The sound of my co-workers' chattering around me filled my ears as I took a bite from my lunch. It was lunchtime, for some of the staff anyway which meant I was finally getting a break from the long hours of watching over the slightly foreign corridors, foreign being because they weren't her corridor. I could compare it to being torturous, being unable to just walk into her room to see her or even taking a glance at least.
I remembered catching sight of myself in one of the reflections of the windows on my patrol earlier and pausing for a moment, feeling as if I was a new girl since there was no sight of the one that first walked into this prison months ago. I looked myself up and down and just thought for a moment...even if I never wanted to be like this, I felt oddly content, relieved even. Despite still being reluctant to admit what I already realised, being attracted to a girl, or girls...I accepted it, a lot more than I could have before anyway. I shuffled slightly as my brow furrowed, still studying myself. I hadn't changed in image, I had changed my attitude, my beliefs. I had changed for the better.
Finally after lowering my gaze and turning away from that reflection, I went on my way, unconsciously smiling slightly due to certain flashbacks of a conversation I had had with my...close friend Kim. I found myself thinking about everything she had said and even if it was a small step...she opened up, it got better, she got better. As my footsteps echoed, joining in with the laughter as I passed some of the inmates' rooms, I remember feeling a shiver up my spine as my thoughts flashed to how her touch made me crave for more, how my body somehow ached to be with her's an-
My thoughts were interrupted when I sensed someone sitting beside me, making me jump slightly in surprise. A quick glance proved it to be Yuri and I watched with a slight glare as she unpacked her lunch, hearing her snort at my reaction while eyeing me curiously. She looked cheerful as always.
"So..." She started "You've been smiling by yourself for about five minutes. May I know why?" Yuri asked, smirking as she glanced down for a moment in the direction of my neck then met my eyes again. Her smirk seemed to have grown wider after that. "I see you had a nice night."Suddenly remembering what she could have just seen, I felt shy after the insinuation, also feeling self conscious about being questioned about something so intimate.
I cleared my throat and attempted to speak only for it to come out in a stuttering mess. "I-I… I did. Um…" I bit my lip, trying to look anywhere else than the smug look I saw on Yuri's face right now but it proved difficult. As soon as we finally looked at each other, her expression softened and I could see she wanted me to talk about it but I however...wasn't one for explaining my sex life. Previously, I had seeing as I was talking about being normal, being with a man and I was confident with that but talking about having sex with a woman? That I didn't particularly want to do but I could trust Yuri...right?
Holding in my sigh, I looked around to check nobody was in earshot before leaning close to her, my lips just centimetres from her ear. "I...may have done something with someone I met in a bar" I couldn't help the blush that plagued my cheeks after my little confession.
When I leaned back to see her face, Yuri's eyebrows raised suggestively as she looked at me with slight suprise. "Huh" she paused, looking away for a moment as if to take that in "What happened to the innocent bible basher I met not so long ago?" I chuckled nervously, taking another bite from my sandwich as she nudged me playfully. "Details."
"W-well she was… uh, like..." I rambled, not knowing where to start as my cheeks reddened further. Seeing how her eyes were encouraging me to continue, I did so while trying to rephrase. God it was strange to be talking about these things with a girl, about another girl.
"She was really pretty and I was so awkward." Just reminiscing over those painful interactions at the start of the night with Bora made me cringe "You have no idea..." I mumbled as I held my face in my hands. "Like...she was tanned and curvy and, seductive but… I don't know, it was so bizarre. I guess one night stands aren't for me" I chuckled.
Yuri was already giggling next to me, her smirk still on her lips. She then looked at me while biting her lip playfully. "I didn't know you were into girls that matched my description"
It only took a second for my brain to register what she had just said and in my shock I managed to gain the attention of the whole room by jerking my hand and tipping my tray on the ground while Yuri watched on in amusement. Trying to ignore the stifled laughter from both her and our colleagues, I got the mess cleaned up swiftly before sitting back in front of her with my no doubt tomato shaded face.
"That wasn't what I was implying..." Her face fell for a moment and I feared I'd hurt her feelings but then she laughed. My head tilted in confusion until I realised, she was playing with me. I watched on as she finished pissing herself at my expense with a stern look on my face until her laughter began to die down.
