Gon's tail thumps against the floor, his ears back and relaxed as Kurapika's hands move through his black locks, his nails scratching against his scalp, making the young werewolf sigh and lean back against the other male who is sitting on the floor behind him. Gon had woken up feeling like crap, he didn't want to get out of his comfy bed, he just wanted to sleep some more. The thought of having to face Killua made him whimper and growl soon after. What got him out of bed was the fire of his determination. The thought of his plan with Kurapika and his need to give his report fueled him to take his shower and to get dressed.
As soon as he came out of his room, Kurapika showered him with affection. Scratching his ears and stroking his tail, making the werewolf who was all tensed up, relax in Kurapika's loving hold. Gon feels like he can do this. Even if he does see Killua, he'll fight against his urges and just ignore him like they planned. He's going to give his report and he's going to join the spiders. He's going to finish his job and he's not going to give in to his feelings towards Killua.
"How are you feeling, Gon?" Kurapika stops his scratching, getting Gon to whine. Kurapika smiles and goes back to his administrations, Gon's tail thumping happily against the floor from the attention.
"Better! I feel like I can do this." Gon closes his eyes when Kurapika finds that one spot right behind his ears and he sighs. "I felt horrible last night and this morning but...I won't think about what Killua said. I won't let him get to me. I'm going to try my best. I won't lose it because of him anymore." Gon's eyes shine with determination as he stands up, his tail brushing against Kurapika's face by accident, getting the vampire to sneeze from the hair tickling his nose.
"Just be careful Gon. I have a feeling Killua isn't going to just let you ignore him...He will try to talk to you and he may put his hands on you." Kurapika frowns. "I can't help you either, not outside or the spiders will see."
"I'll be fine. I'll just push pass Killua." Gon licks his lips. He has a feeling it's going to be a bit harder than that but no matter what, he can't let his emotions get out of control. He has to fight the urge to hug Killua like he's been doing for awhile. He has to fight the urge to bite and hurt Killua for what he's said. He has to fight the urge to get closer and this need in him. Gon has to fight himself along with Killua to be successful in his job.
Kurapika's eyebrows furrow in concern but instead of saying what both of them know, He turns into a bat and gets into Gon's back pack. Gon grabs it, hiding his ears and tail before walking out of the apartment. Gon has his phone in his pocket but he hasn't looked at the messages. He checked and all of them were from Alluka and Killua so he didn't open them. Reading them would only make this harder. Gon wishes he didn't have to avoid Alluka for something Killua did. Gon keeps his thoughts blank as he walks till he gets to the bushes. He waits a moment. When he knows Kurapika got out, he zips up his book bag and walks out of the bushes towards the school.
Gon swallows when his amber eyes immediately find blue. Killua is standing where he usually does when he waits for him in the morning. His hands are in his pockets, his face blank as he stares at Gon but those blue eyes are deep. Alluka is standing next to her brother, biting her lip, looking between them. Killua is waiting. The air between them so tense, and Gon can feel it. He doesn't like it but he doesn't like seeing Killua either. It makes his stomach twist and his heart clench. He wants to run over to the two like nothing happened and then they could talk and laugh as they walk to class. But he knows it can't be like that. Not when Gon's body is already reacting to Killua being so close. Not When he feels like growling from seeing those lips that had sneered and smiled speaking about the death of his kind.
Gon knows Zushi is right. He has to fix their relationship or get away. Killua isn't going to leave him alone, Gon can tell by the way those blue eyes bore into his own. Gon can't leave so he's stuck with seeing Killua and feeling this way. Killua isn't even close and Gon is having trouble keeping himself from acting out.
Gon won't go down without a fight.
Gon bites his lip till he's sure he's pierced his skin as he glares at Killua. Gon ignores the pang in his chest when Killua's eyes widen slightly, hurt flashing in those blue orbs before he snarls, glaring darkly at Gon. Alluka frowns deeply, Gon can't look at her.
Gon keeps his glare as he walks closer, watching Killua closely, ready to run into the school if he needs to. Killua watches him, his pupils becoming larger, his eyes narrowing, his glare never falling, those eyes so dark. Killua doesn't have the right to be angry with him. He's the one who's cruel. He's the one who made Gon feel like he was breaking inside. Gon bares his teeth at Killua when gets closer, Killua hissing in response, the air between them becoming thicker and all Gon wants to do is attack the Werecat.
"What's your problem?" Killua snarls as Gon walks pass him into the school. Much to Gon's dismay, Killua walks in after him, keeping up with his fast walk, holding Alluka's hand and tugging her along. "Not answering my messages is one thing but my sister didn't do anything to you-"
"I said I didn't want anything to do with you Killua! So why are you still talking to me?" Gon keeps walking, his shoulders tense, his fist gripped at his sides. He's suppose to be ignoring Killua but he can't when he says things like that. He feels bad about Alluka. He really does. But Gon can't be around Killua.
Killua growls behind him and Gon can feel his muscles tense up, ready for a fight. "How selfish can you be?" Killua's voice is raising. "First you don't talk to me about what I did, and then you're just telling me not to talk to you. You're the one who wanted to be my friend. Remember that? I wanted nothing to do with you but you kept forcing your way into my life and now you just want to walk away? Why don't you fucking talk to me about this?"
"I don't want to talk to you, Killua. Like you said all those times before, I was stupid to try to befriend you. I said I don't want anything to do with you. Leave me alone." Gon grinds his teeth when he remembers that he has his first class with them.
"This is ridiculous! You can't just decide this! You can't just decide that this is over. I won't accept it. Not when you won't even talk to me about what I did!-" Gon feels his stomach twist and his heart ache when he hears how Killua's rising his voice, trying to cover up the hurt Gon is causing. He can feel Alluka frowning behind him and he wants to stop this. But he can't. Gon is getting warmer and his blood is boiling at the same time. He can't expose himself here.
"Killua, I don't want you as my mate!" Gon shouts, turning to glare at Killua. The tension just too much and that's what came out of his mouth because of it. When Killua's face falls and those blue eyes look at him with that shock and pain, Gon closes his eyes and turns. "I don't want you at all!" Gon hopes Killua gets the picture. He hopes that's enough to get him to leave him alone as he runs away from the assassin and into his first class. He sits away from where Killua and Alluka usually sit. He wants to lay his head down. He feels like crying or breaking something. What Gon said was true, he doesn't want Killua as mate so why did it pain him to say that? Why did it clench his heart when he saw how Killua was looking at him...as if he had stabbed him or caused him some great pain.
Gon doesn't look at Killua as he walks in with Alluka. They just walk over to their side and sit down. Gon did it. His outburst of emotion was enough to get his point across. The air is thick and the rest of the class must sense it because they don't speak, even though they're looking at Gon in curiosity.
Gon can hear his heart beating in his ears. He's sweating. He told Killua to back off and he did but why is Gon's body reacting like this? Is it because Killua is too close? Does Killua affect him this much now?
The teacher comes and starts talking about potions. Gon had forgotten they were suppose to turn in a potion and when they don't say anything, the teacher glares and gives them a bad grade. Gon can't care about that now. Gon tries to calm his racing heart and to make his mind go blank but he can feel Killua's intense gaze on him. Think about Mito. Think about the plan with Kurapika. Think about anything-
Gon yelps when a book is thrown across the room, the corner of it hitting him hard on the side of his head. Gon rubs his head before looking over to where it came from, his eyes narrowing when he sees Killua staring at him with those blue eyes of his dark and emotionless. He looks pissed off. Gon glances forward to see the teacher is busy talking about something. Gon grips the book before he throws it back at Killua, using a decent amount of strength. Gon growls when Killua catches the book, stopping it from hitting him in the head like Gon was aiming. Killua smirks and throws the book again, this time Gon is ready and he catches it, sending Killua his own smug smile-
Only to be shocked with electricity when he touches the book. Gon winces and drops the book loudly on his desk, grabbing his hand that burns from it. Killua chuckles darkly, those blue eyes narrowing in dark glee. Gon feels like throwing his whole desk at Killua but at the same time Gon hates to admit how cool Killua looks and how dangerous he looks. Gon has to ignore the shiver that goes down his spine and he has to bite back his growl. This really is no good.
"Gon! Stop slamming books." The teacher turns and glares at Gon, getting him to tense and frown. His face gets red when Killua chuckles at him more. Damn you Killua.
"Sorry." Gon mumbles, glad when the teacher turns and starts to talk again. He wants to get Killua back for that but he won't be able to throw the book fast enough or do something like put electricity in it. Gon glares over at Killua to see the other male openly smirking at him, his canines showing, those blue eyes dull. Alluka is frowning over at Gon and the look on her face when she looks at him gets Gon to quickly look down at his desk, his eyebrows furrowing and a frown tugging at his lips. He didn't mean to hurt Alluka. Things have just become complicated.
Gon's heart still hasn't slowed and it's because of Killua. Because of Gon's pull towards him and the way Killua is treating him. Gon gets it. Killua shows his feelings through hurting others. Gon knew that much so right now, Killua is taking out his anger on him and that's fine. Just stay away. Keep that distance. Gon lays his head on the desk, ignoring the throbbing of his forehead because of Killua's book attack. Gon can't wait for the class to be over so he can get away from Killua and Alluka.
