Forgiveness

Forgive: Stop feeling angry or resentful toward (someone) for an offense, flaw, or mistake.

I have never been so sad, so scared, so angry, and most of all, I have never been so hurt in my entire life. People end up using kindness, then hit my bones with sticks and stones. But it's not them that is hurting me in the inside, it's me that is hurting myself.

Even though Undertaker caused the whole thing with his stupid pen and stupid bookmark, I shouldn't yell at him. I should have listen to him when I first met him, I should have stay in that mansion and keep fighting, I should have stop hiding and be brave.

But I didn't do anything, I just stayed as a coward and ran away, I let Sebastian down, I failed at being brave! Is this a new sin in my life? Fear?

I just wish I have one more chance of saving my friends without even breaking down.

Suddenly, I felt something burning on my hand, I looked and saw there's no flame and no heat, nothing but a small speck of light that now burns a little on my head.

It was coming from the curtain behind the altar, I don't know why such a small piece of light burned me, so with the best strength I had for my leg, I got up and pulled a nearby rope that opened the curtains.

I gasped and stepped back into the dark as I saw the stained glass windows. They have pictures of angels and the whole scene of the Nativity, like during Christmas, all shined from the full moon. I looked amazed, but why did that burn me a little?

That's when I realized that doll or not, I'm still part demon and demons hate the things about God and Heaven. Holiness kills them...

I tested it out by laying my arm out, but I saw steam and even as a doll, it burns, so I held my arm back in, rubbing it.

I looked back at it and thought of something I haven't thought before,

Maybe if I prayed to God and the Angels for Forgiveness of joining the world of demons...all of this will go away...the sadness, the anger, fear, every dark feeling I have inside of my shell...

I wish to regret this, like maybe it can end me as well...but I took a deep breath, decide to have courage and fate...and walked to the center of the light, kneeling down into a praying position.

It stung, it burns, it's painful...but I won't give up!

I closed my eyes, and prayed, "Dear Lord. Of the Heavens. Above,

Thank you. Thank you for. Letting my. Mother gave birth. To me. Thank you. For making. Me a part. Of this world. Forgive. My choice of. Joining the dark. Underworld. Forgive me. For taking. The paths. That cost me. A price. I always bless. You and I. Will swear. To not be. Scared anymore. Please. let me be. Healed. Let me cry. Let me smile. Let me be. Part of your. World too...Amen..."

At first, besides the burning light on my doll-like skin, nothing happens, until I felt something hurting me on the inside, including at my back. I winced as I lay my hands on the ground, wanting the pain to go away.

I knew for a long time that it will never work...I knew God won't accept my apology...I knew I was going to die...

However, I started to feel something moving that is coming from my eyes. I opened my eyes and noticed a water drop fell to the floor.

wasn't rain since the moon is still up...it was my tear!

I was crying?

I look at my arm as I lift up my sleeve, seeing that my shiny doll-like skin is not doll-like anymore...I place my hand on my arm, feeling the soft warm skin.

I'm not a doll anymore!

I looked at my leg and saw that not only I'm my old self again, my leg's healed as well!

I never been so happy in my life, my eyes can cry, my skin is warm, my leg's healed, and...

I noticed a black feather close by. I picked it up and looked around, seeing that no one was here, it couldn't be Sebastian too...can it?

I also noticed something odd as well, a white feather...

I looked up above, and around each corner, seeing there's no bird. But when I look at the floor, seeing my shadow...I noticed something behind me...something that look a little bent...

I remembered that when I ran in, there was a pond filled with holy water, even though it was now covered with algae and moss, it can still serve as a mirror. So I ran to it, and gasped about my reflection...

I have wings!

Wings that have black and white feathers...like a checkerboard...

I'm on Heaven's and the Underworld's side! God answered me all along!

I walked back to God and prayed, "Thank you Lord...Thank you!"

I was really excited to tell Sebastian about this, even though I'm not sure if he's back to normal from my pray. I wanted him to teach me how to fly with the wings! Or maybe how to hide them so people won't freak out...

That's when it hit me, Undertaker!

I am still a little upset that he caused this...but it was actually the best thing that ever happened to me when I finally have a chance.

I have to go to him and apologize!

I ran out of the church, into the forest, and to the parlor, I open the door, seeing Undertaker with his head lowered in his seat. "Undertaker?"

He didn't move, he didn't even flinch...is he...dead?

I slowly walked to him, and tap his shoulder, "Undertaker?..." There's no response nor a reply, so I shook him a little, "Earth to Undertaker, Yoo-hoo~!"

Not even a single move of his fingers on the desk...

I felt very worried...and I have to tell him, dead or not, "Undertaker...Look, I'm sorry...I was just upset...and angry...and most of all, scared. I didn't mean to hurt you..."

He froze for a second, but then slowly lift up his head with a smile, looking like he is happy to see me. I smiled a little, and spoke, "I learned my lesson too, I need to get out of my shell and face what I am afraid of. I must concur my fear...and I need your help!"

I noticed he got up, walked to me, then in a small shock...he hugged me!

I blush a little, then giggled, "I think I found a huger!" I heard Undertaker laugh, "Your Feathers are tickling me! And I noticed you turned back as well, good for you, Miss!" I smiled, "Yeah, I can talk normally and never end up breaking apart!"

As he let go of me, he spoke, "Sometimes, I wish I was like you, determined, spirited, and kind-hearted..." I noticed as he said that, a tear came...I started to realized that I was right that no one came to him, meaning that he's lonely...

"Oh Undertaker..." I patted his back then took off the white cloth from my Drocell-like outfit, "Here, let me help you with that."

With that, I lifted up his bangs. Right now, his eyes seemed closed with one scar through the eye lid...I have no clue if he hides his eyes because of a terrible injury or something...

But I dried the tear off of him. I smiled, and spoke, "All better?"

He started to open his eyes, and my eyes widen that under the bangs...were beautiful eyes...His eye shape was a perfect angle with the silver eyelashes and his eyebrows were thin, gray, and small. But what shocked me the most...is the color of his eyes...the chartreuse color with a yellow ring and a small black pupil at the center...just like the two reaper's eye color!

He smiled, and spoke, "Yes I am, Madison..."

"U-Undertaker?" I asked while quailing.

He tilted his head until his eyebrows raised a little, "Oh! These?" He blinked a few times, then grinned as he hold my wrist to make me let go of his bangs, then stood up, "Come with me, my dear lamb...we need to talk..."

With that, still holding my wrist, he took me to the back of the room.

Something fishy is going on here...And there is one thing I know of...

Undertaker is a Reaper as well...