"Yuri, don't play with me like that..." I pouted.
"Oh, I never thought teasing you would be this fun. Don't worry, I won't try to seduce you." She winked while I rolled my eyes and then let out a soft sigh. Despite being a little irked at her behaviour, as soon as I heard her snort I couldn't help a small smile gracing my face.
Yuri...she's playful that's for sure but despite everything she does to annoy me, she's a good girl. She's comfortable to be around and I know I'd done well in befriending her. In this place... she and a certain little blonde were the only joy I get out of this place after witnessing the other workers' despicable acts. She and Taeyeon were a way for me to push aside all of the crap I was feeling here.
I proceeded to tell her everything that happened that night, pausing now and again to scoff or roll my eyes at her reactions. It wasn't until I finished that I got some advice from her, both of us now done with eating and just chatting a bit to kill time before it was time for us to go back to work.
"So, uh...you're aware about your 'likes' now?" She asked carefully, her tone changing a little. I felt as if she was trying not to offend me or make me misunderstand her words. I smiled softly, sighing as it was still hard for me to say such things so… openly. Again, I knew I felt something for women but saying so was a whole different story. My whole life, I was raised with Christian beliefs and for it to change so fast and so suddenly… I'd need time to get used to it first.
"I guess…?" I replied, whispering so no one would hear me. "I don't know all the terms but...I think I like guys, and girls." My tone got lower as someone passed by our table. I was in Korea after all and myself being a CO and working in an all-female prison...my 'new' sexuality was not something my surroundings should know if I wanted to keep my job in such conservative country.
Yuri smiled proudly after my reply, taking my hand and squeezing it softly with a smile on her face. "Good girl. And please, don't feel scared to ask me stuff alright?" She winked while I gave her one of my eyesmiles in return.
"Thanks. Really, thank you. That means a lot"
"No problem Hwang." I leaned back into my seat after realising my posture had been rigid, with nerves probably. As I closed my eyes and stretched a little, a faint rustling caught my attention and I witnessed Yuri rummaging around in her bag until she brought out two small packets of those gummy worm sweets. She offered one packet to me while she opened hers and proceeded to munch on them like a school kid.
She reminded me of Taeyeon then because of the kid thing and my mind once again was held captive by the girl in this prison. The girl who no doubt caused all of these problems in my life, but also the girl who despite everything, I was falling for. Absentmindedly I took the packet and stuffed it into my pocket instead of my bag as my thoughts whirled around in my head...that was until Yuri interrupted them again.
"So...do you want to go out?"
Again shock, thankfully my tray stayed firmly on the table however my eyes and my jaw this time showed my surprise. I began to think of a response until she began laughing again allowing me to exhale slowly.
"Really?" I questioned, slapping her arm in distaste at her jokes.
"Maybe I should rephrase that." She chuckled "Do you want to hang out with me and my cousin tonight? She's cool..." Yuri reassured me. "We arranged a girl's night out to have a break from the stress of work blah blah and plus, everyone needs some fun once in a while. Maybe you want to join?"
A slight sigh of relief escaped my mouth as she elaborated on her 'going out' idea and I listened intently as she placed a palm on my thigh, keeping my attention focused on her.
"And maybe...you and her could, you know..." I didn't need the wink or the wiggling eyebrows to know what Yuri was implying but she did them anyway, just adding to her suggestion. "She's more into guys but I think you two would get on well"
So, Yuri was really setting me up with a girl, her family in fact. Strange, either she really wanted me in her family or she was keen to make me forget about a certain someone, someone she hadn't mentioned but was obviously prominent somewhere in the back of her mind. Nevertheless, sleeping with a girl is a lot different than being with one; dating. Taking my eyes off of Yuri's for a moment to think about things proved to cause me to spiral into one of those deep confused moments. Taeyeon.
