It Starts, It Ends

by Doomed-Kelpie

I can't keep doing this. You'd think that, by now, I would have realized that I should just stay away from people. No matter what I do, I hurt them. And then they hurt me back. (TRIGGER WARNINGS: SELF-HARM, ATTEMPTED SUICIDE, DEPRESSION) (Also, may contain cursing.)

6. I'm So Terrified

It Starts, It Ends

Chapter 6

Sorry about all the long Author's Notes…

Onto the chapter!

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I know that we're hurting him,

But I'm so terrified.

Even though we once were friends,

I can't forget the Blue Night.~

Shiemi… She's right… I know how much we've been hurting him since we found out he's Satan's son, but I couldn't handle who he really is. Now, every time I see him, I think about the Blue Night and how I lost my parents. It terrifies me.

~ I know that we're hurting him,

But I make excuses to stay away.

Even though we once were friends,

I'm terrified of his flames.~

It's not even Rin himself that I'm terrified of. It's his flames. I make excuses to stay away from him, and I say terrible things to him to try to keep him away. Really, though, if only I could be near him and not start comparing him with Satan, I wouldn't act this way. But when I get near him, Satan id all I can think about, and it's no longer Rin standing there, but Satan. It terrifies me.

~ I know that we're hurting him,

But I ignore what's in his eyes.

Even though we once were friends,

I'm still so god damn terrified.~

I don't know what Shiemi meant when she said Rin was doing something to himself, but whatever it is, it can't be good. And whatever he's doing, it's our fault. His supposed 'friends.'

I know that we're hurting him,

So I'll make myself be brave.

I can't let my friend be destroyed by us,

When he could have been saved.~

I can't keep hurting him. Despite my fear, I still care about him. I have to overcome my terror. I can't be part of his destruction.

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So, in case you can't tell, this is Konekomaru. The next chapter will be Bon, but I'm not going to have all the classmates have their own reflection on what they've done. I think it would be kind of repetitive, you know?