A/N: We can all agree that last chapter was pretty awesome, isn't it? Well, those of you may have realized there was Sword Art Online with that event, then you are correct. I very much as myself to be like Kirito, we are alike in many ways.

World: Radiant Garden

I slowly start to return to my senses. During my unconscious time, there was nothing but darkness. No dream, no light, no anything. I wonder what happened?

I start to regain my hearing. I hear some fainted beeping, like from a machine or something. Not only that, I hear voices too.

"How is she doing?" One voice asks.

"She's barely improving. The doctors had to put her through surgery." Another voice says.

Her? Surgery? I hope they're not talking about Aqua. "Surgery? It must be a serious condition."

I open my eyes, slowly. It's very bright, very blurry. My eyes take a moment to adjust. I see I'm in some white room. "What surprises me more is his attack on that Heartless. What is up with that?" A voice that clearly sounds like Sora says.

I give a weak moan. I look ahead to see Sora, Terra, Ventus, Riku, Kairi and Mickey having a conversation. They all look at me, surprised. "He's awake!" Everyone gathers around me. I try to sit up, but my strength is still pretty weak. I end up getting help from Kairi when she grabs my hands and pulls me into a sitting position.

I notice that I am shirtless with bandages wrapped around my stomach, and on my left side, the bandages are stained with blood. I must have gotten badly injured. I look past the group at the window, to see I am back at the peaceful city of Radiant Garden.

"Aqua is safe." I look at Terra as he speaks. "She's in the intense care unit."

I look down. "That doesn't really sound too good to me."

"Well, you should really worry about yourself. You pretty much died back there." Ventus says.

I look at him shocked. "I...died?" He knows. "I does explain the agony I'm feeling." I put a hand on my wounded side of my stomach. "But...how am I alive?"

To answer my question, Sora takes out an object and rests it on the side of my bed. I look at it, and I'm surprised. It's the revival item I got from Father Scourge.

[Flashback]

I stand in the center of the arena, looking up at the giant heart. When it's gone, my Twilight's Dawn form ends, Keyblades vanishes, then I fall dead on the ground.

"BIG BROTHER!" Serah abandons Aqua and rushes to me side. Sora, Mickey, Terra and Ventus joins in as well. Serah is on my side. She tries healing my, but it fails. Then she checks my pulse...Nothing.

"He's not even breathing." Terra says.

"He's...dead?" Serah asks, sadden. Everyone seems depressed, but not Sora. He was sadden at first then suddenly remembers something. He reaches into his pocket. "What is it, Sora?"

Sora takes out the revival item. "Just hang on a minute."

Sora places the item on me then turns it on. It activates and sends a healing pulse all over my body. The second I'm coated in the light, it fades, then I let out a sharp groan, followed by breathing.

[Flashback ends]

"You told me you use it on the next person who dies...so that's what I did." Sora says.

Hearing that, I suddenly remembered that night on Christmas.

'Do me a favor, Sora and use it on the next person who dies before your eyes.'

"As soon as you were brought back to life, we rushed right out of the Realm of Darkness." Terra says.

Riku crosses his arms, looking upset. "Talk about neck of time. The portal was just about to collapse by the time you guys arrived."

"Well, we made it out, didn't we?" Terra says.

"How long was I out?" I ask.

"Only two days. It was pretty intense, Serah could barely left your side." Sora says.

"Took a lot of convincing...and some fighting, but we manage to get her home to rest." Terra says.

We say nothing for a while, then Sora speaks. "Anyways, what was that?"

I look at Sora. I know what he's talking about. "Do I have to say?"

"Sure. I've never seen anything like that. I mean, sure you're strong and powerful, but that...that was a whole new level." Sora says.

Everyone else is looking at me, telling me to answer. I know I can't hide it from them, so I explain. "You guys know how I've forgotten about my past? Well...I remember everything now." They all look surprise to hear that. "A few days ago, Naminé told me I had this powerful darkness inside of me, that's preventing me from remembering my lost memories. So...I went to Castle Oblivion under her instructions and regain my memories." I face everyone. "I...am a LeiShen."

Now they are shocked, they gasped even. "What? No way!" Riku says.

Mickey on the other hand doesn't look too surprised. "I knew it. I figured you were the LeiShen, the moment I saw you fought that Heartless."

"But wait...if you're the LeiShen...then does that mean?" Terra asks.

