Guard Dog

by Maddylovesyou

It wasn't his first choice but everyone has to start somewhere. Gon X Killua, with some other pairings in the mix.

17. Chapter 17

"You okay Killua?" Gon's eyebrows furrow, catching the subtle signs that the other male is upset or nervous. Killua has been working on Gon's tie for awhile now, tying it only to untie it, sigh after and redo it again. Killua has taken his time picking out something for Gon to wear, and whenever he would pick an outfit that Gon would try on, he would shake his head and start looking for something else. Gon isn't sure how long they've been in this closet. Killua finally settled on a white button up shirt with a green tie and black pants. Gon isn't sure he likes it much but Killua knows more about human clothes than he does.

Being in this closet, Gon has picked up on how Killua's tail flicks every once and awhile and his ears will do this little twitch down. He's picked up on the slight turning of his mouth and the slight shake of his hand as he puts his tie into a knot, only to take it out again.

Killua wasn't like this till that butler came in again saying that his father was calling them to come down once they were ready. Before that he had been smiling and laughing with Gon as he introduced him to video games, he was touching on Gon's hand and subtly brushing his arm against Gon's when ever he would get the chance. Gon has been having so much fun with everyone. He can't wait to do this again and for the most part, Killua didn't make him too warm that he couldn't handle it. Gon was just happy to spend time with Killua and to be by his side. It's given him time to think too. Gon thinks he might come out after this dinner. Gon wants Killua. He wants to have him as his mate and seal the deal. He really cares about the other male and if he can just accept what he is...then it will be fine. Gon just hopes that once Killua sees that he's a werewolf, he'll realize that he was wrong in everything he said about his kind.

Killua stops messing with his tie, Gon not missing the slight tensing of his shoulders as those blue eyes slowly lock with his. "Eh." He shrugs his shoulders, taking the tie apart only to start again. "I've never really been okay." He grins but it doesn't reach his eyes. It's one of those fake things again that Gon doesn't like.

"Why do you keep taking out the tie? It looks fine. We've been in here for awhile." Gon frowns when Killua's ear twitches. "Do you not want to go to the dinner?" Gon must have hit the nail on the head because Killua sighs, that grin falling and those blue eyes looking at him honestly.

"No. I don't. I just have this bad feeling it's going to be hell. I'm worried..." Killua bites his lip as he ties the green tie before leaving it be, just grasping it lightly. "I know my family sucks Gon, and I know this dinner is going to be shit, you're excited now but by the end of it, I know you're going to hate them. Just know you don't have to deal with them much after this. Once we get out of here, I'm not coming back. They might try to come after us but we'll stay ahead of them. I...I don't want them scaring you away." Killua says the last part so quietly Gon almost didn't hear it. "Just be yourself and don't feed into their bull shit. If all goes well...which I doubt it will but if it does, my parents, or at least my dad will like you and then you really don't have to worry about them." Killua looks up, those blue eyes firm and powerful with resolve and it gets Gon's heart to beat faster. "I won't let them hurt you."

"It will be fine Killua. You don't have to be so worried. They won't scare me off. I won't be bullied away from you." Gon's eyes shine with determination. "Your family is bad to Alluka and I don't like that but I still want to meet your family because they're yours. Meeting them, makes me feel like we're getting closer. I don't know if they will like me but that doesn't matter because you like me, right Killua?" Gon smiles at the other male, seeing how those blue eyes light up and his body seems to relax.

"Yeah." Killua flushes, those eyes looking away before looking back at him. He chuckles lightly after staring at his expression. "You're the only one, you know that? No one else would have that smiling face if they knew they were about to have dinner with the Zoldyck's. Seriously. You're so weird." Killua's smile is soft and it gets Gon's heart to swell.

" I know they'll be dangerous just like you are but that just makes it more exciting." Gon grins. "Besides, I want to learn more about you Killua. Don't worry about me so much. I'll be fine. I want you to enjoy the dinner too! I can take care of myself you know."

"I'm not going to enjoy the dinner, whether you were there or not." Killua shakes his head. "You're strong Gon but you're not stronger than my family. Don't be reckless out there. Remember, if I pinch you, you stop whatever you're doing. You have to be conscious of your actions...for once."

"Yeah I know." Gon rubs the back of his head, frowning. "I don't like this Killua. I don't like how nervous you're getting over having dinner with your family. That shouldn't be. And Alluka was looking scared too. Dinner is a time for thanks and safety."

"Like I said, we're not that kind of family. Don't dwell on it too much. They're in the past, I'm not going to let them plan out my future anymore and that's all that matters. Once this is done, we're pretty much in the clear." Killua grasps Gon's tie before pulling him closer, he leans in close to his ear. "You've shown me a future I didn't know I could have. You reminded me I have a choice." Killua pulls away, Gon feeling his face heat up from the tickling of his ear from his words and how Killua is looking at him.

"Killua..." The heat goes to his head and he doesn't know what to say for a moment. Gon's not sure what he did but Gon recognizes Killua is praising him. Gon's tail would be wagging. The werewolf's breath hitches when Killua pushes him against the wall lightly, leaning in and kissing him softly. Gon's eyes widen before they slowly close, moving his lips slowly over the other male's, despite the warmth that spreads throughout his body. Gon finds himself clinging to Killua's shirt as he opens his mouth to let Killua's tongue invade his mouth. Killua hums in approval, wrapping his arms around Gon's waist, his tongue sloppily caressing Gon's, their tongues in a wet battle for dominance. When Gon's face heats up and Killua starts to purr he knows he has to stop this. Even though he doesn't want to.

"Killua...we should go..." Gon breaks the kiss, panting slightly, looking into those half lidded dark blue eyes that peer at him through long, dark eyelashes. Gon swallows. It really is unfair.

"I guess." Killua grumbles, those ears flattening on his head in disappointment, his tail flicking. There's a soft blush on his face that Gon finds adorable. Gon doesn't care what he says, Killua does have the adorable genes just like Alluka. "I'd rather just indulge in you." Killua says lowly rubbing his thumb over Gon's lower lip. He stares at Gon's face a moment before closing his eyes, taking a deep breath. "Mmm Gon...you make it hard on me." Killua reluctantly stops touching his face and moves his body away from Gon's. The werewolf missing his warmth already but at the same time he's relieved. Killua was making him too hot again. "If you changed that face of yours, maybe it would be easier to keep my hands off of you."

"I'll change my face when you change yours." Gon puffs out his cheeks, noticing how Killua's hand comes out, touching his arm before running down to his hand, interlacing their fingers. "If my face makes it hard, then you should just look at your face."

"I do, everyday and I don't have anything on those cute little cheeks." Killua mocks him, grabbing Gon's cheek, getting him to glare at the other, Killua chuckling in response.

"You're the one with the cute cheeks!" Gon puffs, grabbing Killua's cheeks and pushing them together, laughing at the fish face he made Killua have. Killua rips his hands off of his face, a smirk on his lips and that playful glint coming back.

"Let's get out of here before we're stuck in here for an hour fighting over who has the cuter face. Because you can't lose anything." Killua grunts but that smirk is still there. "Don't be too cute for my family, I wouldn't want to have to fight any of them off. They might try to eat you up."

"Your family eats people?" Gon tilts his head.

"Probably. I'm pretty sure Milluki has eaten everything so yeah."

"I really want to see him. You make him sound like he's very big. I've never seen someone who's 'fat' as you say."

"Oh ho you're in for a sight for sore eyes then." Killua chuckles when Gon looks even more excited. "You won't be disappointed." Gon blinks when Killua lifts up his hand and kisses the back of it, those blue eyes getting deep and serious suddenly. "If you want out of the dinner, if you think you can't handle it or you're going to blow up on them, just tap my leg three times. I'll make up some excuse. I'll get you out of the room."

"Okay." Gon smiles, trying to reassure the other male. He's really worried about this. Through all the jokes, Gon can see Killua is frighten. It makes Gon angry. He feels that heat in his chest but he lets it shimmer. Killua shouldn't be frighten or worried to eat with his own family. He doesn't like it. Not one bit. It gives him an idea of what his family is like though.

Gon has his own worries. Illumi. He hasn't been thinking about it but now he can't help to. He's going to be there and Gon is going to find out if it was him who he attacked and if he knows it was him. He's going to find the truth and that might mean exposure during this dinner. Zushi knows this as well. They have to be ready to fight. Gon isn't going to be bullied away from this place. He's not going to run off with his tail between his legs. He's going to have dinner with the Zoldycks and if Illumi survived, he's not going to show him fear.

"...Lets do it then." Killua lets go of Gon, straightening himself out before he walks out of the room, his face blank. Gon walks after him, fiddling with his tie that is strangely entertaining to mess with. It's strange wearing these clothes, they still smell like Killua and Gon likes it. Wearing something that smells like the other male, It makes him a little warm.

Alluka and Zushi are waiting for them. They're speaking quietly to each other before they stop and look over at the two.

"You ready sis?" Killua locks eyes with Alluka. Her eyebrows furrow but she nods her head. "Then lets go. Gotoh, call father and tell them we're on the way."

"Of course." Gotoh, who was waiting outside the door, nods his head before walking off.

Gon smiles when he sees Alluka and Zushi are holding hands, Zushi rubbing his thumb against Alluka's hand in comforting circles. It seems to be working because Alluka's shoulders relax. Zushi locks eyes with Gon. They both nod their heads. It could go bad. They're prepared for that.

"I wouldn't touch her like that during the dinner." Killua warns as they all walk out of the room, heading towards the entrance. He glares at Zushi. "it will cause more issues than needed."

"He's right. I don't want anyone trying to hurt you because you like me..." Alluka looks at Zushi with worry, letting go of his hand reluctantly.

