I must have just been staring in bewilderment at her for an awkward while because when she began to frown and snapped her fingers in front of my glazed over eyes, I shook my head to bring myself back to the present. Bora started to smile but I could only mirror her previous expression, did she just say she's a lawyer?
Surely I heard wrong...I mean considering it was all of three-five hours ago that I was thinking about getting Taeyeon one to possibly lighten her sentence and now one just presents herself to me?
After a while I found my voice miraculously and with a rude point directed her way I had to ask if she was for real. "Y-you're a lawyer?" Her smile faltered a little, maybe a little confused by how I was reacting to a seemingly normal career and she nodded slowly with a now suspicious look.
"Yeah...what did you think I was, a prostitute?" So i'd actually insulted her, fuck. When she saw me get a little panicked to dismiss her answer she burst out into laughter. "Never seen one this attractive?" She winked
"No I uh...gosh" I said with a sigh, smiling at how truly stupid I sounded.
At least Bora was taking my dumb responses well and wasn't completely offended as I'd first thought. I told her to ignore me and gave the excuse that I was drunk which wasn't really the case at all.
"I just really like that area I guess" I paused to take a gulp of my drink and continued, trying not to look at the smirk that had grown on her face as she licked the rim of her glass.
"I mean, the stuff you do, defending innocent people and helping to put away the ones who have done evil. It's interesting to me" I shrugged, I really did feel that way but right now I was just trying to keep the topic on her job, hopefully to see whether she was actually good at it and whether she had the potential to help Taeyeon.
She shifted, coming a little closer to me as she kept up that damn smirk. I thought Taeyeon's was bad but compared to Bora hers is so freaking innocent.
"Oh really" she commented, her eyes now wavering beneath mine. "It's...interesting that you find it interesting. I do like my job, sometimes it's rewarding, then again sometimes it's not. "
"How come?" I responded.
"Well like you said, I could be putting away a person who had done evil things but if I was to be assigned to that person's case instead? I have to work to keep them out of jail." I nodded at that.
"Thats hard but usually it always falls through since they have too much evidence against them. I don't think I could sleep at night if what I did actually allowed them to walk free again if they had killed or...raped."
"Yeah, I guess it's the same with me. It's difficult to treat people equally in a harsh manner in my line of work." Bora's eyes lit up in interest as I shot a smile her way.
"I work as a correctional officer as you probably already know because of Yuri... so to really know that someone is innocent and they've been put behind bars due to a traumatic experience that wasn't entirely their fault it's tough"
"I agree" she said as she averted her eyes for a moment, enough time for me to let out a shaky breath. I don't know why I was so nervous, it's strange since I could probably just ring up a lawyer and enquire about Taeyeon that way but as its Bora and I'm closer to her than I am to a complete stranger...I had a lot riding on how this went.
There was a slight silence as I thought about what else to say, awkward to say the least. Our actions were even entwined, raising our glasses to our mouths and then lowering them. We laughed at that and I thanked the lord that she wasn't being overbearing now with her flirtatious ways. Maybe she wanted to change the subject or something and when I saw her looking at her watch and starting to watch the television, I knew I had to get her attention back on me and the only way I could think of was to begin opening up to her about Taeyeon.
"Alright so...metaphorically speaking" I said, giving a slight smile when she looked at me in interest. "There's this girl...who is innocent but who still sort of did the crime...if that makes sense"
"That makes no sense" she chuckled. Of course it didn't, I had even slurred my words. As I put down my glass and grabbed a different one filled with water, I tried to sober myself up a little since we were in murky territory with this whole thing now. I could say the wrong thing and bam, Bora could have something to report me on if she desired.
"Okay." I said, banging my palms against the table a little too hard as if to say I'm starting a new sentence, listen to this.
"So there's this girl who's now in prison..." I went slowly, just in case she wouldn't understand despite her intelligence; I was drunk okay.
"Right..." She went along with it so I continued.
"Let's say...she committed a crime but wasn't fully aware of what she was doing."
"I'm not sure what you mean" Bora replied, resting her head on her hands and looking as if she was putting up with this drunken nonsense like it was any old thing I was blabbering on about. "Was she intoxicated or something?"
"No. For example, have you ever hugged someone or even hit someone in your sleep?" When she nodded after thinking for a while I exhaled in relief, hopeful that I was getting somewhere.
