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Jack and I saw each other often. When I was at work I couldn't think of anything but him. It was only after a while that I realized that I was falling in love with him, but I didn't want to ruin our relationship, so I didn't say anything. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months, and before I knew it, it was already February. In just a few days it would be Valentines day, which meant the office was filled with letters from people hopelessly in love. I always tried to give the best advice I could, but sometimes it was almost impossible, like this one letter where there was a woman who was in love with a man whom she knew was happily married, and she wanted to tell him, but wasn't sure, whether to do it or not. I had tried to explain in the gentlest way possible, that it probably wasn't the best idea, to do so, as it might trouble the man, and that she could find a man who was meant just for her.

Yes, I know it's stupid, but I believe in destiny, and that we are destined to do things or to be with someone.

"So, how was your day? " Jack asked when I entered my apartment. He had almost 'moved in' as he was there most of the time.
I sighed and slumped down beside him on the couch. "It was pretty hectic today. There are so many people asking for advice on love these days. Is it really so hard to tell a person if they love each other? "
He laughed a short and a little sad laugh. " Sometimes it can be harder than you might think. A person can love another with all their heart, but not be allowed to tell them. "
"Not be allowed? " I asked, "You mean like if Romeo and Juliet stuff or something like that? "
He laughed the sad laugh again "Something like that. "
I looked at him worriedly, but as soon as I looked his expression changed into something like hope and happiness. "But you know? Actually, there was once a guardian who fell in love with a human, and the moon granted him permission to become human himself so he could be with her. "
I was very intrigued and begged him to continue. " Who was it? I didn't know at all. "
"The holiday you will be celebrating in about a week, was Cupid's day. You still celebrate it, but the truth is that cupid himself, no longer exists. He died of old age just about one hundred years ago, together with the woman he fell in love with. The moon felt the destiny between them and let them be together, but because of that incident, we other guardians are not allowed to fall in love with humans, because we have to keeps the world safe for the children. Technically we are able to reproduce, so once in a while a guardian does 'mate' with a human. Personally, I have never done so myself, but I know that other beings, even those who aren't guardians, have done so. There are also beings who have mated with each other, and have reproduced, but for some reason, it doesn't happen as often. "
His little soliloquy had really grabbed my interest. I was looking at him with big eyes and trying to fully understand what he'd just told me. Was he trying to hint something or was it just my imagination? It was probably just my imagination, though, since he never really acted as if he liked me. I think.
"So cupid gave up his immortality for her? That is so sweet. But, there are a few things that confuses me. First of all: Why is it that guardians, and other being for that matter, 'mate' with humans? And why have you never done it? "
He thought a little about it and then answered "Well, we mate with humans, so our 'species' don't die out completely. It is hard to explain, but you know that there are people who seem to be meant for something or someone who are more attracted to one season, that is often one of 'ours'. We are also not completely immortal, we don't have real love, which is a necessity, so there are often beings who either go insane and somehow takes their own life, or they sort of just crumble away. Not literally speaking, more emotionally and that often results in the moon taking the immortality away. That is also why we mate, so we can survive, as one of our ancestors or our children are more likely to become a being when they die, that a regular human being. And the reason that I never 'mated' with anyone is more like, I don't feel right doing, something like that with someone I don't love, and who doesn't love me back. "
I nodded in understanding and leaned back in the couch. " Wow, that was a mouthful. It seems quite complicated, and at the same time simple. I understand why you are not allowed to fall in love with a human, it could almost tare you apart, since human lives are so fragile, just look at me, who know how long I have left, my heart disease might kill me now, though it doubt it. But if it was you, hopelessly in love with me, it would probably almost literally kill you if I died. Or you get the idea. "
After that we turned to a more happy subject and we ended up talking through most of the night. It was amazing, just being able to talk to the love of my life, though I now knew it was a forbidden love, so now it was impossible for me to tell him. I guess I'd just have to live with it, and just be happy with the fact that I can still be with him.