Use Me Up

by prettylittleloserz

Former kunoichi Shani Daisuri is on the run from her clan, and the ever heroic Orochimaru comes to save her, but doesn't tell her exactly what he wants in return. Though she initially becomes infatuated with him, a more genuine relationship develops between her, Suigetsu, and Sasuke. OroxOC SasukexOC Rated M for language, any lemons are implicit. (update in process 09-07-2015)

6. Chapter 6

"You guys have the coolest freaking swords, I want one!"

I jump up and down in attempt to reach the sword Suigetsu has lifted above his head. He laughs at me. "Just jump up and get this one, shorty!"

I pout. "Aw, come on dude. That's no fair, I'm like 5'3. How tall are you?"

"Taller than you."

"Duh," I cross my arms and blow raspberries at him.

Suigetsu laughs even harder at me! "You're such a baby."

I decide on a different tactic. I stop jumping and I hug him, holding on tightly to distract the smitten boy. He loosens his grip on the sword and rests it at his side. His cheeks become really rosy. I look at him and say in a tiny voice, "Come on, we're friends right? Friends share to show they care."

Swooning, he bends down and hugs me even tighter than I was just hugging him. He rests his head on mine. Oh geez, he's just drowning in the moment. "I care! I care! Just...just hold on a little longer."

I frown, and see Sasuke turn around only to silently laugh at my face. "Sasuke don't just laugh! Help!"

"Alright, alright. Suigetsu we gotta keep moving. Let her go."

"Aw, c'mon Sasuke-"

"Shut up, let's go."

Suigetsu groans and picks up his sword. I still didn't get to hold it :(

We've been walking this little path with several trees on the side, other than that full of total nothingness. I don't like being so out in the open. "Sasuke, where are we going?"

"There's a town on the way. I know I said we'd go to another hideout, but I actually don't feel very comfortable with that. We're going to find a hotel and relax there. You need a break."

"Can we be easily found?"

"Maybe you can, seeing as how you're famous. It's a busy town full of people, venues and shops. It'll be hard for anyone to get you in such a crowded place without tipping off Konohagakure shinobi, which would allow for you to get away."

I raise an eyebrow. "Where the heck is Konohagakure?"

"It's my old home. I'm not welcomed there, so we're only going somewhere that's nearby."

Woooow. So much for keeping me safe. "We're going to a town full of people that'll all know who I am, AND is close to a village where ninja want you for dead? How is that smart, Sasuke?"

"It's really not that big a deal."

I turn to see Suigetsu's mischievous smirk. He says snidely, "Come on, Sasuke. I think we should head the opposite direction, huh?"

"The last place those people after you will want to be is near Konoha. They're trouble, and if it's found out that they're up to something that could cause casualties in the village, the Anbu black ops will take them out... Orochimaru isn't welcomed there either, or anywhere for that matter."

"Yeah, 'cause he's a monster that destroys everything in his path."

I defiantly cross my arms and stop walking. "Are you guys seriously just gonna stand there and bad mouth the guy that saved my life and gave me shelter? Had someone tend to my wounds and promise to help me get my sister back-"

"And put your life in danger by bringing your uncle to that so called shelter," Sasuke interjects.

Suigetsu chimes in, "Or is extremely creepy and touches you all funny."

"The fuck? He isn't creepy first of all. And he hasn't touched me funny."

"He touches everybody funny!"

I roll my eyes. "I think you guys are just jealous."

"I think you're ignorant. Now be quiet the rest of the way there." The dark haired boy continues walking ahead of us.

I'm left standing there speechless. Nobody has ever talked to me like this, and acted as if they didn't care. He can't just fucking do that, can he? This can't be how it works in the real world, all those orders. He must have some sort of power despite his age, because I'm seeing that he's very comfortable talking to people like this. And I thought he was nice. Pft, yeah right. "Whatever, man. Hey, how old are you anyways?"

No answer. Cool. Whatever. I don't care...jerk.

