Hey guys! I know it's been awhile but I promise that I have been working this whole time! School got in the way with final exams and everything but I finished them! Feuf! I also have a HUGE problem with finishing stories. I am a perfectionist and it takes me forever. But I just finished two chapters in two hours so I will post both now! Getting ready to work on Ch 7...hopefully will be uploaded soon! Please don't kill me but I will be as quick as I can! Thanks!
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Clare's POV
I sat in the corner, talking with Eli, for who knows how long. We talked for hours. He told me about his life before this place, and I told him about mine. He refused to tell me what happened to him in here, so I didn't push. I found out, though, that he had parents named Cece and Bullfrog. He actually called them that too. He's an only child but he didn't mind the isolation. He told me he has been here since his senior year of high school, when he was seventeen, and he is twenty-two now.
I also found out that he was originally from Quebec. It was interesting to hear about his home life. I could tell he didn't speak so freely about it in here. Adam remained asleep the entire time we talked, and I was actually surprised he slept that long. He needed it, and we didn't try to wake him. I could tell that Eli took care of him. Protected him. I really liked Adam. He was kind and nice. He was like my brother at home.
"Do you have any siblings?" Eli asked me.
"Two." I replied. "Both older. Darcy and Jake."
"How old are they?"
"Darcy is twenty-seven, and Jake is twenty-three." I stated.
"Are you close?" He asked me.
"I am with Jake. He's pretty much the reason I haven't done so many of the things I could have." I sighed, leaning my head back against the wall.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"My parents have been fighting for years now. Always fighting. Jake has been able to keep me from running away, and getting me out of situations that I get stuck in." I bit my lip, and didn't meet his gaze.
I shouldn't have mentioned that. I really didn't like talking about it. Jake has always been there for me since that day, but I still remember that day like it was yesterday. He has always kept me safe since then. I think it's because he wasn't able to that day—No! I refuse to remember that day. I refuse to acknowledge that day. It was the worst day of my life.
I think Eli seemed to catch on that I didn't want to go into further detail because he backed off. Just I did, he had secrets that he didn't want to discuss. Maybe someday I'll talk about them with others. But not today.
"Do you think they'll separate? Your parents I mean." He asked, directing the conversation in the safer direction.
"No. They're extremely Christian. Their value of the faith won't let them get a divorce. So I'm stuck with them until I'm eighteen." I replied bitterly.
"Can't you stay with Darcy or Jake?" He asked.
"Jake couldn't take me in right now. He travels too much for his job. He has offered though, but I couldn't. He doesn't need his little sister burdening him. And Darcy is in Kenya. She is building a school there. She is even thinking of remaining there longer to help rebuilding more buildings." He nodded at my comment.
The door opened and Fitz stepped through it. Eli jumped up, staring him down. Fitz's gaze flickered to me, for a moment, before returning to Eli's. His eyes looked hungry and lust-filled when they were directed towards me, making me feel extremely uncomfortable. Towards Eli, they looked angry and irritated.
"You need to come with me." Fitz stated to Eli. Eli nodded before Fitz left the room, leaving the door open. Eli turned to Adam, about to wake him up, when I spoke.
"Don't." I started. "Don't wake him. He should sleep as long as he can. If something happens or you're gone too long, I'll wake him." Eli nodded before turning towards the door.
"I'll be quick." He said, before walking through the door.
The door shut behind him, and the room started chatting again. I glanced over at Adam and was actually glad that he was still asleep. I really needed sometime to think to myself. Since I was kidnapped, I hadn't been alone. Adam was always there or Eli. Now with Eli gone, and Adam asleep, I had time to myself. That was until two of the savages decided to come talk to me. One girl and one guy.
"Hi. Your name's Clare right?" The girl asked me. I nodded in return before she continued. "I'm Bianca. This is Drew."
"Hi." I said. I thought Eli said they were all savages? These two seemed okay.
"So I see that Fitz has taken to you. Have you slept with him yet?" Bianca asked. It was straightforward and blunt. I was taken back by the question.
"Umm, no. Why would I?" I asked confused. I was actually creeped out by him, and wanted nothing to do with him.
"Because you can? What are you stupid?" Bianca retorted, glancing at Drew questioningly.
"I just don't see why I would sleep with him." I stated shrugging. Bianca stepped really close to me and leaned down, so we were eye level.
"Because you can." She sneered. "Will you next time?"
"No." I don't know why I didn't just say yes but I didn't want want to give her that satisfaction. I stood meeting her head on, while she straightened herself to.