"That's right...I am the last one you all heard from the stories." I say.

"But...how did you survive?" Ventus asks.

I turn my attention to Mickey. "Because of Mickey...When I was born, he bestowed a gift upon me. If I'm ever in trouble, the light will guide me to the light of another." I turn to Terra and Ventus. "That's how I end up in the Land of Departure."

"I see...So, what happened to your people?" Terra asks.

"Rasputin is what happened...He betrayed us all." I say. "He attacked my home, he turned the LeiShen's into..." I stop talking, it's hard to say what happens next. My expression softens then I look down. "Into...that Heartless we...took out."

Everyone else now makes regretful expressions. "Oh..." Terra nervous rubs the back on his head. "S-sorry...about that man."

I say nothing else, neither does anyone else. The silence is pretty awkward. "Uh...maybe we should...let him rest up." Riku suggests.

"Good idea. We should...probably go check on Aqua." Ventus says.

Ventus and Terra leaves. "Yeah...maybe I should back to Merlins, let Serah know Patrick is awake." Sora says.

Sora, Riku, Kairi and Mickey leaves. When they're out the door, Kairi stops. She looks back at me, with the expression of sorrow and regret, then walks out the door. I remain seated on my hospital bed, drowning in despair.

My people...they were calling for help. To be freed from the torment Rasputin gave them. But all I did was end their lives.

"What have I done?" I ask myself, as tears slide down my face, and one of them drips onto the back of my hand.

Five days have passed since I waken. Nothing has gotten any better since then.

I was released from the hospital on the second day, but I was ordered to stay in bed for a week. It doesn't matter, cause I have given up on life. I destroyed my own people, my real family. And what's worse: Aqua has fallen into a deep coma The doctors have done everything they can to restore her, but they are still uncertain that she will ever revive.

Why the hell did Sora had to waste that revival item on me?

There is a knock on the door. I make not the slightest movement from it. Serah slowly opens the door, looking in. "Hey, big bro." Her tone is calm and gentle, trying to cheer me up. Serah walks right in, with a bowl of seafood chowder, with half a loaf of bread on the side. She sets it on the table next to my bed. "I brought you something to eat...it's your favorite."

Is that really suppose to cheer me up? Serah notices I remain unchanged. She sighs and stands beside me, giving me a gentle stroke on the arm. "Hey, the hospital said Aqua is doing a better...just a little. She's breathing normally and her heart rate is starting to raise."

I still say nothing, neither does Serah. When she's done, she gets up and leaves, only to stop halfway when she hears some crashing. Serah turns, noticing the table is tipped, the bowl and tray are on the ground and the food is spilled. My arm is reached out.

She knows I tipped it over on purpose. "Just...stop it." I say, in remorse.

Serah gasps slightly, then she bends down to pick up the tray and bowl. "Oh, Patrick. If you keep doing this, we'll run out of food." Serah stands back up. "I'll go make you some more."

Serah leaves. She heads back downstairs. She walks by the living room where Leon and the others are at. Cloud, Aerith, Noel, Tifa and Rinoa are playing canasta. Yuffie is just watching them, disappointed. Since that other day when she was caught cheating in poker, she's been banned from playing gambling games of any kind.

Leon notices Serah walking by with the spilled tray. "Patrick refusing to eat again?"

Serah nods. "I don't understand what's gotten into him."

"Well, you have to remember. He just got his memories back, which turn out to be about losing his home and family." Riku says.

"Yeah, let's not also forget he destroyed his own people who were in the form of the giant Heartless." Leon adds.

"I get how that feels...I still remember that day when I stroke down the master." Terra says with regret.

"Yeah...I guess you're right, Leon." Serah says. "And Aqua being in a coma isn't helping his condition either."

"It's hard for all of us." Ventus says. "Let's just give Patrick some space, he'll be fine."

Serah understands and decides to give me my space. Up until tonight. While everyone is asleep, and Ventus and Terra are visiting the hospital, Serah took a shower and then was heading to bed, only as she's walking down the hall, she was passing by my room. As usual, the door is closed.

Right now, Serah is just in a pink robe, her hair all loose inside of the side ponytail. She knocks on the door. "Big brother? ...You still awake?" She asks.

