly walked away, leaving Matt to sit there in his own anger, frustration rising even more. None of them knew what was really going on, none of them understood the pain he was in, it had been three months and none of them knew.

"So Gabby. How's the first shift?" Shay laughed as she looked over at Gabby behind the bar, finding it increasingly amusing that she was there. It wasn't too long ago that Gabby had helped get Molly's back up and running that Otis and Herman agreed to add her name to the ownership; thus making her part of the staff as well.

But Gabby didn't mind, she enjoyed working behind the bar; she got to talk to a lot of people. One of those people being Shay, who was seated next to Kelly looking very happy to see her. "Yeah Dawson; this suits you..." He laughed as he took a swig of his beer; letting it slide down his throat.

"Ha ha," Gabby laughed as she swatted him with her towel, glancing to her side she saw the other lieutenant of their house sitting there. Rolling her eyes, Gabby made her way to him, removing his empty glass before giving him a full one. She stopped for a moment, she wanted to apologise for her comments last shift but she doubted that it would make a difference, but she figured she should try.

Clearing her throat, Gabby glanced over to Shay and Kelly who were watching her confused, unsure of what she was doing. Taking a deep breath, Gabby stood in front of Matt, a moment passing before his eyes travelled from the TV he was watching to her standing there, his face stoic. "Hey um…" She flicked her towel over her shoulder, giving him a moment to register what she was talking to him.

Matt looked back at Gabby as she stood there; his eyebrow raised at her, unsure what she was doing. She never sought him out for a conversation and he never sought her out so why was she standing there? "Casey…I just wanted to apologise for what I said last shift. I didn't know about your family and I shouldn't have said it…"

Gabby swallowed deeply, she hoped that he would take her apology; she really did feel bad about what she had said to him. Matt's face fell as she apologised to him. He should have been angry that Kelly had told her about his past, he should have been angry that she was bringing it up again, but the look on her face kept that anger down.

He could tell she really was sorry; this wasn't just something she was saying. He could have ignored her, being that he was still angry, he could have said something that would have made it worse but as he watched her, he chose against it. With a sharp nod he spoke, "It's ok." And what was all she needed, it was a reply that didn't bite her head off; she would take it from him.

Gabby smiled back at him gently, enough to settle them for the time being. In silence, she moved from in front of him, back to Kelly who just smiled, she was being the bigger person. As Gabby moved back to her work Kelly moved to sit beside Matt, drinking his beer. "So…Dawson apologised huh?"

Matt rolled his eyes, "Yeah she did. You shouldn't have told her. It's none of her business, Sev." He glanced back from the TV to look at Kelly who just shrugged.

True, he probably shouldn't have but he felt that it was right. "Maybe so but I felt like she needed to know. If for nothing other than to get her to understand why you reacted the way you did. Look man, Gabby is one of my closest friends but I'm not sleeping with her ok. She has been through a lot as well. Trust me when I say that ok…"

Matt just watched Kelly move away back to Shay who was laughing with Gabby, both their heads thrown back, smiles wide on their faces. They both looked happy, Gabby looked happy.

This was the first time in a long time that he really looked at Gabby. After her apology moments ago, he took the chance to take her in. Her smile was bright, her eyes lighting up when she spoke passionately about something, she got so excited about whatever it was that she was talking about. She was beautiful, stunning really and so far, it was only him that she was short with. Everyone else in the firehouse loved her, she was bright and cheerful and bubbly with everyone else but him; not that he could blame her really.

Her smile was different than hers. Gabby's was genuine, kind. Hers was forced and painful, something that Matt should have seen long before he did. Deciding that Molly's was not where he needed to be right then, Matt stood suddenly, his mind only on drinking himself asleep, drinking away the thoughts and memories of both Gabby and her.

Antonio smiled as he saw his sister leaning against the ambo, she looked so at peace, so calm and happy, it was a smile he hadn't seen in a very long time. He had hoped moving to 51 would help her find her way but when she had told him that she would be working with Shay and Kelly, he couldn't be happier, he knew that they would help her no matter what.

"Geez sis, why don't you get a job?" He called out as he walked up the driveway, his smile wide as she noticed him.

Looking up the drive, Gabby laughed, she and Antonio were 9 years apart but they were as close as ever, he'd always been very protective of her, something that for a while she was very, very thankful for. "Hey Tonio, at least I'm not bumming around like you…enjoy your donuts?" She swatted his stomach as he got closer, feeling him tense against her.

"Hey now, I happen to like the pudginess…" He pulled Gabby into a hug turning it into a headlock as she laughed, trying to get away from him. He loved hearing that laugh, it really had been too long.

Groaning, Gabby tried to pull away from his grasp, settling for a sigh and relaxing her body, "Not that I don't love seeing you but what are you doing here?" He didn't often come and visit her at work but when he did, it usually meant he had something bad to tell them.

Letting Gabby slip through his grasp, Antonio smiled, embracing Shay and Kelly in a tight hello hug. "It's been too long Tonio …" Kelly spoke quietly, the last time they had seen each other, it was under less that happy circumstances. Antonio nodding against Kelly, he wished they could see more of each other.

"Yeah I know, work has just gotten crazy so it's been hard but ah…I wanted to check in my little sister, make sure she is making friends and all that…" He poked his tongue out at Gabby as a reply to her doing the same, he had done this once before when they were kids, checking in on her when they were at school.

