Even though I'm crying, I smile
I block your way and I just smile widely
Why am I being like this, do I not have any shame?
As you continue to remain silent, wordlessly staring into the distance past Red instead of directly at him, Red slowly nods his head as if he's come to terms with something and starts to back up a bit.
"Alright, I get it. If you don't want to talk about it, I won't push you." He says, that same smile (which you're starting to find more heart-wrenching than heart-fluttering) plastered on his face. "I guess I'll get going now, then. I'll see you around."
As you watch him turn around and begin to leave, you can feel your tears start to fall. In a sudden burst of emotion, you impulsively grab his hand. Thankfully, he doesn't turn back around – you don't think you could take seeing his reaction to you crying so freely in front of him, especially when you know that he's the cause of your distress.
"…Yellow?" he intones, craning his head to take a look at you.
Instead of shying away from his gaze, you look straight at him smiling, despite your tears. You can see his face morph into shock upon seeing your emotional state, but are extremely grateful that he still says nothing.
Why am I being like this? This isn't like me… Do I really not have any shame?
You look back at the boy who endlessly makes you feel this way, the boy that you would fall for over and over again every single day.
Only for him, you figure.
"Red…" you mumble, your thoughts a jumbled mess.
Where do you even begin?
"I-I've been thinking about this a lot today. Lately I've been…"
There's no going back now.
"Well, I mean, n-not to say that I haven't felt this way for a long time… Which I have…"
Idly, your mind strays, and you realize that you've never said these words to anyone before.
"But I…"
Why is it so hard for you to say it? If it's not now, then when? You've come this far. You might never be able to say these words again, not after all that's happened today.
You take a deep breath and look him straight in the eyes.
"Red…"
You smile widely at him.
"I like you."
I fold my pride up neatly and throw it up to the sky
The words I have never said
The words I might never be able to say again
I like you. One, two…