There was no answer. After waiting enough, she slightly opens the door, shining a bit of light in the dark room. She takes a peek to see I am awake, still sitting on my bed in remorse. Serah lets herself in, closing the door behind her. "The shower is ready." She says.

I'm still silent, looking down in woe. Serah slowly approaches to me. "I'm...I'm worried about you, big brother. Everyone else is."

"Just leave me alone." I whisper.

Serah looks worried. She's trying to find the right words, but doesn't know what to say. "Big brother..." Serah sits on the side of the bed. "I know everything seems...bad, but it's going to get better. Trust me." I'm still silence as the grave. Serah puts a hand on my shoulder. "Just...believe in the light, and everything will-"

Serah was instantly interrupted when I suddenly grab her wrist, with a hard grip. Serah is astonished, especially when my grip is starting to hurt. My sorrow starts boiling into anger. I even look up with raging eyes, even Serah is starts to worry. "I...said..." I slowly start getting up off the bed. "Leave! Me!" I give Serah's wrist a twist, causing her to yelp. "ALONE!" That's when I use all my strength and toss her out the window, breaking through the glass.

Ventus and Terra are walking on the streets, hearing back to Merlin's house. They just finish their visit with Aqua, now having a conversation. All of that suddenly stopped when Serah crashes to the ground, followed by shattered glass. Luckily none of them landed on her.

Terra and Ventus hurries to her side, helping her up. "Serah? You okay?" Terra asks.

"What happened?" Ventus asks.

Serah moans a little. "It's...big brother. He..."

The conversation cut short when I jump out the window, two Keyblades at hand. They look up to see me preforming a dive attack. Terra and Ventus quickly helps Serah to her feet and move out of the way before I landed, breaking the very ground.

They all look at me, shocked, couldn't believe what they are seeing. I am panting heavily in rage, looking down. When I face them, they see my eyes are bloody red with veins popping out around the sockets, gritting teeth, growling. Serah makes a run for it then I chase after her.

Ventus and Terra didn't do anything, just have their eyes glued on the event. That's when Leon, Yuffie and Sora comes out.

"What happened?" Leon asks.

Terra and Ventus turns to face Leon. "It's Patrick. He started attacking Serah. He's gone completely mad."

Leon makes a run for it. "Come on!"

Serah makes a run through the gardens, going higher up, heading towards the front doors. Instead of taking the stairs, I run up the walls, up to the next level. That's where I catch her. Serah stops, only to dodge a couple of swings I throw at her. Serah could barely keep up, she ends up getting a cut on her cheek and collapsing.

Serah feels her cheek, and is surprised to find blood on it. She turns, looking up at me as I'm glaring down at her. "Bi-big brother! Please! Calm down!" Serah begs.

I point my Royal Heart Keyblade at Serah. "Shut up! Just shut up!" I say in a growling tone. "Don't you see...there's nothing left! NOTHING!" My hands shake, even the Keyblade trembles. "Don't try to fill my head with false hope!"

"But, there is hope. Aqua is still alive." Serah says.

I give her a shot look. "SHE'S DEAD!" Serah flinches back hearing me yell that. "Open your eyes! She is dead! She's never coming back!"

"B-but...Big brother-" Serah is shortly interrupted.

"I am not your brother...Stop calling me that!" I breath angrily, then I draw my Keyblade back. "Just...SHUT UP!"

Serah cowers, expecting a blow. But when nothing comes, she sees that my attack is stopped by Cloud. I give Cloud a mean look. "Out of my way!" I give Cloud swift strikes with my Keyblades he parries each of them.

Riku rushes to Serah's side and helps her up. "Come on, Serah. Let's go."

I fight my way through Cloud, but he stands his ground, getting in my way. Our weapons clash. Since my Keyblades do a X form block, I was able to disarm Cloud, then knock him out of the way. Shortly afterwards, I chase after Serah.

The chase goes all the way into the Postern. Serah and Riku are still on the run while I get ambushed by Leon, Noel and Tifa. Tifa holds me back, like a bear hug. "Patrick! Calm down! We don't want to hurt you. We just want to help." Tifa says.

Noel and Leon stands in front of me, positioned to stop incase I break free. I struggle in Tifa's arms, shouting. "Patrick! It's us. Calm down. It's us..." Noel says.

