Kim Taeyeon

I was pacing around my office like a mad man. What was I supposed to do after I just brought home a girl that was attacked and coincidently it was the same girl that I was eyeing up all day two nights ago. Seeing her like that just made me want to kill every single person that looks her way. I felt like I was obligated to protect her.

When I dropped her off, I went straight to work which was a terrible mistake. I couldn't focus at all. My mind was shifted to her, every single thing reminded me of her. The details from her fringe covering her eyes as she slept and the little red scar on her face. Or the way she clenched my handkerchief when she asked me to bring her to the shower. Down to the bruises from her shoulder to her rib cage.

It clouded my mind and there was no way I could focus at all. The thing that I really couldn't stop thinking about was the kiss we shared. God damn, I kept feeling my lips missing hers on mine. I wish it lasted longer, I wish I could kiss her like that everyday. I asked to see her again which really surprised myself because I've never asked to see someone twice.

My hand just itched to text her but I didn't want to come off as creepy or possessive. But fuck, that moment when I cupped her cheeks and she pulled away and looked to the side awkwardly made me want to mentally slap and kick myself in the groin. That was literally crossing the line and she flinched at my touch.

I waited 7 hours. 7 whole agonizing hours planning my moves carefully. I felt like I was strategically coming up with intelligent moves that could be in my favour, but really this was all for a girl. For Stephanie.

I feel so stupid. But I gave up when I didn't even see a text from her all day despite staring at the small screen for hours.

Ah fuck it, what do I have to lose except my dignity. It's not like anyone would know.

Taengo: Hey, how are you? Feeling any better? [

I placed my phone down but the incoming message and ringtone made me pick it up fast.

Stephanie: I think I'm better now. I think. :s I mean, I can't be too sure because I'm having trouble reaching for the cup of instant noodles in my cupboard but other than that I think I'm holding up just fine.

Taengo: Uh. Do you need help? ] I'm 6'4 and you're about as tall as an Oompa Loompa, hehe.

Stephanie: oh, shut up. I'm like average height, k? k.

Taengo: You can say that when you reach the ramen in your cupboards babycakes. ]

Stephanie: Of all names. Of all names, babycakes? ._.

I think I spent an hour texting back and forth with Stephanie. The texting rules about waiting at least a minute or two before replying flew out the window. I had no shame, I even double texted that's how much I really like her.

I guess you can call our texts cute. But I wanted to know her better. Playing 20 questions while a little tipsy at a boring dinner party is not the best way of getting to know someone. But hey, it's something. I wanted to know her better, as in be besties with her.

Let's be real though, a part of me really wanted her to be mine.

The moment she started to tear up on my couch, made me realize that I don't have all the time in the world to be with her. Her eyes went hazy, glossy, and so broken. A million things ran through her mind I saw it in her eyes. I felt her sadness too, although I don't feel what she felt that very day, I wanted to law it better for her, to be there as a support.

I don't know why but she's like a magnetic force that keeps me pulled back. That same force pushed me back into that treacherous night I had to spend looking at her so upset and se looked like she was barely hanging on by a thread; looked like she was crumbling within my gaze.

This was on my mind every text I sent her and the hours I spent in my office. It made my day slower, it made time go by like a damn snail. When our conversation died, I went back to work. I lied. I didn't go back to work. I sat there rereading our texts and smiling at them.

"What are you smiling at? Shouldn't you be working?" Sam peeps up as she's handing me a pile of contracts.

"Shouldn't you be minding your own business? I'm your boss you can't ask me that." I shoo her away and she cocks her brow and snickers at me.

"Taeng's got a crush." She taunts me with a sing song voice.

"Excuse you! I'll fire you!" I gasped and threw a crumpled up sticky note at her.

"You wouldn't boss man. I'm the best you've ever had and I'm practically the older sister you've never had." She sticks her tongue out at me and throws the ball of paper back at me.

"So I was right? You have a crush. How long are you going to like her before you throw her away like the models and one night stands you've had?"

I sigh and place my phone on the table.

She gasps and sits down on the chair across from me.

"Wait no, Taeyeon can't smile at a text and have a slight glint in his dull eyes. She's the one isn't she? Oh my god. You're finally going to settle down and have kids? Get married? Start a family?" She starts squealing in the chair and I swear sometimes I want to smack her.

"Go away."

"As you wish boss, but I want all the details later!" She practically skips out of my office and closes the door behind her.

I felt like banging my head on the desk a million times. She was right though. I'd call it a crush but I'm no longer a hormonal teenager, I'm 28. A full grown 28 year old man who feels like there's butterfly in his stomach and gets giddy even at a text from his 'crush' Stephanie.

Taengo: Can't watch the game tonight, something came up.

Kris: fucking liar, no one skips the first game of the playoffs. you got a girl don't you?

Taengo: lol no.

