Hey guys, again. I have been updating every day so far, and I finished this chapter and figured I would get it out to all of you. I hope you guys are enjoying the story. I know this chapter is shorter but frankly, it's a little bit of a filler. Had to happen because I couldn't add anymore to this chapter and I needed more time to pass before I add more stuff. So anyways. Read and Review!
Clare's POV
The brief sleep that I got was easy. I didn't get any nightmares, but then again I know for a fact that I didn't sleep long enough to dream. When I woke, I fully understood where I was and who I was with. That was the sad part. I knew that Eli would have more questions now that my "episode" was over.
"Clare?" Eli spoke from behind me.
"Yeah." I exhaled, knowing that I would have to face the questions.
"Are you okay now?" He asked.
"As good as I can be with everything that's happening." I sighed this time. I hesitated before turning around enough to lay on my back. Eli stayed in his position but removed his hand from under me and used it to prop his head up. Staring at him, I could tell he was still in pain from what happened. It made me feel that much worse.
"How often do these moods happen?" He asked.
"Less often than panic attacks. More than I would like them to." I sighed. "They are fairly new. I've had panic attacks since the whole thing with K.C. but these 'episodes' are within the past year."
"Clare. I want to know these things. I don't want to lose you and I could have easily lost you had I not woken up." He stated, his hurt-filled eyes boring down into mine.
"Okay. You're right. I know. I'm sorry." I agreed. "I just didn't think I would get one in here."
He leaned in and kissed me then, and I was caught off guard enough that it took me a moment to respond. He was keeping it sweet, and trying to show how much he cared, and I let it stay sweet. He eventually pulled back, and he used the arm, that was lying across my stomach, to prop himself up.
"I don't think I could handle losing you. Not after everything." He continued. He reached down with the hand that wasn't holding him up, and brought my wrist up in between us. "I want you to come to me. Even if years down the road and we managed our ways out of here, but we don't talk anymore. I want you to come to me, whenever you feel the need to cut."
"I will." I replied without hesitating. I wasn't going to go back on my word either. The way Eli looked when he saw that I did, I wasn't going to be the one who caused him that much pain again. It would be worse than the depression.
"Good." He gave me a small smile and leaned in and pecked my lips again. "Now lets get back before a guard notices."
"Okay." I agreed. He stood up and then gave me a hand to get up as well. "Here's a question, I have for you."
"Shoot." He prompted.
"How'd you get in here? I locked both doors." It had confused me earlier but I didn't think to ask.
"I have a spare key in my shoe. It can get me into the kitchen, this bathroom and the main room." He stated.
"Huh. I never knew you had one."
"No one does. I have kept that a secret because I didn't want someone getting ahold of it. It's a lot easier to hide a single key than a key chain that jingles." He shrugged. "However, I didn't expect to have to use it because someone stole my keys." He looked down at me, and I blushed in embarrassment.
"I just wanted to get up and walk around a bit. I figured it would be fine if I locked the doors." I explained.
"Uh huh." He smirked, before leaning in and kissing my forehead. He stopped after a moment and pulled back, before putting a hand to my forehead. "Clare. You're even warmer than before. You're definitely not well."
"I know." I looked down at my hands, before looking back up at him. "But there's nothing I can do about it."
"I'll talk to Asher about getting you some medicine." He stated.
"Will he do that?" I asked.
"He might. He likes you. Whether either of us like that fact, it's the truth. Plus it could be an excuse to get you out of placements for awhile. So you don't have to deal with that added pressure." He explained.
"Good. No way do I need that right now." I agreed.
We walked out of the bathroom then, and Eli opened the door to the room for me before he left to go talk to Asher. This left me to hang out with Adam for awhile, and gave me time to calm down. I hope that I won't get another episode while I am here, but then again, my luck has never been that good.