Throughout the class Gon feels things hit him. And they hurt. He's sure Killua is shocking him somehow, not enough to damage him but enough that it hurts like hell. Gon grinds his teeth. Killua wants to get a reaction out of him. He wants Gon to throw a fit. It's working. Gon feels his anger peaking from the pain and all the other thoughts going through his head. When there's a shock on his neck, Gon's eye twitches and he sits up in his seat, glaring over at Killua who is staring forward, acting as if he's not doing anything.
"Killua stop it." Gon growls.
"Gon! Again interrupting my class!" The teacher snarls, turning around and glaring at Gon. Gon frowns, realizing he doesn't have any proof of Killua's actions, there's no marks on his body. He glares over at Killua who is looking at him with his eyebrow raised as if he has no idea why Gon is so angry. Gon can see the smirk forming on his lips though. "Detention."
Gon glares darkly at Killua, feeling like jumping across the room and knocking that smirk off his face. Gon ignores the urge to bust his lips or kiss them. The tension grows and Gon just wants out. So he gets out. Gon turns on his heel and marches out of the room, ignoring the teacher that's yelling at him, his fists gripped and his veins sticking out in his arms from his anger. Gon can't stay there any longer. He's not going to expose himself. He's not. Killua can do this worse. Gon isn't going to go back to him. He isn't going to let Killua get away with saying his words. Maybe if Killua's expression changes while Gon gives the report...Gon can consider forgiving him and ultimately that will lead to Gon exposing himself to Killua.
He can feel it. Killua's smell, his lips, those eyes, even when he's glaring at him, affects his body. Zushi is right. Gon's body has decided Killua is his mate and even with his anger, he has the urge to be touched by the other male and to get closer. Anger and Lust don't mix will together, especially when you're a young werewolf who is new to these feelings.
Gon runs to the bathroom and runs some cold water in the sink, once it's filled up, Gon sticks his hot face in the water, holding his breath and letting the water cool him down. Gon pulls his head back, his spiky hair flattening slightly from being wet, drops of water falling down his cheeks from his hair, making it look like he's crying. He's not. He won't. Not here. Crying makes him feel weak and he won't let Killua keep doing that to him.
Gon shuts himself off in the bathroom, taking deep breathes and leaning his head against the bathroom stall. Now that he's far away from Killua, his heart slowly calms down and his breathing becomes even and relaxed. Gon takes deep breaths and finally his shoulders loosen up and he doesn't feel like he's about to lose it. Gon doesn't think he should go back though. He knows he got into trouble but he couldn't stay in there with Killua acting like that and Gon's body going out of whack.
Gon closes his eyes, taking a deep breath. He'll stay in the bathroom till his art class with Kurapika. Gon has to make it to history class. He has to give this report his all. He has to prove Killua wrong, he has to. Something is building, When Gon is around Killua, it's like a rubber band is being stretched and stretched and stretched to the point it's about to snap. Something has to give. Gon was a bit over his head last night. The feeling he has and how his body reacts to Killua...it's horrible. So powerful it feels like Gon is drowning in Killua's scent and his presence. Gon's will power is being tested.
Gon's breath hitches when he senses a presence and he smells that familiar scent, his heart beating faster. Killua. Did he come after him? Gon holds his breath as the door opens and his scent invades the bathroom causing Gon to bite his lip and to grip his black locks slightly. Gon is sure Killua can smell him out. His nose isn't as good as Gon but Gon is so close and if Killua thinks of him as a mate...There's no way he doesn't know he's in here.
Killua starts to whistle a cheerful tune, contrasting to the atmosphere. Gon can hear something sharp scraping against the tiles of the bathroom, goosebumps popping up on his arms from the unpleasant sound. Much like the sound of nails on a chalk board. Gon glares at the bathroom stall, wondering if he should just come out and face Killua. The werecat is trying to scare him.
Just when Gon is about to open the bathroom door, Killua stops in front of his stall and his whistling stops. Gon's eyes narrow and he grips his fist, waiting for Killua to break down the door. He's not sure if Killua is planning on attacking him or what but Gon is ready for anything at this point. After a few minutes go by, Gon is sure Killua isn't going to make a move. He's waiting for Gon to come out.
Gon unlocks the door and flings it open, glaring only to blink when the assassin isn't there. Gon doesn't have a good feeling, he can still smell Killua.
"Stop playing games." Gon huffs, hating how his body is already getting warm. He's torn between hurting and mating with the other male.
"No, you stop playing games." Gon's eyes widen when Killua drops down from the ceiling, kicking Gon in the chest. The werewolf is sent back, hitting his back against the toilet getting him to wince. Killua comes into the bathroom stall as Gon gets up, blocking his way out, those blue eyes dangerous and empty. "You're the one who's playing with my heart!" Killua growls, his claws out and his canines showing.
"What are you going to do Killua? Hurt me?" Gon snarls, his blood boiling from the pain in his chest and back from where Killua kicked him. He stands up, this space not big enough. "You've done enough of that."
"If I've hurt you before, fucking talk to me about it, don't ignore me-"
"Why don't you listen to me? I told you. I'm not playing any games, Killua. I told you I don't want you as a mate. I don't want anything to do with you. This isn't a game!" Gon growls, moving closer to Killua, poking him roughly in the chest.
"You accepted my gold yesterday! You were kissing me! Ohh don't you look at me like that." Killua sneers when Gon gives him a look of defiance. "I could smell it on you. You wanted me to fuck you. Now all of a sudden you don't want me. Yesterday you told me you wanted to travel the world with me!" Killua swallows, that anger giving way to something else. "Just...talk to me, Gon. Don't push me aside."
Gon feels his anger shimmer and steam out. If just for a second. This bathroom stall has become too hot with Killua staring at him with those blue eyes, waiting for an answer, hoping for an answer. Gon couldn't miss the way his voice broke at the end. Killua is hurting. Gon is hurting too. But if Gon talks to Killua, he'll expose himself. If Gon stays around Killua, he'll expose himself. And Killua's words about him and his kind can not be forgotten.
"I wanted to travel the world with you ...I can't. Not with someone as cruel as you Killua." Gon licks his lips, watching as Killua's eyes get dark again.
"It's because of what I said about those fucking werewolves isn't it? You think I'm cruel for my words? Ha! Gon, you just don't get it. You really did leave me because of what I said about those werewolves didn't you? Are you that much of an idiot? You're the cruel one! Making me feel like this over fucking werewolves, those fucking mutts-"
"Don't call them mutts!" Gon screams, shoving Killua, getting the boy to stumble back a couple of feet. Killua snarls at him, his teeth baring as if he's going to attack him, that tension Gon was talking about is about to snap. "The only reason I am an idiot is because I fell for someone like you! A person who tricks and sneaks and says horrible things. You don't even know me."
"Of course I fucking know you, what are you saying? Whats so bad about falling for me huh? What's so bad about being my mate huh? Because your butt hurt over what I said about a werewolf that mind you, attacked Illumi and probably killed others who is still out loose in the city-"
"You don't know anything about that werewolf! How can you decide if it's hurt others?" Gon swallows down the lump in his throat.
"How can you decide if it hasn't?" Killua counters. "You don't know anything about that werewolf either! Just because you fucking love werewolves doesn't mean you can tell what everyone is doing. You just don't get it, you're in your own fucking world. If you knew how awful werewolves are, you wouldn't care about what I said about them-"
"Awful huh?" Gon's voice goes quiet, his glare steady and his breathing even. "I'm going to prove you wrong Killua. I won't let you talk bad about werewolves. I'm going to show you through my report and once i'm done, you'll feel bad about what you said about werewolves!-"
"Ha! Bring it on. Once you hear my report, you're going to see how stupid you're being." Killua grips his fist, his claws disappearing into his normal flesh.
"You're the stupid one, Killua!" Gon shouts, his eyes shining with that fire and his teeth grinding. He needs to get away from Killua. His scent is overpowering. Also Gon doesn't like how Killua seems so set on his thoughts, so set on...proving to Gon that werewolves are bad. That they're awful.
Tell me Killua, am I so awful? Do you really want me to be put down? Would you call me a mutt?
Killua glares at him, about to open his mouth only for there to be a knock at the door. "B-Brother please leave Gon alone. The teacher wants you back anyway." It's Alluka's voice. Gon frowns, feeling his chest pull.
"I'm coming sis." Killua sends a dark glare at Gon. "That's another thing. I don't appreciate what you're doing to my sister. You can be pissed at me but don't take that off on my sister. You're upsetting her."
Gon doesn't say anything to that. He doesn't have anything to say. Killua stares at him a moment longer before he huffs, rolling his eyes. "You're so fucking lame." Killua growls out as he walks out of the bathroom and slams the door behind him.
Gon once again has to stick his head in cold water and then sit in the bathroom stall to try to calm his racing heart. It aches. He feels sick. He doesn't like this. He really doesn't. He doesn't like making Alluka upset. He doesn't like this tension between Killua and him. He really doesn't like how Killua thinks of his kind and how he speaks about him so meanly. Gon holds his head in his hands. He wishes Killua would just back off but he isn't. Gon knows he isn't. Gon could keep telling him to leave him alone but the more he pushes, the more Killua pulls. This is only day one and Killua is aggressive. He'll keep being like this. He won't stop and Gon's not sure if he can hold out.
Gon rubs at his head where Killua threw a book at him and his chest that Killua kicked. Killua is always hurting him physically. Pushing him around. Gon is close to showing Killua just what he can really do. He's close to hurting Killua. Gon feels it in him. That rubber band is about to snap.