What actually was I to her? We aren't dating, but then again we haven't had sex for a while...maybe she just wants to be friends again? Not even friends, we were neverfriends. At least, we had made progress. I wasn't sure how she felt about me but it was obvious to see that I was feeling something deeper for her than she was for me. I-
Yuri's loud clearing of her throat tore me from my thoughts yet again and I saw her eyebrows were raised, expecting my answer. But I couldn't, I couldn't answer. Now that Taeyeon and I had shared that moment, despite how she may feel for me or not feel for me...I felt for her and to sleep with someone or god forbid date someone else, I'd feel like I'd be betraying her. Also her reaction when I told her about my rendezvous with Bora, although I was teasing her I could clearly see that she was jealous. Jealousy proves that there is something right?
"I'm sorry…" I sighed "I would love to but…" My voice cracked as I attempted to keep it from doing that very thing, Yuri noticed immediately so I averted my eyes and bit my lip. I felt her gaze intensify just before I sensed her leaning forward with no doubt a stern look on her face now.
"Is this about what I think it is?" She's smart, who was I trying to kid? "Or more likewho I think it is?" Ashamed. I was ashamed. I was a correctional officer and look at me... I didn't even need to answer her for she already knew and I couldn't have been more obvious if I tried. I also couldn't get my eyes to meet hers which now were probably giving me a pitiful gaze, full of disappointment
But to my surprise, she whispered again, softly and in a gentle manner. "Don't let anyone play with your feelings, you hear me?"
I failed to keep my smile from showing, it was in relief because I was afraid I was going to get a lecture again about how I'd be fired because of my irresponsible actions but thankfully that wasn't the case. When Yuri's hand held mine and gave a reassuring squeeze, that smile grew. She felt like a big sister to me, and even if she didn't reciprocate the smile when I lifted my gaze, her words showed that she was there for me despite everything I had done/ was doing. Just as I opened my mouth to thank her, the smile vanished when I saw the dick that helped to start it all, Park sitting right in front of me, next to Yuri. If I didn't hate his guts, I would have giggled a little seeing as as soon as he sat down, the sheer weight of him made the metal tables creak and shake a little. Seriously, being overweight in this career? Shouldn't be allowed.
He smirked at the both of us, and I could feel Yuri tense up at his presence.
"Well, what do we have here?" He grinned, seemingly forgetting what had happened between us when I stuck up for Taeyeon in solitary after he had touched her inappropriately. "You're what...BFF's' now?" He asked with a mocking smile as he waved a chubby finger between Yuri and I before opening up and chewing a packaged burger he had in his hand, the grease running down into the folds of his second chin.
When none of us replied, he simply snorted while he rambled on about random shit while I prayed for break to be over. Yuri and I were sharing distasteful glances to eachother, both in the same boat clearly. We wanted nothing more than to leave.
"Don't glare at me Kwon." He suddenly said, finally wiping that oil from his chin after he licked his fingers. "You're probably just needy right? Being gay and all..." I frowned, he knew? Yuri didn't look surprised however and kept up her glare while he smirked, bits of his lunch stuck in his teeth. "A woman can't fulfill what you need Kwon...you need a nice meaty piece of man" he grinned, pointing down to you know what under the table; gosh he was making me sick.
"Oh really? Is that so?" She retorted, her voice dripping with sarcasm. "Tell me...does celibacy make guys greasy, disgusting assholes? Because you surely haven't gotten any in years"
I really didn't want to laugh, really...okay that was a lie but nevertheless it came out anyway because of Yuri's comment. I knew he was pissed, his expression showed anger but I could see he was trying to suppress it which surprised me because that guy was clearly capable of blowing. I would actually expect a guy like him could hit a woman.
Poor old Park looked to me to save himself from a little embarrassment but I wasn't his saviour, not after all he had fucking done "You should learn from Tiffany, Yuri"
Really? Wow... It was then that the guy's small beady eyes focused on my neck and another smirk grew
"At least she is getting some." My reaction was instant, immediately buttoning the shirt up to the top despite the fact it choked me a little. I'd rather be deprived of a little oxygen than have him look at me that way. "Look at all those hickeys. Damn what a lucky guy he is to be doing girls like you." I gagged, seriously. What a fucking creep, and I thought I had seen the worst of him; clearly not.