Suigetsu and I small talk the walk to this still unnamed town. He's very nice, and has a killer personality. He reminds me a whole lot of my old friends. Suigetsu starts talking about the Seven Swordsman of the mist or something like that. I don't pay too much attention, initially, because I'm too involved looking ahead at Sasuke. He's such a loner. I wonder if he just has a hard time getting along with people. What a beautiful distraction he is from this conversation. I didn't notice upon first meeting him how attractive he is. It was when he pushed me against the door and into the bedroom back at the hideout to save me. He was so close to me, I kinda remember blushing. He's got such a cute face.

"Shani? You okay?"

"Hm?"

"You've been staring at Sasuke," Suigetsu responds with a tinge of sadness in his voice.

I suddenly feel bad. "Oh! Um. Well. I'm just worried about him as all. Is he always this quiet?"

"I guess. Usually... Can I get back to my story? I'm almost done-"

"WHOA WHAT ARE THOSE STATUES? That's so cool!"

We come through a large clearing where ahead I can see a waterfall, with humongous statues of these two men facing each other. They look a little, well, fucked up. Worn and tattered. "Hey Sasuke, you know what shinobi they are? Their names?"

He stops and stares ahead, and I notice he has clenched and tremulous fists. He stands there as still as the statues, maybe caught up in a terrible memory like I've been since the moment I left the hotel. If so, totally understandable. It leaves you in some sort of out of this world type of trance. Suigetsu and I exchange worried glances. Cautiously, I approach Sasuke with steps as gentle as a bird's. I stand next to him, facing the side of his body. I lightly place my hand on his shoulder but get no response. I lightly caress the other side of his face, and turn him to me so he can look at me. There's I fire in his eyes, so fierce and spiteful. Then sadness, and guilt upon meeting my own worried eyes. In that instant I feel what he's feeling. It actually makes me pout childishly. "Aww, Sasuke. I wish I could tell you that whatever you're feeling is temporary and will go away but I can't promise you that. But I can promise you that I'm always here for you. If you just ever want to talk about any-"

"No."

Though a little too swift in his response, he doesn't say it harshly. He shakes his head. "But...thank you."

Aha, that was a struggle for him. I'm starting to see the capacity of his kindness and openness. I won't push anymore. "So you ready to go then?"

"Yeah..."

We turn to see a green eyed Suigetsu looking on at us in disdain. Hater, hater. I smile at him, opening my arms to beckon for him. "Chill out, Suigetsu. C'mere, gimme a hug." He sulks over to me and weakly wraps his arms around me. I give him a hard, reassuring squeeze. I tease him. "C'mon, hug me like a man! You little punk, hug me!" With a deliberately overdramatic sigh he puts his arms around my small waist, with my own around his neck, and lifts me up into the air. He squeezes the living crap out of me but I can't help but giggle through our flirty embrace. Immediately I think of Sasuke, who when I avert my eyes to look at, doesn't seem jealous at all. He's smiling a little, amused. I have to ask Suigetsu to let me go earlier than I'd like because I start...feeling things, and shit. I mean it's just so different. I never had anyone, let alone TWO people, make me feel giddy like this. My old friends just wanted to drink and party with me, but these guys genuinely enjoy my company, and even value my life! Oh my gosh, I'm the luckiest girl on the planet! I have to stop myself from squealing in delight because that's sorta lame. But these guys are the greatest.

"Here we are, Tanzaku Town."

I gaze around in awe. "Holy crap, this place is so... It's nothing like the big cities I'm always in, but at the same time, it is! It's so cute! I love it here!"

Suigetsu looks at me quizzically. "Love it? You just got here, you haven't even seen anything yet."

"I LOVE it," I repeat with more emphasis. "I bet it has all kinds of quaint restaurants, I'm starving."

"It's best that we don't," Sasuke said, declining my request. I pout but he pays no attention. "We need to find a hotel first...Shani, stop pouting, please. We'll get food. Just carry out, and eat it at the hotel, okay?"

"Fiiiiine... But I'm really, really hungry just so you know."