The only thing keeping him together is the fact that he's going to be giving his report, that he's going to show everyone the light. Killua will have to be moved in some way. Kurapika was moved. Gon hopes that his heart and his emotions can move Killua as well...
Then maybe they can both stop hurting.
Killua's fingers drum restlessly on his desk, staring at the doorway, waiting for that boy with the spiky hair to come in. He's been waiting all day for this. It's all he could think about last night. It's finally history, time for Killua to show Gon how he's wrong. Time to end all of this shit. Killua can't stand it. He can't stand not being able to talk to Gon normally, not able to laugh with him and to have him by his side.
It's driving him crazy.
Gon is so close and yet he really won't talk to him. He just wants to give up, he just wants to walk away. He calls Killua cruel...Gon is the cruel one. Toying with his emotions, bringing him in only to throw him out because of something so stupid as words spoken about a werewolf.
"I don't want you!"
Killua feels his heart clench and he remembers how it felt like something shattered inside him from Gon speaking those words. They hurt. They hurt worse than when he was whipped and burned. After awhile you go numb but this pain continues and Killua can't relieve it. The assassin thought he was going to cry. He thought that Gon was going to make him do something embarrassing at school but he was able to keep it together.
Despite how much those words hurt, Killua can't believe them. He can't believe that Gon doesn't want him, not when Gon was saying how he wanted to travel the world with him yesterday and he accepted his gold. Not when Gon was smiling and kissing him just yesterday...not when that body was getting hot and yearning for his touch. Not when Gon's rough hands were working on him so tentatively, massaging his body and making him feel good. Not when Gon has wanted to be close to him since they met.
Killua can't accept it. He won't.
There's a dark part of Killua that he has to fight back, the demon part of him that is whispering to just take what is his. To claim Gon and hide him away and make him forgive him. It's that demon part that makes Killua hot when he's around Gon, like in the bathroom, Killua wanted to slam him against the bathroom stall and kiss that mouth and bite his lips till he bled. It's also the demon part of him that wants to hurt Gon, wants to hurt him for the pain he's put Killua through...
But there's this other part that wants nothing more than to pull Gon into his chest and beg him to stop this, to come back to him. This part that just wants Gon by his side again, smiling and making him feel alive and happy. This part wants Gon to want him. To want to be with him and for him to be happy.
Killua can't voice any of these deep feelings inside of him. He can't tell Gon to stop and he can't beg him, his pride won't let him. He's not lame like that. He's not going to show that much weakness to a man who leaves him so quickly. Killua can't let Gon know how much power he has, how much he can hurt him. Gon is dangerous.
Killua is stuck between hurting Gon and loving him. All he can do to hide this pain in his chest is act like an ass hole and make Gon angry with him. At least Gon is showing him attention. At least Gon is interacting with him in some way. Killua couldn't stand it in class, Gon sitting so far away, not looking at him, acting as if nothing happened. Killua wanted to hurt him, wanted to play with him and despite the anger Gon shown when he threw the book back, Killua was delighted that Gon was responding to him.
Killua wanted to demand that Gon sit down next to him. He wants to dominate his mate and show him how it's going to be but there's something holding him back, a knowledge...trying to do that will only push Gon away more. Killua doesn't want that.
The purpose of this report isn't to get Gon pissed at him. The purpose of this report is to show Gon that there's more to werewolves then he's seen. So he can understand why werewolves are looked at as they are.
He doesn't want werewolves to be the reason Gon doesn't want to be with him anymore. No. He can't stand it. Gon doesn't even get it.
Killua can't go on without Gon. He needs him. He needs to have the other male next to him. He needs his smiles and his laughter. He needs his warmth and his scent and the way he puffs out his cheeks and crinkles his nose when he chuckles. He needs his rough hands and his tan flesh. He needs that childish attitude and the light that blinds him. He needs Gon.
"Brother...are you sure about this?" Alluka's voice breaks him out of his thoughts. He looks over at his sister who is frowning, staring at the report that is on Killua's desk before she looks at her brother. "Don't you think...this will upset Gon more? You talk about a lot of dark things brother."
"He might get upset but he'll see where I'm coming from. He'll get that there's no reason for him to act like this over these beasts." Killua glares down at his report. "Besides, I think he deserves to get upset. The way he's been treating you is pissing me off even more."
"It's okay really...He's trying to stay away from you. That's what Zushi told me and since you're around me all the time Brother...it's not like he can come around me without you." Alluka rubs at her arm, watching how Killua's face wrinkles up.
"It's just ridiculous. I can't believe he's doing this. It's childish and..." Killua bites his lip, glancing at the door. "What is taking him so long? He better not chicken out." Killua growls only for it to be caught in his throat when Gon finally shows up. Killua blinks, watching as Gon's broad shoulders express power and his face is firm and stone, those eyes blazing with a fire. His muscles shift under his shirt and the aura he's emitting is powerful. Amber eyes lock onto blue. Killua licks his lips, feeling himself start to sweat. Damn. Gon needs to stop being fucking hot when he's pissed at him.
Killua bristles when Gon looks at Kurapika, the blonde gives him a soft smile. They share this look before Gon's eyes brighten up and he smiles, giving Kurapika a thumbs up. Killua grinds his teeth, that tingling of jealousy coming back as he glares daggers at the vampire. Kurapika better back the hell up. Just cause Gon says they're not mates right now, doesn't mean he can try to get all close to Gon. That sly mother fucker is trying to slide his way in when Gon and Killua are fighting.
Killua stops his glaring when Leorio comes into the room, groaning to himself. "Can Mondays not be a thing?" Leorio flops down in his desk, dropping his folder, those brown eyes sweeping over the students before they land on Kurapika and then he looks at Gon. "Today we have something different. Gon and Killua will be giving a report on werewolves and everyone is to be quiet and listen and stuff. If you start talking, I'll make you take notes." Leorio warns, getting Killua to roll his eyes. This guy is a joke. "So Gon why don't you go first-"
"I'll go first." Killua says quickly, standing up from his seat and making his way to the front of the class room before Gon could even stand up. Killua grins in triumph at Gon, those amber eyes don't lose that fire as he sits back down.
"I guess Killua is going first." Leorio grumbles, and he looks like he's glaring at him but when Killua gives him a sharp look he takes a slip of his coffee. "Just start already! Since you wanted to cut Gon off. I'm sure it's way better than yours anyway."
"I'm pretty sure a teacher shouldn't be showing favoritism. But I have to disagree with you. My report will render Gon speechless." Killua turns his attention on his mate, his lips turning in a smirk when Gon's amber eyes shine with defiance. "Fellow classmates, let me give you a lesson in history, on something you all already know and understand that Gon doesn't. Why werewolves are known as mutts and beasts. Why they can't fit into society, why they are nothing but a nuisance." Killua watches as Gon's eyebrows furrow and he grips his fist and bites his lip. If he's getting pissed now, just wait Gon. Just wait.
Killua opens up his folder, not that he's going to be looking at his paper much but he wants to make sure he makes his thoughts flow. He's not planning on staying up here forever to get his point across.
"In the 1850s the term werewolf was coined when large beasts would come out on a full moon and kill the humans life stock and anyone who was unfortunate enough to be out at night. Werewolves are very territorial and throughout time they have been traveling into the humans' space and killing their kind, eating their young and trying to take back what isn't there's. The werewolves were an unstoppable force. They killed anything in their path, making the humans retreat, living in fear that the wolves might come and eat them at any time. In 1900 it was discovered that silver was the werewolves weakness. For fifty years the werwolves terrorized the humans till they discovered they could kill them with silver. Werewolves are nasty creatures who the humans have put their mark on. They marked them as animals because that is what they are. They'll eat anything that moves and destroy anything in their path. They are wild animals, and what do the humans do? They tame wild animals. Since the 1900s humans have found ways to kill werewolves, they've done experiments and have learned more and more about how they work. The humans killed a third of the werewolf population, causing the werewolves to scatter.
Another third was captured and put into zoos and camps to train and tame them. All their research has payed off. Now there are humans that have werewolves as pets. They use werewolves as guards for someone important like the President, you can find one at the zoo that the humans look and gawk at. Werewolves are also used as hunters, finding and killing a dangerous target or dying in the process. They have camps where they breed werewolves, mixing them and making more dangerous beasts. You can find at some restaurants werewolf meat where they eat the werewolves and you can find blankets made of their fur and weapons out of their claws and teeth. Every year there's even a game the humans play, they release a group of strong werewolves and then hunt them, shooting them all down. Werwolves wouldn't be an issue if the humans got all of them. They didn't. A third of the werewolves got away, escaping from the humans and trying to gain the power that they lost. Werewolves can't fit into society. The sounds and smells, and their hunger makes them destroy and kill. In the last five years there's been 60,000 people that have died just in this city from werewolves attacks. They're viscous and they don't get it. They can't wrap it around their heads that it's useless to try to fight the humans when they know their weakness, they've been exposed. That's what makes them animals. Their inability to think abstractly, their inability to control themselves. The poachers have been going out searching for the last of the werewolves to put them in captivity and to make the human's world a bit safer. Werewolves lack the inability to learn from their pass mistakes. They're crazed.