I didn't respond which I blame because of the nausea, fearing that even opening my mouth would cause the table to be covered in my disgust. I think he took the lack of an insult thrown back at him as interest and he leaned in a little closer, his chubby cheeks hiding his eyes in a variation of an eyesmile. It seemed he was blind as well as dumb. Thankfully before he could say anything, it was time for us to resume our shifts and as we waited for the monstrous Park to raise his fat ass from the chair, he sent a wink my way and a glare over to Yuri before waddling away.
Yuri looked over at me as we got up and rolled her eyes.
"Asshole."
"Tell me about it."
...
The clock now showed 5pm and I was getting to be desperate. Isn't it strange how the heart can yearn for something even though that something was just seen yesterday, and also despite the fact that that heart still wasn't sure exactly how it felt about that something. I just wanted to see her... speak to her, wanting to know whether her opening up yesterday actually changed something between us or whether I'd be starting back from square one. I really hoped that wasn't the case, I want our relationship to grow not recede, not wither into nothing.
Even seeing her at recreation wasn't enough for me because we were so far away. I have to admit, when our eyes met...it hurt. It hurt because I couldn't just go over there and talk to her like I desired, I couldn't be close to her or joke with her because it was my jobnot to. It was so hard just to stop from looking at her, the sun hitting her face making her porcelain skin radiate, making her gorgeous eyes just glow...her blonde hair shine. I had to be discreet, I had to make others believe she and I were nothing and again, that was very difficult.
Then there was that one moment later in the day where everything was fine, nobody was acting up and the surrounding areas were calm. Everyone was somehow doing something at that minute and that was my chance to go and see her, finally.
It was so quick, my journey that is. It was as if I had teleported there because thinking of her just made everything go faster; my heart included. Now outside her room, I looked both ways down the corridors before grinning and slipping inside that familiar door, shutting it softly behind me.
When I saw how she immediately sat up in bed from a seemingly comfy position to look at me and afterwards closing her book giving me all of her attention...my heart swelled. A smile instantly came on my face as I bowed my head slightly before approaching, my eyes locked on hers while trying to ignore those tingles in my stomach. I didn't get a smile...but seeing the action of simply closing her book did it for me, also the way her eyes lit up slightly when I walked in...it's all I needed.
There were no words spoken between us but I knew what I wanted to do. I put my hand in my pocket and pulled out the bag of gummy worms that resided there. Taeyeon's eyes darted to them almost immediately, her want for something so sweet clearly obvious.
Of course I knew that such a thing was forbidden, in no way was I supposed to do it but...I just couldn't resist. I opened the packet and while keeping my gaze on her, I smiled when I saw how she looked exactly like the photo of the kid she once was on her Facebook. It was nice to see. If I had to put a name to her expression right now...I'd say adorable. Yes, the 'big, bad' Kim was adorable and I loved being there to witness it.
I walked a little closer and then leaned down to see her up close; beautiful. But those eyes were still focused on those gummy worms. I couldn't help but chuckle which seemed to break her out of her daze, leaving her slightly embarrassed. Eager to fix that, I held out the packet.
"Want some?" I asked with a smile while I watched as Taeyeon battled with some inner demons as to whether she should or not. She'd already lowered her wall but was seemingly still wondering whether to do things around me. However, after a little while she finally nodded her head and got up, walking over to close the gap between us, her hand outstretched eagerly but I stopped her with a gentle hand on her chest. The confused expression she gave was something every person would squeal at for it being so cute but thankfully the sound stayed put within me.
She opened her mouth to speak, but I stopped her when I thought of something...something that was bold but something that I really wanted to try. I gave her a reassuring smile before picking out a gummy worm and placing one half in my mouth, leaving the other half dangling. Yes...I wanted to reinact that famous 'Lady and the Tramp' move and was eager to see whether she'd take the bait. I took a step forward and watched as her eyes left mine and focused on the sweet while I just gazed at her like a lovesick puppy. When she looked back up still a little confused, the action of my eyes glancing to and from her eyes and lips seemed to have given her the hint and she leaned in...slowly and painfully while my breath hitched at the sight of her lips parting as she came closer.
