HAPPY MONDAY MY BONENZO LOVERS!

Chapter 25, Part 2

Sleep on me, feel the rhythm in my chest, just breathe
I will stay so the lantern in your heart won't fade
Kiss my lips, feel the rhythm of your heart and hips
I will pray so the castle that we've built won't cave

-Jon Bellion

Dear Elena,

I have always found that the morning or night -or whatever after sex- is always the most awkward. Well from my past experience it's always been awkward. I remember I couldn't come to you, so I went to Caroline to ask her if it's the same.

"Are you kidding me?" Caroline said in the dorm room, "I find the morning sometimes better than the night before."

"Why?" She was sort of still hung up on Tyler then and Stephan was just a friend and she wasn't pregnant and Rick was still in love…point being everything was normal. Well as normal as it could be, you were still there so everything was normal.

"Bonnie," She smiled, "I'm an organised bossy person, but I find that morning are a time when you can really connect with them…again."

"Ew Caroline." I frowned at her as we moved around the dorm room.

"You wanted honesty so I'm giving it you," She rolled her eyes, "I actually find that you can judge them better in the morning."

"Judge them?" I raised an eyebrow at her.

"You want to see what their routine looks like," She said, trust Caroline to fins some schedule to go about on, "And mornings are the best way to do that. For instance, I have a set lists of things I do before I embark on leaving this dorm room."

"I know," I side eye her, "I'm the one that has to shower after you."

"Exactly," She points out, "I create routine for you by sticking to my thirty minute bathroom schedule."

"As opposed to the fifteen I actually have."

"Point being Bonnie," She says frustrated, "Tyler never had routine. And I judged him and now he's not here and things are bad and…"

You can roughly imagine how the rest of the conversation went. Though on the topic of awkwardness, that conversation was completely and utterly not helpful at all. Every time Jeremy and I had sex, I would wake up before him and I don't know it was almost as if I felt guilty for being with him. I think it had something to do with the fact that he was your brother. Though even after you told me to stop being weird...I still was. I didn't have any weird or awkward feeling with with Enzo. The irony is beyond me, the person who I think I've hated since he came into our lives is the only one I feel comfortable naked around. See after we…yeah…I fell asleep on top of him. Little to say that I definitely prefer his chest over pillows, especially when he's tracing patterns on my back. I fell asleep to him doing that and woke up to him doing the same thing. Only now he was humming too. It sounded like some sort of lullaby, like he was humming something somber yet cheerful if that makes sense.

"I feel sorry for whoever comes to your music school." I break the ice and starting tracing his chest with my fingers. He chuckles slightly.

"I'm afraid to ask why." He says.

"So should they," I lean on his chest to look at him, "They end up naked in bed with you or worse…on a couch."

"That is horrendous." He saying mocking shock. I decide to play along.

"I agree." I nod and look at him with deadly eyes, "Someone needs to do something about it."

"And what exactly is that?" He grins at me.

"I can think of a few things." I lean up and kiss him soft and then passionately. He pulls away to look at me.

"This is very peculiar." He says smirking. I can't help but feel insecure.

"What? Do I have morning breathe?" I say covering my mouth. He laughs and takes my hand away from my mouth.

"Considering it's not morning," He smiles at me, "It's just after dusk."

I look outside the window; I had only been sleeping for about an hour before he woke me up. It was a bit dark and slightly gloomy.

"And morning breathe has never exactly been a problem in my life." He chuckles even more.

"Then what's peculiar?" I look back at him. He sighs a little and moves hair from my cheek.

"You do know we spent a better part of almost four, five, years hating each other," He says and then looks at the fire, "My only connection to you was Damon."

"How the mighty have fallen." I sit up taking the afghan with me to cover myself. He sits up slightly too.

"How do you mean?"

"I mean exactly that," I look at him with a condemned expression, "Your connection to me was Damon; my connection to Elena was also Damon. Caroline's connection to Stephan was ruined because of Damon…He was that mighty force keeping us together. Yet he couldn't keep himself together long enough to live without Elena."

"Perhaps." He shrugs and then leans in to be closer to be, "Though he's in a box now. If he wasn't, in my place to protect you, it would be him."

I look at him wondering and analyzing in my head how this is all happening and how easily it could have not happened. He was right, Damon would have ripped out Alex's throat by now without even finding out what is was exactly she wanted. Enzo and I want to know.

"If he wasn't in that box Bonnie," Enzo whispers looking deeply into my eyes, "I would have never realized my feelings for you…feeling I suspect have been there for a while."