"I got an idea! Sasuke, why don't you find us a hotel. Shani and I can get the food," Suigetsu suggests.

"Whatever, I guess."

Sasuke walks off, leaving the two of us amongst the crowd. I whisper to Suigetsu, "He's so moody. You can't tell me that he's always like this."

"Well, I can. He is." He pulls out a green cup of water and slurps obnoxiously through the straw. "Let's go find somewhere that I can get yogurt. You like yogurt?"

"I love yogurt. But I want food food."

"Okay, we'll get food food second though, because you'll want to keep it hot. Right now I want a yogurt!"

So we went to a cute little grocery shop, and got his yogurt. He really likes that stuff. Then to a small restaurant run by the quirkiest old man to get sashimi, my fave! Suigetsu picked something for Sasuke too but I don't remember what it was. All I know is that the smell of this food is mouthwatering. We scope the town for hotels, and find Sasuke standing outside of one being harassed by these two girls. He looks totally irritated. The girls are flirting with him, hard.

Suigetsu scoffs. "How is he always so popular with girls?"

"Hmm, I don't know. They're like, not even hot. Here, hold the food, Suigetsu."

"Hey, what are you doing?"

"Gonna help Sasuke. Just hang back for a sec."

See, I'm used to doing petty stuff, not all this renegade ninja stuff. I can shoo off a couple of overly flirtatious girls easily. Sasuke will just have to play along. "Sasuke! Babe, I've been looking all over for you!" I skip towards him and throw my arms around his neck. Smiling, I whisper through my teeth, "Just play along, okay?" I toss my long hair behind my shoulders then lean into him, as if to go in for a kiss. "You book our hotel?"

Though I can tell he's embarrassed by the rosy color forming on his cheeks, he does his best. He places a light kiss on my forehead, his hand on my hip. "I did. Let's go in and have some fun. I've missed you." Next thing I know I'm swept off my feet and being carried away and into the hotel lobby. "Thank you, Shani. You're very slick," Sasuke whispers to me as he puts me down. Once we are into the lobby we get around the corner of the room to a door that leads to a flight of stairs. There we wait for Suigetsu. Sasuke is coolly leaning against the wall with folded arms, looking at me.

"What," I ask.

He shrugs. "You're just different, that's all."

"Is that a good thing?"

"Well I mean you treat me differently. From other girls."

I only repeat myself, still confused. "So... Is that good?"

"I don't know. It's just different."

"You're not used to it is what you're saying?" He nods. "How do girls usually treat you, then?"

Irritation claims his expression. "Like the ones out there. Even back home a couple years ago, I had a teammate named Sakura..."

He trails off, lost in his thoughts. I smirk. "Your girlfriend?"

"No, Shani, not my girlfriend. Though I have to admit, several times I felt like that could have happened."

"Did you want it to?"

"I didn't know what I wanted then."

"What about now?"

"You ask a lot of questions."

I press my lips together, gazing at him. "You're just hard to figure out, Sasuke. I mean me, Suigetsu, we're pretty much open books. I find people like you intriguing." I realize the truth in my own words. Maybe that's what drew me to Orochimaru, the mystery about him. Or my curiosity for Kabuto's upbringing. "I just think you're like me. You've been hurt, and you cope with it a certain way. I do it by being open and all touchy-feely with everyone. You have to cope with it by being distant, am I right?"

His expression becomes bemused. "I don't know what to say to that."

We stare at each other for some time, and I flush and bite my lip. Sasuke is just so attractive, and I swear, it must be the enigma.

Suigetsu comes around the corner with the food still in hand. "Sorry about that-guys? Whoa, what's going on?" Sasuke and I look at each other confused. He continues. "You guys are all over here making gaga eyes at each other."

"No we are fucking not," I protest loudly.

"Okay, okay. Sorry. That's just what it looked like...shall we head up to our room?"

Sasuke nods. "Yeah, I'll lead the way. It's the fourth floor."