"Alright so imagine this girl who had just gone through something seriously, and I meanseriously traumatic and she was totally scared of everything"
There was no answer from her side so I carried on with my speech.
"And then...there's this kid who takes advantage of her state to pull a practical joke on her. Let's say that she hit him in shock and in panic but didn't realize she'd done it until she woke up."
Bora frowned as I looked to her expectantly, hoping she'd come up with an answer that would solve all of this in a heartbeat.
"So what's her actual charge? How long is she or has she been in prison?" She asked. "Metaphorically speaking of course" a slight smirk and I knew the metaphorical thing hadn't worked, damn.
"She's inside for attacking a minor, punching him and scratching him... but the sentence ended up being six years even when the attacker wasn't aware of their surroundings. Almost sleepwalking if you will...metaphorically"
"Okay shut up about metaphorically it's bugging me" Yep, didn't work.
"So I'm guessing this is a girl who's in your prison yes? A friend of yours?" I nodded but lowered my gaze, suddenly all too aware of where the is could possibly lead. I was nervous, really nervous.
I nodded while she sighed, averting her own eyes to her clasped hands on the table in thought.
"It's certainly a tough situation. Who testified against her to make her go down for so long considering the circumstances that you've just told me?" She was interested, perfect. "I mean, surely if the sleep thing was an issue someone could have tested that, at least looked into it a little"
"After what happened to her, she stayed with a friend and that's where it happened. After she did what she did, that friend thought she was a monster and was determined to send her down for as long as she could despite growing up with her."
"Harsh" was the comment that came from her lips, her eyebrows furrowed also while I nodded absentmindedly.
"I mean as a friend she should have listened to what the girl had to say and taken into account of whatever she had been through that was so scarring. It must have been something big"
"Very" I replied. "It's like something you'd expect to see in a movie, like it's not even real life" a sigh escaped my lips when I thought back to how much of an ass I had been when Taeyeon had told me. Feeling a tear roll down my cheek I quickly got up from the dining room chair and turned my back on her as I attempted to conceal my emotions on the subject. What happened next was that she grabbed my hand and pulled me over to the sofa.
"It must be hard for you too, obviously being close to this girl and I'm guessing you're telling me this because you want guidance or something?"
Not really guidance but I nodded anyway.
"Alright so, I'm going to need to know some more details...to see first hand whether it was both traumatic enough and worthy of her being sent to prison for it." She smiled sadly after looking into my eyes, a really nice change from her usual personality. Again I nodded and took a deep breath as she encouraged me to let it out... but I still had to be careful.
Slowly but surely and leaving quite a few details out, such as the aggression Taeyeon had showed as she told the story about Jessica, how much of a bitch I was and oh yes...I was now fucking this girl and quite possibly in love with her, I began to explain what Taeyeon had told me that night in the kitchen.
As I spoke I studied Bora's expression how it went from slight surprise at Taeyeon's lesbian status to a smile as I described the love she and Jessica shared together albeit with pain in my heart...and then a glisten in her eyes as I told her all of what she had gone through, how evil that one man was to have taken away such an important and innocent person that didn't fucking deserve any of it.
I wiped another tear as I finished and heard Bora clearing her throat, her voice breaking due to her own emotions after hearing the story.
"That...wow" was all she said and I knew then that I could maybe trust her with the whole truth if it ever came down to that. As I stared at her, it amazed me how the woman who walked in here earlier tonight was so different than the one sitting before me now. I'd like to say the real Bora was here right now but I just wasn't sure; I didn't know her enough to judge. Nevertheless, she was touched and reacted well considering.
As I explained the next part, about the kid and her friend and how the boy used to bully Taeyeon with his loud voice and sneak attacks, Bora actually chuckled darkly at the audacity of the child. Like it seemed she too thought that dick deserved what he got even though Taeyeon didn't mean for it to happen that way. I finished with the actual attack and the look on her friends face as she sent her best friend to jail, how Taeyeon had decided to just accept that it was all her fault and not stick up for herself in any way.
I felt more tears sting my eyes but before one fell, Bora's thumb quickly grazed beneath my eye to rid me of it. I then raised my eye line and saw she was giving me the most sincere yet emotional smile she could possibly manage and I was grateful for that. Without even thinking I grabbed her hand and squeezed it since my voice would probably just sound like a dying cat if I tried to speak anyway.