"I will keep my hands to myself during the dinner. I won't cause extra problems. It seems we have enough of those." Zushi glances at Gon before nodding at Killua.

Gon looks over at Killua, the werecat is walking ahead of everyone, his back straight, his arms relaxed. He's nothing like how he was in the closet. There's no nervous tick of his ears anymore or the flicking of his tail. Gon doesn't say anything as they all walk out of the mansion, a car waiting for them. A butler opens the door for them and they all pile in. Gon between Killua and Alluka, their shoulders touching, it's snug, not uncomfortable. Gon closes his eyes, gripping his fist. It shakes slightly but not from fear. He's excited. He won't let Illumi scare him off. He won't let Killua's family scare him off either.

Gon opens his eyes when he feels a soft brush against his back. He glances back, seeing Killua's tail rubbing against his back but the assassin is staring forward, his face not changing. Gon smiles. Killua's trying to comfort him. It's not needed but it's appreciated.

Everyone is so quiet now. Gon doesn't like it much. "This place is huge." Gon beams as he looks out of the window, watching as they pass all the trees. "Do you have a body of water around here?"

"Yeah there's a lake somewhere if you go that way." Alluka smiles though it doesn't reach her eyes as she points out of the window.

"Ohh can I go fishing there some time? I miss it. I use to fish all the time back where I'm from." Gon grins, feeling that excitement again.

"Knock yourself out. I don't even know if there's any fish. I took Alluka over there once but that was so long ago." Killua thinks for a moment.

"I'm sure there is. Maybe. If not it's a good spot to swim I bet!" Gon beams. "Do you like to swim Killua? Alluka? Zushi?" Gon wants to get them all talking. There's no reason for this feeling.

"Eh it's alright." Killua shrugs his shoulders but those blue eyes are looking at him now, lighting up a bit.

"I haven't gotten to swim much but I think I remember liking it." Alluka smiles, this time it looks more natural.

"I do. Wing took me to the beach once. The waves were fun to fight against." Zushi smiles slightly.

"Oh! There's a place I haven't been, the beach!" Alluka looks over at Zushi, excited with the conversation.

"I've been once. For work. Drowned a guy and then got some ice cream." Killua smacks his tongue against his teeth. "The idiot was swimming at like 12 at night so I decided I'd get creative."

"When I was younger I thought that would be the best way to die." Gon smiles despite the dark subject, not bothered by it. "I love the water, Mito use to call me a fish because I was in it so much."

"I guess drowning isn't that bad of a death. I've definitely caused and seen worse." Killua looks over at Gon's bright eyes and his soften. "You really don't flinch at all when I talk about work. Does death not bother you? Most creatures would have a problem with my murderous background but you take it in stride like we're talking about the weather."

"Not really. I've seen plenty of it myself. You're an assassin. Killing is your job. I like hearing about you and what you do." Gon locks eyes with Killua, those blue eyes seem to search his, looking deeper.

"You've seen plenty of it? At your old home?" Killua questions, trying to seem less interested than he is.

"Yeah." Gon's smile doesn't fall but he looks away from Killua. He's not sure about centaurs, if they have poachers or not so Gon doesn't think he should talk much more about the subject.

Killua stares at him. He bites his lip before he looks forward again. His face is blank but he keeps glancing over at Gon, and if Gon wasn't paying attention to Killua, he would miss it. "Wow this place is even bigger than yours Killua!" Gon gasps when the car drives pass a couple of trees, showing a huge mansion on top of a large mountain. There's no way that this car will be able to drive up there.

"Yeah I guess it's a little bigger." Killua grunts as they all get out of the car. Killua holds out his arms, Alluka jumping into them. "I'll take my sis and come back for you two. It would take forever by foot normally." Killua sparks up, electrical sparks flying around him, his hair puffing up. He glances at Gon before he takes off running. In a flash he's back. "Come on." Killua snarls at Zushi. He's hesitant but he walks over to Killua, the assassin throwing the werewolf over his shoulder before disappearing. Gon blinks when Killua is back. It only took him three seconds.

"Killua you're amazing." Gon can't help to admire the other male. He would love to be able to run as fast as Killua can. "Can you teach me how to do that-"

"There's no way, The only reason I can is because I was trained young with electricity and I'm a werecat. Even if I did expose you to electricity you wouldn't be able to hone it like I did." Killua holds out his arms. "Come on."

"Maybe I could try." Gon glares stubbornly at Killua just brushing him off. If Killua was able, maybe he could too? It's just really cool. Gon's glare falls when Killua smirks and makes a come here motion. Gon walks up to him, blinking when Killua moves quickly, sweeping him off his feet, holding him against his chest.

"This is my technique and maybe I don't want to share it with you." Killua smirks at how Gon glares at him. It's strange, even though there's electricity everywhere and it surrounded Gon when Killua held him, it doesn't really hurt. It just feels like warmth.

"Sour patch kid." Gon huffs. Gon yelps when the warmth turns into a slight shock, Killua chuckles.

"I'd watch it when I have you like this." Killua glances around, the butlers had left when they dropped them off and it doesn't appear to be anyone around. Killua leans in. "I could shock you to death easily. You're vulnerable. So I'd be nice to me Gon." Killua's voice lowers, and it tickles Gon's ear. Gon shivers, a pang of excitement and something else going through him. Killua really could kill him like this. He has a good hold on him and any time he would move, Killua could shock him stiff. Gon shouldn't be getting excited by the danger but he is. He's feeling a bit too hot.

Gon squirms in Killua's hold, noticing how Killua's smirk grows, his fangs showing. "Killua that's not fair." Gon glares but the more he looks at Killua's attractive face and that dangerous gleam in his eyes, the more hot and bothered he gets. Gon smells that scent again, the scent Killua sends out when he's trying to dominate him. He's smelled it before but it's directly affecting him now.

"Aw you're blushing." Killua's grin grows. "Do you get off on this Gon? I knew you were an adrenaline junkie." Killua leans closer. "Do you like the idea that I could kill you at any moment if I felt like it?" Killua grabs Gon's butt, his touch shocking him making his muscle twitch.

"A-Ah stop Killua." Gon bites his shoulder, not enough to pierce the skin but enough for it to be a warning. There's a growl in the back of his throat but it's not like the growl he had when he was fighting Illumi. Gon is getting too warm from Killua's low voice and his scent. Gon is responding to him trying to over take him.

Killua's eyes get dark for a moment before he blinks and shakes his head, the pain seeming to snap him out of his lust. He lets go of Gon's ass before he gives him a peck on the lips. " Bite me again and you'll be punished." Killua purrs, those eyes half lidded before he closes them and takes a deep breath. "Seriously, stop with that face. The last thing I need is for my family to see me fondling you."

"Stop with your face." Gon huffs only to blink when he's thrown over Killua's shoulder. The werecat starts to run, everything becoming a blur.

"Remember. Don't touch me during the dinner. Stay natural." Killua's face becomes blank again, that smell dies and Gon can start to calm himself. In a second they're up the mountain in front of the large mansion that towers over them. Gon's eyes widen as Killua puts him down and he can't help to stare at the building in awe.

"It's so big!" Gon takes in the design and the fact there's butlers standing outside, waiting to let them in. " How many people live here?"

"Just my parents, Illumi, Milluki and Kalluto." Killua answers, his face scrunching up at seeing the place.

"Only five people?! Where do all the butlers sleep?" Gon's eyes widen as they all start to walk in. Alluka and Zushi are quiet again, Zushi glancing over at Alluka every once in a while.

"They have a place behind this mansion. Canary and Gotoh are the only ones who live with us." Alluka answers, her voice is a little jumpy.

"It will be alright sis." Killua speeds so he's walking next to her, grabbing her hand and holding it, giving it a squeeze. Killua's expression is firm.

"It's been so long since I've seen Kalluto..." Alluka starts to speak quieter and Gon would be able to hear if it wasn't for Zushi speaking to him.

"Gon, I have a bad feeling about this." Zushi doesn't look at him as the four walk into this large building, Zushi coming up next to him. "Alluka is frighten. She's trying to hide it but she can't. Even if we didn't have to worry about Illumi, just this dinner in itself could cause issues. What is our plan, If Illumi knows Gon?" Zushi locks eyes with him, those brown orbs searching him. Gon knows that whatever he says, Zushi will follow him. The look he's giving...Is how he would look to the leader of the pack.

"We don't do anything unless he does. I don't want to ruin the dinner. If he tries to attack us...then we run and take care of him away from the dinner. If he's told Killua's family and they all try to attack us...then I guess we have no choice but to fight. But we don't do anything unless we have to. Don't show Illumi any fear. We're here to have dinner with Killua's family and get to know them. Illumi isn't going to mess that up." Gon gives him that look, those amber eyes burning. Zushi stares at him before he nods, gripping his fist.

"I'm with you...but I must say, Gon." Zushi bites his lip. "If anyone tries to hurt Alluka, if they try to lay a finger on her, I might not be able to sit quietly."

"You? I wouldn't be able to either. So lets hope they don't do that. If they do, they deserve it." Gon eyes get dark in his anger, both of the werewolves nodding to themselves.

"Stop whispering. You're making the butlers nervous." Killua grunts. Gon blinks, looking around to see that the butlers that let them in are following them closely, staring at Gon directly. "Would you all back off? You're pissing me off."

The butlers don't lay up. Of course they wouldn't. Killua rolls his eyes. They're loyal to his father. Killua glances at Gon as they stop in front of these large doors. "Here we are. I'm going to apologize to you two in advance. I'm going to be honest, this whole thing is going to be shit. Right now my whole family is waiting in there and-"

"Hello!" Gon can't wait anymore. He's tired of all the seriousness when a dinner shouldn't be so serious. Dinner with family should be fun and warm! Gon bust open the doors, hearing Alluka gasp and Killua cursing. Gon's eyes widen when he takes in the large room before him and the long, long table in front of him.

