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Warning: I'm not Israeli, I've never been to Israel and I can't speak Hebrew. If I have made any mistakes below, please let me know.

Monday 23rd May 2016 6am Nettie's House, Israel

"Abba…" poke, poke, "Abba…" nudge, nudge, "ABBA!"

Tony, still half asleep, groaned and rolled back over, covering his face with his pillow. He fell back to sleep right away, oblivious once more. Tali huffed and resumed saying "Abba" and poking her father, but to no avail. After a little while, Tali stopped and thought carefully, her face scrunching slightly. She looked around the room for the perfect thing. "Ah!" she gasped, carefully working her way to the other side of the bed where a small side table was sat beside it. Slowly, she edged forward, stretching her little arms, trying to reach what she had her eyes set on. Finally, it was within her grasp…

"AAHHH!" Tony screamed and shot bolt upright, looking frantically around the room for the source that had awoken him. His eyes finally set on his little girl, while drops of water fell from his face and hair. He looked at her, shocked. It had reminded him of when Ziva had done the same thing when they went undercover as married assassins. Tali, still holding the now empty glass, held a cheeky grin on her face and when Tony looked at her, she burst into a fit of giggles.

"Oh you think this is funny, huh?" Tony joked. "Well, I think that daddy deserves a hug after that wake-up call!" Tony picked Tali up and gave her a big hug, tickling her covering her in water now, too. She squealed and laughed even more and squirmed to try and escape being covered in more water. But in the end, her and Tony had a tickling fight and just collapsed into a pile of giggles, hugging each other tightly.

Nettie just smiled from the doorway and walked away to the kitchen, leaving father and daughter to bond.

The last almost week had been tough. Well, that was an understatement. Finding out about Ziva, gaining Tali, leaving NCIS… Tony decided that he wanted to spend the day with his daughter. With their daughter.

Every time that Tony had been to Israel, he had not stayed long and he had never been able to go sight-seeing. So after Nettie suggested some tourist attractions that would be suitable for a child, they let Tali decided where she wanted to go for the day. He was insistent that Nettie should join them and after her initial concerns about intruding on their bonding time, she relented and happily joined them on their family day.

That's how they ended up at the Ramat Gan Safari Park in Tel Aviv, as Tali wanted to see the animals. She had been amazed from the start of their day, her face lighting up even more as the day went on. Tony couldn't help but smile with her and they spent the day making animal faces and noises, much to Nettie's amusement. She had taken countless photos of the two of them after Tony showed her how to work his phone. Tali had especially loved the chimpanzees and had spent the afternoon imitating her new favourite animal while running around the children's play area with Kelev and Tony. After buying a chimpanzee toy from the gift shop, she managed to tire herself out and fell asleep in the car on their way back to Nettie's house, with Kelev and Shimpânza the chimp. Things were a little quiet, awkward even in the car, with neither adult knowing quite what to say. With Tali asleep for now, Tony wanted to find some more answers from Nettie.

"Did you and Ziva still talk?" he questioned, turning his head to face her. "When she came back to Israel? I mean, I know that you two were close and that you knew about Tali. But did you seem them much?"

Nettie was quiet for a few seconds, concentrating on the road ahead. "After she left NCIS, she kept herself hidden away. I didn't hear much from her, just the odd photograph she sent me every few days. Pictures of her, her mother, her sister, me – I was not sure what was going on. Then, one day she called me and explained that you had tracked her down. That she was choosing to stay in Israel. She was heartbroken that she had made you leave but she felt that it was the right thing for both of you at that time. Ziva had lost too many people and blamed herself for all of them. She knew that she was no good to you in a relationship back then."

Tony huffed quietly and shock his head slightly. "I didn't care about that. I would have helped her through it." He paused for a moment, clearing his head. "What happened next?"

"We spoke on the phone once a week. I insisted. She was worrying me. But then there was a week during December that she missed our call. I couldn't reach her so I went to the farmhouse. She was sitting on the couch holding two photographs, crying quietly. The first was a picture of the two of you and the second was a sonogram. Ziva explained to me that she had not been feeling well and had gone to see a doctor. I was shocked but I was so glad that the two of you had finally given in to your love. Ziva did not feel that she deserved to be a mother but she was completely certain about keeping the baby. She wanted a new start and she was so happy to have a piece of you with her."

"We should have been altogether. Whole."

Tony sighed and rubbed his hands over his face. He began to look a bit guilty about his outburst. But Nettie would have none of this.

"Anthony, I am glad that you are letting this anger out and talking about it. I would be more worried if you were not angry right now."