"How long?" I whisper. I know what you're thinking Elena, why would I ask such a ridiculous question. I had to know though because this change between Enzo and I didn't just come from him saving me from his family. That motive came far beyond that, that's what I want to believe because that's how I feel…Feelings that I can't seem to write down and say to you because they feel so foreign.

"That's a good question." He leans back into the couch, "One I'm afraid may have you running for the heels."

I sigh and lean closer to him and take his face in my hands, "It was round about the time you sat down with me and had a drink with me." I said to him. He's eyes go wide, "You were nice to me, sarcastic," he chuckles a little, "But nice never the less."

"We spoke for hours that day." Enzo says looking into the fire like he was remembering that conversation...I myself felt like I was remembering it. Since I never told you what happened that night might as well now.

It was the day that I got stuck at an impound with Enzo looking for that sword, a sword I didn't know then would be the biggest problem in our life. I was meant to help Matt that day with a blood /human/Juilian/Mystic Grill problem. A problem that I realise If I had gone to, that day would have turned out differently. Needless to say, Enzo and I got drunk, really drunk off Bourbon. Not that I remember most of the night but I bet you Enzo does. Anyway, I had just gotten off the phone with Matt, well more like he hung up on me in an anger fit for not helping him which I probably deserve. Enzo came, sat next to me and offered me a drink in the most Enzo fashion ever. By the way the night started with whiskey but ended with Vodka and Bourbon.

"Guess we could both use a drink." He handed me the the drink and look exhausted, tired, defeated and not to mention completely disappointed.

I smile weakly at and him and take the drink, "I heard today didn't go so well." Enzo sips his drink in utter frustration, showing more disappointment in his actions.

With the sword, or with Lily?" He before saying, "Because the answer's the same."

"So that's it? You're giving up?" I looked at him holding my glass. I asked this because Enzo never striked me as someone who would just 'give up'. That's what I found most annoying about, he's persistent need to get things done, especially involving him.

"When nine Russians tell you you're drunk, you lie down." He looks at me as he says. He smirks slightly when he says then and looks down a little in disappointment. "Lily made her intentions clear." He shrugs at me and then looks at his glass before taking a long dragging sip.

I think about it for a moment and then couldn't help but smile affectionately at him before saying, "Good." Enzo looked at me when I said that like he was looking for clarification, "You're better off without her."

I smiled at him and then looked at the glass, "What am I drinking?"

"Whiskey." He frowned at my glass like I has lost my mind for not knowing that.

"It's awful by the way," I say to him and move the glass back to him.

"Ungrateful." He rolls his eyes and then looks at the bar signalling for the bartender, "Can I have a..." he looks at me and then smirks, "glass of milk?"

"Funny!" I glare at him, "A bourbon will be fine, with ice."

"No No no," He shook his head, "If you're having a bourbon with me, you're gonna drink it the way it was intended."

"I'm sorry when did you become an expert on alcohol?"

"You're speaking to an old age vampire that was here when liquor prices were nothing," He says to me looking back the bartender, "Can I have a bottle of bourbon and two glasses, hold the ice."

"A whole bottle I have class tomorrow Enzo?" I look at him.

"I always forget you and Caroline go to college." He frowns and then shrugs, "Oh well I'm Alraic won't mind if you miss a day, considering he's missed weeks now is it?"

I glare at him, "Not funny," I sigh, "He's going through stuff."

"Yes, a woman who turned out to not be he's love but was in his love's body died. Again." Enzo says as the bartender comes with two glasses and the bottle of bourbon. He places it on the table and walks away, "He doesn't have to define what it's like to have no love, I'm singing that tune very well." Enzo's voice seems hurt as he says that but I can't seem to figure out if he really is as he opens and then pour it gently into the glass. He hands the glass to me and then pours himself a glass.

"Ain't you going to finish your whiskey first?" I point to the two glasses.

"Vampires come with the added bonus of having a extremely high tolerance," He takes both glasses of whiskey, mine and his, and shoot it down without even cringing. I on the other hand cringe for him. He smiles at me, "Onto the next one Love." He points at the glass.

"Are you sure you're referring to your drink or your love life." I wink at him and he now glares at me. But then grins at me.

"I guess we will see."

"You were so drunk that night." Enzo says chuckling taking me out of the memory.

"Excuse me look who is talking?" I feign that I am offended, "If I recall correctly you had more than me."

"Yes but you forget," He smiles at me, "Vampire, high tolerance and extremely old and experience in the art of handling my liquor."

He had a very good point, "I don't even know how I got home that night."

"I took you." He said simply like it was normal, "Well more of I carried you home and even tucked you in bed."

"What?" I look at him with a mesmerized expression.

"Don't worry," He chuckles at me, "I didn't have a music lesson with you then."