When he came in shouting, everyone who was sitting down turned to look at him. The first person Gon sees however is this older man with long white hair and blue eyes just like Killua's. Gon can't help his smile, not sensing the tense air at all. He runs over to the man, his amber eyes taking in everything he can about him. "Wow! You must be Killua's father! He looks just like you! My name is Gon i'm Killua's best friend! What's your name?" Gon stops in front of where he's sitting, holding out his hand. If he was back home, he would be licking below the chin to show respect to someone who is older than him but Mito taught him how to show respect and be kind to outsiders by a hand shake.

Gon blinks when he's surrounded by butlers, all of them pointing something sharp at him.

"Get those away from him." Killua growls taking a step closer, Alluka clinging to the back of his shirt, closing her eyes as if she's afraid to watch.

"Yes, would you all stop it? He is our guest. There's no need for this treatment." Killua's father glares at the butlers and they quickly put away their weapons. "Leave us be. We'll be fine without you." Those blue eyes lock on Gon and his outstretched hand. He grins. "Welcome Gon. My name is Silva and yes I am Killua's father. I'm the current head of the Zoldyck family." He takes Gon's hand and shakes it firmly. Killua is watching carefully and the woman with a strange device on her face who is sitting next to Silva,makes a sound of disgust

"You're Killua's best friend?! This is unacceptable! Let's kill him now-"

"Calm down." Silva givers her a look and it's firm before he looks back at Gon.

"I've been wanting to meet you! You guys have a large home to just live here by yourself! Everything is so shiny too." Gon ignores the woman's words, too excited by the fact he's talking to Killua's father.

Kalluto and Milluki make a face but that goes unnoticed by Gon who hasn't even noticed the others yet.

"I've wanted to meet you since I found out about you. Killua doesn't tell us much now a days." Silva's blue eyes shine a bit as he narrows his eyes. "You do look familiar. I feel like I've seen a face like yours but I can't place it."

"Maybe you killed his family hon." The woman says with a slight twitch of her lips.

"Nope. My dad is still alive and my mom died giving birth to me." Gon hums, getting that woman to stop sneering and look at him. Gon smiles. "Are you Killua's mother?" He holds out his hand.

"Okay lets stop with the introducing and just sit down. This is a waste of time-" Killua starts, walking up to grab Gon but Silva raises his hand, stopping Killua.

"Now Killua, let Gon be. We're getting to know him." Silva waves Killua off.

"Yes I am." She huffs. Not taking Gon's hand. The young werewolf isn't perturbed, he just puts his hand down, his smile still there.

"What's that thing on your face-" Gon starts to ask only for Killua to grab him and pull him when his mom looks like he's about to grab him. Gon was only curious. Gon's eyes widen when he sees Milluki next. He's staring at him with a bored look on his face, digging into a bag of chips to throw into his mouth.

"Hi!" Gon waves, his eyes lighting up. This man is huge! He's barely able to sit in the seat. His stomach looks soft and round. "I'm Gon! You must be Milluki! You're bigger than I imagined!" Gon holds out his hand, Millumi's eyes narrow at Killua when he chuckles.

"I'm not going to shake your hand. I don't know where it's been." Milluki grunts.

"I know where yours has been, either your hand is in a bag of chips or down your pants." Killua narrows his eyes at Milluki. "Don't look at Gon like he's disgusting."

"Killua has talked a lot about you. I'm glad I could finally meet you." Gon beams all the same. Milluki stares at him for a moment.

"He's an imbecile. Of course the only friend you could make would be an imbecile Killua."

Gon doesn't know what that means but it sounds like a fun word to say. "Thanks!" Gon smiles, getting Milluki to raise his eyebrow at him. Killua starts to push him along, seeming to get irritated.

Gon makes Killua stop when he spots someone he doesn't know and hasn't seen before. A young girl sits at the table, staring at Gon with black eyes, her hair cut short, framing her face. She's wearing a dark dress but to Gon it looks like a silky robe. She looks like a doll.

"Who are you?" Gon fights against Killua pushing him, not noticing how Alluka and Zushi quickly walk pass them. The girl who looks like a doll glares at Alluka before her attention is back on Gon. "My name is-"

"I know who you are." Her eyebrows furrow. "I am Kalluto, youngest of the Zoldycks." She glares at the hand that's held out towards her. " I've been a part of the spiders since age ten and I'm going to tell you right now, you don't belong here and you don't deserve to be Killua's friend."

Gon's eyes widen at the part about the spiders, not caring about the rest. She's a part of the spiders? Does that mean Gon is going to have to kill her? But she's Killua' sister...Gon frowns and this seems to please Kalluto because she hums.

"You see now? You should be terrified. I could cut you into tiny pieces with just paper and I would enjoy it-"

"Really? Just paper?" Gon's eyes light in wonder even though Killua is stiff next to him. Kalluto blinks with the lack of fear and curiosity the boy is showing. "That's amazing! How do you-" Killua grabs Gon by the back of his shirt and starts to pull him. Gon frowns at being broken up but at the same time he's glad to get away from Kalluto. Why does she have to be a part of the spiders? She's Killua's sister. Gon feels a whimper coming on. This was unexpected.

Gon's amber eyes finally meet those empty black eyes. Gon stops, staring straight into those eyes that he despises. He's alive. Illumi stares at him, not moving, his face still. There isn't any anger or any emotion really on his expression. Gon glances at his body, not seeing anything wrong with Illumi. Gon's eyebrows furrow. He knows he attacked Illumi yesterday, it had to be him, so he should be hurt badly. Gon ate a part of him. He remembers how he tasted.

"Oh? Do you already know Illumi?" Silva raises his eyebrow at how Gon is looking at Illumi.

"We have a class together." Illumi answers, not looking away from Gon.

"Come on." Killua's face doesn't change as he walks pass Illumi, Gon doing the same, not looking at Illumi even though he can feel those eyes follow him.

Alluka and Zushi are already sitting down. Killua sits next to his sister and Gon sits next to him. He's directly in front of Silva. Illumi is to his right and Zushi to his left.

"We've all been introduced to you but who is the other young man?" Silva looks at Zushi.

"My name is Zushi. I am a friend and servant of Gon."

"A friend and a servant? You can't be both. A master isn't friends with a servant." Killua's mother scoffs.

"A servant? So Gon must be important." Silva looks at Gon for a moment. "...I know I've seen your face before..."

"Why is it sitting at the table?" Kalluto glares at Alluka making her tense, those blue eyes sliding away from Kalluto. "This is a family dinner-"

Killua pinches Gon's thigh when he started glaring at Kalluto. Maybe Gon won't have any issues killing her after all, except that she's Killua' sister...but Illumi is Killua's brother and Gon didn't have any problems ripping him apart.

"Alluka is a part of this family Kalluto." Killua says firmly.

"Does Gon want it sitting at the table?" Silva questions, raising his eyebrow at Gon.

"That doesn't matter-" Killua starts.

"I asked Gon a question. He can speak can't he?"

"..." Alluka is getting pale. She looks over at Gon like she's about to say something but Gon already has his answer.

"I want Alluka sitting with us." Gon locks eyes with Silva, his amber eyes shinning with a fire. He doesn't say anything else. He's trying to control himself.

Kalluto wrinkles her nose. Illumi just stares forward. Milluki goes back to playing his PS vita. Killua's mother looks like she's about to scream. Silva just smiles. Gon isn't' sure he likes it.

"So be it. You share Killua's thoughts." Silva claps his hands, butlers coming into the room. "Start bringing out our food. Everyone is here." The butlers run out quickly.

"You can dress up all you want, it doesn't change anything." Kalluto keeps glaring at Alluka. "Are you trying to be cute, it? Trying to hide the ugly with that make up?"

Alluka grips her dress, swallowing.

"She looks adorable. There's no ugly to hide." Killua narrows his eyes at Kalluto, he had to pinch his thigh before Gon started to say something. Kalluto grips her fists at Killua standing up for Alluka and she glares darker.

"Don't think because you're sitting here right now that makes you a part of this family. You don't belong at this table as much as Gon and other boy do not." Kalluto narrows her eyes.

Alluka doesn't look at her, not acknowledging what she said.

"Now Kalluto, according to Killua, Gon does belong at this table." Silva's face is blank but there's a glint in his blue eyes. "he's declared Gon an untouchable so he has labeled him a member of this family."

"What?" Kalluto and Milluki shout, the larger almost choking on a chip.

"I have to disagree father." Illumi finally speaks, his face not changing, watching him talk is like watching a still toy coming to life. "It is an untouchable but it is not apart of the family. Gon is nothing more than another tool to use just like it." Illumi slowly looks at Gon, those eyes don't change but his lip twitched.

"Hm. I suppose that's true." Silva watches as Killua's eyes get darker, those ears twitching in displeasure. The butlers come in holding trays of salads and drinks. They give everyone a salad before leaving again. Before Gon can eat, Killua leans over and sniffs the salad. He grabs his drink and slips it before placing it down. "We wouldn't poison him. He's our guest."

"Yeah." Killua doesn't seem convinced but the salad must be okay because he doesn't' say anything else.

"You see Illumi, I don't think Killua put Gon's name as an untouchable for us to use him. He made him off limits because they're friends." Silva hums, Killua's mother bites her lip only to bust out in a scream.

"What are you planning on doing to my boy?! What do you want? Money? What is your purpose?"

"Huh? I don't want money. I just want to be Killua's friend and stay by his side." Gon smiles brightly, not noticing he's only upsetting the woman more.

"There's no way we can keep him on the list! Father!" Kalluto is getting upset too.

"He's an imbecile." Milluki chirps in. Illumi stays silent.