He walks ahead of us again, ignoring us. Typical, but I still feel slightly victorious in getting out of him the little that I did. I still want to know more. I'm interested to know about the boy who saved my life, the boy who said he was the only person I should trust.

We get up the stairs and to our room. "Only two beds? That's okay I guess, that means we'll share a bed, right Shani," Suigetsu's eyes gleam.

"That's all we could afford. As far as sharing beds... I guess that's up to her."

"I'll sleep on the floor, thanks. It's better for my back anyways. It's been killing me lately!"

Suigetsu jumps up from the bed where he sat and sipped his yogurt. "Speaking of, can I see your tattoo? I've always wanted to see it in person!"

"You have a tattoo," Sasuke asks, intrigued.

I nod and pull my top over my head without warning. Suigetsu presses his lips together, wide eyed and anxious. Sasuke blushes and bites his lip. "Sorry," I offer. I turn around so that my back is facing them. I unhook my bra and drop it to the floor. I have to move my hair, as it hangs a little past my waist, in order for them to see. Once I do, I hear one of them gasp.

"Holy crap," Sasuke mumbles.

"Shani, these are amazing...wow."

The black ink is strewn across my back elegantly in an edgy yet feminine tribal print design. I feel cold fingers trace the lines and dots. I look over my shoulder, and it's Suigetsu. "I've never seen anything like it. I mean I've seen it in the magazines but not the WHOLE thing. It's really cool, and beautiful. It suits your skin tone. Gosh, you're beautiful."

"Compliment overkill, Suigetsu!" I giggle at him. I'm glad he likes it. Honestly, sometimes I get self conscious about it. I look over to Sasuke, who's no longer paying attention. I pout. "Do you not like my tattoo, Sasuke?"

He jumps at the sound of his name. "Oh, yeah. You and the tattoo are beautiful."

"Should I get your bra for you now?" There's a tinge of amusement in Suigetsu's voice. Looking up at him, I realize something: he's totally hot. His hair is all shaggy, and I love his large, almond shaped purple eyes. And his smile is so cute, with his sharp little tooth poking out…

...

…

… I have to get out of here. My hormones are RAGING. I can't believe I'll be in the same room with these two boys all night. And if I end up sharing a bed after all… I snatch my clothes from the floor. "I have to go to the bathroom."

And I dash around the corner of the room to the bathroom door and slam it behind me.I put my bra on, followed by my shirt. Looking at my reflection my heart sinks. I look fine overall, but at the same time, very warn out. My skin isn't as radiant as it usually is, and I'm developing dark bags underneath my eyes. I didn't get much sleep last night. I had to sleep with Orochimaru for me to get any rest at all. I was all over him too. I always crave sexual attention from men. I feel disgusting. Is that why muscle head and his friends tried to do that to me, because I put myself out there like that? No what the hell, that gives them no excuse. But then all these other guys... I lean against the counter, holding onto the edge. For fuck's sake, that thought makes me uneasy. I want to throw up. I need a shower! Yeah, that usually helps me clear my head. And maybe I won't feel as weighed down by the thoughts of the constant debasement. I scan the bathroom, and there's not one towel in sight. "Ya gotta be kidding me."

I walk out the bathroom quickly, embarrassed and not wanting to make small talk. Sasuke looks over at me, concerned. "What's the matter, are you okay?"

"Yeah, there aren't any towels so I'm gonna go get some, that's all."

"Shani, be careful. Please."

"I'll be fine, it's just downstairs." I walk out the door and head down the flights of stairs. The lobby is crowded! Are people here because of me- they are. Shit.

"SHANI, OH MY GOSH!"

"GUYS LOOK THERE SHE IS!"

"SHANI, LET'S TAKE A PICTURE!"

I peek through the crowd and a pair of eyes catches my attention. They're cold, and they bore into my soul. The body the eyes belong to is moving through the crowd but the eyes stay right there, fixed on me. My legs get weak and fear drops into my stomach. Even as my legs make it to the front desk my eyes don't leave theirs. I can't read them, and that scares me.

"Shani! We are so happy to have you here! How may I help you?"