I've had my own experience with werewolves. I came to the city for a call and found a large werewolf biting into a human, ripping his spine out from his back, biting the bone and eating. Around it were body parts of other humans it had killed, a child's head next to my feet. The animal can't control itself. It can't show restraint. Werewolves are known for their destructive behavior but they're also known for their stupidity and their inability to be more human than wolf. Most of them can't even change into their human forms. Their minds are easily unstable by their emotions. Now the only place that has untouched werewolves is an Island called Whale island. The humans aren't suppose to touch the werewolves in this area but since there are werewolves that leak into the city, the humans are thinking about over ruling this and just killing the werewolves on the island. They've been mating on the island and having offspring.
The more of them, the more damage they can cause to society. With the way Werewolves have acted in the past, I think it's smart for them to take care of these werewolves before they try anything. Nothings more dangerous then a pack of crazed wild werewolves. It will be 1850 all over again. So that's why werewolves are animals. They have no more say, the humans decide their fate and they can't adapt. They've killed countless people. Since they can't adapt, they've been turned into pets, and attractions at zoos. They've become weapons and clothes and food. Werewolves are nothing but animals that need to be put into their place.
"The best kind of werewolf is a dead one" Was said by a werewolf specialist Ben Robins, who had been working with werewolves all his life. Even when they are tamed they can some times get loose and kill their owner and others. The more we put down, the less trouble we'll have. The humans will lose their fun with werewolves eventually and when that happens, the werwolves will be put down. They will be gotten rid of just like the humans tried to do with the vampires. It's only a matter of time before they're destroyed. Werewolves cause more harm than good and once the humans see that the risks outweigh the benefits, they will remove werewolves from this world. Werewolves are known for death and destruction, do we really need something like that? And the life that most of these werewolves are living, serving as pets that listen to the humans beck and call, well...it's pathetic. They're better off dead."
Killua didn't take a breath. He got so into it, all the information he found just leaking out as he stares at his paper, all the anger and frustration just pouring out of him and fueling him to continue. Killua takes a deep breath, looking up from his paper to smirk at Gon, wanting to see his look of horror and recognition. If this report didn't get to him, nothing will-
Killua's smug smirk falls when he looks at Gon. The other male is standing up from his seat...tears rolling down his face, those eyes so big and full of pain that Killua winces. His heart clenches and the report he worked on trembles slightly in his hands. Had he gone too far? Killua wasn't expecting Gon to cry. They're just werewolves...why do they mean so much to him? Killua swallows, the guilt eating him up and he wants to rip his report up and squeeze Gon to death. Alluka was right. He shouldn't have done this. He just wanted Gon to understand. He just wanted Gon to talk to him again.
Kurapika and Leorio are looking at Gon with big concerned eyes. They look horrified. Absolutely horrified. Killua doesn't understand it. He doesn't get it. What is he missing? Why is this even happening?
Gon suddenly marches towards him, those tears falling freely but there's this fire burning back in those amber orbs that narrow in such a dark glare that Killua swallows thickly. "G-Gon I'm sorr-" Killua tries. He wants to apologize. He wants to stop those tears and this growing feeling of dread. Before he can even get that out, Gon swings, punching him in the face with such force Killua is thrown out of the room, slamming into the lockers.
Before he registers the sting of his lip, Gon is on him, those amber eyes black with rage, growling at him. Killua lets him hit him a couple of times in the chest, his brain trying to catch up on what's happening...right. Gon is hurting him, attacking him. Gon grabs Killua by the shirt and throws him on the ground, getting on top of him, socking him in the jaw. Because of his report, because of what he said, Gon is hurting him...but why does Gon care about werewolves more than he cares about Killua? How could he give everything away so easily?! How can he do this?! Why...why...
Something snaps in Killua and he hisses, his pupils becoming blown out as he kicks Gon off of him, grabbing Gon by the face and slamming him hard against the floor. Gon snarls at him, his blood splatting on the ground as he leans up, biting deep into Killua's shoulder, his teeth sinking in and scarping his bone. Killua hisses in pain, his claws coming out. He scratches Gon's chest getting him to whimper in pain and his teeth let up. Killua rips him off, crying out in the pain it causes before he hits Gon in the jaw. He doesn't get to hit him again because soon Gon is grabbing his wrist, using enough force that he breaks Killua's wrist. Killua's eyes get dark as he head butts Gon, busting his head open. Gon kicks Killua off of him, grabbing him by the hair and slamming him into the lockers.
Leorio is yelling, his sister is sobbing, he can hear all this but he's lost it. So has Gon. The other male surprises him by kicking at his leg, making him stumble just enough for Gon to tackle him to the ground again, biting into his chest making him hiss at the pain as he digs his nails into Gon's arms, flipping them over so he's on top again.
Killua pants as he stares down at Gon, the other male is catching his breath as well, breathing heavily through his nose, those black eyes staring up at him with anger. Seething rage. But there's still tears falling down Gon's face, mixing with the blood from his busted head and lip. Killua's haze starts to fall away as he stares at the damage he's caused his mate and from the pause in their battle. Killua stares into those amber eyes and Killua finds his own eyes go back to normal, getting deep and glossy. His claws turn back into flesh and he touches Gon's face gently. Gon flinches from his touch and growls, it makes something sink In Killua and he bites back his hiss. He fights the demon part of him.
"I'm..." Killua swallows and he forces himself to speak, ignoring the grating of his broken bones in his wrist as he wipes those tears away. The tears he had caused. "I'm sorry...Gon..." Killua whispers, watching as those dark eyes slowly start to change back to the amber Killua knows. Killua doesn't care where he is. He's not aware of anything right now but Gon underneath him. Killua presses his lips against Gon's, tasting iron from his blood but Killua doesn't mind. It's Gon. Killua's heart beats faster and he feels like crying being able to taste Gon again. His body is warming and so is Gon's.
Gon's eyes are wide now, those amber eyes shine but Gon won't kiss him back. Gon's tears have dried. Killua pulls away, swallowing the lump in his throat from Gon not returning the gesture. Killua's mind is jumbled up. He can't think clearly, not after all this. Killua licks at Gon's tears before licking at Gon's busted lip tentatively, wanting to show his remorse and his care where his words fail. He never wanted to hurt Gon. They both got carried away. How was Killua suppose to react with Gon attacking him? It was more of a reflex then anything.
Gon's breath catches in his throat as Killua keeps licking his face, his white ears flatten on his head and his tail wrapping around Gon's leg. There's no one here but them. Killua feels his heart flutter when Gon grabs his wrist and starts to lick at it, showing him the same kind of affection after awhile. Killua finds himself get warmer and he just wants to stay here on top of Gon and hold him against his chest, take care of the wounds he caused.
"K-Killua...please get off of me." Gon's voice is quiet. Killua buries his head between Gon's neck and shoulder, not wanting to. He doesn't want to get off. He feels like if he does, he'll lose him. "I can't...I'm at my limit...Killua..." Gon's body is so warm and it's causing Killua to get warm as well.
"Gon...I'm..." Killua can't find the words. He's hurt the boy badly and he feels like he could throw up. He doesn't want to hurt Gon like this ever again. Not out of spite and rage. Not when he cares so much about him. He didn't mean it. It was the spur of the moment. Killua's heart beats faster when Gon clings to his shirt, his hands trembling and it reminds Killua of their first kiss and how the other male would cling to him. As if he needed him for support. Gon's eyes are flickering from being darker to lighter, his teeth grinding as if he's in pain. The grip on him isn't pulling Killua closer but it's not pushing him away either.
"...Alright break it up." Leorio finally steps in. Killua can't help to wonder where he was when it was all going down. No one dared get in the middle of their fight. Smart. Killua probably would have killed anyone who did. Killua turns his head and hisses at Leorio, getting the elf to squeak and move away quickly. "Okayyy." He holds up his hands in surrender.
Killua bringing his attention on Leorio is all Gon needed to push him off. The assassin lets up, getting off of Gon, kneeling in front of him, watching with a frown on his lips as Gon sits up, wincing slightly from the damage he caused. Gon's amber orbs get dull. "You don't even know what you're saying sorry for." Gon looks up suddenly those amber orbs getting watery. "Do you hate me, Killua?"
"Wha?" Killua tenses at such a look and the question, his heart hurting and his stomach twisting. "Why would you think that? Of course I don't hate you! You've been pissing me off but that's because...you left and I...I can't..." Killua chokes up on his words, those amber eyes staring at him as if he's betrayed Gon. There's hurt and pain and it makes Killua feel ill. "What...why...?"
"Gon." Killua looks over to see Kite marching down the hallway. He catches the way Gon's shoulders tense and before anyone could even say anything, Kite is yanking Gon by his hair, the younger male yelping being forced on his feet.
"Stop!" Killua stands up, ignoring the slight sting he feels in his body. "The fight was my fault, I-" Killua's eyes widen when Kite slams Gon's head into the lockers, his blood staining the blue. Killua feels something protective and powerful flare up in him. "Don't touch him!" Killua snarls, his teeth baring, his electric sparks flying. Killua is stopped by his little sister running up to him, hugging him from behind, burying her head in his back.
"N-No more." She begs. Killua's ears flatten at this and from Kite pulling Gon away from the lockers only to start pulling him away, Gon's chest heaving up and down.
"Hey didn't you hear me? I said I started it-" Killua's lying. He's trying to cover up Gon's mess once again but Kite isn't listening.
"Leorio get these students back in class. I would think you could manage them better." Kite gives Leorio a sharp look, getting him to tense.