"Everyone calm down." Silva growls, the table getting quiet. "I will decide if he stays or not on the untouchables-"

"What is the untouchables?" Gon can't help to ask even though Killua pinched his thigh.

"You don't know?" Silva blinks. "You were going to have him on the list without him knowing?"

Killua doesn't respond.

"So Gon had no influence over what you did. This was your choice alone." Silva hums like he's interested as he starts to eat his salad.

"But what's-" Gon starts again only for Killua to pinch him hard. He winces, sighing but stopping.

"So Tell us a little more about yourself Gon." Silva takes a sip of his drink. The atmosphere has become tense.

"What would you like to know?" Gon sits up in his chair after he's finished his salad, those amber eyes locked on this man that looks a lot like Killua.

"What kind of creature are you?" Kalluto asks, those black eyes studying him.

"That's a bit personal don't you think?" Killua narrows his eyes at her.

"Tell me, what do you want out of life?" Silva doesn't look away from Gon and Gon doesn't back down from that stare. Killua and Kalluto both look at Gon.

"I want to find my dad." Gon smiles. "I want to travel and see many different things."

"You don't know where your father is?" Silva raises his eyebrow.

"Nope. I've never met him." Gon feels Killua pitch at his thigh. Gon's eyebrows furrow. Was that too much?

"Travel huh?" Silva drinks some more. "So you won't be staying around here for long will you?"

"No I think I'll be staying here a while."

"I have a question, how did you get into the institute for magic." Milluki raises his eyebrow. "Only someone with great talent or smarts could get into the institute in the middle of the year...I know it's not the smarts so you must be talented in some way."

"Talented?...Um...I can hold my breath for ten minutes! That's pretty talented." Gon grins, finally able to brag about his record at home. He hears Killua sigh beside him, pitching the bridge of his nose. Silva stares at Gon for a moment before he cracks a smile. Milluki just stares at him like he's an idiot. Despite Gon's answer, the tense air seems to loosen a little bit. Alluka smiles to herself and Zushi closes his eyes and sighs.

"That's not really impressive." Killua's mother huffs.

"Not at all." Kalluto stares at Gon.

"I have a question for you." Gon points at Kalluto getting her to blink. "Why did you join the spiders?" Gon winces when Killua pinches him really hard. Maybe that was bad but Gon has to know. He might have to hurt this girl if she tries to hurt Kurapika.

"Why?" Kalluto's eyebrows furrow. Gon supposes she wasn't expecting to be called out. "Mainly to see if I could I suppose." Kalluto shrugs her shoulders. "The spiders have many benefits. You see Gon, I'm the youngest but i've accomplished so much. Alluka here is babied and needs her big brother to care for her. She is the weakest, anyone could kill her." Kalluto glares at Alluka but she seems pleased that Gon is giving her attention. "I've mastered my killing technique with only a fan and paper dolls."

"Paper dolls?" Gon blinks. He doesn't like that Kalluto is mean to Alluka and he really doesn't like she's a part of the spiders just for the sake of being a part of them. He might have to really fight Killua's sister to finish his job. Kalluto's eyes light up, just a tiny bit as she pulls out a paper that is shaped like a person.

"Don't you think you are talking too much?" Illumi speaks again, coming back to life. Kalluto doesn't say anything. She just puts the paper doll back and doesn't do anything. Gon frowns. Kalluto seems pretty strong but even she listens to Illumi.

"You do have a very relaxing vibe about you Gon." Silva admits. "You have honest eyes."

"And what an interesting color they are." Gon looks over at Illumi to see him staring at Gon intently. Gon glares slightly before looking back at Silva. Kalluto and Milluki look confused. Alluka looks pale and Zushi's eyes narrow slightly.

"Stop being creepy Illumi." Killua growls at his older brother.

"I'm not being creepy. How mean." Illumi stares at Gon for a moment longer before looking forward. There's a certain tension building between them that is no good.

Gon's eyes light up when the food starts to come in. His mouth waters at all the meat that is placed before him. Gon starts to grab, pulling the chicken legs towards him. He digs in, ripping into the flesh, barely chewing. It's just too good-

Killua pitchers him. Gon slows down, looking around, seeing everyone staring at him with sightly widen eyes.

"What the hell are you looking at Milluki? You eat like that everyday." Killua grunts getting Milluki to glare at him.

"Killua did say you like to eat." Silva hums, going back to eating but Killua's mother looks disgusted again. "So Gon, what do you do for work?"

Gon's eyes light up. "I have a job destroying McDonald's and I'm also recently employed as Killua's da-" Killua kicks his shin getting him to choke on the food he was eating and to wince in pain.

"you have a job destroying McDonald's?" Silva blinks.

"He's a delinquent!" Killua's mother shrieks.

"I knew I saw you somewhere! I saw him on the news running from the cops." Milluki keeps a stone face but soon his lips twitch.
"What is wrong with you?" Kalluto questions.

"My employer really doesn't like McDonald's. He gets really emotional about it." Gon smiles. Silva chuckles and Killua seems to relax slightly next to him.

"You're interesting. I will give you that."

"It's not like we can talk. Our job is to kill people." Killua grunts. Everyone shrugs. A silence falls over the table as everyone starts to eat. Gon is digging in again but a pinch from Killua and he slows down. He's going to have welts all over his thigh by the end of this. Gon thinks the dinner is going well. Gon's starting to believe that Illumi doesn't know that he's a werewolf. That everything is fine.

Gon blinks when he feels a pressure on his arm. He glances over to see Illumi right next to him, touching his back. Killua has gotten up and he's grabbing Illumi's wrist. It happened so fast that Gon almost didn't sense it happening.

Everyone is staring at them now, all looking interested. Alluka and Zushi are the only ones who look worried.

"What are you doing?" Killua snarls, gripping Illumi's wrist tighter.

"I was just getting something off his back." Illumi doesn't blink as he looks at Gon. "I'm not hurting him. Am I, Gon?"

"No." Gon doesn't stop looking at Illumi. "It's okay Killua." Killua reluctantly lets Illumi go, sitting back down. He's watching Illumi like a hawk.

"There. I got it." Illumi walks off and sits back down. Everyone looks confused but they don't say anything. Killua looks at where Illumi was touching with his eyebrows furrowed.

"So Gon." Illumi slowly turns his head towards Gon, those blank eyes are still empty but there's a twitch in his lip. "Where were you last night?"

Zushi grips his fist and he looks up from his plate. Gon doesn't break eye contact with Illumi, despite the twisting of his stomach. "I was training with Zushi."

"It's good to see you're alright. I was viciously attacked by a werewolf last night." Illumi keeps staring at Gon.

"So you admit it was a werewolf!" Killua's mother shouts. "Why haven't you contacted the city?"

"I haven't contacted the city because this is a matter that should be dealt with personally. The werewolf recognized me and attacked me because of it. This is an attack on the Zoldcyk name." Illumi looks at his mother. Gon doesn't show his surprise. He didn't call the city? And he knows that Gon recognized him? Gon bites the inside of his cheek.

"Come on." Killua scoffs. "You're talking about a werewolf. It didn't recognize you. It's just saw you as a piece of meat and wanted to take a bite out of you. They're stupid animals. If it was smart, it wouldn't have attacked you in the first place."

Gon feels something break inside of him. It hurts. Gon's face gets pale and he swallows his chicken down along with the lump in his throat. Killua is directly talking about him. Killua just called him a stupid animal directly for attacking Illumi. Gon feels his blood boil and he has to eat some more before he says something. It stings. He doesn't want to hear him talk any more.

"Just let the city take care of it." His mother agrees.

"They're a waste of time. Honestly, using our time to kill a werewolf?" Kalluto shakes her head.

"When a werewolf gets into the city, they go crazy and they need to be put down." Killua takes a bite out of his ham. "I am surprised that a werwolf was able to mess you up so bad though."

Put down? Killua thinks he should be put down?

"I have to disagree with you Kil. This werewolf seemed to have intelligence. It came after me directly. It wanted to kill me so I will deal with it myself."

"You just want to do some experiment with it." Killua rolls his eyes. "I've seen werewolves and none of them have intelligence. There was this one that ran right into a spear, it didn't even see it was up because it was too busy trying to bite me." Killua chuckles. "It's the city's job. Like animal control. If we start killing them again, the city will try to push it on us."

Stop it. Killua don't talk like that. You're laughing at the death of my kind.

"As I recall you were the one who took care of all the werewolves that leaked into the city before." Illumi hums, those black eyes sliding over to Gon who has become quiet.

"Yeah. Like Kalluto said, waste of time." Killua waves Illumi off.

"Killua is right, you should contact the city." The mother tries again.

"I will take care of the werewolf. Though I am concerned that this werewolf is hiding among the humans, or maybe even among us." Illumi says with his face not changing.

"Are you serious?" Killua shakes his head. "A werewolf could never hide among us. The smells and sounds drive them crazy. They're like an animal that got out of the zoo." Killua takes another bite out of his ham.

"That's funny you should say that Killua." Illumi's lips twitch.

I don't want to hear anymore. How can you be so cruel?

"You know it's true. The only reason you're trying to make this werewolf sound special is because you don't want to admit you fucked up."

"This werewolf was special. I think you would agree."

"How?" Kalluto looks at Illumi, interested.

"It dodged my attack."

"Well I have to give it props. It has enough smarts to move out of the way from danger." Killua grins. Gon's stomach hurts.
"What do you think I should do with such a werewolf Kil?"

"Isn't that obvious? What we always do. Just let the city take care of it. They'll put the sorry thing down and burn it's body. The mutt is messed up in the head and it's lost control-"

Gon can't stand it. The way Killua is talking about werewolves, about him. Directly him. Killua is talking about putting him down. Killua is saying he's messed up in the head. Killua is calling him a dog. Gon was stupid. He was stupid because he thought Killua could actually be his mate. A deep anger builds in him and he stands up, slamming his hands on the table.

