I'm not gonna apologise for how long this has taken coz that would just be pointless. It really shouldn't have taken THIS long for me to write and post and I AM SO SORRY FOR THAT! I hope this chapter makes up for the wait.

A little shorter than I wanted, which really sucks coz I don't like writing short chapters but I hope you all like it.

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Chapter 11 – Push

Gabby was itching to say the least; she had barely gotten to the firehouse and dressed before their first call of the day, sending her and Shay out before even role call had started. And from there they had been called out to another scene on their way back to the firehouse. She was already tired but she was more desperate to see Matt. After their evening together before going to Molly's she hadn't seen him much the next day, having already had plans with her brother and him having to finish off a construction gig, they had barely had a chance to talk let alone see each other.

And she was desperate to see him, to touch him, to kiss him and to just be near him. He had become a drug that she wasn't going to give up any time soon. But as they pulled into the driveway of the firehouse, she found that there was no one there – Truck was out – but engine and Squad was still parked in the back of the apparatus floor.

As Gabby jumped out the side of the ambo, she could hear Shay chatting away about a girl she had met at Molly's but Gabby was lost in her own thoughts, wondering how she could get a hold of Matt without anyone noticing. "Hey Dawson" Her name caught her attention as she walked into the common room, Tony having called out to her, "There is someone in the conference room for you." He motioned his head towards the side door that lead to the conference room and the bunkroom.

"Thanks Tony…" She smiled as she made her way there, wondering who could have been looking for her. Pushing open the doors Gaby stopped, the doors swinging closed behind her as she stood face to face with the man in the room.

Her hands. That's the only place she could look, the shaking, the fidgeting, the total shock Gabby was feeling right now was enough to send her out the door, never to look back again. She couldn't bring herself to look up, her eyes glued to the tiny light spot on the side of her hand, the faint blemish on her otherwise clean hands. How long had that been there for? How long had she had that spot for?

"Gabby?"

That voice, the soft, calm, sweet voice.

One that she hadn't heard in many years, one that she honestly didn't think she would ever hear again.

"Gabby?"

Oh how she wished that voice would go away. But it wouldn't…because he wouldn't. He didn't leave when she told him to, he didn't leave when she had turned her back to him and he didn't leave when she had sat down at the furthest point of the conference room, as far away from him as possible.

"I know it's been a while…how are you?"

This brought her eyes up, slowly they took in the clasped hands, the way his thump sat over the other the wrong way, trailing upwards she took in the dark blue of his shirt, how each button sat against his chest, tugging slightly only as the material stretched over his shoulders. There was the slight dip in his collarbone, the scruff around his chin and cheeks, his deep piercing green eyes.

She was taking him in, her mind remembering so much about him that she had forgotten, so much she had tried to forget and so much that she still remembered when she so desperately wanted to forget. "How am I?" Had he really just asked her that question?

Had he really just stood there, leaning casually against the table on the other side of the room, his legs crossed over each other and asked her how she was? "Jason I…" but she didn't know what to say, she had no idea how she was going to reply to that question.

He moved…pushing himself away from the furthest table, Jason came to stand in front of Gabby, the table she had put between them now not doing what she had hoped.

Swallowing deeply as he stood in front of her, Gabby flinched at having him so close; her hands still tightly clasped together, her eyes narrow and cold. "You shouldn't be here Jason. You should go." She wanted to challenge him, wanted to stand up and stand toe to toe with him but she couldn't, Gabby still couldn't bring herself to move from that chair.

Jason stopped for a moment, wondering how far he could push Gabby at that moment. "I saw you, you know. On the news a few weeks back…I am so glad you're ok…" he tried to reach out for her hand, tried to touch but the sudden movement made her flinch again, jerking her hands back to her lap, her eyes narrowing even more as she watched him, almost daring him try something.

Nodding, Jason turned from Gabby, his mouth falling open as though he wanted to say something but chose not to, chose to stop the words before they fell from his mouth. Pulling open the conference room door, Jason made his way from the room, stalking down the hallways of the firehouse until he found himself in the cool air of the apparatus bay, barely a sideways glance given out to those who were seated around Squad 3's table.

Stuffing his hands into his pockets, Kelly made his way back into the firehouse, he had gone out to his car because none of the others were going to give up their phone chargers, but now he had to get back into the firehouse and to kick Cruz out of his spot on the couch as the game was about to start.

It was days like today that Kelly loved, it wasn't hot nor was it freezing, somewhere in between that just made him feel happy. The sound of the house doors slamming open caught his attention, no doubt one of the boys cracking the shit because of some joke or comment, storming off like a child while the others laugh as he went.