"She's feisty." Drew growled. I wanted to slap that smirk off of his face.
"She's a fucking prude." Bianca retorted. "What are you? A virgin?" I remained silent, as Drew spoke.
"Not when I'm done with her." Drew's eyes glazed over as he spoke. He was staring directly at me. His eyes wandered over my body and I felt exposed and dirty under his gaze.
Bianca stepped forward again, grabbing a fist full of my hair, and pulling it downwards. I cried out in the flare of pain that it caused me but I tried to remain strong. I wouldn't let her get the benefit of seeing me in pain.
"Decide bitch! Fitz or Drew?" She sneered in my ear. From what I could see of the room, some of them were watching. While others were simply chatting away. Like nothing was going on. Obviously I wasn't going to be getting any help from the savages. This didn't surprise me.
"Neither." I seethed through clenched teeth. She pulled my hair further downward towards the ground, making me cry out again.
"Choose! Or I'll choose for you. You fucking prude!" Her mouth was by my ear again, so I only could assume that she was bending over me. I was still standing but in a bent position. It really wasn't comfortable but I wasn't focusing on the position. I was focusing all my attention on the savage that had a hold of my hair. When I didn't reply, she pulled my hair harder. I refused to give her the benefit of the pain this time, and remained silent. Clenching my teeth, of course. "Choose!" She sneered again.
Since I did remain silent, she shoved me to the ground. When she let go of my hair, I turned to face them. Drew apparently decided to intervene then, because he pushed me down even more. He used his body to hold me down, since he was larger than me, and so far was succeeding. I lashed out, trying to pry Drew off of me. He was strong. I'll give him that. I couldn't fight him, but then again, I don't normally fight. I wasn't particularly strong or tall, so I was pretty sure Bianca could even take me.
Drew used his legs to trap mine, while Bianca came over above my head. She had grabbed my arms when I tried fighting Drew, and now was pinning them above my head.
"Drew! Stop! Please!" I cried. "Let me go! Please!" He started running his hands up and down my sides slowly.
"Oh." He groaned. I was repulsed by it. "The things I could do to you."
"But you're not going to get that chance. Are you?" The voice that spoke sounded like heaven. Although, I had lost all trust in God the moment I was kidnapped.
Within seconds, Drew was ripped from me, and thrown against the wall. Bianca immediately cowered away from me, and let me go. I jerked away from her, and pushed myself into a sitting position. Keeping my eyes on her, as I rubbed my wrists. She had been kneeling on them, so they hurt like heck.
When I was satisfied that she wasn't going to attack me, I turned to see what happened to Drew. Even though he was the one I was more threatened by, he didn't seem to just attack on a whim. He seemed to follow orders. Bianca's orders.
Drew was pinned to the wall, with Eli's forearm pressed against his neck. Drew was taller. Definitely. But Eli was stronger. Drew had muttered something, that I missed, and that's when I noticed someone next to Eli.
"You won't know, because you won't touch her." Adam growled. I hadn't even known he had woken up, but he was awake and now he was angry.
"Oh? And what are you going to do about it? You little prick?" Drew retorted. Adam didn't even answer him, he just swung his fist. He made contact right in his nose, with a cracking sound. It didn't sound good, and blood started running from Drew's nose. Once Adam retracted his fist, Drew's hands went to his nose. Trying to stop the bleeding. "You fucking asshole!"
"I told you not to call me a prick. I'm sorry you have hearing problems." Adam replied shrugging.
I sat there frozen, along with Bianca, staring at Drew. When Eli and Adam let Drew collapse to the floor, she started whimpering. I noticed everyone was sitting around the room, staring at us. None of them looked willing to help, and some even were smiling at us. Like they were cheering us on. Savages.
"Here." Eli said, fishing a key out of his hoodie's pocket. "Go open the door."
Adam took the key and walked away from us, towards the door. Neither of them looked scared or nervous anymore. They looked frustrated and—angry. Definitely angry. Eli pulled Drew up, by the collar of his shirt, and slammed him into the wall again. Adam came back over, after leaving the door open. Eli dropped Drew again, and he grunted.
"Done." Adam said, standing next to Eli. Eli nodded in response, and lowered himself to Drew, crouching over him.
"Don't you think for one moment, that I let you get away with this. If you want to keep the rest of your blood in your body, I recommend you learn to keep your dick in your pants before I cut it off. You heard about what happened to Johnny." Eli leaned in close to Drew before he returned to speaking. "Don't think I won't. And trust me. You'd be begging me to kill you."