Soon enough, my back was against the wall. She must have pushed me but all I felt was a shiver up my spine so I didn't even notice. What I did notice...was how her body now pressed against mine, her leg between mine, her thigh just inches away from making contact with my heated core. If my teeth weren't tightly clenched, I could have gulped that worm down whole as her breasts met my own and her breath hit my twitching lips. I saw Taeyeon smirk before she leaned in and took the end of the worm in between her teeth, eyes flickering upwards to meet mine in a playful yet lustful look.
She edged her lips closer slowly, nibbling the worm until it went further and further into her mouth and her lips pressed on mine slightly causing me to just give up my half of the sweet because I wanted something else in my mouth instead. Taeyeon seemed to have understood for after sucking the worm into her mouth cutely, her eyes darkened and she kissed me roughly...sensually.
I gasped into her mouth as she slid her tongue against my own, I tasted the sweetness of it and completely melted at her touch, allowing myself to enjoy the kiss for as long as I could. I realised then how much I liked this girl because when she reached her arms around my waist and pulled me even closer to her...I didn't want to leave. Just knowing how much I'd miss her touch when I left was torturous and I slowed down the heated exchange just wanting to savour every moment.
When we finally parted, I panted heavily after forgetting to breathe. Who would want to pull away to breathe when Kim Taeyeon is kissing you...no one, that's who.
When I opened my eyes and they focused on her, I bit my lip in shyness because I just knew my face was my favourite colour and that was slightly embarrassing. To fix that...I leaned in once more and tugged on her bottom lip before pulling her in for another kiss but this time, the kiss was slow and tender. Something you'd associate with two people who love each other which was strange because I knew that wasn't what she felt. It was gentle but passionate at the same time and my hands travelled upwards of their own accord, daring to rest one hand on the back of her neck to keep her there and keeping the other wrapped around her waist. When I felt her smirk, I smiled with her until my hand travelled down a little further to rest just above her butt cheeks - that rid her of her smile and our lips fit together like two puzzle pieces once again.
I bravely continued my caressing, my hand on her neck snaking upwards so it got caught in her hair when I made a fist and the way she opened her mouth at the feeling was pure ecstasy. When Taeyeon wrapped her arms around my waist even tighter...all I could do was try to convey how I felt through this moment of passion. I felt as if I was floating on air, she was so damn good at rendering me into mush it was unbelievable.
Again we parted and stayed silent while we tried to get our breath back. I was no longer embarrassed because I could see that her face too was flushed but I guess that was because of the lack of air and not the shyness that I myself felt. We were still pressed together and it seemed we were just relishing in the moment, just holding eachother...something so simple feeling so extraordinary. I smiled as I realised Taeyeon wasn't shouting at me, telling me to get lost, pushing me away.
When I felt her shuffle a little, maybe uncomfortable...I suppose it was because this was too much of an intimate act for her to be comfortable yet she could pull away if she wanted to. I could still see a little of the confusion in her eyes instead of the love that I wanted, the love that I was surely showing her and I was slightly disappointed at the reaction...then again, I shouldn't be getting my hopes up in the first place. Wait, did I just say...love?
I froze up while my eyes did all the moving for me, scanning over her perfect features - her lips, cheeks, her eyes and nose. How her eyebrows were slightly furrowed adding to the confusion in her eyes and unwillingly I pulled away, my body slipping out from her hold and gathering some distance from the girl.
Still nothing was said and so I once again decided to test my bravery, risking this moment knowing she could take it the wrong way and tell me to leave because of embarrassment or...whatever. I just wanted to try so I got out another gummy worm and held it in front of her lips after stepping closer again. When she lifted up her hand to take it, I shook my head and pulled it away from her grasp, waiting until she dropped her arm and then I replaced it in the previous position. The frown on her face deepened as she eyed me.
"I'm not a kid okay? I can feed mys—"
Quickly I popped the worm in her mouth as soon as I could, watching as the confused look turned to surprise at my audacity. She hesitated before slowly chewing the sweet and then swallowed it down while I stood and held my chuckle at how effortlessly cute she was. When she looked at my pocket again, I couldn't help it, I laughed and when I saw the tiniest smile come on her face I knew we'd made progress once again.