Smiling to himself; Kelly waited to see who it was, a comment at the ready depending on the fire fighter who stormed passed him.

But it wasn't a fire fighter; the man walking by him was someone he didn't recognise, someone he hadn't seen around the firehouse before. Nodding as the man walked past him, Kelly stopped, his head cocking to the side for a moment. It wasn't often that people left the house on their own, but there was something about the back of this guy, the way he walked, the way his tucked his hands into his jacket pocket. Kelly Severide had learned to trust his gut a long time ago and usually – unless it came to woman – his gut was usually dead on.

And today wasn't any different, his gut was telling him something that he couldn't ignore. Glancing back behind him, Kelly watched the man for a moment, a deep breath coming from his lips before he turned on his heels, making his way into the common room, Kelly looked around. His eyes darting around looking for the one person he needed to see, the one person he couldn't find.

Rushing from the common room, glad that no one had noticed his movements, Kelly searched the hallway, the communication desk and down towards the toilets before he eyes landed on the dark shadow in the conference room. The top of a head that just sat there, in the far corner.

He couldn't see her face, couldn't judge her facial expressions to see what had happened but he could tell she was tense. Slowly he pushed open the heavy glass door, trying not to scare Gabby, he waited, wondering if she was going to react, if she was going to move or if she was going to look up at him.

When nothing came, Kelly moved closer to her, one foot in front of the other, slowly crouching down by her side. "Gabby?" But she hadn't moved, her eyes locked on the table, the small scratch holding her attention more than what Kelly was able to get. "Gabs?" He tried again, taking in her face more, she looked shocked, her eyes empty and dark.

"It's Kelly…"

There it was, the flash that entered her eyes, the slight movement of her eyes telling him that she had actually heard him. Shining in her eyes was shock and fear and anger. Kelly didn't need to be told what had just happened.

"Don't tell Matt…"

Clearing his throat, Kelly sighed, his hand resting against Gabby's knee, her hand rushing to her cheek quickly, brushing away the tear that fell from her eyes. Kelly didn't want to hide things from Matt, this was not something he wanted to keep from him but Gabby was the one who he was worried about, he had been by her side when things had gone to shit the first time and he would be by her side this time as well.

Matt was giddy – you would have to have been blind not to see how happy he was and it had already was a topic of discussion from the others in the truck but he really didn't care. After everything that had happened with Hallie and the shit he had gone through after their breakup, he was finally starting to be happy.

Hermann had decided to start ribbing him on the way back to the house after they had filled up with gas. Cruz had made a comment about Casey looking antsy about getting back, Hermann cracking in about wanting to see his girl. And so he had become to topic of discussion, a smirk the only thing Matt could give in return.

"Go on, run off to your girl!" Hermann yelled as Matt jumped out of the truck, his heavy boots landing on the ground with a thud, his jacket haphazardly draped over his door handle, the smirk still there. Something about 'young love' called out behind him.

Pushing open the common room doors, Matt looked around, Gabby not insight, but Kelly was, nodding his head towards the back of the house, Matt understood that he was telling him that he was to head into the bathroom. "Showers" was the mumble as he passed Kelly, his smirk getting wider.

Matt was thankful that Shay was sitting by Kelly, she had heard what he had told Matt, knowing that she wouldn't go looking for Gabby, it meant that Gabby and he would be able to be alone. Slipping through the common room, Matt found himself standing at the heavy wooden door, the label on the front had been slipped across to say 'Ladies' which also meant that no one would be coming in.

Pushing open the door slowly, the sound of the water instantly hitting his ear, the warm rush of air blowing over his face. Smiling to himself, he moved closer to the showers, the curtain pulled on the only one telling him exactly where she was.

With one quick glance behind him, Matt pulled at the back of his shirt, the material falling from his body, his boots, pants and boxers following instantly. Pulling back the curtain, Matt stepped inside the small stall, his hands slipping around her waist instantly. He felt the little jump she gave as his hands touched her but then her body relaxed into his, her shoulder dropping and a deep sigh coming from her lips.

Gabby had been so lost in her own thoughts that when those hands touched her, she had jumped but after a moment, she sensed exactly who was behind her, the soft of his touch, the warmth of his breath. This was exactly what she needed right now. He was exactly what she needed. A shoulder to lean on and her boyfriend to hold her.

