Chapter 4,

Dear Elena,

Broken windows and empty hallways
A pale dead moon in the sky streaked with gray
Human kindness is overflowing
And I think it's going to rain today

-Tom O'dell

Ok so perhaps our lives look pretty normal compare to Enzo. I mean for goodness the guy is literally related to whore. Ok that was kind of rude but my point still stands firm and clear. The again my mom abandoned me after her magic disappeared and raised someone else so I guess he had a little better, until he was five. It's sad though, I feel like he's father didn't want him and it's not even the fact that Adrian St John could ignore the resemblance. It was too hard to ignore, Enzo splitting image of his father. Not that I felt sorry for Enzo, I think I've heard him complain about the concept of family one too many times.

Believe it or not I would've written in you sooner but it's been a month since Enzo was here and since my life is pretty much boring when he's not here, I'm limited to what I can tell you. I don't mean that he adds excitement to my life by the way, I just mean there's always something crazy coming with him. So yeah a month. He compelled the grocery store man to come over and drop of groceries every week and forget that he did so when he got home. Which can only mean one thing, he's avoiding me. Don't worry that doesn't bother me, what bothers me is the reason behind it. And also its not like I can call him while he's at work because the next thing I know Alex will be at the front door which a nice sedative gun to my head.

Like I said I'm not worried. I decide that enough is enough; I'm not going to dwell on this any longer. I grab my jacket and do the one thing I haven't done in a while…go for a walk. I also grab the burner phone with me and walk outside. It's a bit cold, but manageable. I wouldn't die if I stayed here for a while. The cabin is completely secluded by just trees and green. It's beautiful, I won't lie to you. It's like a withes playground. I know Grams would love it…I also know you would have loved it. I just felt huge lump in my throat thinking about that…thinking about you. There's only one person right now, besides the obvious, who would understand.

I dial the number on the burner phone and after three rings she answers, "Hello?"

"Caroline?" I sigh in relief. It's weird feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

"Bonnie?" She says with what I can hear is a smile, "Oh my god, you have no idea how good it is to hear your voice."

"Same," I smile with huge tears rolling down my face, "I miss you so much."

"Bonnie!" She says sniffing, "Please don't cry. It's making me cry."

"I'm sorry I'm just happy to hear your voice." I smile and then hear Rick saying, "Josie's eaten and napping. I'm going sit in the room with them. can you take the next hour?"

"Sure," She says optimistically, "I'm just talking to Bonnie…you still there Bon?"

"Yeah," I can't help but smile, "You sound like a real parent."

"I feel like a real parent." She sighs, "Do you know how much sleep Rick and I have gotten in the last couple of months." I can't help but start giggling, "Seriously, remember in health class when Miss. Pratt said don't fall pregnant because believe me having kids is a one way ticket to 'you don't have a life anymore'!"

I can't help but laugh because the three of used to mock her for saying that. Remember?

"And then Elena would say something like, so basically just having a mini version of Jeremy in your life." I said and burst out laughing with Caroline. We sigh as the laughter ends and at that moment we realize those moments are over. I decide to change the subject, "How are the girls?"

"They're beautiful Bonnie!" She says, "I think I'm in love." I couldn't help but smile at how happy she sounded. Compare to how she was when Stephan went MIA, "It feels natural you know? It shouldn't be like this."

"Why?"

"Because I'm not their mom," She says sadly, "But I feel like their mom."

"Then you are their mom Caroline." I say to her, "I don't think those girls are going to get a better mother than you."

"You really think so?" She says hopeful.

"Yes," I smile, "And I know Rick…he wouldn't be able to do this without you."

"Everyone needs a Bonnie Bennett in their life." Caroline says giggling, "I know definitely know I always need you Bon…"

"I'm glad," I sigh and then finally say the words I'm sure she doesn't want to hear, "Have you heard from-"

"Don't even think about saying it!" Caroline said in her every controlling voice, "You and I clearly hate the Salvatore brothers!" She wasn't wrong, I hated Damon right now as much as she hated Stephan. Though I guess it was different because she used to be in love with Stephan, if she still isn't. I considered Damon like my best friend, " We are moving on with our lives now."

Was I really? I mean I'm doing research for a crazy orphaned vampire. This wasn't moving on, this was keeping my life on halt. Then again, moving on wasn't an option. People wanted to capture me, for the first time in my life…I wanted Caroline's life.

"Bonnie you still there?" She says

"Yeah I am," I roll my eyes and then say, "Don't freak out ok but moving on is kind of not an option for me."

"What? Bonnie what's going on?"

For the safty of those girls, Caroline and even Rick; I keep my information to a minimum. I just tell her about how the Amory want me but I don't know why and how I'm hiding. I don't tell her where and how.

"Bonnie!" Caroline says in disbelief, "Oh my god. Maybe you should come here or I could come there. You need protection." She goes on and on.

"Caroline…Caroline…CAROLINE!" I say to her, "You have two beautiful girls to look after as it is…I'll be fine. I promise."

"But-"

"No!" I stop her. I have a small smile on my face because this was so typical of her, "I will be fine. I promise. You just tell those little girls about a brave witch like me because I'm not feeling so brave."

"Bonnie…" Caroline says with a voice full of sympathy.

"You do that Caroline and know that I'm going to be ok." I smile a little through the tears, "And to give you a little peace of mind…I kind of have protection."

"Who?" Always curious Caroline. She hasn't changed much.

"I can't tell you," when I say this she obviously huffs in frustration, "Don't worry Caroline. They're kind of doing a bang up job." Oh my god, I just complimented Enzo. Stop Smirking Elena, I can literally see you smirking right now.

"If you say so." She says and then I hear a baby crying on the other end, "Bonnie I've got to go."

"Yeah, I understand." I say to her and smile at how maternal she had become, "I'll speak to you soon."

That phone call was meant to make me feel better. I feel like more worse than I did before I walked out here. I slowly walk back to the cabin. It took a little longer because I kind of got lost. By the time I got back it was dark but the lights inside the house were shining and the chimney was smoking, but no car. I walked slowly to the house. When I walked in I was very cautious but there was no one. There was Chinese food on the coffee table and a small note next to it. I picked up the note:

Eat up Love. I'm sure that walk worked up an appetite. E

What an asshole, can't even come to the cabin and say hi. I won't deny the fact that I was hungry so, I won't be that mad when I see him. I don't even know why I care. That night I sat reading a little bit more into the Amory. I looked around the room like I was waiting for something to comfort me…I didn't know what. I looked in front of the fire and looked at the guitar…

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