Instantly I look away and towards the woman at the desk who wears a pleasant smile, so pleasant it makes me want to hit her. Bitch…stop smiling. Can't you see something is wrong? I avert my eyes back to the crowd and the pale grey eyes are gone. "Shani, how may I help you? Can I get you some water, some food? We will give you free food service to your room if you-"

"Towels. Can you have someone send towels up to 303B please? Water would be cool too. I feel sick."

"Sure thing. Enjoy your stay! Let us know if we can do anything else at all."

Something about her smile creeps me out. She didn't even blink. I try to leave but I'm stopped by fans, asking me to sign things. I sign a picture, a couple magazines, a pair of tits, my least favourite. Same old. Thankfully it wasn't all that many people, maybe 20 or 30. I head back up to the stairs. The moment I walk through the door I feel a presence. I try not to freeze from letting fear take over me, and take very light and cautious steps. I reach the top of the first flight of stairs, and there she is at the top of the next peering down at me. Grey Eyes. My feeble hand holds onto the railing, and as I take a step up she simultaneously takes a step down. Our steps mirror each other's. The step we take right before the one that leads us shoulder to shoulder is very slow and prolonged. We stop. She mumbles something that I can't understand and I look at her through the corner of my eye. "What was that," I ask with a shaky voice.

"Go now."

The closer I look, I realize I know this woman! "Seiko!? Go, why?"

"Shani, go now." I start going back down the stairs and she catches my arm with a hard grip that's just as tremulous as me. "Not down, up. Go now, hurry. Go to your room. They will come up there. Take them out then leave before more can follow you. Go now!"

I run up the stairs and I hear the door below burst open. In the broken, unintelligible dialect my clansmen speak I hear a man's voice. I don't stop, though. 303B. I see 303B. I bang on the door, to which Sasuke opens, and I stumble through and into his arms. "Close the door! Lock the door!"

With frantic fingers he does just that, and holds me gingerly. "Shani calm down, you're hyperventilating! What's wrong?"

"No," I sob. "No, no no no. Why, Sasuke?"

"Shhh, please be calm. I'm here. What's-"

Bang bang. We all stop and look at the door. "Sasuke, they're here! Why are they here?"

He grabs me roughly on either side of my face, our foreheads touching, and looks me dead in the eyes. He speaks in a stern whisper. "Listen Shani, I am here. Nobody will hurt you. I want you to go to Suigetsu, sit with him on the floor in front of the bed closest to the window, and he is not going to let you go. And you two are going to stay low, do you hear me?"

I nod. He releases me. I run over to Suigetsu, who heard Sasuke and immediately takes me in his arms. He leads me to where Sasuke directed us to be, sits cross-legged and holds me against his chest. "Don't worry, I'll protect you. I'm not letting you go. Unless I have to kill someone, I won't let you go. I'll kill for you any day."

The door bursts open with a loud crash. In that terrible accent that makes me shudder, a booming voice demands, "Fuck is Shani?"

"You don't have any business here. Get lost."

The man laughs. "Seiko, Ban, you hear this kid?"

The person who must be Ban laughs. "Aye. Ryu, what should we do to him, boss?"

"He thinks he's tough. We fuck with him a bit. Seiko, you wanna have a go?"

"Seiko?"

"Hello, Sasuke. You've grown."

"You know this kid?"

"I do, boss."

"Aw, hell. Boy, where Shani at? I'll give you to count of 10."

"I'll count for you...ten!"

A man's body flies through the window with a blood curdling scream, falling four stories, falling to his demise. "Oh, fuck," I repeat. "Suigetsu, what the fuck?"

Suddenly, I'm looking at Seiko's grey eyes as she squats in front of me. Her eyes are blank and wild, much unlike before, and she has the most disturbingly insane cheshire grin on her face. She presses a finger to her mouth. "Shhh..." and as she raises her hand, in it is a syringe. Her hand comes crashing down but the needle doesn't break my skin. Suigetsu's arm catches the blow, but his arm...it liquifies? Throwing me aside Suigetsu draws the large sword from his back and lunges at her. He doesn't make any attempt to slice through her, but instead traps her head against the wall through a curved point of the sword.