"...Gon?" Killua sounds like he's frowning. He grabs his wrist, trying to pull him back down but Gon rips his hand from his.

"Do whatever you want to this werewolf Illumi but I'd be careful. I heard they can be dangerous." Gon slowly turns his head to Illumi, his eyes almost black from his emotions.

"I'll do what needs to be done. I appreciate your concern." Illumi doesn't look away from those eyes.

"Gon sit down-" Killua starts. Hearing his voice only makes him hotter. He feels like destroying this table.

"No. I'm not going to sit down." Gon makes his eyes go back to being amber before he looks at Silva. "Thanks for the dinner but i'm leaving. Zushi. Come on." Gon starts to walk off, his back straight and his face stone. His voice is quiet, eerie, even to himself. Zushi gets up and follows without a word. Gon makes it out the door, biting back a growl when he hears Killua come threw the door, following him.

"What the hell Gon? You were doing so well! Now they're going to come after you-" Killua sounds pissed.

"What do you care?" Gon stops walking. Gon doesn't look back at him. He can't. His voice stays quiet, emotionless.

"...What do you mean what do I care? It should be obvious I care! I don't want you to be in danger-"

Gon chuckles. It's dark and humorless. "Killua." Gon looks back at him, his eyes black and soulless. "Stop talking." Killua's eyes widen, his ears flatten, hurt and confusion written plainly in those blue eyes.

"W-What? I don't understand-"

Gon just keeps walking. He doesn't want to hear his voice anymore. He' so angry that it's like he's shut down. His thoughts are blank. Killua is following after them.

"Gon...what? Are you mad because we were talking about werwolves? Are you really freaking out because of that-"

"Of course not. Because that would be stupid."Gon walks out of the mansion. "Right Killua? That would be stupid. Because I'm stupid."

"Look I don't know what's going on but talk to me! Why are you acting like this? If it's not about the werewolves than what is it? I never said you were stupid-"

"But you know Killua? I am stupid." Gon stops walking. Something building up and he can't stop. He grips his fists and turns, glaring so darkly at Killua that the other male actually tenses. "I was stupid to ever think that you could be my mate! I don't want anything to do with you!" Gon takes off the gold and throws it down.

Killua stares at him with wide eyes...his lips tremble, those eyes holding pain. Gon can see it. He closes his eyes and turns. He takes off running, feeling himself slipping. He wants to destroy. He wants to let loose. He wants to be as far away from Killua as possible.
He doesn't see how Killua's mouth opens, how a sound between a sob and a gasp escapes his lips as he reaches towards Gon.

Gon keeps running, he can hear Zushi calling him but he doesn't stop. He runs all the way home, opens the door and slams it.

"Gon!" Kurapika smiles only to tense up, his eyes widening. "G-Gon what's wrong?" Kurapika gets up quickly from the kitchen table, looking at him with concern and a bit of panic.

Killua called him a dog. Killua said he should be put down. Killua said he wasn't right in the head. Killua called him stupid. Killua didn't care about his life at all.

Gon wants to scream. He wants to turn and go crazy but instead... Gon feels the tears well up, his eyes that were dead come back to life and all the emotions he was holding in come out. Gon wails, the sob that rips through his body hurts. He hurts all over. Killua was so cruel. Gon was actually planning on showing his true self to him. He was planning on making him his mate. Gon's heart feels shattered.

Kurapika runs to him, wrapping his arms around Gon, pushing his head in his chest. Gon hugs him tightly, glad for the warmth, glad for the comfort. Gon continues to cry, letting out all his emotions, letting the tears flow freely. Gon wanted to go on a rampage but this is all he can do.

"Gon..." Kurapika's voice gets softer...a bit surprised. "What happened?"

"K-Killua...he..." Gon sniffles, big tears forming in his eyes when he realizes he can't even talk to Kurapika about it. "It hurts...it hurts Kurapika...I don't want to see him again." Gon trembles in Kurapika's hold.

"What did he do?" Kurapika's voice is firm as he rubs his hand through Gon's hair.

Gon's shoulders shake. He doesn't' speak. The dinner was horrible. He wasn't expecting that at all. Gon doesn't even care that Illumi knows he's the werwolf. He could care less. He doesn't care that Killua's family probably hates him now and will come after him. Killua's words and the pain in his chest is all he can focus on.

Gon shakes his head, clinging to Kurapika for dear life. He misses Mito. This place is confusing.

"...Come on Gon, let's get you in bed. I'll get you some water-" Kurapika starts only for their to be a hesitant knock at the front door.

"...Gon." Gon's ears twitch at hearing that voice. Killua's voice sounds hoarse. "...What the fuck did I do? Why are you...acting like this?"

"Killua go away. I don't want to talk to you." Gon snarls, his voice getting dark.

There's silence and then Gon is sure Killua left. Gon starts to cry again, his chest hurting more. He hates this.

"...Come on Gon." Kurapika helps to lead Gon to his bed, those gray eyes softer as Gon gets into the sheets, sniffling, rubbing his nose. He wishes he could stop. Gon feels so weak crying like this but he can't control it. "It's okay." Kurapika soothes as he rubs Gon's head. "He's gone." Gon closes his eyes, tilting his head when Killua scratches behind his ears that are flat on top his head-

Gon's eyes snap open, his mouth opening in horror and he starts to get up, not sure what to do but Kurapika hugs him, stopping him. "It's okay." Kurapika repeats, tightening his grip before pulling away...those gray eyes are serious and soft at the same time.

"M-My ears and tail..." Gon trembles touching the ears and the tail that have come out. "I..."

"They came out when you came inside the home and started crying. Don't worry. I'm the only one who saw it." Kurapika reaches over, cupping Gon's wet cheeks. Gon stares at Kurapika with wide eyes..

"You're...okay? With this? With what I am?..." Gon's tears dry up and that dread starts to fade away, especially when Kurapika smiles gently.

"I suppose I should have suspected it. You knew so much in your report. It really touched me. Werewolves are a lot like my kind, damaged by the humans. You are no wild beast Gon. If you had told me the first time I met you, I might have turned you into the city but...you are a dear friend of mine. So Gon, don't cry. You can talk to me about what happened and you don't have to hide things from me." Kurapika wipes those tears away. "My thoughts have been unkind."

Gon doesn't know what to say so he hugs Kurapika tightly, burying his face in his chest and hiccuping. His tail starts to thump against the bed, his ears flatten down on his head. "I knew before this honestly. Back during math, when you were arguing with Illumi, I saw your eyes change black. I knew Centaurs didn't have that quality and I didn't understand why you would lie unless you were a werewolf. I didn't know how to feel about it so I didn't say anything. Also the knowledge you expressed in your report confirmed it." Kurapika speaks against Gon's head, rubbing his back. "...Why are you in the city Gon? When it's so dangerous. From what I know about werewolves, you must be here for some kind of job..." Kurapika trials off.

Gon pulls away from Kurapika to look into those gray eyes. There's still shock written there and some hesitation but other than that, Kurapika is looking at him like nothing has changed. Gon grabs Kurapika's hands, squeezing them. "I am here for a job. I was sent to be your protector. Your guard dog." Gon watches as Kurapika's eyes change.

"So that is why you approached me like you did." Kurapika doesn't sound angry but his lips are tugging down. "...Gon I don't need a guard dog. You shouldn't be here. You should leave-"

"I'm not just your guard dog. I'm your friend." Gon's eyebrows furrow. " Even if I lost my job, I couldn't leave you. I want to fight with you. I don't want you to get hurt." Kurapika stares into those honest orbs, his shoulders relaxing slightly.

"Do you know who employed you? Was it a human?" Kurapika's nose wrinkles up.

"Probably. They wanted me to protect you because you're the last of the vampires. I took the job because I needed experience to become a hunter and to find my father."

"I don't like that you're working for the humans, nor do I like how much danger this employer has put you in. This job seems more trouble than it's worth. What if I didn't accept you? What if I didn't befriend you? You could have died. It's still dangerous." Kurapika's eyes flash scarlet.

"I didn't know how bad it was to be in the city for a werewolf in till I came here but even if I knew, I still would have come. And I don't care if it's dangerous. I'm with you." Gon leans over and starts to lick Kurapika's cheek, not able to help it and he doesn't have to stop himself. Kurapika knows.

"...Does anyone else know that you're a werewolf?" Kurapika's voice is quiet as he wraps his arms around Gon, pushing him affectionately against his chest, watching as Gon's tail wags excitedly.

"Leorio knows and so does Illumi."

"Leorio knew? I suppose that's not bad- Illumi?!" Kurapika chokes on his own spit, his body tensing as he pulls Gon away, his eyes wide and his face pale. "How did that happen?! Has he told anyone?"

"Remember last night? How their was a full moon? I went away with Zushi so we could hide away but I ended up losing it when I smelt Illumi near by. I attacked him and somehow he knew it was me. Illumi didn't say he knew directly but some how I know he does." Gon closes his eyes, trying to not think about what Killua said or the fight they had.

"You talked to Illumi? Has he alerted the city? Are they looking for you Gon?"

"No. Illumi said he wanted to deal with the matter by himself. He wants to kill me by himself. He hasn't told the rest of his family or Killua. So I know he'll come after me soon." Gon grips his fist, his eyes burning with a fire. "Killua's family might come after me too. I kind of walked out on them during the family dinner."

"You had a family dinner with Killua's family? And walked out on them?" Kurapika keeps getting paler and paler. "Gon, this isn't good. I can't believe you attacked Illumi, I can't believe he knows. Gon I don't think you should care about me. You should leave. Now." Kurapika bites his lip. "What happened with Killua? Why were you in tears?"