So I did it again, and again until the whole pack was gone. I saw that little girl once more when she unconsciously pouted at the now empty packet and again I chuckled. Just seeing her happy for that moment was enough to keep me in that same state for days. I almost forgot about the outside world. I forgot about my job, and her position, where we were and the illegal acts I was doing...it was just her and me in a room, staring at each other as if we could read each others minds. I must've zoned out for a while because I came back when she started snapping her fingers to get my attention. I felt my mouth was dry as it had been ajar all that time - way to look like an idiot Hwang!
"Officers shouldn't be spacing out you know. It's dangerous" she said in a particularly sexy tone
"We're talking about rules now? " I retorted with a smirk. "You should have thought about that when you were having sex with me. That is naughty"
She opened her mouth to reply but instead gave up on whatever she was going to say, giving me a smile instead. I flashed her an eyesmile before eyeing the watch on my wrist, slightly surprised at how much time had actually passed. I hadn't been summoned though, so hopefully nobody was looking for me, or noticed my absence. Thankfully the cameras don't work around these parts but still, I couldn't risk staying here any longer. How I longed to talk with her all night, to cuddle up and watch a movie and to just be held by her while we slept. But unfortunately that was not possible.
When our eyes met for the millionth time that day, I saw something different in her gaze. She was staring into space and all I wanted was to ask her what was making her think so deeply. That was until she snapped out of it and focused on me.
"Thanks"
How uncomfortable that sounded when it came out of her mouth was a little comical, knowing she didn't like to show gratitude or anything of the sort yet here she was doing it just for me. But why was she thanking me anyway? For the sweets?
"What for?" I replied curiously.
"For...you know" she said as she gave another small smile. Her voice was soft yet tentative and I paused for a moment just to take in those things. That smile that came naturally without me having to try so damn hard to get it and that voice that could be so harsh now sounding so gentle. I didn't really know what she meant but nevertheless I replied.
"No problem"
I then looked down and saw how her hand was just dangling there, screaming to be held and my own twitched a little at the temptation but the thought of her pulling back now after how far we'd come again was just too great of a risk. If she had, it would ruin this whole moment, the buzz I felt inside so I held back my urges.
While I stared at her hand, I had some sort of a flashback and it saddened me. I knew I could never say sorry enough for hurting her but I was going to say it again.
"I...I'm sorry." I mumbled, eyes on hers as I shifted uncomfortably. She looked confused again, urging me to continue with her intense gaze and I did so though was unable to look her in the eyes now. "That night in the kitchen...I hurt you deeply when I...brought her up and made you relive those awful memories in such careless way..." I let out a long sigh, just remembering how angry and upset she was broke my heart. "You...your tears just killed me and I realised almost instantly that I had screwed up and I really never wanted to hurt you like that, not now, not ever. Not when all I want is to..."
"To what?" She questioned. Shit, that had slipped out. I could never tell her how I felt about her because although I wanted her, all of her...I was too scared of losing her. I hesitatingly lifted up my head so our eyes met and saw her wearing a soft expression. Could I tell her? Not all of it...maybe, just a little something?
I took a deep breath, averted my eyes and then exhaled "I want to...be there for you. I want to make you happy and smile and just make your time here meaningful instead of lonely and isolated"
There. I said it. I didn't dare look up for fear of her laughing at me, backing away or the worst thing? Telling me to get lost. But none of those happened. What did happen though, was my body instantly freezing, paralysed at the feeling against my hand. It was hers.
Although it only lasted a few seconds before she pulled away and made some distance in between us, she had initiated contact with me. Intimacy. And how her fingers had entwined with mine and how she had squeezed mine with reassurance, it was all I could manage. Her next words though, made me as complete as I could feel right now. I couldn't stop the smile taking over my face.
"You're doing okay so far."
All it took was those words to reassure me that she felt the same about me too. Yes, I was delusional, those words couldn't mean what I felt for her but I took it that way and found myself falling even deeper for the girl. That was all ruined however by the voice coming from my radio. I groaned in annoyance...fucking dickhun. There was a fight or something apparantly.