She felt his hands slip around her waist, the content sigh slipping from his throat as his lips touched her neck. "You ok?" He sounded concerned, husky-she tensed in his arms.

Gabby wanted to tell him everything, well everything that had only just happened but she knew he would be angry, he would get tense and quiet and no doubt do something that he would regret. But she was happy in his arms, their small shower stall holding them close, the water rushing over her body. "I'm ok..." she mumbled.

Matt nodded against her, another kiss touching her collarbone and another just under her ear. She shuddered; he had a way with her already, after only the one night together, he could read her body and she would let him. Gabby dropped her head back to his shoulder, groaning at his touch, the beat looking in her stomach as she felt him pressing against her.

She did really want to tell him, to spill that Jason has come to see her, that she was scared and angry and everything in between but she didn't. Instead, Gabby spun in Matt's arms, shed lips locking against his and her arms tightly wrapped around his neck. If she couldn't bring herself to tell him, she would have him instead and she was so glad he didn't push her away.

Matt groaned in surprise, shocked at Gabby's sudden change but also at the movement against his hips, his body reacting to her instantly. As his arms slipped around her waist, he pulled her close to him, the water barely even making in between their bodies. Their tongues battled against each other, fighting for dominance as Gabby grabbed a hold of his hair tightly tugging him closer.

It didn't take long before Matts hands had dipped down her back, over her waist and under her ass, lifting her into the air with ease, while her legs wrapped around his waist, locking tightly. They battled a little more before it became too much for Matt, his need for her taking over.

With a step forward, he braced himself against the cool tiles, his forearm the only thing between the wall and Gabby, her back resting against it but it gave him the leverage he needed to slip into her. Pulling away for a moment, Matt took her in, her dark eyes, red lips, hair falling over her face, the water rolling over her cheeks and her lips. With his free hand, Matt brushed his fingers over her cheek, "beautiful" slipping from his lips, the only encouragement she needed to drop her head his his, their lips locking, Matt slipping into Gabby slowly, a long gasp coming from her lips against his, the slight shock causing her to bite down against his lips.

She had drawn blood, he could taste it and so could she but it turned him on, she was desperate for him and he for her. With the brace against the wall, Matt moved against her, her body drawing him as she clenched around him.

There was something about this-Matt could tell, she wanted him, was desperate in a way that he didn't expect but he was going to give what she wanted, what she needed. Giving her the time to open up. As he moved into her, Gabby couldn't hold the moan that had fought its way from her chest, his teeth sinking into his shoulder to quieten the moan just a little.

The sudden rush of pain and ecstasy from her action caused Matt to let lose deep grunt, his thrusts becoming harder and fast, her hands pulling him into her even more. Matt didn't know how much longer he could hold on but from the way she was pulling him against her, he also knew that it wasn't going to take her much longer.

This was desire.

Primal and needy.

This was them.

Gabby lifted her head from his shoulder, their eyes locking instantly, their lips meeting in a heated battle, his hips sinking deeper and deeper, the pressure for them both becoming too much. The heated coil that had tightened in Gabby's stomach snapped, her body tightening around Matt with such force that it brought him with her, both crashing over the edge.

Matt could nearly hold himself up anymore, his whole body pressed against Gabby and the wall-both their breathing ragged and rough, their bodies shaking from release. Matt held Gabby against him, not wanting to let her go. "Amazing...you're amazing..." he whispered against her lisps, another kiss before letting her legs fall to the floor gingerly.

She blushed.

Gabby blushed. Together they stood under the now cold water, smiling shyly at each other.

"So what's going on with you? Having a good time with Casey?" Shay raised her eyebrow at Gabby as she sat beside her in the ambo. She had seen the huge smile that had been on Gabby's face since finding out that she and Matt had gotten together, she liked seeing her friend happy.

A small smile graced Gabby's face, "Yeah, it's been good. Really good actually." Honestly though part of Gabby was just waiting for the other foot to drop. It was obvious across her face that they had been happy but she had known that something was going to happen and that something was Jason.

Shay didn't miss the slightly fall of her smile when she spoke about her and Matt, "Hey what's up? Are you not happy?" Shay was worried, she didn't want to see Gabby upset but she also didn't want to see Matt hurt either.

Snapping her head back up, Gabby shook her head, "No that's not it, I just…I'm used to things not going right for me so I guess I'm just being wary that's all." She shrugged, not wanting to tell Shay too much but also wanting to give her enough that she wouldn't question anymore.

"Oh I get you. Don't worry, Casey is the best man I know."