I feel stuck. Sasuke is in the hallway fighting with Ryu, Suigetsu with Seiko, and here I am, helpless Shani, unable to do anything. Unable to fend for myself. I wasn't like this before! I took on muscle head and his two goons like it was nothing. Maybe because I was fueled by anger? Do I have to be angry and full of hate to be able to kill? I can't just fucking fight to survive!? Here I am, cowering on the floor allowing other people to fight MY battle. I'm so pathetic.

Everything is quiet in the hallway, and Sasuke walks in with a blood stained sword, closing the door behind him. Suigetsu turns his attention to him. "So you know this woman, Sasuke?"

"She was my brother's girlfriend. Way back when."

I look on at him in shock. He has a brother? And is this why she ran away when I was little, because of some boy? Did...did all the Uchiha men have that affect on women? Seiko's Cheshire smile has not left her face the entire time. This isn't the woman that had admonished me just moments ago. What happened in that short time?

Sasuke walks up to Seiko, his eyes are red… Suigetsu moves out of his way and comes to me. Taking my hand he brings me to my feet. "You okay, Shani?"

I nod, clearly not okay. Sasuke watches Seiko warily. Her face is frozen but her eyes follow him. "Seiko...how are you alive?"

"I, Sasuke, am not. And if you do not hold on tightly to her," she points at me with one hand, lifting her other slowly. I know what she's about to do. "She will not be either. Bye, bye, bye." In a sing-songy voice she repeats "bye."

With a sharp motioning of her hand both Suigetsu and Sasuke fly across either side of the room. She grabs onto my waist. Face still holding onto that creepy grin, she licks her lips with an inhumanly long tongue. "Follow me." Walking towards the window, we turn to face the two boys. Sasuke's eyes plead with me, but I do not go to him. I cannot go to him. My legs are being forced backwards, still in the hold of Seiko, and we fall. We fall backwards and down. Down, down, down. It isn't just three stories. We fall into darkness. Through the darkness that must be my sudden death, the last thing I see being a pair of golden eyes looking at me.

My body jolts up and I loudly gasp for air. I'm in the bed in the hotel. Suigetsu was laying next to me, apparently, and I look to see Sasuke sitting on the bed next to us, watching me. My eyes dart to the window but only to the beautiful sight of Tanazku town in the evening, with all the people and all the lights. But no scary grin is in sight. "Sasuke, who is Seiko," is the first thing that slips out of my mouth.

A harshly long moment of silence. He doesn't look directly at me as he speaks, but past me. Through me. "I knew her when I was a boy."

"Do you know where she is?"

"As far as I know she's dead."

How? How is this possible? Why was she here? "She was just here! She tried to kill me, and you were there so how could you even-"

"Shani," Suigetsu addresses me softly, stroking my hair. "You were dreaming. You had a bad dream."

"Dreaming? I was unconscious. I fell from the window. Seiko dragged me with her."

"Stop saying that name!"

Sasuke just snapped at me? What the hell is going on around here? I throw the blankets off of me angrily and stand up defiantly. "You can't tell me all that was just a dream. As real as it was? It's just not possible."

The white haired boy stands next to me, hands holding my arms tightly to my sides. "Shani...you showed us your tattoo and then ran off to the bathroom. You were in there for a good half hour before I went in to check on you and found you sitting in front of the toilet hyperventilating and sobbing uncontrollably. You were freaking out, hitting me and screaming at me to not touch you. Then we laid you down, Sasuke tucked you in, and you went to sleep."

"For how long?"

"Barely over an hour? Right Sasuke? Something like that."

I stare at them, bemused. There's just no way. This was the second time this happened. It happened last night too, when I dreamt of Orochimaru. My sister was still alive, and there was a boy. A blonde boy. And he was telling me things about Orochimaru, and begging me to bring Sasuke back from him. What was his name? Is he dead too? ARE DEAD PEOPLE REACHING OUT TO ME THROUGH MY DREAMS? I don't remember his name so I can't even ask if they know of him…

"Yoo hoo, Shani! You okay there?"