I stomp on Tifa's foot, which causes her to yell and loosen her grip. I give Tifa are kick in the feet, sweep kick to knock her off her feet, then I grab her by the collar of her shirt and toss her at Noel. It's now just me and Leon. He readys his sword for a fight. He swings, but I dodge then punch him hard, right in the chin. That knocks him out like a light.

I continue chasing after Serah. At the Restoration Site, I caught Riku and Serah within my sights, but was cut off when Terra and Ventus. They are both armed to attack. "Don't do this, Patrick. I don't want to hurt you." Terra says.

I growl, then I start attacking Ventus. Jab him in the stomach, knee smash in the head, sweep him off his feet then kick him towards Terra. With them out of the way, I run into the Bailey. Just when I'm at the entrance, a cloud smoke appears, revealing Merlin.

"Not so fast, young man." Merlin holds out his wand. "I'll have you know I am a powerful sorcerer. I've studied hundreds of ancient mastery spells, performed the highest levels of magic and I also make a killer soufflé. Trust me, you don't want to mess with me."

I just give a look that says 'Yeah right'. I grab Merlin, turn him around, doing some finger flicks on his spine, that's when it makes a loud crack. "Oh! My back!" Merlin bends down, hands on his back. "Confound it! It's the Spellweaver War all over again!" Then I move on ahead.

Riku and Serah stops at the top of the stairs. "Did we lose him?" Riku asks.

For an answer, I run up the wall and appear in front of them. "I'm guess we didn't." Serah says.

I fixate on Serah, charge at her with a yell. I strike, but I didn't hit Serah, but some barrier. I turn to see Riku is channeling his Dark Shield spell. "Don't test me, Patrick." Riku says.

In frustration, I attack the barrier with all of my remaining strength. Riku tries his hardest to keep his guard up, meanwhile Serah makes a run for it, but starts climbing up the Bailey wall.

I start attacking faster and faster, until Riku can barely see my attacks. His barrier starts cracking from my hits, even Riku struggles to keep his barrier up. For my final strike, I attack with the two Keyblades at the same time, shattering the barrier and causing Riku to collapse. I start running up the wall.

Serah makes it to the top, on the city wall. She stops by the edge, on the outside side of the wall, to catch her breath. She's on alert when she hears my yell. I jump high when I made it to the top, then do a dive attack. Serah rolls out of the way and I end up landing on the ground, inches from Serah.

My impact causes the wall to crack, on the very ground we stand on, then it breaks and collapses, taking Serah and me with it.

We now lay out cold on the Castle Gates Ruins. Serah is the first to awake. When she tries to get up, searing pain runs through her right arm. "Ah! ...My arm." She looks at it, there's no blood, but it's pretty bruised. A broken arm.

Serah looks to find me. She crawls over towards me, when she's close, that's when I start to regain conscious. She's right next to me, helping me get up with her good arm. The second I get a look at Serah, and that calm smile, I shove her away in frustration.

I try standing up, but I'm coated in pain, and having a loss of energy as well. I'm on my knees, grabing my Keyblades. Serah just stands there watching me. Leon and the others catch up. They stand behind Serah, ready to fight, but Serah tells them to stand down.

I'm back on my feet, I'm panting in exhaustion, but still overwhelming in despair and rage, mostly despair. I stumble towards Serah. She doesn't run, just stands and watches with concern. Slowly, I draw my right Keyblade back, then give a slow swing, like I'm not even trying to fight. Serah dodges easily just by taking a step back.

My movements are slow and lacking energy and style. I give another swing with my left keyblade, it's the same as the previous one. I give another swing, drawing back over my shoulder, but Serah grabs my wrist doing the swing, stopping it. I'm surprised to see this, then I look at Serah. She looks sadden, worried. I draw back my left Keyblade. She doesn't look worried, even though she can't stop that attack with her broken arm.

My left arm shakes, but doesn't swing. Tears are pouring out of my eyes, running down my face in three different streams. Finally, I just drop my left Keyblade, then the right one afterwards. I collapse on my knees, so does Serah, and I fall into her arm, sobbing uncontrollably.

After that night, I was taken back to Merlin's to rest. Since then, Serah was put in the hospital to get her arm checked out. It's morning and she is now ready to leave. Tifa, Yuffie escorts her through the hallway. Serah has her arm casted and in a sling. There's also a square bandage on her cheek to cover the cut.

"You feeling okay?" Yuffie asks.

"I'm fine, the doctor says it should be a one month mend at least." Serah says.