Her other thumb grazed the skin on my hand as she moved a piece of hair from my eyes, she was comforting me and I was surprised to see that she was really good at it. I felt relaxed with her soft caresses and knowing that the outcome could be good for Taeyeon if Bora decided to help us was...relaxing almost.
"Taeyeon doesn't deserve to stay in there another minute, let alone years" I sighed, seeing Bora nod slightly from the corner of my eye.
"Taeyeon?" It was then that I heard the apartment door slam and Yuri walk in, her eyes darting from her cousin to me in almost a panicked state. My eyes widened as I realized. "Tiffany you didn't..."
"No no!" I replied, standing quickly to reassure her but it seemed Yuri had already figured I'd told her cousin the other part...
"Tiffany she's a fucking lawyer do you not know that?" She raised her voice a little, angry at me for being so seemingly careless.
"What's going on?" Bora frowned, getting up too to join the two of us. Yuri turned to face her.
"Bora she made a stupid mistake and I'm sure she feels awful. Right Tiffany?"
The anger and threat in her voice then was almost paralyzing but I had to stop her before she told Bora. I had come so far and I had her on my side, if Yuri told her what we had been doing in such a reckless way it could become utterly fucked.
"She didn't mean to take it that far and it was only-"
To try to fix this I grabbed Yuri and pulled her aside out of ear shot. "I haven't told her everything!" I whispered angrily. "I just found out she's a lawyer and was hoping she'd help me out with lightening Taeyeon's sentence, she doesn't know what we do!"
The dread that came on her face was almost comical if it wasn't such a tense situation but Yuri also seemed a little relieved at the fact I wasn't as stupid as she first thought. It may be possible for Bora to get Taeyeon out of jail without telling her about Taeyeon and I's relationship together and that's the way I intended to keep it...unless it was completely necessary.
It was silent as Yuri walked past her cousin without a word and grabbed a bag off of the table that I didn't even realize she had brought in. She began to take out some plates and dish up our food as Bora eyed both of us in suspicion. When we were all gathered round the table to eat, it seemed Bora didn't want to drop the subject which I was both nervous and slightly grateful about.
"So I assume Tiffany has told you about...Tae...? Taeyeon" she repeated after I helped her out with the name. Yuri simply nodded to reply, not lifting her head as if she was scared that she'd reveal something accidentally after that little hiccup.
"It's an interesting case isn't it, tragic but certainly interesting...do you know Taeyeon like Tiffany does?"
Yuri really was related to Bora, I say that because the slight smirk and naughtiness on her face as she no doubt desired to make a dig at how much I really did know Taeyeon was something she had to restrain herself from doing.
"I know of her. Taeyeon is someone who is...selective in who she talks to" A quick look my way proved that Yuri really wasn't entirely over what Taeyeon and I do together. Nevertheless, Bora nodded in understanding as she revelled in her thoughts. It interested me that she had become so involved in this case, how she wanted to know every detail like it was the most refreshing and stimulating thing she'd heard in a long while.
As we ate, I noticed Bora glance at me time and time again. I wouldn't say it was uncomfortable, but I was wondering why she was doing it. When I looked up at the right moment and our eyes met, Yuri looked between us and then once Bora realized she had all of our attention, she spoke what was on her mind.
"The things she's told me are valid enough to possibly re-open a case and help a person who seems to have already paid for their actions."
Wait, what? Did she just-? I smiled immediately and set down my chopsticks. Was this real? I could kiss her right now! I literally couldn't even speak, if I tried it would come out in garbles and that wasn't wise. When I saw Yuri was eyeing me, silently telling me that I was maybe acting a little too overjoyed for someone I hadn't known all that long...Bora seemed to notice.
"Okay can you guys just explain to me what's going on?" She asked, looking clearly confused at the weird situation we were in. Yuri and I met gazes yet again as I again shook my head subtly, pleading with her not to say anything.
"Im sorry" she replied, looking straight at me before setting her attention on her cousin. For a moment I thought she was going to spill and ruin everything I had just worked for over the past hour. However, thankfully Yuri was a friend that could keep secrets, even from her own family. For that I respected her greatly.