"Can you not?" She rolled her eyes, crossing her arms over her chest, she wasn't a child and she didn't need him checking up on her.

Shay laughed, this was something she missed, seeing them interacting, glad that they were finally able to do this again. "She is making friends with most of the kids here Tonio, don't you worry about that." But it wasn't until after she spoke did she realise what she had said, Antonio picking up on the 'most' instantly. He looked over at Gabby who rolled her eyes again before glaring at Shay. "On that note, Kelly…let's head inside before…ah, well…before Antonio loses it…"

She latched on to Kelly instantly, pulling him from the scene and into the firehouse, leaving Gabby and Antonio on their own; a knowing look passing between them. "So what's this about 'most'?" She really hated that he picked up on that, now he was going to go all Antonio on the situation.

Gabby sighed, "Nothing Tonio ok? Just me and the other lieutenant just don't see eye to eye, that's all…" She wanted to play it off, didn't want him to get involved, but it was clear that that wasn't going to happen. "Listen, I promise, it's ok. We just…get under each other's skin is all. He baits me and I bite…does that surprise you?" She raised her eyebrow at him, gaining a nod in return.

Antonio wanted to make a joke, wanted to laugh it off but he worried about her. "Gabby, I just want to make sure you are ok…are you sure you are alright here? I mean if this lieutenant is giving you grief-"

She groaned again, "He isn't, really it's fine." Wanting to change the subject, Gabby nodded her head towards the firehouse, "You wanna go inside, meet everyone you don't already know?" She wanted to get off this topic of Matt Casey, but it would come up again, especially considering she was just about to introduce him to Antonio.

Letting Gabby lead him inside, Antonio took note of the layout and the fire fighters he saw, he liked keeping track of everyone that was around his sister. As they walked into the common room, it didn't take Antonio long to pick out the lieutenant he knew to be the one Gabby had been butting heads with. He watched as he looked up from his paper, watched her for a moment before looking down, not even acknowledging her.

But at the same time, Antonio knew Matthew Casey from his time with Hank Voight, Matt getting into trouble with Voight and Antonio helping him out. From what he knew, Matt was a nice guy, he couldn't understand how he and Gabby didn't get along.

"Alright guys, just wanted to give you the heads up that if you see this ugly face around…run the other way!" Laughter filtered through the common room as everyone looked towards Gabby, "Nah this is my brother Antonio, he is detective from the 21st, he is in the intelligence unit." Most of them greeted him with a happy hello, Herman reaching out and shaking his hand, many waving.

"Just wanted to drop by and see how my sister was going, making sure she isn't being too much of a pain in the ass…" this elicited many laughs. Antonio focussing on Matt instantly, watching as he looked away from them. "If you guys need anything, just give me a call." Boden, who had walked in moments after the introductions thanked Antonio, saying that it was going to be helpful having a contact as close as him at PD, knowing they have needed help many times in the past.

Gabby looked up at him, "You sticking around for lunch?" Antonio nodded, looking over to see a feast had been set up already. As each of the other fire fighters made their way to the bench, Antonio looked around for one in particular; he had been eyeing Matt since he got there. He wanted to bite his head off for being a dick to his sister but at the same time he knew not to get too far into her business.

Slowly he made his way over to Matt, sitting by his side, waiting for some kind of acknowledgement, Matt looking up at him instantly.

Antonio had seen this Matt Casey before, tired, angry, hangover but the last he had seen it was when he was being harassed by Voight, keeping him up all night, late night calls and anger towards the crooked cop. Antonio felt for him, he knew how much of a toll the issues with Voight had taken on him, how it almost destroyed him and sitting beside him right now was the reflection of the man who he had almost seen destroyed in front of him.

There was no words between Matt and Antonio as they sat there, a look passing between the both of them, enough to show understanding, a mutual understanding of their past situation and relationship but also to the new relationship that would grow due to the issues between himself and Gabby. The only thing that pulled Antonio away from that seat was the call of food; Gabby telling him to hurry or else he would miss out.

Matt sighed as he rested his head against the side of the couch, mid morning shining through the open blinds of the living room, his mind running a mile a minute on the thought that Gabriella Dawson, the beautiful, pain in his ass, was the sister of the man who pretty much saved his life only years ago. How could he have not connected the dots? How could he not have seen it?

Maybe it had something to do with the age difference, or that they had never really talked about anything other than Voight and how things were at home. Maybe because he honestly just hadn't thought of the connection. But whatever it was, whatever had made him miss it was not connecting all the dots and he was now seeing the bigger picture.

Or should he say memory. The bigger memory of a time in his life that he honestly couldn't hold himself together, that other than Antonio there was only one person who was holding him together. And that thought brought him back to the memory of what had happened months ago. The pain and anger he had felt back then coming back tenfold.

He just wanted to forget, wanted to move on and not have that night playing like a broken record over and over again in his mind. He wanted to smash that record, splinter it into a million tiny pieces that could never be put back together, but instead he opted for the option that was the least smart.

He opted to shatter his mind into a million pieces, his fingers running over the smooth edges of the cut glass bottle of bourbon by his side, the half empty bottle that he had unscrewed the lid off the minute he had gotten home. His eyes were red and blood shot and as he stared up at the ceiling, an ache took over his body and a tear fell from his eye, a tear that rolled down the side of his face, losing itself in his hair line the same way he lost himself to the alcohol that was numbing his pain.

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