I can't help snigger with me, "If I had know you would be that amazing like you were last night, I wouldn't have minded."

He laughs even more before saying, "You were dancing on tables, so I think you did all the physical exercise that you could do that day."

"What?" I cover my face in embarrassment.

"You were actually really good," He laughs louder, "Did you do dancing as a child, your rhythm is something else."

"Yet I can't seem to master old people dancing properly."

"That is an old skill that many have tried to master." He says making me laugh louder and harder. When our laughs come to a slow end he said something in a voice that sounded warm, comfortable and more so beautiful, "That night you told me I was better off without Lily." He looks at me with wide wondering eyes, as if he wants to clarify that fact.

"I still go by that statement." I grin shyly at him and moves my hands from his face to his hands, linking our fingers together. I try to look away but he captures my lips with his mouth and the next thing I know, he's kissing me passionately. As if he is trying to reassure that statement even more. When he pulls away he leans his head against mine.

"When you fixed my tie at Lily's shindig...that's when I realized I had feeling for you," He breathes and then smiles, "Actually when you told me I deserve better…before I killed Oscar." I smile a little against his lips, "It's not coming into perspective and then at the shindig when I looked…" He stares into my eyes, "into your beautiful bright green eyes…full of wonder and hope and compassion, Bonnie."

"You say those things like they haven't had me killed more than once." I roll my eyes and look down at our intertwined hands.

"That's the thing about you Love," He says lift my chin with a huge smile on his face, "Every burden that has ever been placed on anyone, has been automatically passed onto you."

"Enzo-" I shake my head because the last thing I want to talk about is how I've been the mop to everyone's mess for the last how many years now?

"No Bonnie," He says letting go of my hand and cupping my face, "You were right last night…I should've…I would've," He seems lost for words, if it wasn't so cute I would feel horrible for him, "I've wanted to tell you for a long time how I feel, I just was scared."

"Of what? A future I don't have Enzo?" I look at him. He seems hurt by my words, "I don't mean it like that…" I sigh and look away from him, "Before you saved me, I didn't know what I was going to do. I had no family because my mom embraces being a vampire, my dad is dead and my grandmother… I haven't even touched on some of my friends…" I can't seem to find the words to continue, "It's seems like now, I have more of a future with you than I ever had before."

He shifts my body in such a way that I am now sitting on his lap, "We'll figure out what the armory wants." He vows and smiles at me, "And then I will make sure that you have the future you deserve."

"I don't deserve it if you're not part of it." I look down at my fingers and he lifts my head up.

"That's the best part college girl," He grins at me, "It will be the best because maybe now I can take you to Europe without you having to baby sit."

I roll my eyes at him, "Oh how did I get so lucky?" I say sarcastically.

"You will do right in remembering how lucky you are." He winks at me.

And now as Enzo walks towards me with tea and I finish writing up in you, I can't help but feel content with the fact that this is what happiness should look like. How my life should have been from the beginning, how susceptible I was to a life where I thought I was happy but actually I was just breathing. With Enzo it feels as though I am living.

"What do you write in that thing?" He asks setting my tea down. He was wearing long pajama pants while I wore his t-shirt…only. He sits down the other end of the couch placing my feet on top of his lap. He starts to massage them. See where there is no awkwardness, I would have never allowed that.

"Well," I smile at him and closed you for a second to explain, "When Elena went into a coma; she asked me to document everything. She was obsessed with diaries."

"As is Stephan." Enzo rolls his eyes.

"I swear though, everyone knows what goes on in his diary." I shake my head and look at the diary, "See she wanted it to seem like she didn't miss anything at all." I feel a bit sad again, as I realize everything that has happened. Enzo tries to lift the mood up a bit.

"I'm very sure she will get a kick out of this story." He smiles at me and then takes my hand stroking it gently with his thumb.

I'm sure she will I couldn't help but think.

That night we made love, once again on the couch and then just slept there. It was warm, beautiful and everything like the first time we spent our night together. The prospect of just having him wrap himself around me and I him. The comfort that came from him saying my name as if he were at church and he was praising me like I was the highest of all gods. The concept that I may have stronger feelings for him than I could ever imagine.

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Authors Note,

Hi guys, sorry it took me so long to update. I'm currently writing mid terms (I'm in University Btw). That also explains why this chapter is shorter, but I made part 1 longer so that part 2 could be shorter. Your reviews have been amazing and I literally can't thank you enough for your positive feedback. The story must still go on...so what I'm going to be doing is now a lot of how their relationship progresses and Bonnie at the Aslymn and also we have a very unexpected guest come in...CAN YOU GUESS WHO? Let me know...

xxxx

CJR