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Chapter 23,

Dear Elena,

Bed, stay in bed
The feeling of your skin locked in my head
Smoke, smoke me broke
I don't care I'm down for what you want
-To Love

Remember when I was never ok with having the flu…turns out I still hate but not as much as I used to.

After Enzo and I had…what you would probably refer to as a "moment". I decided to not think anything of it. Instead I was determined to stay friendly and maybe when all of this is over, we can be friends. I figure he would be a much better friend than Damon will- can- ever be. Besides I need someone to give you my diary and I was positive that Enzo would deliver. Well if you are reading this, than I'm assuming he has.

Anyway, about two weeks after our little "moment', I woke up feeling extremely groggy. In fact I don't even think that's the word to use. When I looked at the time on my night stand it was three in the morning. Before I could try and comprehend why I was even up that early I found myself running to the bathroom with last night's dinner coming out. Literally everything was coming out, whatever everything was. I leaned against the cold floor when I was done and felt my nose running along with the bead of sweat on my forehead. Little to say, I was having a fever. I had expected this for a week now when my throat felt a tad scratchy the other day and my body started feeling a little run down.

I tried to look up and lift myself up but everything was spinning so I just decided that I would be safest on the floor. I eventually tried again to stand up and walk to my room. I was on my two feet and then trying to walk but everything ached when I did. The next thing I knew I was stumbling but before I could actually hit the floor something caught my waist. I look through my glassy eyes to see Enzo sniggering at me.

"That flu finally kicked in did it?" He smiled at me and picked me up like it was nothing to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck without thinking and borrowed heat from his neck. Without even realizing it, his body heat was taking all the cold away. Through my very blocked nose, I could smell something musky, almost honeysuckle...almost "homey". Instead of taking me to my room he carried me effortlessly to the living room where the remains of last night's fire was still simmering. The room was so nice and warm compared to my room. He placed me gently on the couch. He ran inhumanly to my room and came back with my thick duvet and plush pillow.

"You don't even know the half of it." I grumbled as he gently lifted my back to place the pillow behind me. I was vaguely aware of how his thumb caressed the small part of my back. He slowly and lightly pushed me back into the pillow. I sighed as the softness of the pillow against my back enveloped me. Not to mention how he spread the duvet over me. It was like my body was welcoming any comfort he was delivering.

"I do not miss this part of being human." He smiles at me as he tucks me in. I couldn't help but find comfort in looking into the deep brown that was his eyes.

"Don't show off." I mumbled as I felt him tighten the duvet over my feet. He then sits down on the edge of the couch and looks at me.

"I'm trying my best not to," He smiles, "If my soul is damned, I should embrace in the perks."

"Damned?" I said through the flurry on my dizziness.

"Damned." He confirmed. I couldn't help but detect a hint of sadness. He quickly changed the subject, "What can I get you?"

"Just stay here." I say to him and then take his hand without thinking. I had no idea where that even came from, Elena. He looked at the gesture with a look I couldn't piece together. That scared me that I started shivering slightly. He noticed.

"You're cold?" He said pulling his hand away.

"No I'm fine." The shiver went away, "What are you doing home?"

"How do you mean?"

"I mean shouldn't you be double 'agenting' somewhere?" I smiled at him as he chuckled at my poor use of English.

"I was," He said walking over to the kitchen and coming back with a mug of hot liquid. I could smell lemon and some ginger, "Alex is in a bad mood lately."

"She hasn't found me," I say as he hands me the mug, "So you can't really blame her."

"I personally think she's needs a good scene to."

Don't we all, I said that in my head because lately some snide comments could be interpreted in the wrong way.

"Maybe." I shrug at him, "Do you know that she was once engaged?"

"Yeah?"

"Yeah." I nod, "She met him in college. Virginia wrote about him. Said that she was calm-"

"Alex calm," He scoffs, "That must have been a shock to everyone."

"Don't be like that," I point out and then sigh, "Love makes people do odd things. You should know... or rather have known." I chuckle slightly as I sip the hot water.

"I do know." He says looking away. I think he thought I didn't hear that comment, but I heard it as well as felt it.