"I was just worried I'm- just worried about Tiffany...that's all." She calmly expressed, Bora looked just as confused as before and opened her mouth to speak before Yuri changed the subject. I followed almost immediately and avoided Bora's suspicious stare. She joined in a while later and I let out a sigh of relief, thankful that tense atmosphere was over for now
The night went on with us actually having a good time, considering it stopped being awkward after we ate and drank a bit more. However the glares that came from Yuri from time to time didn't allow me to forget how much she thought I had actually screwed up by even mentioning Taeyeon in the presence of a lawyer.
When it came the time to say goodbye, I was already up and ready to leave with a wave directed their way but was surprised when I was pulled into an embrace by none other than Bora herself. It took me a while to hug her back due to my slight shock but when I felt her hands searching below my belt, I was fully ready to step back and push her away, maybe even slap her for being so out of order after we had shared a lovely bonding moment... but then I realized she was trying to find my pocket.
I placed my hand on hers as she stayed pressed up to me to conceal what she was doing from a still moody Yuri. She was giving me her business card with a smug smile on her lips. I couldn't say anything with her cousin being right there so I just returned the smile and quickly slipped it in my pocket.
"It seems we will be seeing more of each other" she whispered in my ear as her hand reached around to rest just on top of my ass. "I'll wait for your call beautiful"
And with that she pulled away, not without a quick peck to the side of my lips though. Still slightly taken aback and not knowing whether to be pissed or not, I just nodded her way before leaving Yuri's apartment.
As I phoned up a taxi service while waiting outside, I couldn't help wondering if I'd done good here or whether letting Bora back into my life was a bad idea. And also...how Taeyeon would react to all of this when I told her tomorrow.
It was already 1am and I still hadn't found the courage to go inside her room. All I had to do was ask her to trust me and ask about her sending off a request form to have her case re-opened. Doesn't sound too hard right? But this was Taeyeon we're talking about, the one who would get pissed off if you said the slightest thing wrong and the one I had made happy recently, something I didn't want to mess up.
Right now I had the worst headache ever and I was at the point where I looked like a complete mess: untidy clothing, bags under my eyes...I wasn't the least bit presentable. However, I couldn't control my rising heartbeat as I walked past her door, just for security purposes y'know.
To make things a little safer for me, I patrolled the area and peeked into each of the inmates' respective rooms. Most of them were asleep after lights out but I could hear some still chatting in some of the double cells. That wasn't something I could punish them for so carried on my way, mostly looking out for another CO that could possibly hinder my desire to enter her room. A quick look at the schedule and I was relieved to see that I was the only one working in this section of the hall. Feeling my adrenaline pumping, something I feel quite often now with Taeyeon, I performed a final quick sweep before swiftly unlocking and invading the familiar territory.
It was pitch dark in her room and I couldn't hear anything, no indication that she was awake or sleeping. Not wanting to wake her just yet if she was sleeping, I tiptoed over to the direction of her bed but then proceeded to trip over something lying around on the floor.
"Crap" I muttered under my breath and finally figured that my flashlight would perhaps come in handy here. Stupid...
I fiddled with it for a while as it wouldn't turn on and I was getting a little annoyed, from that and the fact that I wanted nothing more than to sleep at that point. Even Taeyeon, the one I lov-liked...the one I liked was second in my mind at the moment.
Thankfully I finally managed to get the flashlight to work and pointed it at the ground as I made my way over to her bed. Thanks to the strong shine of the torch, I could see she was lying in her bed and facing me with a subtle smirk on her face; awake.
"Hi Taeyeon" I smiled, feeling instantly awake as soon as her expressive eyes locked onto mine. She was the source of much of my energy it seemed. She didn't reply, just yawned in my direction. "Sorry" I chuckled quietly, apologizing for my late night visit. "Did I wake you?"
"Yes" she replied with another yawn. I apologized again but she merely waved it off as I approached. "Why the late night visit?"
I smiled as she sat up to make space for me beside her, even the simple things she does makes my heart flutter and made me feel like I was sixteen years old again; a lovesick teenager. As I averted my gaze, I lowered the intensity of the flashlight and positioned it on her bed in a way that we could still see each other yet stayed enveloped in darkness. I liked that effect because I couldn't see the walls that imprisoned her in this room, if I used my imagination I could see us in the normal world. Just her and me...sitting back in bed and talking as if we didn't have a care in the world. Nothing could be better than that right now.