Gabby nodded again, finding the street around her suddenly more interesting than what was inside the ambo. She couldn't stop thinking about Matt. She loved being around him, waking up in his arms, seeing that goofy smile he got on his face when he was waking up. But she worried that this would be too much, that having Jason back would be bad for them.

Shay worried about Gabby, she had come to learn that look on her face, the one that told her that something was wrong, that behind that smile her mind was running a mile a minute. "You sure you're ok?" But Gabby only nodded again, barely waiting for the ambo to park before she had jumped out and headed to the back of the house – Kelly following the minute that he saw her walking past, her head down and her hands by her face.

And that's where he found her moments later, the old broken chair that usually holds open the back door in her hands, lifted above her head before the threw it against the brick wall, a deep angry cry coming from her lips.

Kelly stepped back as she let it fly, making sure that it didn't hit him but he watched her spin on her heals. "FUCK!" It was loud, he would be surprised if the guys inside hadn't heard the commotion, but he was glad that they hadn't so far. "Fuck I hate him! I just…ARGH!" clenching her fits, Gabby let out another cry, this time turning away from Kelly, her whole body slacking as the emotions left her.

Then there was just silence.

Nothing but silence.

Turning to find Kelly just leaning up against the brick wall, Gabby raised her eyebrow. This was the sort of friendship she had with Kelly, he could read her inside out. He knew when to let her scream and cry or when she needed a shoulder. "What?" She crossed her arms against her chest, watching him intently.

Shaking his head for a moment, Kelly pushed himself off the wall; he looked towards the closed back door, wondering if Matt would come looking for them both. "I was just wondering if you were still in there. That's all…" And then he turned, leaving her standing on her own, a slight smile coming to her lips but it faded, this was still a serious situation and she didn't know how she was going to handle it.

Matt was curious; he had always been a curious person when it came to those around him, those who he felt the most for, but he wouldn't ever push anyone. He knew that with Kelly or Andy or even Christie that if they needed him they would come to him but that didn't meant he wasn't curious when he watched Kelly walk back into the common room from the back of the firehouse.

His first thought was "When did he go out the back?" but his second thought was that something had changed on his face, it was as if he has grown another frown line, as if the weight of the world was suddenly on his shoulders, but Matt wouldn't never push.

And Matt knew he would never push Gabby, who had just happened to walk in behind Kelly moments later. Her eyes downcast, shoulders sagging as if in defeat. She looked small and sad and scared but he could also see fire behind her eyes, a burning desire that he couldn't quite pinpoint.

He watched as she moved around the kitchen, not really doing much but seemingly keeping herself busy, but he could still see her hands shake a little - she had shoved them back into her pocket the instant she had noticed that it was a visible shake but she hadn't seen him watching her.

He always watched her.

Matt wanted to know she was ok, that something terrible hadn't happened on their last call or that she hadn't gotten a phone call about her brother. But the fact that she wouldn't even look up at him, told Matt that he was going to show her that he was there for her.

He sat by the round table, his hand resting against his chin as she moved around the common room, a quick glance shot in Kelly's direction before she would even raise her eyes to Matt, a half smile coming to his her lips, but it didn't reach her eyes.

That's where she stood, on the other side of the table, each just watching the other until Matt raised his hand to her, a small peace offering that he hoped she would take it. With their eyes locked, Gabby raised her hand to his, clasping it tightly as she came to sit by his side, almost nestled against him, he placed a kiss on her forehead, letting her just rest against his side.

Matt grunted into consciousness at around 3am, he knew it was still late, his body clock telling him that it was way before dawn but he couldn't understand why there was a light across his face.

What he did know was that he was laying stomach down in the warm and soft bed, his left leg hanging off the side of the bed while the sheets were resting low against his hips, his bare back feeling the coolness of the rest of the room.

What he also knew was that he was alone. His right hand was stretched across the now empty bed where Gabby had fallen asleep hours before, wrapped in his arms tightly. He grunted again, his mind becoming clearer as he awaken a little more, his hand rubbing over his face as he looked around, squinting at the source of the light.

That was where he found Gabby, standing in the middle of large window, the blinds open and the street lights glaring into the room. Matt took her in for a moment, the way she stood, wrapped in his oversized hoodie, hanging low around her thighs – God he hoped she hadn't put something on underneath because she looked incredibly sexy dressed like that.

Smiling, Matt pulled himself from the bed, pulling on his black boxers as he went, the cold getting to him a little more than he thought. Padding across the carpet, Matt made his way to Gabby's side, his hands slipping around her waist, pulling her back against his chest.