"Uh yeah. Get the hell back in class, everyone." The students who were all watching with wide eyes slowly return back to class. Kurapika being the last one to leave, a deep frown on his lips. "Alluka, Killua...come on."
If Alluka wasn't hugging him so tightly, Killua would go after Kite who is dragging his mate down the hallway. He doesn't know what he's going to do but he had no right to hurt Gon. He has no right to handle him like that. Once the two disappear into a room, he's finally pulled back by his sister, and they head back into the class room.
Killua can't believe that happened. Gon completely freaked out because of what he said. It made him cry and look at him like he stabbed him in the back. The pain, and the rage coming out as he fought with him. Killua glances at the desk Gon was sitting at...and his report that he didn't get to give. Killua doesn't say anything as he takes the folder off his desk and sits down with Alluka. The class is deadly silent.
Leorio looks pale and he kind of just sits here for a moment before he tells the class to read something. Kurapika's eyes are a ting of scarlet, biting his lip. Alluka is trembling slightly and all Killua can do is rub her shoulder, trying to give her the comfort he doesn't have. Killua is bleeding from his bite wounds, his blue shirt staining red, his body stinging but he enjoys the pain. He feels as if he deserves it. Killua can't say anything to his sister. He just attacked her friend. she was probably scared to death they would kill each other.
The silence could be cut with a knife. There's no way Killua can do anything after all that. Killua settles on reading Gon's report, the one he should have gave to counter his. Killua looks at the format and how perfect it looks and in the corner of his mind he finds It hard to believe Gon did this but then he starts to read, and it's like he can hear Gon's voice in his head.
"Werewolves are very family oriented. They take care of each other, even if they're not a part of the pack. If a cub is without a mother or father, a werewolf will take care of the cub as their own. Werewolves are one of the most passionate lovers when it comes to their mates and children, giving up their lives just to protect one another. When I spent my time with some werewolves, I saw this with my own eyes. Poachers attacked and tried to take a young werewolf of only five years. The pup couldn't fight against their nets and their whips. An older werewolf killed the humans trying to take the pup away only to be shot and killed, leaving the pup in tears. Werwolves feel pain and sorrow. The young werewolf with ears barely poking on top of his head held the dead body in his arms and stayed like that. They're not animals to be put down. They have hopes and dreams.
The werewolves know the English language and can adapt well to learning any language they need, as seen when I was able to communicate with them. They smile and laugh and are able to raise life stock and take care of crops. Does that sound like an animal to you? Werewolves can be dangerous when they are threaten, and i'm sure some of the werewolves have caused damage but those werewolves shouldn't bring all of them down. Werewolves are part human, so why are they labeled animals?because they kill? Humans kill. They kill werewolves when they weren't doing anything but taking care of their crops and families. The poachers will steal the females when they can, separating them from their mates, and when this would happen, the air was filled with wails of lost and rage. I haven't been in the city for long but I was shocked to find how badly werewolves are thought of especially by people who, most of all haven't even met or seen a werewolf in real life. How can you judge them all based off a few? Werewolves aren't pets, they're not a being to be put down like a dog.
They're like any of you. Creatures that are part human, creatures that have humanity. So why are they treated differently than you? Because they have their own customs? Or is it that you've just decided that werewolves are the monsters that need to be taken care of. Werewolves are very loving and affectionate. When one of them is wounded, the werewolves will lick the wound to heal it. They sleep together and bathe together, they groom each other and watch over each others young. They work as a team and when a member of the pack is wounded, they all are. Werewolves are able to trade with other creatures to get materials by selling their crops. They're not stupid, they're powerful creatures and are misunderstood. It breaks my heart thinking about the thoughts you guys have. If you could see the full picture I wonder if you would still feel this way. Werewolves have the ability to not only care about their own but to care about other creatures and to love. Werewolves have those human emotions so why do you look at them like animals? They are loyal and will fight to the death for the cause of the pack. They are just passionate in all that they do and it is unfortunate that some of these werewolves get sick and lose it and hurt the humans. But they shouldn't bring all of them down."
The more Killua read, the more he frowned and the more his stomach twisted. Killua feels himself start to sweat. This report shows Gon's deep love for werewolves and maybe that is enough to make him feel guilty but Killua can't help to point things out in his report. Like the bathing together. And the licking wounds. This report has knowledge that Killua didn't even find. Killua can't help to remember those black eyes when he attacked, the tears there...it can't be. Killua can't believe the thought crossed his mind. There's no way. Gon is a centaur...there's no way they would let a werewolf into the school.
There's no way Gon is a werewolf.
But it would explain a lot. Why Gon won't turn into his true from around him, the secrecy, his black eyes, the way he bares his teeth and growls, his strength and agility in his human form. Those sharp teeth that sunk into his shoulder weren't teach of a centaur.
. .No. No.
Killua can't...no...Gon can't be...but... Killua feels like he's about to have a panic attack. If Gon is a werewolf it explains why Gon gets so upset when he talks about them. It would also explain the confusion on his face when he gave him the gold, maybe he didn't even know what it meant. It would explain why he looked so hurt and attacked him...God, the horrible things he said! How was he suppose to know? How could he, when Gon is nothing like the werwolves he has seen? Gon isn't a beast, he's not an animal. Gon is reckless and stupid in his own way but he's not...a dog.
Killua's mouth goes dry when he realizes something. His brother was attacked by a werewolf. Illumi said the werewolf recognized him. That the werewolf was intelligent and was hiding among them...he was speaking of Gon. Gon attacked Illumi and during the dinner Killua said that Gon should be put down. He said that. No wonder Gon left. No wonder he's been so upset and wanting nothing to do with him. Then Killua had to...say things like the only good werewolf is a dead one. Killua feels the bile in the back of his throat and his eyes sting.
Gon should have told him! Killua wants to shout, wants to scream but he knows why Gon didn't. He knew how Killua felt about werewolves. He was probably afraid he would have turned him in. How can Killua blame him? When he was speaking the way he was about his kind? Killua can't believe this. It's surreal. Killua's heart is beating so fast. He wishes Gon would have told him anyway. He wishes he would have picked up on the signs sooner but Gon is nothing like the werewolves he's encounter. Nothing at all. He couldn't have known. Killua can't associate Gon with something he hated like werwolves. Gon is just...just...
How could he have known?
If this was two weeks ago, Killua would have turned Gon in without batting an eyelash. Now is different. Killua loves him. And even though a part of him is screaming at him to just leave this alone, he can't. Killua doesn't care he's a werewolf. Gon is Gon. He only wants to apologize and bring the male back into his life. It hasn't even been a day and Killua can't stand the distance.
This situation has to be approached delicately. Killua feels himself sweating from his concern. The city is dangerous for werewolves and Killua is almost certain Illumi knows Gon is a werewolf. Illumi wants to do something to Gon. Killua grinds his teeth, feeling himself bristle, biting his lip till he bleeds. He's so fucking stupid. He should have seen the signs. He should have been smarter. Now he's hurt Gon when he didn't need to. He would never say or feel those things towards Gon. The other male has become his light. Whether he's a werewolf or a centaur, Killua doesn't care much. It's Gon.
Killua doesn't know why Gon is here in the city or what his plans are but Killua is going to find out. No more secrets. No more pain. Killua is standing by Gon and he's going to keep him safe. He has to. Killua is driving himself insane with all the horrible scenarios running through his head. He needs to speak with Gon. He needs to clear this up.
Killua needs to apologize.
"I've been a fool sis." Killua breathes out as he closes the report and pushes it against his chest.
"Yeah you have." Alluka looks over at her brother, her lips tugging in a frown.
"I'm going to fix this...really fix it." Killua licks his lips before looking at his sister. "And once I do...we need to take Gon and get out of the city. We don't have anymore time."
"Huh?" Alluka sees the urgency in her brother's eyes and she tugs at her shirt. "W-Why? What's wrong? Is it because of the family-"
"I'll tell you about it later. First, I have to sort this out with Gon...No more games. No more bull shit." Killua's heart is beating so fast.
It's time for both Gon and Killua to be honest with each other.
Gon's head is fuzzy, the only thing keeping him together is the throbbing in his head and the pulling of his hair as Kite throws him into a room. Gon lands on his hands and knees, feeling weak, his heart beating so fast. Gon feels the pain in his arms from Killua clawing him and can feel the blood leak from his chest from those sharp nails ripping through his flesh.
Gon snapped. He couldn't control himself after hearing Killua say those things. It hurt too much. He felt as if Killua was ripping him open with his words and how causally he said them. Gon felt like puking and screaming at the same time. He couldn't stop his tears and he couldn't stop himself from punching Killua. He couldn't stop from hurting him. That tension broke out into a fight between the two and all Gon could think about is that Killua would rather him dead.
Gon has never felt like this in his life.
He thought for sure he was going to expose himself and maybe if the fight went longer he would have but then Killua had to stop hurting him, had to look at him with those big blue eyes filled with pain and guilt and had to apologize. He had to lean in and kiss him, and Gon hated how his body reacted, hated how much he wanted to taste Killua after all the things he said. The rage dulled and a warmth spread through his chest. He didn't kiss Killua back. He forced himself not to and it was hard. He wanted to be angry but when Killua was kissing him, all Gon wanted to do was cry, his heart was yearning and breaking at the same time. Then Killua had to go and start licking his wounds, handling him with such care and affection. He was remorseful for hurting him.