I got the feeling that although it was silent, she was maybe sort of happy to see me. She would never say that out loud of course, she was too proud to do something like that but it was how I felt due to her aura. She was pleasant to be around which in turn gave me the perfect moment to tell her what I had been up to.
Before that though...I had an itching desire to do something. I wasn't sure how she would react since it would be sort of sudden so I figured I'd get it over with and pray that she would take it well. I slowly leaned in, my eyes flickering from hers to her lips and smiled as I got closer, liking the fact that she wasn't pulling away. I then placed a soft kiss on her lips, it was short but enough to satiate that hunger for her that I felt, albeit for a little while.
Taeyeon didn't show any reaction other than looking at my lips so I took this chance to finally answer her question that she had probably forgotten about by now. "I just wanted to see you" I shrugged, a small smirk growing on my face as she raised an eyebrow. "Is that against the law?"
"No" she answered, her voice hushed yet it echoed in my ears, followed by something that caused me to shiver in excitement. "But this might be..."
Taeyeon proceeded to rest her hand on the back of my neck and then she pulled me roughly into her, our lips colliding with force yet all I felt was the softness of her caresses as her hand moved from my neck and cupped the side of my face, her thumb moving back and forth along my cheekbone. To say it was bliss was an understatement, every time she touched me let alone kissed me was the best feeling and to have her initiate it was something else.
I was getting carried away, I knew it when I felt my hand travel down her back and boldly cup her ass. Taeyeon too wanted to take it further, her hands were busy trying to unbutton my trousers and although I would love nothing more than to make love with her now...I was there for a reason. Telling my brain that however, was a different story.
My mouth parted as I attempted to tell her to stop but as soon as I took a breath, her lips connected with mine again in a no doubt effort to tell me to keep going, or to shut up. Her tongue slid against mine and I moaned into her mouth, thankful that I could hear that it wasn't only us that were getting intimate. The couple a few doors down were actually very loud and drowned out any slight noise that I made. How much I wanted to take that for granted but again, I needed to get my thoughts straight. When I heard Taeyeon let out an amused hum against my lips in reply to that awful moan that had escaped from mine, It helped me to separate from her, pulling away in embarrassment.
"Something wrong officer?" She shot a smug look my way, probably revelling in the fact my breathing was heavy and shaky. She knew I wanted her, and she loved it. Who wouldn't?
"I uh...wow." Good job there Tiff, way to sound the least bit intellectual. I was putty in her hands, she could do with me what she wanted.
"So Hwang is both horny and corny… Nice mixture you've got there."
I giggled, a nervous habit I'd since picked up recently while she stayed silent, though that smirk that I actually missed due to seeing Bora's most the night yesterday was still plastered on her perfect face.
"I wanted to ask you some-" the rest of the word died off when she leaned in a little too close, her eyes staking into mine, flicking between each one while I stared at her lips. To make it extra painful for me, she gave a slight smile showing off her teeth and then proceeded to lick her lips. It was almost too much to bear, however the thought that we could be doing this in my bedroom rather than a jail cell was helping me to stay strong.
"Something..." I repeated, eager to just come out with it.
Taeyeon hummed, her way of telling me to continue while she ran her thumb over my bottom lip which in turn emitted shivers that ran down the whole length of my spine and back up again.
"H-have you ever considered...you know..." I paused, this was a bigger deal that I'd first thought. I mean, every sensible person would jump at the chance of reopening their case but Taeyeon was so...mysterious that I had no idea how she would react. "Have you...ever wanted to re-open your case?"
There, I said it. I would say I was relieved but Taeyeon's lack of a smile didn't allow me that satisfaction. The silence that ensued was literally killing me, a minute had since passed without a word, she was just staring emptily into my eyes.
"I've thought about it once or twice." She shrugged like it was nothing, finally speaking but it wasn't really what I'd hoped. I tried to press on though...
"Once or twice...then why didn't you pursue it?" I asked.
"Believe it or not, living through what happened was enough pain for a lifetime. Then I had to tell you but then having to tell it a third time was just too...I don't enjoy depression Tiffany, I really don't."