Gon growls but his chest hurts. He doesn't cry anymore but he grabs onto Kurapika tightly. " Killua was talking about me. He said I should be put down. He called me stupid and a waste of time. He was laughing at werwolves' deaths. He doesn't see me as any thing more than a animal. And I...I...it hurt too much! The way he was looking and the way he spoke Kurapika...my life had no meaning to him because of what I was. And I was really planning on exposing what I was too him because I...I thought and felt like he could have been the one. Now I just hurt all over. I don't want to see him again. I feel like I'll attack him."

"Gon..." Kurapika rubs the back of Gon's head. "You know he doesn't know you're a werewolf. Killua is someone who has experienced the dark side of your kind first hand. I didn't even know werwolves like you existed. I believed they were stupid in till I met you. But I do understand, Killua is cruel with his words. It must be hard." Kurapika closes his eyes for a moment. "...Gon you are in danger. You should leave and go back to your home. I don't want to see you-"

"I'm not going anywhere. I want to help you Kurapika. Now more than ever. You don't care that i'm a werewolf. I'll give you my life." Gon looks at Kurapika seriously. "I'll fight anyone I have to. Illumi wants to take care of it himself so I'm hoping he won't tell anyone else. Killua said he wants to do an experiment. I'm not afraid. I'm going to fight the spiders with you Kurapika."

"...And if I must, I will fight Illumi." Kurapika touches Gon's ears, getting him to wag his tail and to close his eyes for a moment. "I don't want this to be a job for you. We are on equal playing ground. I will have your back and you will have mine. You've done so much for me. I know you are my guard dog but you've been kind and listen to me. You've shown me light and hope and I won't forget that. That's what makes you different than a dog Gon. The light you have, the humanity you have. If you will not leave, then I will fight a long side you as well."

"Kurapika!" Gon barks in his happiness, tackling the other male, pulling himself up so he can attack his face with licks and kisses.

"G-Gon stop." Kurapika chuckles lightly from the licks tickling.

"I can't. I'm so happy. I was really afraid you would look at me differently." Gon pulls away, his tail wagging. Kurapika watches it a moment before smiling, a bit sheepishly.

"I have to admit it's a bit strange seeing you with your ears and tail. It's cute though." Kurapika sits up. The smile that was put on his face by Gon's affection slowly falls. "...What is our game plan? I doubt this is the last you will see of Killua. Even though you yelled at him, I have a feeling he will still try to talk to you during school. Also Illumi is at school and the spiders are closing in, being more persistent. It's like we are being cornered." Kurapika thinks to himself for a moment. "I wanted to wait till this weekend but we may not have that kind of time to attack the spiders. I may need to think of another plan. But we can't do it out in the open, they can't know you are a werewolf..." Kurapika closes his eyes, his eyebrows furrowing in his thought.

"I was going to turn before we attacked them so they wouldn't know who I was." Gon says, his ears twitch when he hears someone come up to the door. Gon's ears flatten at the possibility of it being Killua only for them to perk back up.

"Gon? Let me in. Are you okay?" Zushi sounds like he's frowning deeply, his breathing uneven.

"Zushi..." Gon frowns when he remembers how he just left Zushi at the Zoldyck's place. He kind of forgot about him because of all his emotions. Gon gets out of Kurapika's hold to walk over to the door to let him in.

"Gon Illumi knows and Killua is furious-" Zushi starts as he comes in, closing the door behind him, his face pale. He tenses up when he sees that Gon's ears and tail are out...and Kurapika is staring right at them. Zushi's brown eyes flash with that protective flare as his own ears and tail come out and he bares his teeth at Kurapika, growling.

"Zushi it's okay! Kurapika is on our side!" Gon gets in front of Zushi, his ears pointing back at the threat to his friend.

"I won't try anything to harm you." Kurapika adds, getting up, putting his hands up.

"...You ended up losing it and exposing yourself because your emotions didn't you?" Zushi calms down, his ears flattening as he looks at Gon but there's a relief from Kurapika's expression when he stares at them.

"Yeah..." Gon frowns, rubbing the back of his head. "I couldn't help it."

"It's hard to control yourself in a situation like that. I could feel it myself when they were being cruel to Alluka. Then Killua started talking and...I knew we had to leave." Zushi gives Gon a look of empathy before he grips his fist. "What should we do about Illumi? He was speaking as if he won't tell the city but I don't think we should risk it."

"Are you planning on trying to kill him?" Kurapika walks closer, his expression serious.

"Either he's going to try to kill Gon or he's going to expose him. We should make the move before he does."

"Maybe we could have a talk with him alone? I have a feeling he would meet me alone. If he doesn't want to get the city involved, he doesn't want to get others involved either. Illumi could have told everyone at the dinner but he didn't." Gon thinks to himself, his ear twitching.

"That could be as much as a concern as it is good." Kurapika frowns.

"He was giving me the chills." Zushi admits. "The whole family also looked...not too happy with you leaving. When you ran off, Killua was just standing there for a long time. He had this aura about him that had me frozen. When you threw the gold, you set something off in him." Zushi frowns, looking a bit pale. "I thought for sure if he saw me he would kill me. He was unstable. I had to hide out and wait for him to leave even though I was worried about you. I don't know how long I waited. He just stood there, with his hair in his face, holding that gold against his chest. When he finally left, I knew he was coming for you. I ran as fast as I could but when I got here...I saw him. He's was moving around your apartment for awhile before he was gone in a flash of light. I took that time to get is going to be a problem." Zushi looks at Gon seriously, watching as the young werwolf's ears flatten on his head, those amber eyes getting duller. Kurapika puts a hand on Gon's shoulder and his ears perk up, if only just a little bit.

"I know Killua is going to be a problem but I can't be around him anymore. Before the dinner, I had it in my mind that Killua really could be my mate and I was reacting to him more easily. I was even planning on exposing myself after the dinner but after I heard him speak...I knew I had been stupid."

"You can't have a mate like Killua." Zushi agrees, his eyes burning with a fire. "I couldn't believe my ears and I wish you weren't there. IF Alluka said such horrible things..." Zushi shakes his head. "Killua doesn't intend on giving up on you though. I could make that much out by the look on his face."

"So lets break this down..." Kurapika sighs taking a seat on the couch, rubbing his temples. Gon and Zushi look at each other before the two werewolves walk over to the vampire and sit on the floor, their ears perked and attentive. "First topic. Killua. The way he thinks of werewolves is cruel and we're not sure we could trust him with the information that Gon is one. Gon wants nothing to do with him because of his thoughts on his kind but Killua thinks of Gon as a mate. You mentioned something about Gold Zushi?"

"Yes. Killua gave Gon gold. He was really happy about it and Alluka looked excited when she saw Gon wearing it."

"That's because for Centaurs, accepting gold from a person means you accept them as their mate. It's a confession of love." Kurapika watches as Gon's ears perk up and his cheeks tint slightly but his tail is flopping angrily against the floor.
"I'm not a centaur and I took it off. So i'm not his mate anymore. I guess I understand why he was more touchy with me. He thought we were mates." Gon's ears flatten. "He loves a centaur. Not a werewolf."

"Even though you threw it, doesn't mean Killua is just going to accept that Gon. He's going to keep bothering you and he'll want to gain you back as his mate. He probably doesn't understand what he did to upset you so much."

"If I explain it to him, he'll find out. I just...don't know about it. I wanted to trust him. I wanted to tell him what I am. But when I heard him talking...it just set something off in me. Killua is mean."

"...Maybe your report will open his eyes Gon. It opened mine a bit more. As I said, Killua only knows the dark side of your kind. Your report shows the light. If you give your report tomorrow, and you put your heart into it...I think it will affect Killua. If you're able to do that, do you think you could forgive his behavior? Killua is better to have as a friend than an enemy." Kurapika watches as Gon thinks about this for a moment.

"...Of course I could forgive him. But it will be hard, I can tell his beliefs about my kind are rooted deep. I just... Kurapika, Killua makes me weak. He makes me lose it and I can't afford that now. Not when Illumi knows what I am. Not when there's so much going on." Gon grips his fist before he look at Kurapika. "I'll do what I can about Killua but right now... I can't see him."

Kurapika stares at Gon for moment before closing his eyes. "...Then lets talk about Illumi next. You said he didn't say that he knew that you were the werwolf that attacked him but it's a safe guess he does. By his talk, he's planning on doing something to you. He may use this knowledge as blackmail or he may just want to kill you. I can't help to think he has something sinister planned. It's obvious you must confront him. I think it's best to do it at the school. Illumi can't do much there or I doubt he would do it. I would be hiding in the distance to make sure he doesn't do anything..." Kurapika thinks some more.

"Maybe write him a note? Do you have classes with him?" Zushi tries.

"I have math with him but that's not tomorrow." Gon frowns. "I don't know his schedule."

"Well...either we will have to wait till tomorrow or he will approach you first. Talk to me before you do anything Gon. I want to be in the loop and if need be I'll make Leorio aware to get the school's protection. Illumi isn't one you should mess with. He's powerful and no doubt he's spiteful for you breaking his arm and biting into him."

"I guess." Gon growls, his ears pointing back. "He wasn't so tough last night. If I could keep chasing him, i'm sure I could have killed him. But that was on a full moon..." Gon's ears flatten and he frowns. "Illumi is strong but I can be stronger. I had the drive to protect Killua and Alluka from him. I still do but this thing with Killua has gotten me a little bummed."

"Which will effect your battle with Illumi if you have to fight him. Your emotions are unstable so if Illumi taunts you..." Zushi frowns.