"Suigetsu! Oh my gosh, it was a dream. I remember now. It was just a dream. It was just so real I kinda freaked...thank you." I throw myself onto him, hugging him tightly. He blushes hard but smiles from ear to ear. "No more bad dreams," he says. "Just dream of us."

I nod, not wanting to let go of him. His hugs are so sweet. Us. That word. I've never had an "us" besides with my sister. It was always just us and no one else. We were so close. It's like I lost a connection with someone dear to me, and no sooner than that happens I build two more. I let go of him just to turn my attention to Sasuke, who is staring through the window as distant as ever. While his face is turned away from me I walk forward, lean in and kiss his cheek. Slowly he turns his head and I'm greeted with sad eyes. "Thank you for taking care of me. I appreciate everything you've done."

His eyes hold mine, and he seems like he wants to say something but stays quiet. His eyes, they're reaching out to me. I think it's because I brought up Seiko, and now I feel bad. I take a hold of his hand and he tries to pull away but I keep my grip strong. "I'm here for you. You can talk about anything."

He snatches his hand away. "Don't. I'm worried about you, I'll be fine. Go, sit down and eat your food. We'll go out and check out the town later while it's still early. It's only 7."

I nod in agreement and Suigetsu hands me my food. I eat in silence, and Suigetsu talks to me about some random junk I don't care about. I can't stop glancing over at Sasuke, now standing by the window. He just seems so sad. Suigetsu catches me again, trying his best to mask his envy. "Shani, you aren't listening are you."

"No," I reply honestly. "I have a lot on my mind." I scuffle around on the bed and sit in his lap, cuddling into his. "Suigetsu. Just keep talking anyways. I swear, your voice keeps me sane."

"Whatever you say. Anything for you."

I stand stiffly, sulking as I look at the entrance door back to the hideout. I'm so sad. I had fun back at Tanzaku town, and we ran into no trouble. It was just the getaway I needed. Food, fun, and friends. I shake my head. "Fuck this, man. I don't wanna go back in there."

"Why are you here," Sasuke asks.

"My sister. I was told I could get her back. It will take time, they will need my help, but I can get her back."

"Then remember that. Remember your goal, and don't lose sight of it. As much as I'd like to leave sometimes, there's something that I must do. I need Orochimaru's help."

"Right, I understand. I can do this."

I push open the door and walk inside the familiar lair. "Suigetsu and I have things to do, but we'll walk you to Orochimaru's room."

"Sure, but I'm not going in there," Suigetsu adds quickly. "The guy freaks me out."

I roll my eyes. "Whatever." Once we reach the room Suigetsu stops me, grabbing my hand.

"It's been real fun. I'll see you later, Shani."

"See ya."

Sasuke has a consoling hand on my back, probably sensing my nerves. I open the door to Orochimaru's room, and there he is. He's sitting at a large desk, studying scrolls. It's dimly lit with candles, much like the other rooms. With a rather amused look on his face he acknowledges us. "Well, well. Look at what the Uchiha dragged in. Come to me, my Shani."

I turn and look at Sasuke. "Be careful," he whispers to me. "Treat her gently, Orochimaru. She's been through a lot. I don't know how much more emotional damage she can take."

With that, he leaves the room. Orochimaru stands and walks to me with a look in his eyes so fervid and sultry I feel my stomach whirl like a washing machine. He turns me on as much as he scares me. The man practically towers over me, so even if I wanted to get away he'd have that advantage over me. I don't want to get away, though. I want him immediately after laying eyes on him again.

Orochimaru's hands rest on my face. "How are you, my special girl?"

"Fine," I manage somehow.

"You seem bothered."

"Hot and bothered, rather," I respond at a slip of my tongue.