But If Killua new the truth, would he have still been remorseful? That's all Gon could think and yet his heart was beating so fast and he felt himself get hotter with Killua being so close and touching him. He had to get Killua off of him, or he would be exposed by his want and that would have destroyed Gon.
Gon couldn't help but ask if Killua hated him. Even though he knows Killua doesn't hate Gon the centaur, would he hate Gon the werewolf? Would he despise him for his secret and for what he is? Would he still want him put down?
"Gon. That was too close. Do you know what would have happened to you if you exposed yourself in front of all those people?" Kite's voice is sharp and it doesn't help this feeling in Gon's chest or the disappointment he feels for losing it.
"I know...I know." Gon swallows and turns around to face Kite, staying on his knees, he looks up at Kite. "I couldn't...I couldn't stop." Gon feels like breaking down but he holds himself together and he locks eyes with Kite. "Is it really true? Is whale island the only place with untouched werewolves? Are all the jobs we have regulated by the humans? Do they really breed us like animals? Why didn't I know? Why would they do this?"
"...Whale island is the only place that is reserved for your kind. All the other spots where werewolves use to live and thrive have been destroyed. The humans have made their homes there and have taken the werewolves to train them and do to as they see fit. The werewolves have become crazed that are in captivity. They've lost the human part of them and can no longer change back. This is the reality you are living in Gon. I thought you would have known this." Kite watches as Gon stares at his hands, eyes wide with shock and disbelief. "Ging is the reason why whale island is safe for werewolves."
"Ging?" Gon looks up quickly, the dread he was feeling gives way and he looks at Kite with hope.
"The humans were planning on taking over your island to tame the last of you some years ago. Ging was able to become a council of the higher ups, hiding what he is to protect the island. It's against the law for poachers to attack the werewolves there but some do it anyway for their fur or to sell them. Ging is still working with the council but he can't do much more than keep whale island safe. For most of the others that can't hide in society...it's too late for them. Wing and Zushi are a rare occurrence. Most others that weren't on your island are being used. Trained for a purpose or put down because they fulfilled their purpose. Do you understand...Gon?"
"Ging was protecting us all this time." Gon smiles and his heart swells and he knows his tail would be wagging. It falls though when everything else sinks in. "...So for the most part, the werewolves from my pack are the last." Gon frowns deeply. "Isn't there anything else we can do? If we set the werewolves free from captivity-"
"Gon, those werewolves have lost it. You would know if you saw them. If you were to release them, they would just kill and destroy and then be shot. There is no helping them." Kite speaks harshly but those eyes soften as they look at Gon. "The only thing that can be done is protecting your pack and yourself Gon. The humans have been fed lies about werewolves all their life. You won't be able to convince them."
"But...But there has to be something..." Gon bites his lip, feeling helpless, weak. "There has to be something to be done! Ging has done something for our kind. He's protected us and there has to be something I can do to protect my kind. Can't I show them how we are? I feel if the humans saw how we live on whale island and saw how werewolves are that aren't captured, they'll see that what they're doing is wrong-"
"Gon, you are talking about a race that kills their own kind without batting an eye. You are a threat to their power. Your kind is. They kill each other when they are threaten. They drop bombs and destroy innocence. Trying to explain to them that what they're doing is wrong won't end well for you."
"I can't believe that humans can't see that this is wrong. The humans are ruthless but not all of them are. They can't be. If I can have hope for the werewolves, I can have hope for the humans as well." Gon's eyes shine with a fire that Kite watches carefully. "I bet Ging is even thinking of a way to convince the humans too!"
"You have a lot of hope in you. Even for Ging." Kite's lips turn in a smile and he closes his eyes, pulling at his hat "I can't tell you what Ging is doing or what that man is thinking. I've stopped trying long ago to understand him." Kite looks at Gon seriously. "Don't get caught here Gon. You have a future. A future that doesn't involve you being whipped and used. If you want to find Ging, exposing yourself here won't help you in that."
"I know." Gon grips his fist, his heart still clenching when he thinks that Killua is the main problem he's having right now.
"Are you calmer?" Kite raises his eyebrow, watching as Gon stands up, taking a deep breath.
"Yeah...I think so. Thank you Kite. I needed to get away from there."
"You should get your wounds cleaned. Killua put a number on you."
"Yeah...he's strong." Gon smiles and it feels strained. Killua's words are echoing through his head and he just wants to forget about it. He has his job to do. He has a mission and he has to think of a way to help his people. He can't let the humans decide that werewolves don't deserve to live. He won't let them take away whale island or hurt his pack anymore.
Thanks to Kite, he's gained his mind back. He understands where Killua has gotten his point of view from Kite and his report. Killua has only seen the crazed werewolves that get out from captivity or have been 'tamed' by the humans. He's been fed those lies. Even though Gon understands it doesn't hurt less because Gon knows he's not like that and his pack isn't like that. Werewolves aren't normally like that. The humans have done this to them. He just has to stay away from Killua. He can't handle anymore. It hurts too much. When he cares with his eyes and sneers with his mouth.
"I'm going to head out early Kite. I'll see you tomorrow for class. Maybe then we can talk more about Ging." Gon smiles before he walks out of the class, Kite watching him go before he smiles to himself.
"I'd like to."
Gon runs down the hallway, sure that the bell is going to ring at any moment. He doesn't' know if Killua will come after him but Gon can't afford that. He needs to talk to that spider. He needs to start Kurapika's plan. Gon runs out of the school just as the bell is ringing. Gon closes his eyes, sensing eyes on him, knowing the spiders are around but he's looking for one in particular. He tries to sniff him out but there's too many smells and the scent is hidden well-
"Hey Kid over here." Gon's heart beats faster and he turns his head quickly, Nobunaga walking out from behind a tree, this huge grin on his face. Gon runs over to him, so happy he's not going to have to search him out when he doesn't have that much time. Gon's heart starts to calm the more he focuses on the goal, his mission, to protect Kurapika. "Decided to take me up on my offer huh?" His grin grows only to blink when he takes in Gon's state. "What happened to you? Did you try to fight the vampire by yourself again?"
"Something like that." Gon feels the blood dried on his head and he doesn't like it much but he keeps his eyes focused, his amber eyes burning with fire.
"That look in your eyes! I like it. I really do." Nobunaga looks excited. "I knew you would come around. I kept running into you and the more I saw you, the more I knew. You're going to fit right in. Just like him..." Those eyes get far away before they focus on Gon and he grins. "Got tired of being bossed around by the Zoldcyks? Not that I blame you. I'm telling you right now, you're making the right choice. You'll have anything that you want because anything you want, you take. We're like a pack, we work together if needed to get our goals. You'll be rich." Nobunaga grins. "I thought Hisoka was playing with me when he said you wanted to join but after seeing that eager look in your eyes when you came out, searching me out, I knew it."
"Yeah. I'm tired of being pushed around. I'm strong and I'm ready to show how powerful I am." Gon's amber eyes flare, talking about more things then one and Nobunaga is eating it up.
"We just have to talk to the boss first. I'm sure once he gets a load out of you, he'll agree with it immediately. Lets go. Lets just go now." Nobunaga takes out his phone and types something. All of sudden, Gon doesn't feel the other eyes on him. "They're going to be pissed about me cutting this short but we need to have this meeting. I'll get you cleaned up and something to eat, hell I'll take you out for drinks once Chrollo approves you." Nobunaga is practically buzzing. Gon has never seen someone so excited before and it's strange because this is his enemy. Gon might have to kill him. The thought makes him a little sad. Nobunaga has been nice to him but he's a danger to Kurapika.
"Sounds good. Lets go-" Gon feels like the more he stays out here, the more something could go wrong-
"Gon, what the hell are you doing?!" Gon flinches at that voice, already knowing who it is before he turns around. Oh no. "Get away from him!"
"No Killua." Gon growls, his chest hurting from hearing his voice as he turns and glares at this man. "I'm going with him-"
"Are you insane? You know who he is right?-" Killua's expression is wide with disbelief and panic.
"He knows and he's coming to join us. He got tired of cleaning up after you." Nobunaga smirks, gripping onto his sword.
"Just leave us be Killua." Gon snarls. "It's not like you really care." Gon can't help to say and it sounds bitter even to him. Killua's face falls and it surprises Gon at how big those blue eyes get, how his lip trembles and how it looks like Killua wants to grab a hold of him.
"Gon...we need to talk. Don't go with him, come with me. We really need to talk-"
"I don't want to talk to you Killua. I'm leaving with him-"
"It's important!" Killua shouts and it sounds...desperate. Gon stares at Killua a moment, biting his lip, feeling that yearning and that pain again.
"...We'll talk later-"
"It can't be later! I can't stand it anymore! You're not going with him! You're not joining the spiders! This is reckless even for you!" Killua's chest swells up, he puffs it out, those eyes getting dark once again. "I forbid you!" His voice is deep and powerful. Gon finds himself shivering, that scent reaching his nose, trying to over power him. Trying to dominate him.
Gon is broken out of his heat from the sound of Nobunaga pulling out his blade slightly, it gets his eyes to widen and his chest to tighten. Killua is in danger. This isn't safe for him. Killua needs to leave him alone.
"Someone has abandonment issues." Nobunaga grunts. "We usually don't get involved with you guys especially since your brother is a part of us but if you keep at it, I'm going to be forced to pull my blade on you. Chrollo doesn't have all the time in the world and I want him to see Gon and settle this."