"No I know I'm sorry" I immediately felt regretful for bringing it up because when she sighed and walked away from the bed...I feared I'd blew it. "It's not easy I understand. But you know, that we could possibly get you out of here, at least lighten your sentence anyway." A small smile grew on my face as she thought with furrowed brows, that smile disappeared soon after when she asked...
"Who's we?" She said, turning to face me now.
"Uh...you and me?" I answered with a nervous chuckle while she narrowed her eyes in suspicion.
"What are you hiding?"
"Okay, um..so...uh. I may have...found you a lawyer."
There, I said it. It was out in the air and if she were to yell at me now then at least I'd said it, at least she'd have something to think about when I was ordered to leave.
"What?" She whispered as if we were talking about something top secret, which I guess we were... Taeyeon stormed up to me and I thought for a moment she was going to hit me but she instead simply crouched down in front of me and ran a hand through her hair.
I groaned suddenly when a pain shot through my head, the migraine returning even worse than before. She lifted her eyebrows as if to ask what was up but I ignored it, instead sucking in air through my teeth and continuing our conversation.
"I have a really good lawyer, it's a...friend of mine because I really don't want you to have to spend more time in here than you already have"
Taeyeon frowned before placing her palm on my forehead, checking to see wether I was alright. I must have looked a little pale or something but she actually made me feel worse, her caring side revealing itself making me fall even deeper for her. I took that hand in an attempt to calm my beating heart and held it tightly in mine, silently telling her I was fine.
"I just...really want to help you. I can't help it. When I'm at home all I can think about is you in this cold and dreary cell and it kills me, it really does." I lowered my eyeline before I revealed something.
"I want to make you as happy as you make me...even if you don't-" I stopped when she pulled her hand from my grasp and stood up, looking down on me in curiosity. All I could feel though was the emptiness I felt once she did that.
"If I don't what?"
"Even if you don't… feel the same." My body moved of its own accord, getting away from her in fear of rejection. Her silence was painful in itself, to imagine her refusing my attempts would be so much worse. I walked over to the door, tracing the dents in the metal with my nails.
My ears were open, hoping for an answer or at least something but there was nothing, not even a whisper. I was instead listening to the couple who were still going at it a few doors down. I should really put a stop to it...
As soon as I figured that this conversation was a lost cause, I threw a glance over my shoulder but didn't actually meet her eyes before going to open the door but then...
"Wait"
That word that had stopped me in my tracks all those months ago was now just painful to hear. It must be hard her too though, it must be because if she did this she would no doubt get her hopes up, and if the case were to fall through even if we could re-open it...It would be gutting for her. To have freedom right in front of her but then to be pulled away from it, locked back into her cage for years to come.
But what if she was released, I've been dreaming of that day...how she would move in with me and we'd be a happy little family but I hadn't actually thought about if she would instead do the opposite. What if she were to thank me...and then walk away. What if Yuri was right, what if she was just using me to have some fun in her no doubt boring life. I had always dismissed that thought but maybe it was something that I really did have to think about. The silence was now deafening and I felt my vision blur as another pain shot through my head. Again I went to open the door, but a hand shot out and grabbed my own, pulling me around to face her.
"Wait"
I stayed in silence as she breathed in deeply, her eyes trailing around my face and studying my scraggly appearance. To be honest I couldn't care less at this moment, just being here with her was painful and put that pain on top of the migraine I had, the ache of my bones from staying on my feet for hours on end...
"I want to re-open the case."
That was all it took. I looked up in confusion at that point, asking myself whether I had heard her wrong even though she was right there, even though it was silent until she had spoken. Maybe I was slightly in shock that she'd agree so easily, that even though she knew she'd have to relive that moment that she had feared for so long...she would. I'd like to think it was for me, because she knew how much I wanted her to be released but maybe that was just wishful thinking. She wanted it for herself and I guess that's okay too.
"Thank you, Tiffany"
I actually smiled at that, I couldn't remember the last time she actually said my name. Maybe it was only a few days ago, I don't know but I was used to her calling me 'Hwang' or 'Officer'. Hearing her say my name was a refreshing change and of course, my heart skipped a beat at her using it with gratitude.
"We need to look into it a bit more, but from what I've been told it's entirely possible." I said, entwining my fingers with hers. I wanted to stay and talk to her all night long, but with me on the verge of tears due to being in pain and the loud moaning that was getting louder if that was even possible...I had to go. Taeyeon realized it too and shot a dimpled smile my way before retreating to her bed.