I decide to change the subject, "My grams used to put rose petals in tea like this when I was sick."

"Rose petals?" He laughs at me.

"Yeah," I shake my head, "She used to say, you look horrible child…" I look down as I realize how sad I'm becoming, along with nostalgic, "Let me make you beautiful again." I don't realize how quite I'm being and that tears have rolled down my face.

Enzo takes my hand; I don't know what came over him this time. I look at him and he uses his thumb to rub circles on my hand as he holds it. He then smiles, "I happen to think the rose petals are useless against your beauty Bonnie."

I look at him and then smile slightly, almost shyly. I try to sniff 'delicately' but there's no such thing as delicate when you're sick this ends up ruining the gazing moment we had. He starts laughing at my very gruesome sniff.

"How unattractive." He says laughing and I can't help but laugh a little with him.

"Whatever." I roll my eyes, "What was I telling you before…oh yes, Alex. Yeah he left before the wedding."

"Do you know if he knew of the Armory?"

"He didn't." I say as I place the mug on the coffee table. Well I lean to reach the table and Enzo takes the mug from me and places it down, "Virginia says that Alex spent all of her four years at college not talking about her family. When he proposed after they graduated, she still refused to speak about her-your- family. That's why they broke up."

"So Alex does have a degree?"

"Undergrad yeah," I say to him, "In Law."

"Smart girl," Enzo rolls his eyes, "Which means she's got smart and good tactics."

"A Law degree is useless unless you practice Law," I say to him, "All Alex does is practice how to break the Law. I mean between Kidnapping people and stealing rare artifects not mention the money she steals from the government right under their noses to fund the armory."

"It's an old St John tradition, love." Enzo sighs, "You can't exactly blame her for having that mindset."

"It's probably that tradition and mindset that cost her-her fiance." I look at him.

"Well our family is so dodgy I also wouldn't want to marry into it anyway." He says and I try to laugh with him but I feel too tired and weak. He sees that immediately, "Get some rest Love…I will be here in the morning."

"Promise?" I smirk at him as I feel my eyes drop slightly.

"Why do you miss me when I'm gone?" He chuckles slightly.

"Not in the very least." I smile at him and then once again without I say,"Enzo?"

"Mmm?"

"Will you lie with me?" I ask him. There is a long silence and for a moment I think he's sped out the room and into his car. Until I hear him take his boots off and move in behind me without hesitation. He is very careful as he shifts me slightly forward. He wraps his arms around me. You know what Elena…I felt much better in that moment. Not just from the sickness but mostly from everything. I felt safe, I felt warm…dare I say it…

I felt happy.

"Are you comfortable."

"Very." Was the last thing I remember saying until sleep enveloped me. For the first time in a long time, despite being sick, my dreams were not so bad and dark.

When I woke up again, I was alone on the couch but I heard dishing up. I turned to find Enzo dishing soup into a bowl.

"Oh good you're up," He smiles, "I made you some soup and more tea. I got you some meds that I think helps humans." I look at the table where he is pointing. He may as well have bought the whole pharmacy because there was a lot of medication. I looked at him and realized he was in some sort of rush.

"What's the rush?"

"Alex needs me back at the office for something." He says and sighs, "I've already delayed her by two hours because you were sleeping."

"Why didn't you just go?" I ask him frowning. I mean it's not like him to jeopardize our cover for me, "I would have been fine."

"Because I did promise that I would be here when you wake up." He says as he takes buns out the oven. He turns to look at me, "Go and freshen up and your soup will be here waiting for you…unfortunately not your knight in shining armor."

I stand up and laugh at him and pretend to look around, "What knight in shining armor?"

"Funny college girl." He says grinning, "Go, I will see you later."

I walk towards my room and remember something. I turn to look at him.

"Enzo?"

He looked at me with a curious expression.

"I meant what I said."

"Yeah about what?" He said not quite understanding what I was referring to.

"Your soul could never be damned." I then walked into my room and closed the door.

B

Author's note…

Sneak peek into the next chapter:

Dear Elena…

I thought I knew what perfect lovemaking was until this very moment. Even now as I am writing in you and Enzo is busy making me tea, I can't stop smiling…

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