"Killua I'll talk to you later I promise!" Gon tries, giving Killua a pleading look. The assassin looks like he's getting ready to fight, his hands turning into claws, his teeth baring. Gon is getting desperate. He doesn't want Killua getting hurt and he doesn't want him ruining his plans when he's so close. Even though Gon is hurt by Killua's words and his thoughts on his kind, Gon doesn't want Killua to be in danger. Because despite his better judgment, Gon loves Killua. That's why he can hurt him so much. That's why he feels like this. "Trust me."
"Gon, don't go with him-"
"Killua." Gon warns, glancing over at Nobunaga who has taken a step forward. Gon couldn't sit still and let him hurt Killua. He's going to ruin everything. "If you leave me alone right now, we can meet up tomorrow. I'll talk to you. I'll explain why I got upset." This seems to get Killua to calm down and those blue eyes shine with a hope. Gon doesn't know if he will but it was all he could say to get Killua to stop. Gon can't stand their fighting. He can't stand a lot of this.
Killua still seems hesitant as he glances from the Nobunaga's sword then back to Gon. He licks his lips, something on the tip of his tongue that he has to bite back.
"Come on." Gon looks over at Nobunaga, ignoring the feeling in his chest when Killua frowns deeply. Killua is worried about him. It makes his chest ache. Gon is relieved when he turns and walks away, Nobunaga follows him. Killua takes a step forward before biting his lip, those eyes following him with longing and this pain and knowledge and Gon doesn't know how to feel. He just needs to do this.
"Lovers spat?" Nobunaga raises his eyebrow getting Gon to look over at him with wide eyes as they start to run through the forest.
"We're not lovers." Gon glares forward.
"Hey I'm not judging. I don't care what you do in the bed room. I just thought it was a bit funny. The heir to the Zoldycks having a thing for a servant. It's like one of those crappy romance movies." Nobunaga smirks when Gon's cheeks flare up a bit. "I didn't know he swung that way. And by the looks of it, he's got it badddd."
"I don't know." Gon says stubbornly but he does know. Killua has some strong feelings for him. He can smell it in his scent and how he reacts to him. But Killua believes his kind should be killed. Killua said he wanted him dead. Gon frowns to himself. He knows Killua doesn't know he's a werewolf but...it hurts. And the pain is hard to bare when added with the longing of getting closer to Killua. "Where are we going?"
"To the base. Oh wait." Nobunaga stops and pulls out a piece of cloth. "Just in case he doesn't say yes."
Gon lets the cloth put him into darkness, letting the man put it on his face, and Nobunaga keeps him moving. Gon takes a deep breath. Why did he agree to meet up with Killua? It was all he could do to stop Killua from coming after him. He thought for sure that after Killua said those cruel words he would be able to stop his attraction but he couldn't. Killua's kiss and those eyes were all it took. Gon fell right back into his trap, despite the pain he put him through.
Gon won't think about the damage he caused Killua. He won't think about tomorrow. He just needs to think about right now. The farther he gets away from Killua, the better.
Gon has enough on his plate yet he knows, ohhh he knows he can't keep fighting this. Killua won't leave him alone. Gon wonders if he just tells him why he's upset, about what he is, if he'll finally leave him alone. He wonders if Killua could believe that he's different than the werewolves that have lost their minds because of the humans. In his heart of hearts he doesn't want to believe Killua would be like how he was in his dream. He can't believe Killua would do that to him, not when those blue eyes look at him with light and something deep and beautiful.
Gon just doesn't know what to do.
Killua's muscles twitch as he watches Gon's retreating back. He wants to run after him, to grab him, hold him against his chest like a baby and run away from here. Killua doesn't want him going off with that man. Why would Gon want to join the spiders? He's friends with Kurapika isn't he? So why would he-
Killua feels his stomach clench, his eyes widening and his teeth grinding as a blind rage starts to over take him. Does the fucking vampire have something to do with this? Did he put Gon up to it? Does he not care about Gon at all? He's sending Gon to the spiders to fucking get information and to probably devise a plan to attack them. Killua trembles, turning on his heel to walk back to his sister who is looking pale and just as concern as Killua is.
"W-Why did Gon leave with that spider? What's going on-"
"Did you see Kurapika?" Killua snarls the vampire's name. That guy always causes him issues. Killua just figured out Gon is a werewolf and how much danger he's in and now Kurapika is putting him into even more danger. Kalluto is a part of the spiders. What if he tries something? There's just so much that could go wrong. The only reason Killua didn't freak out and rip Gon away from the situation was because of Nobunaga and the way Gon was looking at him. He was pleading and there was still that pain in those amber eyes that made Killua's mouth go dry. Then Gon said he would meet with him tomorrow. He is going to talk to him again despite all those horrible things Killua said. It gives him hope that he can amend their relationship. At the same time Killua doesn't want to wait till tomorrow. He wants to do this now or he feels like he's going to lose Gon. Yet he can't just say what he has to say anywhere. They have to be alone or someone could overhear and then Gon would be in trouble.
Killua didn't mean all those things he said. Not when it comes to Gon. Gon is different.
"I think he stayed after in the history classroom-" Alluka is pulled by Killua as he pulls her back into the school. She swallows. "You think he has something to do with this?"
"I know he does." Killua growls as they head back up the stairs. The hallway is clear but the history room is shut. Is the bastard trying to hide out? Killua wastes no time in busting in, his blue eyes searching for the blonde only to blink when he finds him.
Kurapika is sitting on Leorio's desk, his legs spread with the older man in between them. It looks like they just got done with kissing each other, Kurapika's eyes filled with this concern and worry. When Killua busted in, the two scrambled to get away from each other, Kurapika falling off the desk. The shock of what he just saw fades and he growls once again, marching into the room, his sister covering her mouth and flushing from seeing her teacher and Kurapika in such a suggestive position.
"Killua what the hell!" Leorio starts, his face heating up but there's a dark glare on his face.
"It's your fault isn't it?!" Killua growls marching over to the vampire and grabbing him by his shirt, baring his teeth in his face. "You're the reason why Gon just left with that spider! Am I right?" Killua watches as Kurapika's eyes light up with recognition before he frowns, guilt in those gray eyes before he closes them and sighs.
"...Yes I am the reason. This doesn't concern you Killua-" Kurapika starts, Killua isn't going to let him finish.
"Bull shit. Gon is my mate. What ever he's involved in, concerns me! Do you know what you've done? What danger you've put him through? You bastard, you only care about getting your revenge, you never cared about Gon-"
"I do care about Gon! I tried to talk him out of it but he wants to help me. Believe me Killua." Kurapika takes a deep breath. "You're one to talk. You just said some horrible things and then beat up on him. You don't have the right to call him your mate-"
"I lost it alright? I didn't fucking know that-" Killua stops. Does Kurapika know? He bites his tongue and glares at him. "I'm done some shitty things but this is over the top. Gon is in enough danger as it is! Then you go and pull this shit." Killua glares darkly at Kurapika. "Once I get things straighten out with Gon, I'm leaving and I'm taking him with me. You're not going to use him anymore-"
"Killua do you even know what you need to straighten out?" Kurapika raises his eyebrow, those gray eyes boring into his own. Killua swallows. There's no way. Kurapika knows doesn't he? The way he's looking at him...it says it all.
"I do. I get it. I really, really messed up. I didn't know. Gon's different. I wouldn't..." Killua trials off, gripping Kurapika's shirt before letting go.
"Brother?" Alluka frowns, looking confused.
Kurapika stares at him for a moment before nodding. "Please don't hurt Gon anymore. He's like...a little brother to me. I don't want Gon to be in danger either and I agree that he should leave as soon as possible. Once Gon gives me the information I need, which might be tonight, I will attack as planned. Gon will most likely back me up. It's his job." Kurapika watches Killua's eyes light in recognition.
"...He can get another job." Killua grinds his teeth.
"Try telling that to him." Kurapika sighs. "...He wants to do if for me too, because we're friends. I wish he would go. I worry all the time. I picked this plan just to try to finish this faster to get him out of here."
Killua grips his fists, growling. Gon is so fucking stubborn. Being in this dangerous situation and instead of listening to sane advice he wants to join the spiders and put himself in even more danger. Killua has the worse and best taste in mates. Gon really is...something else. On all levels.
"I defiantly need to give Gon those strawberry cookies tomorrow. He deserves him after all this." Leorio grumbles, rubbing his head. Killua gives him a strange look before looking between Leorio and Kurapika. They're with Gon. On his side. Killua feels his shoulders relax. It's good to see Gon has some people backing him, even though he still doesn't like the blonde much and Leorio is a lazy ass hole.
"Don't be hurting Gon like that again." Leorio glares at him, which Killua responds by giving him his middle finger. His eyebrow twitches.
"I don't need you telling me that old man." Killua looks at Kurapika when Leorio looks like he's about to explode. "So what are we suppose to do? Just wait for Gon to come back? What if something happens?"
"For now, yes." Kurapika watches as Killua frowns. "Doing more would put Gon at risk. We don't want them thinking he's a spy or a traitor."
"I know that." Killua feels restless. He doesn't like it. Not at all.