"Go tell them if they don't let me sleep I'll kick their ass."
I smiled wider at her words and turned to face the door again to leave, but not before taking one last look at the girl who had come into my life and pretty much ruined it...but she had ruined it in the best way imaginable. I would still be the old homophobic bitch that most probably wouldn't have a best friend in Yuri because I would've chase her away with my hurtful words. She changed me for the better, and I'll never forget that...even though she makes it hard to even stay in the same room as her without melting.
"Goodnight Taeyeon" I noddedand then left her room, locking it behind me. As I walked down the corridor I chuckled at her previous words before banging on the door of the two women that were having too much fun, I then opened it slightly to give a warning.
"You'd better stop girls, you don't know how many people you are pissing off with your noise. Don't make me write you both a shot."
I heard a muffled 'shit' coming from each of them along with rushing movements to get dressed and jump into their own beds while I grinned and re-locked their door.
I became distracted for five minutes while checking my phone during my break. I had to stay awake...though with my head that pleaded for me to rest it and my drooping eyelids that too wanted relief, I found it extremely difficult. A quick glance to the clock showed it was now 4 am and I groaned since all I could do was listen to the eerie silence that surrounded me. I'm sure a lot of the girls snore but thanks to those doors, not a peep was heard.
Thinking I'd become suicidal if I didn't do anything soon, I took out my phone and began to fiddle with it, deciding to check out my Facebook account and even looked on Taeyeon's, just to see that cute little face again. When I was tired of doing that, I listened to some music but quickly become bored of that too. With a yawn and a sigh, I grabbed a flask filled with coffee, something that helps me to keep awake; just. It was so boring, I hate night shifts they are literally the worst thing on earth. I'd rather work for two weeks straight with no day off than have a night shift, I'm being completely serious.
Despite my boredom with my phone, I continued exploring it since it was relatively new. I came across some games that provided mental stimulation for all of two minutes and then discovered I still hadn't set up my gmail account so I'd get emails to my phone. That kept me busy for a while but typing in all my details while I was tired took longer than expected. Finally I opened it up after I'd completed it...and a loud beep gave me a fright.
"Shit, why isn't this on silent" I mumbled to myself, quickly doing just that. When I searched for the reason for the beep, I found I had quite a lot of unopened emails. "Spam...spam...spam..." Who invented spam I mean for goodness sake, there is literally no use for it.
As I searched through the endless amount of junk mail, I saw one that was most certainly not spam. I sat up almost immediately, my eyes opening wide.
I had received it yesterday afternoon...it was an offer; a job offer.
I was being offered a promotion in a much larger prison than this one with a much better salary. It was for a 'Sergeant' position, this was one level above a correctional officer and my duties would included training new CO's amongst other things...a job I had really wanted to have previously and with that salary I could buy myself a house, I could move out of that measly apartment and actually own house, a dream of mine.
I literally could not believe my luck like oh my fucking god! I immediately clicked the link which took me to the website and I searched, finding myself smiling at how much better the facilities were, how much bigger it was... I flicked through the photos and saw some of the CO's there that I'd be working with, all of them with smiles on their faces and they were smiles you couldn't fake. These people loved their jobs...and here I was wishing I could leave. This was my opportunity to finally...!
My smile faltered immediately when I clicked on the tab I had opened previously, the eyes on her profile picture looking straight into my soul; Taeyeon.
My heart dropped when I thought of how I'd be leaving her behind, how she would be alone and how much she'd hate me for it...
I alternated between the two tabs, Taeyeon or the job. I knew I couldn't have both but what the hell am I supposed to do now? Leave the job I don't enjoy and begin one that I'd dreamed of having ever since I began training to be a correctional officer years ago...which also meant leaving the girl I had since fallen in love with?
If I took that job...I wouldn't be able to see her. I sure as hell wouldn't be able to visit her, it would of course look suspicious and I'm sure it wouldn't even be allowed. But, if Ididn't take it, I'd be missing out on a great opportunity that I might not have again. I mean come on, I could live with so much more freedom in reference to money.
This was literally the worst thing that could have happened...and it was breaking me. I had to choose between my head and my heart...the only thing was my heart belonged to her, yet I wasn't entirely sure that hers belonged to me.
I just…
What do I do now?