"I should leave" I sighed, how I wished I could stay a bit longer with her but...not everyone gets what they wish for. She nodded and then retreated, going back to her bed and picking up her book lazily while I stood there and watched like a complete stalker. "Uh, see you" I said, ignoring the look of amusement on her face as she nodded once more before shutting me out, delving into the world of her book instead. I turned to leave but then thought of something. "Hey...a while back you said something" I smiled, still wondering how she did it.
"Huh?" She replied, still keeping her eyes on that book... 'The Heart is a Lonely Hunter'.That book.
"We were sort of arguing and you commented something about how I went to the bookstore and bought that" I said as I pointed to the book in her hands "...Just because of wanting to get to know you." I saw the smirk on her face drop as she realised what I was talking about. "How did you know?"
She hesitated and I knew then that she was trying to avoid telling me something. "I uh...guessed?" Bullshit.
"No, you knew. How?" She shrugged her shoulders and I replied with folding my arms, a stern look in my face. "Tell me" she then cleared her throat awkwardly and I remembered that I read that book twice. Once at home in one night, and then once in work just so I could really feel the message it gave through it's words. However, a CO cannot simply wander around the corridors reading, a CO can only read in his/ her break. I spent that break in the staff room, a room which is off limits to any prisoner. Had she...?
"You should go" she interrupted. "Nichkhun needs you" the smile grew wider on my face and she knew then that I caught her.
"You followed me didn't you? You knew I was getting off my shift and you followed me to the staff room and you watched me read that book" Okay maybe it wasn't thatobvious but something about her reluctancy to admit it gave me the idea. She wouldn't want me knowing that she, of her own free will watched me, stalked me almost.
"I don't know what you're talking about" she replied but I saw through her lies. I simply smirked, turned and left leaving her to her own devices. Even back then she was curious of me despite the fact she didn't like me, that sort of made my heart swell.
...
I was now making my way to my car, my shift now over thank goodness. I was a little startled by the sudden contact of someone linking their arms with mine and flinched before my eyes landed on Yuri, a cheeky smile showing on her face.
"Are you still joining us tonight?" She questioned.
Oh crap, I had totally forgotten. I thought for a moment before replying. "Yeah okay. What are we doing, again?" Finally arriving at my car, I tossed my bag into the passenger seat and then closed the door, resting my back against it to further converse with Yuri. I watched as she took out her phone and typed something before giving me her attention again.
"We just wanted to order take out, have a girl's night out or something." She shrugged. "So?"
I smiled and nodded at her. "Sure. What time?"
"8pm is good"
"I'll be there" I replied, slightly nervous about meeting a member of Yuri's family for some reason but I guess it's always nice to have more friends. I waved goodbye as she left and then got into my car with a heave thanks to my aching bones and proceeded to drive off home.
The traffic was awful so I found myself waiting around a lot, the perfect time for a certain little blonde to come invade my head as always. I remembered how she had still two years to serve in prison and I couldn't help but feel disappointed at the simple thought of her being locked up for so much longer when we could be at my house, doing things a couple would do.
While tapping my fingers impatiently on the steering wheel, I remembered the things she had said about how she got there in the first place. She was sort of wrongly accused...Hmm, maybe...maybe there was some way to prove it? To get her out sooner? I mean...that boy's mother was her best friend after all and that kid had taken advantage of Taeyeon's weak state of mind for a mere prank. Taeyeon wasn't a child abuser, she didn't hit that kid because he was an absolute dickhead (he was, clearly), she hit him because she was dreaming that it was Jessica's murderer.
Her friend had taken the side of her son and had testified against Taeyeon in court despite their seemingly close bond. She had sat there and sent Taeyeon to jail for something she didn't commit but that being said...maybe she didn't realise that Taeyeon was still dreaming at that stage. People can sleepwalk right? Surely people can sleep-hit too? Urgh I don't know...maybe I'll look into getting a new lawyer for Taeyeon, talk to her friend and her son. I was getting deeper and deeper into this girls life without even realising and surely it would all go wrong soon. It was only a matter of time before we were caught but I had to help her. If there was a way to get her out sooner then I'd take it, 100%.