"What are you doing up? It's late…or really early…" He whispered huskily against her shoulder, the sleep still evident in his voice.

She should have expected to wake him up, he had always been able to sense when she was awake, but she wanted him to sleep, she knew he was tired. They had only been together for about 2 months but they knew what the other needed. Slipping her hands to his, she held them tightly to her stomach, bringing her back even closer to him.

"You sure you're alright babe…I know something I going on…" He hadn't mentioned anything to her but since the week before when he saw something change in her at the firehouse and also Kelly's actions around her, he knew something was bothering her. He had chosen to be by her side and let her come to him.

Dropping her head back against his shoulder, Gabby sighed, she really needed to tell him but she couldn't, she didn't want to ruin what they had, how happy they were. "Yeah. I promise Matt…I'm absolutely perfect…" and she was. That was the honest truth, being there with him, sleeping next to him, spending time with him, being in a relationship with him – that's what was perfect to her.

Gabby felt Matt tense for a moment as she spoke, as if a small part of him was trying to believe her or not but as she turned in his arms, her arms wrapping around his neck, he smiled. "Being with you – is absolutely perfect…" gently she placed a kiss on his lips, pulling away just to see his eyes narrow. "I promise…" and with a small nod, he leaned into her, capturing her lips once more, his hands moving from her hips to the back of her leg, lifting it enough that he was able to lift her – thank god she wasn't wearing anything underneath that hoodie!

With a girly squeal, Gabby went to him, letting him lift her into his arm, the stress she had been feeling melting away as he laid her against the soft mattress, bringing him close to her, their lips battling against each other with desire.

The open blinds forgotten about, the world below moving around them.

"You know…I could love this girl!" Matt laughed as he downed another beer, tipping his head back to finish off the last of it. Kelly was sitting by his side, neither of them were drunk but they had a happy buzz about them. Thankfully the 'girl' in question was on the other side of the bar and out of earshot of what Matt was babbling on about.

She had taken over a shift at Molly's for Otis, Kelly and Matt taking the opportunity to spend some time together, they hadn't had much time to just have a drink and a laugh recently – true Matt had been spending a lot of time with Gabby, but Kelly had been dealing with his dad coming back and it had just taken them away from being able to spend some time together.

Kelly laughed, "Man I think you already do!" it was the truth, Kelly could see the look in Matt's eyes every time he looked at Gabby, they shone or love and respect and desire. But Matt shot a glance to Kelly, almost challenging him. He didn't want to admit he was falling for her already, it was too early – even for them but he couldn't deny he loved the sounds of being in love with Gabriella Dawson.

"It's just…something has changed over the last couple of weeks. She seems different. And I know she is keeping the reason from me, I just don't want to push her into telling me, I just wish she trusted me enough to tell me..." It had been something that had been playing on Matt's mind for a while now, he would catch Gabby staring off into space or that she was a little jumpy when she didn't know he was there.

Matt also knew how close she and Kelly were, they had known each other for longer than Gabby had been working at 51 and if anyone was to know what was going on with her, it was going to be Kelly. "Hey, you know she trusts you. I know she told you about what happened to her in the past, so that has to tell you how much she trusts you…I guess whatever is going on, she is just trying to deal with it herself."

Kelly knew he had to chose his words very carefully. Just because Matt was buzzed didn't mean he wasn't very tuned in when it came to Gabby. "Looks Casey. She does that. When things are going on, she tries to deal with it all herself before she asks for help. It doesn't mean she doesn't trust you, it just means she is stubborn!"

Matt snorted at that last statement, he knew all to well how stubborn Gabby could be. "I know you're right. I just want to make sure she is ok, that's all…"

Staring down the far end of the bar, Matt's eyes locked with Gabby who smiled brightly, her eyes shining with happiness as she made her way to him, placing another beer on the bar. "Don't tell Herman…on the house baby…" She whispered to him as she leaned over, kissing him forcefully before pulling away before heading to the far side of the bar again.

Matt couldn't drop the smile that was on his face, he really was falling for this girl. Raising his glass to his lips, Matt took another sip, luckily he had placed it back down as someone bumped into his back. Someone throwing a sorry over his shoulder, Matt didn't take much notice, it wasn't the first time someone had bumped into him or he had bumped into someone when Molly's was this busy.

He did however miss the hand that slipped into his jacket pocket as they moved away from him.

Ok so much shorter than what I wanted but I wanted it to flow to an ending in this chapter and I felt like this was the right place to end it. I hope you are all still interested!

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