"Killua." The assassin blinks when Kurapika looks at him seriously. "It's really important you tell Gon how you feel. He...He really cares about you and your words hurt him. Badly. I'm sure you've seen what you can do to him just like we've seen what he can do to you. Gon needs you Killua. He needs you the most right now. So...treat him right and don't make him cry like that again." Kurapika's eyes flash scarlet, and maybe it should have pissed Killua off but he doesn't care. His words were heart felt, the vampire acknowledged Gon's feelings for Killua and told him that Gon needs him. That's all he needs to hear for his heart to pick up speed and his breathing to become uneven. Killua's fingers twitch. He really, really needs to talk to Gon.
"I won't. I'll treat him better. I'll take care of him." Killua takes a deep breath. He's sweating and that's alright because it's the thought of Gon that's making him sweat, making him nervous but also filling him with that need, that desire to be better for him. He wants Gon to be happy and smiling with him again.
He doesn't want to bring Gon pain.
No more of this heart ache. No more of this confusion and need. All those things he said, all the wounds and cuts Killua has caused, he wants to kiss and lick them away and tell Gon just how much he means to him, to say the words that always seem to get caught in his throat or never come out right.
"Brother, is everything going to be alright?" Alluka steps in, she had been timidly balling up her shirt. She doesn't understand. Killua is going to tell her and explain to her everything but for right now, All Killua can manage is.
"I hope so." because there's this unspoken dread in the air. He knows Kurapika feels it and so does Leorio. Killua doesn't like this feeling and he wants now more than ever for Gon to be here so he can wrap his arms around him and keep him safe from the world that wants to swallow him up.
Gon has gathered a strange group of friends in the last two weeks but from the start, the whole world was his enemy.
Killua can't even imagine what Gon's life was like. He can't think about how the poachers attacked him and hurt his family. He can't think of what the humans would do to him if they found out. It makes him ill and he hates himself for it. Gon has been through pain too. Maybe not the same degree as him, but he's been through hardships.
Killua wants to know more. He wants to know about the Gon that was hiding from him because he was worried what Killua would do. He wants to know about that young werewolf and how life was like. He wants to be a part of Gon and to understand him more because Obviously Killua didn't know as much about werewolves as he claimed.
Gon...I need to talk to you. Don't do anything stupid. Please.
"That's better." Nobunaga grins once Gon is done washing off the dried blood on his head and face. Gon's shirt is off and forgotten as he also cleaned up his wounds from Killua's claws and bandaged them up from some materials the swordsman gave him.
Though Nobunaga brought him to the base, keeping his eyes blind folded, Gon is pretty sure he could find this place just by the different smells he sniffed out as they were going. When Nobunaga took off the blind fold, he was surprised to see that this place looks more like a barn than anything. The wood is old and looks like it could fall down at any moment. But it is big and spacious. Nobunaga took him to a place to 'freshen up' before he sees the boss. Gon isn't really nervous. He doesn't like being here though. He remembers what the spiders did to Kurapika. He remembers his mission.
"I feel better." Gon smiles as he walks out of the room. He tilts his head when he sees a large group of people just sitting around on boxes. They all turn their heads to look at Gon as he makes his way to them.
"Are you serious? This is the guy you want to join?" A blonde man grunts, looking Gon up and down with a look of distaste.
"He has a simple face." A woman with black hair mumbles.
Gon's eyes looks through everyone only for him to blink when he spots Hisoka sitting on top of a box, staring at him with a semi blank look. His lips are twitching. He can't help to stare when he spots Killua's sister, Kalluto. She's staring back at him, her eyebrows furrowed.
"You?"
"You know him?" The blonde man raises his eyebrow.
"He's my brother's supposed friend.I'm sure not any more after the stunt you pulled last night." Kalluto narrows her eyes. " why are you joining the spiders?"
"Because I want to." Gon can't really think of any other reason. He stays it simply, not meaning it any other way but soon Nobunaga is chuckling.
"He's a feisty one. I think he's just what the spiders need." Nobunaga grins. Kalluto is staring Gon down like if staring long enough would make him go away or die.
"I think you're fucking crazy. We don't need anymore punks." The blonde grunts.
"Yeah we have enough with you." A short man speaks up, his voice deep and silky. The blonde man's eye brown twitches and vein pops out. It looks like he's going to fight the shorter one.
"It doesn't matter what you all think. Just what Chrollo thinks." Nobunaga grunts from the lack of support as he starts to walk off towards a room. Gon follows him, glancing back to see all the spiders looking at him. Gon takes in their faces and their clothes. He tries to remember them. He needs this information. Kurapika is going to need his help killing them all. "Boss. I have the guy I was telling you about! He wants in." Nobunaga grins. There's a pause.
"Bring him in." The voice that spoke is deep but calm. Gon walks into the room, keeping his shoulders straight his head held high. He won't fail this. Gon's amber orbs lock with black. Sitting at a desk is a man with black slick hair, a tattoo of a cross on his forehead. He has big blue earrings and he regards him with a smile. Gon wouldn't say it's warm but it's not dangerous or intimidating though Gon can sense the power coming from this man. "So you're Gon. I heard a lot of things about you. I'm Chrollo the head of this family and that's what this is .A family. You're asking to be a part of it." Those blue eyes seem to hone in to him.
"A family?" Gon tilts his head.
"Yes, A family. We take care each other here. Though you are free to do as you like, you will have to answer when you are needed." Chrollo smiles lightly. "You do have that fire he was talking about. But you look a little pure." Chrollo thinks for a moment, staring intently.
"I'll do anything that I have to do." Gon looks at him, those amber eyes not backing off of blue. He'll do all he need to do to help Kurapika.
"...We'll see." Chrollo keeps staring. "How about a test of that? If you want to join my family, bring me an Ruby. Hisoka will take you to the sight. We've already prepared everything for you. All you have to do is steal and bring me the Ruby."
"Steal an Ruby? Why do you want an ruby?" Gon tilts his head.
"Why not?" Chrollo's smile doesn't fall. "It's a good test for you. Hisoka said it would be interesting. I think it will be too. I'm having trouble seeing you as a member."
"I'll steal the ruby." Gon understands tests. Chrollo is testing his worth. This is Gon's chance to gain his trust. Hisoka set it up? Why does he have a bad feeling about that?
"Let's go little one~" Hisoka pokes his into the room, his smile to wide.
"Go ahead." Chrollo moves his hand. Gon feels like he's missing something but he leaves with Hisoka, all the spiders watching him closely.
"We can't have you peeking." Hisoka pus a cloth over his eyes, he leans close, Gon can feel his lips brush against his ear. "I've missed you little one. I was starting to get bored before you came~" Gon's eyebrows furrow at having one of his senses taken from him. Now he has to rely on Hisoka to lead him, his long nails digging into his shoulders and his body flushed against Gon's back. "This is going to be so much fun. I think you'll enjoy it."
Gon grips his fist. Now he's suspicious. There's something dark in the air as Hisoka keeps moving him. He knows they've walked out of the base and are still walking. Gon just lets him push him, only to tense when Hisoka grabs a hold of him, sweeping him off his feet and holding him bridal style.
"Hisoka put me down." Gon's eyebrows furrow. He doesn't feel like playing these games. He can feel Hisoka's breath near his face, near his lips.
"Let me just hold you for a moment. I'll get us there faster." Hisoka starts running, fast. Gon can feel that they're moving though he can't see. Gon's muscles tense when Hisoka's hand finds his way lower, grabbing on his butt. Gon is pretty sure that Hisoka's hand didn't slip. It moved quite deliberately. "mmm so soft. It's cute how you flinch."
"I'm not flinching." Gon huffs, using his hand to dig into Hisoka's side, he's using enough pressure that he knows it hurts. "Let go."
"Someone is really feisty today. Did Killua put you in a bad mood?" Hisoka sounds like he's pouting but he lets go of Gon's ass. Gon can feel he's excited and his face feels too close to his. Gon tenses at the mention of Killua. Does Hisoka know about their fight? How? "I'm not mean like him Gon." Hisoka purrs.
Gon decides not to talk to Hisoka, waiting for the demon to stop. After awhile he does, letting Gon down on the ground. Gon feels Hisoka's fingers brush unnecessarily on his cheek before untying his blind fold.
Those yellow eyes bore into his. They have that gleam that makes Gon uneasy but he doesn't let it show. Hisoka licks his lips.
"You're a sly little doggy aren't you?"
"Huh?" Gon's eyes widen but before he can react Hisoka is pushing him towards this building that once again looks like an abandoned barn.
"Have fun~" Hisoka shoves Gon into the building,Gon still trying to get over what Hisoka just said. The term doggy made chills crawl down his spine. He couldn't know right? But those thoughts stop when he gets into this building and hears the whining and growling that he's familiar with.
A large werewolf is chained to the wall, his brown fur mangled and dirty. He bares his teeth at Gon, in his wolf form, those black eyes wild and crazed.
Gon watches as the wolf barks at him, jumping from side to side, foaming at the mouth. Gon feels his heart sink and he feels ill when Hisoka leans close, whispering in his ear sickly sweet.
"The ruby is in the wolf, silly doggy thought it was a treat."
There we go! I pulled a lot of work just to get this out fast. I have to tell you guys though, I won't be able to update like I've been doing. I just started my next semester of nursing school so a lot of time will be put into that. I will still write because I like to but I won't be able to update at the speed of light.
I thank you for all your reviews and I do read every one when I get the time. I hope that this chapter made you feel a little better. Probably didn't. I was still a little mean here.
Wish me luck on my schooling, I'm going to need it!