"That's going to be a long recovery." Tifa says.

Just as they're walking, they stop moving, caught by surprise that I'm walking down the hall at their direction. This time I'm fully dressed. Yuffie takes out his shuriken and Tifa readies to fight.

I look up, seeing the girls in front of me, ready to fight. I sigh, raising a hand in front telling them to stop. "There's no need. I'm not here to tassel." I say. The girls, mostly Yuffie and Tifa, seem confused, then I walk past them.

They all look back at me as I walk away. "What was that about?" Tifa asks.

"Came to his senses, maybe?" Yuffie asks.

Serah doesn't think so. She watches me until I enter a hospital room, that's when she knows what could be going on. "I'm gonna go talk to him."

Serah walks into the room I was in. There, she sees Aqua lay on the bed, in her coma with a breath mask. I'm sitting on the chair next to the bed, watching her sleep with the sorrow expression.

Serah approaches me. When she's right next, she puts a hand on my back. "Hey...Everything's going to be okay."

"Leave me alone." I say, looking down in sorrow.

Serah sighs then sits. "I can't do that, and you know it. I'm really worried about you, Patrick. You are usually never this cold."

I look at Serah a little nervous then grab the coat and wrap it further around me. "It's winter and I've...been having the chills lately, okay?"

Serah giggles. "Not that, silly. I mean the way you're behaving. It's unlike you, and it's making me worry."

"Well, then stop worrying about me." I look back at Aqua. "I'm...fine."

"Obviously, you're not." Serah says. "You're hurting, and I want to help you. But I can't unless you let me."

I'm silent for a while. She's right. Serah does want to help, and she can only do that unless I let her. "It's just...I have forgotten everything about my old life...and when I finally remember it, after all these years, it's all gone. To make matters worse, my people and family were turned into that giant Heartless...that I destroyed." I look down in shame. "I'm a monster..."

Serah shook her head. "That is not true. You have done nothing wrong. Patrick, do you remember what happened to Sora back in Hollow Bastion?" I remember, he turned into a Heartless. Sacrificing himself to save Kairi and the other princesses. "He turned into a Heartless once, but look at him now. He's still the same guy he was when we found him two years ago." Serah grabs my hand. "If that can happen to Sora, then I'm sure it'll happen to the other LeiShen's. You didn't kill them...you saved them."

I'm a bit shocked to hear that. "You mean...you believe that'll return one day?"

Serah smiles. "I know they will."

"Wow...I never really thought of it that way." I look back at Aqua. "But...Aqua..."

"What happened to her is not your fault. Even if it is, it doesn't matter. She's safe now, and she will wake up one day. It might just wake a while. Days, weeks maybe. All that matters is she will return." I say nothing else, just trying to take it all in. Serah moves her hand to my cheek and turn my head to face her. "Never give up, faith. Just remember: Always believe in the light."

"No matter what happens...never forsake it." I finish saying. Serah nods. I start feeling a bit warm inside, then I smile.

Serah smiles as well. "Hey, you smiled."

"Yeah...I guess I am. Maybe you're right..." I pull Serah into a hug, which surprises her. "Thanks, Serah.. I needed to hear that." Serah hugs me back with her good arm. After a while, I disband the hug, then I gently place my fingers on her bandaged cheek. "I'm...I'm sorry that I attacked you. And I'm also sorry..." I look away with guilt. "About what I said back there."

Serah shook her head. "No, you don't need to apologize. You weren't in the right mind." I look at Serah hearing that. "Besides, it's like you said: We're family."

I look confused. "Really? ...When did I say that?"

"Oh, you didn't exactly. But you did call us family before to defeated that heartless." Serah says. That's right, before I attacked the creature, I did shout 'Give me back MY FAMILY!'. "We should head back to Merlins, I'm sure everyone is worried about you."

"You go on ahead, I'm jsut stay here a little longer." I say.

Serah nods. "Okay. Don't stay too long."

Serah gets up then leaves the room. When she's gone, I look back at Aqua, standing up to stand right beside her. I take our her Wayfinder from my pocket. I close it in my hands, looking back at Aqua.

"I swear, Aqua...I will make Rasputin pay for this...for everything." I take Aqua's hand, place the Wayfinder on it, then close it. "You can rest now."

I gently place her hand back on the bed, then I leave without saying another word.