"...There's a possibility I could turn. I could lose it and attack with full force in front of the whole school." Gon grips his fist, knowing it's true. His heart still hurts and he's sweating. Killua has really messed him up. He's out of whack. Gon is afraid to see him again. He doesn't know what he will do. He's torn between fighting Killua or just...He doesn't know. There's an aggression building but there's still that feeling he's had before Killua's cold words. A longing, a need. These two conflicting emotions are battling it out inside him and it makes him feel ill and confused.

"...Then you have to sort this out with Killua, Gon." Kurapika watches as Gon's eyes get dull again, his ears flattening, deep in thought. "It puts you more in danger. You have to be able to control yourself around Illumi out in the open."

"He did well at the dinner. Illumi was speaking but Gon didn't let his true self show too much even though he was enraged." Zushi looks at Gon. "I think you can control it with Illumi. It's just when Killua is involved, it becomes a problem...because lets face it Gon." Zushi frowns. " You may not have sealed the deal but you've decided that Killua is your mate in your heart. This will be hard as long as your relationship isn't intact. Of course, you could move on from Killua but you won't be able to being around him."

"He's not my mate. I've decided that for myself. Like you said, we haven't mated so he's nothing to me. I don't have to stick by him." Gon's eyebrows furrow at how his chest hurts.

"But you do. The fact he can effect you this much tells me that he's your mate. Logically your thinking because of his cruel words he couldn't be my mate but you already decided before hand." Zushi frowns. "How did werewolves get over a mate that didn't want them at your island?"

"Well...There were a lot of males that wanted Mito. She didn't like them so I had to fight them off and keep them away from her. Once they realized that Mito didn't want them and I wasn't going to stop defending her, they ran off for some time. Then they were okay around Mito..." Gon bites his lip.

"Yes. You see Gon? Logically you're thinking that Killua can't be your mate so subconsciously you're trying to make space away from Killua so you can get over him. By telling him to leave you alone and that you don't want to speak with him...but the issue here is that Killua isn't going to leave you alone. You can't get away from him unless you leave this place."

"I can't leave. I need to be here for Kurapika." Gon's amber eyes shine with determination.

"Then..." Zushi frowns. "You will fall victim to Killua. In some way or the other. You'll either get so angry that you turn or you get so excited that you expose yourself. It could go either way."

"I'll fight it." Gon says stubbornly, those eyebrows furrowing. "I will stay away from Killua. I won't talk to him. I'll ignore him." Gon closes his eyes. "I can do this."

"Are you sure?" Kurapika frowns, He's been listening intently, those gray eyes showing concern for the young werewolf.

"Yes." Gon gives Kurapika a firm look, those amber eyes bright with determination but the vampire still looks worried.

"If you are staying away from Killua, I should stay away from Alluka. Killua might use me as a way to get to you. Also, if I keep up, I may have the same problem as you." Zushi flushes slightly, a hint of sadness in his eyes that he quickly hides away.

"Nooo Zushi." Gon frowns, his ears flattening. "Alluka really likes you! You should still go on that date with her!...There's not a piece of me that believes she would push you aside or tell anyone about what you are. Alluka is going to be sad because I'm not going to be able to talk to her...because where ever she is, Killua is. If you don't talk to her too, she'll be really upset. I don't want that."

"...Gon..." Zushi stares at him a moment before he nods, putting a hand over his heart. "I want to feel the same way but once Killua finds out he will never let us be together. Alluka is stuck to Killua's hip. I'll continue to talk to her though. I wouldn't want her to get upset. I'll have to make up some excuse for you...she'll ask about you no doubt and wonder why you don't want to talk to them anymore." Zushi bites his lip.

"...This still seems shady. I have a feeling that your plan of ignoring Killua isn't going to go well Gon." Kurapika frowns. "But I suppose it's all we have for right now...Now our last topic of discussion. The spiders. Zushi, this isn't something you are involved in but-"

"Anything Gon is involved with, so am I." Zushi says quickly, those brown eyes shine. "We've become a...a pack I think..." Zushi flushes lightly glancing over at Gon to see his ears perk up and his tail wagging a mile a minute.

"Yeah!"

"And a pack sticks together." Kurapika smiles lightly before he closes his eyes. He looks at them seriously. " With all this going on with the Zoldcyks-"

"And we have to watch out for the rest of Killua's family. Killua told me that they might come after me now because I walked out of the dinner." Gon remembers.

"...There's just so much." Kurapika rubs his temples. "I don't even know what to do about that one. Gon you will have to be extra careful. You have multiple enemies and not enough friends." Kurapika frowns when Gon doesn't look the least bit scared. Those eyes still shinning with that fire. "...because of all these things going on with the Zoldcyk family against Gon, I fear we don't have as much time as I thought to do my plan against the spiders. I don't know if you'll be able to make it a week without anything happening. So...We have to make a new plan. I'm at a lost. Honestly." Kurapika rubs his eyes tiredly. "The spiders are getting persistent. They have to realize now that I'm hiding on someone to slip pass them. It won't take long before they stop students and start to search them. We don't have the time I wanted..." Kurapika takes a deep breath. "...The spiders still think we are enemies but I don't know if they believe you're a Zoldyck butler still or if they've been keeping tabs on you."

"One of the spiders likes me." Gon can't help to remember that one guy with the sword. Kurapika perks up at this and raises his eyebrow in question. "When you punched me for everyone to see in the school. He was in the forest were I landed. He asked me to join the spiders but before I could turn him down, Killua came and he disappeared-"

"Gon!" Kurapika gasps, looking at him in disbelief. "Why didn't you tell me something this important?!"

"E-Eh? I didn't know it was a big deal-"

"...This is a gamble." Kurapika swallows thickly, the gears in his head turning. "But I think...I have a new plan. It requires a lot out of you Gon."

"Me?" Gon tilts his head but his smile starts to grow, glad he can be useful to Kurapika. "What do you need me to do? I'll do anything to help Kurapika!"

"...You need to contact the spider that likes you and you must...join the spiders."

"Huh?!" Gon's eyes widen. "But you hate the spiders-"

"Yes I do but you won't really be a spider Gon. You will go in and act like one of them. They will show you the ropes and as you get into their base, you'll be able to look around. You'll be able to look for escape routes and ways into the base. With this information, you could let me in. A sneak attack. Gain enough information about their meetings and where they can be found...This is a risk. I don't know what they will do to make you into a member. I don't know if the others will accept you. I don't know if this plan will take longer or not. It's much riskier than my other plan but...it has a higher rate of success." Kurapika bites his lip. He looks torn.

"Okay." Gon nods his head, getting the plan. He'll become a spider so he can know their weakness. Know the enemy. Know what you're hunting. Kurapika and Zushi blink at Gon for accepting so easily. "How am I going to find that guy again though?"

"...I'm sure most of the spiders are outside of the school so you could find him that way...or I could get his contact information from Hisoka. Which spider was it?"

"Um...He told me his name but I forgot. He has a sword though."

"Nobunaga..." Kurapika nods his head. "I'll get everything set for tomorrow. I know a lot is going on but...the sooner the better. If you could meet up with this guy after school that would be best. The sooner we get the information, the sooner we can end this and get you out of here."

"Is this plan safe for you Kurapika?" Gon looks at the vampire seriously.

"Gon, you are the person most in danger with this plan. If they found out or if you can't pass their rite of passage, I don't know what they will do with you. This plan rides on you. It's a lot to ask of you. I tell you again Gon, you don't have to do this. Whether for me or your job. You can get another job can't you?"

"It's not the job Kurapika. It's you. I'm going to help you and I'm going to do this. If I can't do this much, I don't deserve to be a hunter. If i'm going to catch up to my dad..." Gon grips his fist. "Everything will go okay. I know things look bad but i'm not giving up. Kurapika you accept me. That was a main worry of mine. Now I can rest easy. I can come home and relax, and let my true self out. I don't have to hide from you anymore and it feels good. So I'm going to give it my all."

"Gon..." Kurapika stares at him with those gray eyes lighting up and softening. He smiles and it's fond and worried at the same time. "You better promise me that you'll be safe. I don't want...to lose you to them."

"...I'm going to leave now Gon." Zushi breaks into the conversation, his ears twitching this way and that. "Killua has left again."

"yeah...I sensed that."

"I'm going to leave while I can. Wing is waiting for me. Keep in contact with me." Zushi throws Gon his phone. "You left this on the floor and I picked it up before we left. I forgot I had it on me till now."

"Okay." Gon smiles, getting up to hug Zushi. " bye Zushi. I'll keep you updated! Tell Wing not to worry too much."

"After I tell him about today i'm sure he's going to have gray hair. "Zushi smiles, half amused, half not. He gives Gon a quick lick on the cheek, his tail and ears disappearing before he runs over to the door and out, shutting and locking the door behind him.

"Gon...You look exhausted. You should rest. Tomorrow is going to be a hard day for you." Kurapika frowns when he sees how Gon looks at his phone, his eyebrows furrowing.

"Yeah..." Gon closes his phone and sighs. "Killua sent me a lot of messages and so did Alluka. I don't want to read them."

"Then don't. You don't need it right now. Here, i'll hold on to your phone. I'm sure Killua will blow up your phone with calls soon. He may even try to get into the apartment. I wont' let him get through. You need to sleep." Kurapika takes Gon's phone and puts it in his pocket. "I finished your report for you and it's all typed and placed in a folder in your book bag."

"Thank you Kurapika..." Gon smiles despite his day as he walks into his bed room, taking off the tie that Killua had spent so much time on...taking off the shirt that Killua had button carefully before taking off the pants that Killua had picked out just for him. Gon's heart aches and he feels a burning in his throat. He has the urge to scream or to run to Killua. He doesn't do either. He can control himself. Gon strips himself bare before he wiggles his way into the covers, feeling colder. His ears are flatten and his tail still.