He smirks in response. "I've missed you, Shani. I'd give you what your body has been so desperately yearning for since we first met, but I can't."

"Why not?"

Dropping his hands, he hisses, "Because you disappoint me." He walks back to his desk and continues to study one of the many scrolls.

I scoff in disbelief. "How did I disappoint you!?"

"Because you left with Sasuke instead of coming to me, as I ordered. Tsk, tsk," he says so nonchalantly, and almost smugly.

"I'm disappointed in you too! You saw what I was going through, you were there. And you freaking let my uncle in and he brought people to try and kill me! You said I can trust you and you do that to me? I shouldn't even feel obligated to stay here after you did that shit!"

"Shani, but your precious little sister-"

"Fuck you, you can't use my sister against me! You and four eyes bringing her back would mean close to shit if I can't be alive to see it happen."

"Your mouth. So foul."

I swear, I'm seeing red. "You put me in danger and all you can think to say is something about my mouth? FUCK YOU, how about that. I'm out of here. As much as I'm suffering your mind games aren't worth it. I'll see my sister one way or another, without your help. You're the goddamn devil."

I storm off to my room and slam the door, murmuring curse words as the tears fall. I flop onto my bed, exasperated. If it's not one thing, it's another. I'm always going through something. If I'm not fighting with someone else I'm fighting with myself. No matter what, it's a fight. I sit up and lean against the headboard with my knees up, hugging myself. I sigh. I'll have to get used to either running, or being pet to a man who has wild dreams about what he can use me for. Everyone wants to use me, except Sasuke and Suigetsu. Why can't I just run away and start a new life with them? They're so simple. Well, for the most part. Suigetsu is simple anyways. But Sasuke is just as genuine and caring, and they don't want anything from me. I love it. And if I leave, who's to say I'll ever get that again.

Suddenly the door opens, and in walks the evil but beautiful pale skinned devil. He closes it behind him quietly. With unmatchable grace he saunters over to me and sits beside me. His long hand strokes my face and dries my tears. I know damn well I can't help myself in this state. "You are far too beautiful to be shedding tears," he says in a deceitfully soft voice that does not match his cold expression nor his cold heart. "Shani Daisuri. You have no idea how badly I wanted to take you on my desk. But you've been such a bad girl. You promised me you would be a good little girl for me, didn't you?" I nod. Why do I find him talking to me this way so arousing? "See, you did. But you've been bad. What should I do, Shani? If I give you what you want, which is essentially what I want, do you think you would behave?"

"I don't know," I choke. Can you truly give me what I want? I want to stop being scared. And I'm scared of you."

"There's no reason to fear me. You lied to me, Shani," he accuses."You said you trusted me. Whether or not I allowed for your uncle to enter the premises, do you truly believe I would let anyone hurt you? I would have been right there, don't you see that? All you need is me. I will be the one that breathes life back into you."

"I feel like I'm dying even looking into your eyes right now. I hate your mouth as much as you hate mine. I hate the tricks that come out of it and make me feel crazy. I'm not crazy. I'm not."

"I want you, Shani. Will you let me have you?"

Why ever he ignored everything I just said I have no idea. But as I'm to the point of breaking down again. I acquiesce.

"Shani, you are mine. I will own you, I will control you, and I will have you any way I like. Do you understand that?"

"Yes, Lord Orochimaru."

"Good girl. Lie down. I am going to take you now. I am going to make love to you, hard. And you will love it. You will always love everything I do to you. Every little thing."

I lie back, letting his hands roam my body, and his mouth claim mine. I let him undress me, touch me, taste me, and do everything we've both wanted him to do to me. For hours I'm moaning and crying out his name, and it feels so good. It feels so good to feel something other than pain and fear. Just utter pleasure, that no other man could give me in the way Orochimaru can. Deep inside myself I feel my soul being tugged at with every stroke, my fingertips digging into his back as I hold on life I'm falling. I familiarize myself with his scent, his taste, his sighs, and tuck them into my memory. I'll need this when I feel like I want to give up. I'll always have this simple sin to fall back on.