He looked down at his hands, needing a moment to process everything. As Tony had already asked Nettie about why Ziva didn't tell him about Tali, he decided leave this alone for the moment. "What about recently? Did you see or speak to them?"

"It was strange though… the last few weeks I did not hear from her at all. I thought that maybe Tali was not well or something. But when I went over to check on them, there was no one there. It was clear to me that Ziva had been there, packed a bag and gone. So I contacted some people that she may have gone to, to see if anyone had heard from her. No one had spoken to her recently. They all thought that Ziva and Tali were still in the farmhouse."

Tony turned to face her full on now, his eyebrows furrowing.

"You don't believe they were there? When the attack happened?"

Nettie sighed. "There are days that I do not know what to believe anymore."

Tony opened his mouth a little, slightly taken about by her honesty. He knew that feeling all too well.

"Who did you contact, Nettie?"

"Well, let me think… just Shmeil, Ziva's friend Adam, that woman Orli, then – "

"Woah woah woah, back it up there. You spoke to Orli? About being worried about Tali and Ziva?"

"Yes, why, is there a problem?"

"No… it's just… why didn't Orli mention that to me?" Tony went quiet and began to stare out of the passenger side window, covering his mouth with his right hand. Why did Orli lie to Nettie? She knew they were in danger. That someone was looking for Ziva. Maybe she didn't want to worry Nettie…

Their family evening was a quiet one. Tony was beginning to worry about Tali. Since she had woken up after falling asleep in the car, she had been very quiet and she had been fussy during dinner. So Nettie pointed Tony in the direction of her movie collection and he quickly found all of the Disney films on the shelf. Tali carefully looked through the selection and made her choice.

Nettie sat on the end seat of the couch, while Tony sat on the floor in front of it with Tali on his lap. Luckily this perked her up and she spent the film babbling along, trying to join in with the words and Tony couldn't help but join in with her. Nettie watched them from behind, a sad smile on her face. I wish that you could have seen this, my Ziva. They are perfect together.

Tali just about made it to the end of the film before her eyelids began to droop and she slowly feel asleep, curled up against her Abba. Tony looked down at her and couldn't help the tears that sprung to his eyes, threatening to appear. She is my world, my everything. I love her.

Tony stood up slowly and lifted Tali into his arms, wincing slightly after sitting on the floor for so long. He bid goodnight to Nettie and carried his daughter through to the guest room which they were currently sharing and tucked her in to the small spare bed that she was currently using.

"Laila Tov, Tali. Ani Ohev Otach." He kissed her forehead, then went over to his own bed and settled down to sleep.

Tony couldn't sleep. All he could think about was that list. And what Nettie had told him in the car. Everything was pointing to Orli right now. He was missing something and he was certain that she knew the answers.

Tony flopped onto his back. Why are you doing this? She lied to you for 3 years, hid your daughter from you? Why are you here? he wondered. Because Tali deserves to know what happened to her Ima… And you still love her. Was he insane? He still loved Ziva after she lied to him?

"Mmmm…" Tony's head shot around at that sound. "Mmmm…"

Tali had rolled onto her side, whimpering in her sleep, stuck in a nightmare. Tony couldn't sit there and do nothing and he immediately went and stood by her bed. Remembering all the times that he had woken Ziva from a nightmare, he knew that he would have to be just as careful here. He touched her shoulder carefully.

"Tali… Tali sweetie, wake up." He shook her shoulder slightly.

"IMA!" she cried, sitting straight upright. Tali looked frantically around the room, her eyes settling on Tony. "Ima!"

Tony's heart broke. That's why she had been so quiet. Tali had begun to realise that she had been away from her Ima for too long and that something was wrong. All this little girl wanted was her mum.

"Ima." she whimpered, tears beginning to flow down her cheeks.

"Oh my baby" Tony didn't know what to say. There was nothing that he could say to make this better. He didn't even know what was going on. So he did the only thing that he could do and gathered Tali into his arms, letting her cry. He couldn't help but cry with her now.

He felt angry again now. Angry at Kort for taking Ziva, his family away from him. Angry at him for making a little girl motherless. Angry at Orli for not giving him a straight answer. Tony made up his mind. No one was going to upset his daughter like this. He wanted a word with Orli. And this was long overdue.

A/N: Thank you guys for reading, you're all amazing! Okay, that got a bit heavy at the end. I'm so sorry Tali. I just felt that the episode didn't show how being away from her mum affected Tali. Maybe she just needed the time to process that information? Next up: Tony vs Orli!

Shimpânza: Chimpanzee

Laila Tov: Good night

Ani Ohev Otach: I love you (from a male to a female)