A figured appeared in the corner of my eye, standing in the doorway. I didn't want to peal my eyes away from the scene, in front of me, so I didn't.
"What the fuck happened?" Fitz demanded, apparently he was the one who was in the doorway. He threw a sack to the savages, but no one moved. Probably too intimidated by Fitz.
"That fucking dipshit punched Drew!" Bianca cried out. Finally she spoke up.
Fitz glared over at Adam, storming into the room. Adam held his ground but did have a nervous edge to him. Eli straightened himself, standing next to Adam, crossing his arms. Fitz glanced at Eli before turning back to Adam. He looked indecisive, and then sighed. Fitz then looked over to Drew, with the almost the same amount of hatred. Almost.
"Get up!" He snapped to Drew. "Get the fuck out here, and get yourself cleaned up."
Drew scurried out the door with Bianca, trailing behind him. The door slammed shut behind Fitz and the savages immediately dove for the sack. The sack was shredded in seconds but my main attention was on Eli and Adam.
"I think you broke his nose." Eli said cheerfully.
"Maybe he'll finally learn to keep his dick in his pants." Adam sighed, leaning against the wall.
"He'll never learn that." Eli replied smirking slightly.
"You didn't have to punch him." I stated to Adam.
"Yes. I did. Drew has had that coming for awhile now anyway." Adam shrugged.
"You know that tonight will be your turn now right?" Eli asked.
"I'll take the punishment. It was worth it." Adam started sliding down the wall, until he was sitting.
"What punishment?" I asked moving towards Adam, sitting beside him.
"You don't go punching someone around here without punishment. He'll be put in placements tonight for what he did." Eli said squatting down, like he did before.
"Adam. You really shouldn't have done that." I stated.
"It's fine, Clare. Drew shouldn't get away with harassing you." Adam sighed.
"He's right. You shouldn't let any of these savages get to you." Eli agreed.
"But I don't want either of you suffering consequences for protecting me." I argued.
"Clare. Don't worry about us. We can handle it." Adam pushed.
"Trust us. We just want to keep you out of trouble." Eli agreed. "You saw what happened to Jenna. She used to be like you. Innocent. Nice. Caring. Went to church every Sunday."
"Seriously?" I asked. I couldn't see how that savage was like me once. Eli nodded before Adam continued.
"Yes. Two years ago, she was like you. Then she changed. This place made her hard. This place made her cold. This place made her savage." Adam said.
"Which is why, keeping you away from them, is such a big thing. We don't want to see you getting mixed up with them. They are bad news. They'll hurt you, if they get the chance." Eli continued.
I began to wonder if I was the only one they had tried to 'save'. If so, what happened to the rest? Did they all end up like Jenna? Was I going to end up like them? I didn't want to become that way. I didn't want to end up like them. My eyes dropped to the floor, as my heart began to pound in my ears. I needed to think, but it was hard to, because Adam and Eli were still talking.
I was wondering when my anxiety attack would happen. I guess I held it off, while I watched Eli and Adam deal with Drew. Now that Drew was dealt with, I felt like I was going to die. My heart was squeezing itself so hard that, I thought I was going to pass out from the pain. I pulled my knees up to my chest wrapping my arms around them. I needed to calm myself down. I couldn't let it get out of control.
I didn't want to show Eli and Adam how messed up I was. I didn't want them to see me like this. Anxiety attacks only happen on certain occasions with me. They pretty much don't exist anymore, for me, but I do know what triggers them. Jake has been able to keep them away by keeping me safe. He has been able to avoid all the triggers. I was actually surprised that I didn't have one, in here, until now.
I felt someone's hand start stroking my back, and I flinched. It startled me, but the hand was gentle. I adjusted my head, briefly, in the cocoon I made out of my limbs. It was enough for me, to see that it was Eli stroking my back. He was sitting beside me now, and Adam was sitting across from me. My mind began to drift, as I couldn't focus on one thing. Only my mind decided to be cruel today, and it stayed on that dreadful day. That day where Jake couldn't save me.
My mind flashed between what happened with Drew and what happened that day. It was comparing the two scenarios. Honestly? They weren't too different. Only someone saved me from Drew. No one saved me from him. My body began to tremble at the thought of that day happening again. It couldn't. I wouldn't survive another time. I just wouldn't.
The hand that was stroking me, immediately stopped, when I started shaking. The hand turned into two strong arms that wrapped around me. I felt safe in those arms. Somehow I started drifting off to sleep, and I welcomed the black oblivion. Maybe I would find some peace in it.