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Chapter 8
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A step or a slash is all it'll take,
Even if I heal so fast.
Just go too high or cut too deep,
I'll have peace at last.~
I don't think I can take much more of this. What's the point of living if this is how my life is? There isn't one. I should just end it all. I know I heal quickly, but all I have to do is cut too deep, or jump from something too high, and I'll be dead. I have a limit. If I go past it, I won't be able to heal in time. I'll be free.
~ I know I'm not invincible,
Especially if I don't fight to live.
I've already made up my mind.
My death will be the final gift I'll give.~
I might appear to be strong, but I'm not invincible. I'm not even close. Really, dying isn't that hard. I can sneak off alone, and be dead before anyone even notices I'm gone. Well, most of them wouldn't notice at all. They'd be happy once they found out I died, and I'd be just as happy. So, why not kill myself?
~Would they like to see me bloody?
Would it be better to overdose on pills?
Perhaps I'll simply 'disappear.'
Should I leave a note, my final will?~
Now I guess I'll have to pick a way to go. Cutting? Overdose? Poison? Wait… I'm a demon, and my brother is an exorcist. He has countless things that are specifically made to kill things like me! That's it! Speaking of Yukio, though… He and Shiemi would probably miss me… Should I leave them a note…?
~I'm sorry to the few who care.
Please try not to cry.
I'll miss you, but don't worry.
I'll be happy once I die.~
I write a short note. I quickly fold it up and stick it in my pocket.
I can't let them find it before I'm already gone…
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Sorry if this chapter doesn't seem as good as the others. I'm trying not to repeat the first chapter too much, but I felt like I needed a chapter where Rin decides he's definitely going to kill himself.
Nonetheless, I hope you enjoyed it.