"...it's hard isn't it?" Kurapika walks till he's beside Gon, sitting next to him. Gon's eyes widen when Kurapika starts to scratch near his ears before they become half lidded with the need to sleep. Gon's ears relax and he sighs as Kurapika keeps rubbing his sensitive ears, making him feel better. "A good nights rest will help. Do you need me to sing to you?" Kurapika hums as Gon's breathing slows, his eyes slipping shut.

The vampire never gets to sing. Kurapika's gentle touch and the warmth of his acceptance is enough to lure him away to darkness, the blanket and pillows so soft. He' so tired. He didn't know how tired he was in till he laid down. Gon won't think about the boy with the blue eyes tonight.

He'll have to deal with that tomorrow.

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"Brother...what did they say?" Alluka swallows, coming into the room that her brother went into immediately. Her face is pale and she can't stop the slight tremor in her hands. Shock and disbelief still written on her face. "Are they...are they going to hurt him?"

"No." Killua's voice is blank, his face emotionless as he turns to look at Alluka. "Not directly. He's just not an untouchable. If Gon is sent as a case, it's up the family member it was sent to to decide what they do. Father said he wouldn't touch Gon...I can't speak for the others. I'll just have to be up in everyone's computer to track everyone's cases. I can do it. It won't be hard." Killua's voice is calm and steady. "So don't worry sis."

"...What happened brother? Why did Gon run out like that? He looked so angry..." Alluka pulls at her dress when she notices the twitch in Killua's face, how those empty eyes flare up. Alluka frowns. She knows her brother is being strong for her. He ran after Gon and didn't come back for awhile. Alluka was grateful Gotoh came in and took her back to the other mansion before Kalluto could do something. "Was it the family or..."

"I don't know what happened sis. I really don't." Killua licks his lips before he pulls out the gold from his pocket. Alluka's eyes widen before she frowns deeply, covering her mouth. "Yeah. He threw this and pretty much said he didn't want to see me again. I have no clue. I really don't." Killua's face has stayed blank but Alluka sees those blue eyes get glossy.

"...Do you think Gon got really upset because how you were talking about werewolves?" Alluka swallows down her own tears, knowing how her brother must be feeling.

"...Maybe." Killua shrugs his shoulders. "Whatever happened. He's pissed off...He can't be serious though. Gon will want to talk to you. I think he just needs to sleep, get over his fit and then he'll be alright."

"But..." Alluka looks at the gold before biting her lip. "I can't believe Gon said that to you...did he say what you did? Did he say anything else?"

"Nope. He wouldn't tell me. He just told me to get away." Killua rubs the back of his head. "Sis...it's been a long day. I think I'm going to go to sleep. You should too. We have school tomorrow." Killua turns his back away from Alluka as he fiddles with his clothes, getting them out for tomorrow. Alluka walks towards the door, only to stop and to look back at her brother.

"You know if you need me brother...you can lean on me."

Killua stops messing with his clothes to look back at Alluka. "I'm fine." They stares at each other for a moment. Alluka can't help to sigh before she leaves and shuts the door behind her. Killua stares after her, his ears twitching as he listens to her footsteps get more distant.

Only when she's gone does his face change. That blank expression becomes tired, those blue eyes droop but his teeth grind and bare. His ears flatten on his head and he hisses, gripping his fist, digging into the moon shape dents he already left in his palm from earlier. He's sure he's bleeding now.

What the fuck happened? Killua still can't wrap his mind around it. Everything was great before the dinner. They spent their time watching moves with Alluka and Zushi, they flirted and touched, and shared smiles and Killua got to sneak in a couple of kisses here and there. Killua controlled himself as much as possible. They were having fun.

The dinner wasn't going too bad either. It started off rocky with everyone glaring and judging Gon but as time went by, Killua was starting to see a slight shift in the atmosphere because of his mate. He knew it was only a matter of time before his father would see why Gon should be an untouchable and he would have been safe. Gon was holding up well, even when Kalluto started being mean to Alluka. He listened to his pitching well too. It was all going according to plan, that is, before Illumi decided to talk about the werewolf that attacked him last night.

Killua didn't really even care about what he did with the werewolf or the fact that his brother got damaged by it, Killua just wanted to fuel more conversation that wasn't focused on Alluka or Gon. To give them both a break. But out of no where Gon stands up in a huff, not listening to him when he told him to sit back down and he marched out. He actually left the dinner in the middle of it. The look on his mother's face said it all but all Killua could think about was why Gon was leaving and he couldn't help to be pissed off too. Gon just ruined his chances. He put himself in danger because he couldn't sit still and listen to him. He was doing so well!

Killua could have never expected Gon to act the way he did or the dark look on his face when he looked at him. Killua could feel goosebumps on his arms and his stomach had clenched up. Gon wouldn't talk to him. He kept walking away and then he had to throw the gold...Killua's heart stopped. He swears it did. All his words caught up in his throat and he forgot how to breathe, Gon's words echoing through the empty air as he ran away from him, leaving him alone with the gold.

Killua thought he was going to throw up. He's never felt that way in his life. So confused, scared, hurt, and irritated. Most of all he was hurt. Killua was the one suppose to be mad at Gon for running off. But Gon's pissed at him, so much so that he stopped being his mate. He rejected the gold, threw it on the ground like it was nothing. That gold represented everything that Killua couldn't say. His love for Gon, his need for him and this deep affection he has for the other male. He got rid of it so easily. Was it just the gold, the reason why Gon became his mate? Killua didn't think about it when he was doing this. He just wanted to have Gon, he wanted to show him his feelings. But from what he gathered from the internet, Centaurs are materialistic and will leave a mate if they so feel like it. Killua didn't think Gon would do...that.

Killua can't get rid of this nagging. He knows he did something that caused Gon to change from his bright, smiling demeanor into something darker and meaner. He knows he did something to cause Gon to leave him. Gon won't talk to him about it. Won't even let him redeem himself. Killua is sure he knows what it is.

It's because of what he said about werewolves. Killua is sure of it. He only got up and left after they were talking about them. Gon fucking left him because of those stupid animals. Gon left him because he's crazy and has to be an activist for fucking werewolves. Gon won't talk to him because of what he said about those mangy mutts.

Something shifts in Killua. The self loathing turns into a rage. The blame that he had placed on himself has found a new victim. It's the werewolves fault. Those stupid animals have caused him so much trouble and now they've caused Gon to get angry with him. Killua won't take this. Gon doesn't get it. If he knew how fucked up werewolves are, he would understand. Gon may have spent some time with them or whatever but Killua has seen how much damage they cause.

"The report..." Killua's eyes widen in realization, ignoring his wet cheeks from the tears that started up when his sister left. That report tomorrow. Killua finished it but it's soft. He wasn't going to try that hard and embarrass Gon since he likes the things but... Killua's eyes furrow in his glare and he flops down on the computer. Killua isn't going to hold back now. He's going to show Gon how horrible these mutts are. If Gon won't speak with him, he will after this. Killua will give him all the dirt. He'll make him feel stupid for leaving him over werewolves. He'll make him feel like a fool...for making Killua feel like this.

He puts all his anger, all his hate, all his frustration into this report and by the end of it...Killua is drained. He puts the finished product in his book bag before he flops down on his bed, turning off the lights. Killua wipes at his eyes, his lips trembling,now that all his anger is gone, he's left with that longing, that hurt in his chest. He gets under the covers but he can't get comfortable. The mattress does nothing for him. He wants to go to Gon. He wants to hold him against his chest. He wants to talk to him again but Gon doesn't want to. Killua will give him his space tonight and hopefully...Gon will talk to him tomorrow.

Killua's ears flatten, the unwanted tears come and he grips his pillow. Fucking stupid Gon. How can he do this to him? How can he make an assassin like him cry? How can he make him feel like this? Killua bites his pillow to stop himself from screaming. He has an itch to just force his way into Gon's home. He could do it but he's not. He doesn't want the other male to get more angry with him. AT the same time Killua is pissed off at him. Gon endangers himself and leaves him because of werewolves? He throws his feelings to the side just because he said something about werewolves?

He hates it.

Gon is...everything to him. Killua has had a taste of him and he can't let go. Gon is his mate. He can't accept his heart and then just throw it in the dirt. Killua won't stand for that. He won't be treated like that by Gon. Not by the one person that made him feel alive. Gon can't just walk out on him either.

Killua loves him. All he does is think about the other male, worrying about him or smiling fondly at memories or thinking of very dirty things. Killua is even able to control his lust for the other male just to wait for him till he's ready. Doesn't Gon know how much restraint that takes? Does he not care? Just because he said something about werewolves?

Killua will prove Gon wrong. He'll show him werewolves aren't shit. He'll show him he made a mistake.

Killua will protect Gon. Even when he's being mean to him, he'll keep him safe. Killua should just let his family get rid of his weakness but he can't. He can't let them hurt Gon. Even though Gon makes him like this and it's a little scary. Even in his anger he's still worried about him. Even though Gon isn't talking to him, and Gon said he wants nothing to do with him, Killua is going to make sure his family don't get him as a case, he's going to be constantly worrying about it, having to clean up the mess Gon made by leaving early today.

Gon doesn't even have to ask him to. Killua just cleans up his mess. Killua knows he'll always do this. He's been sucked in and he's sure he can't get out. He loves Gon and he won't stop till Gon is back in his arms, smiling at him and looking at him with those bright amber orbs.

Killua curls up in the bed, feeling cold and his heart aches when it beats. He ignores the cuts on his hands as he closes his eyes. His last thoughts being on those amber eyes, and his stomach clenches and his heart yearns.

Gon can't just say he wants nothing to do with him. Gon can't just come into his life and walk out. Killua won't let that happen.

Killua can't lose him.

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Haha...I'm pretty evil. Till next time! Thanks for the reviews!