Kris: lie again you little punk. Taeng's got a girlfriendddddddddddddddd.

Tanego: k. I'll see you later or somethin .. pce pce.

I was staring at our organizations statistics till my phone lit up with a notification.

Stephanie: boop.

Damn it Steph. You're too cute. I wanna be your fucking best friend.

Taengo: You're still up? Go to sleep since you need the energy to wreck havoc and cause chaos with your little self.

Stephanie: I can't sleep :c I'm kind of binge watching The Bachelor. I am shameless. 33

Taengo: Ew. That's such a stupid show. I hate it. I don't understand how you can fall in love with someone during the span of the show and ask them to marry you. Plus, there's like 20 girls there. How are they supposed to know one of them is going to be that 'one'.

See, I lied to myself again. I fell in love with her in 3 seconds and I swear on my mothers grave that I'm not kidding. Is this even possible? I gotta have a scientist back this up but I swear I am living proof that this exits and she is living proof that she is the reason why I think I want to marry her despite knowing her for 3 days.

Stephanie: Wow, didn't expect you to be anti-bachelor. Aren't you one yourself?

Taengo: : ...

Stephanie: LOL. Sorry if I pushed a button.

Taengo: Go on a date with me.

Please say yes, for the love of God and my sanity please say yes.

Stephanie: Um.

Taengo: It'll be fun? They'll be snacks. Please come, I hate working and I'd go crazy staring at a screen for hours.

Stephanie: What kind of snacks? :o

Taengo: Good snacks.

Stephanie: I'll only come if there are dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets.

Taengo: Deal. I'll pick you up at 7 PM tomorrow. See you then bestie. xoxoxoxoxo

Stephanie: 'bestie' okay, see you then Mr. K. Xx

She sent this really cute bear sticker of it waving goodbye.

Taengo: gotta admit, that bear is almost as cute as me.

Stephanie: yeah, that's why I sent it :s

Taengo: . . .

Wait, what?! Did she just. . . Did she just flirt back?!

I high fived myself. Guess who scored a date with Stephanie? I did. I fucking did. Low key though, I don't think she thinks it's a date but we'll call it a date for my sake.

I went straight to the grocery store and bought a package of dinosaur chicken nuggets. Who knew they actually carried these in stores, hell I thought I had to make these by hand. I went home after my little pit stop and literally I went on the Internet and looked up 'How to Impress Your Date.' I've never actually went on a proper date; if this was even ever a real date. I've never had a girlfriend either. A real one. One night stands were my thing but not anymore.

I'm never going to let this slip from me. I will forever be embarrassed from this Google search I did.

Morning came real fast and I scrambled to get out bed. I showered real nice, busted out one of the finest shampoo, and body wash I could possibly buy with the bank account the size of Nicki Minajs ass.

I brushed my teeth twice, flossed it, I also made sure I even swished it with mouth wash. I shaved my stubble off to a clean bare face and I look 5 years younger. Fuck I look like a baby, but no matter within a few hours I'll grow a 5 o'clock back.

I ran into my closet and through my plethora of suits, I had the most trouble choosing my outfit. From colours to ties, to cuff links and shoes I seriously felt incredibly stupid that I even had to think about what I was going to do, to what I was going to wear.

I took a look at myself in the mirror, not once but twice. Yes twice because clearly I don't have my priorities straight and anything I'll say or do is a literal mine trap that's waiting to explode and bite me in the ass for being a complete idiot.

Eh, I combed my hair one last time and buttoned up my shirt and rolled my sleeves up because according to this article I read on '7 Ways To Get Her To Like You' ladies love this shit.

I didn't forget to pop by a floral shop and got her a bouquet of who knows what that was handed to me. Flowers are gross and they smell like fucking Mother Nature on a sunny day out in the Himalayas. I wouldn't know what it would smell like because I've never went, but point is it smells like the earth.

I drove into that neighbourhood I dropped her off a night ago and I see Stephanie kneeling down to a little kid as he wails from a cut on his knee.

I parked my car and grabbed the flowers before taking a deep breath and straightening out the wrinkles on my blue dress shirt and patting my pants down. My hand clutched the flowers hard and I felt so nervous. I was like 20 feet away from her and I felt like hiding in the bush beside me.

She looked so adorable, her little white dress and silky hair that I want to run my hands in over and over again. It wasn't fair that the little guy had her undivided attention, that should be me. He kept crying like it was the end of the world. Stephanie was all smiles though, she placed a little green bandaid on his knee and kissed it before sending him off. I'm literally jealous of a 5 year old kids knee.

When a knee gets more action than you do.

I didn't realize what had happened till my head stared to ache and my face also started to throb. The last thing I saw before looking to the ground as I paw my face was Stephanie shocked expression.

"Oh my god, you ran into a pole Tae. Are you okay?" She immediately strolls towards me and puts her hands on my face and tilts my head upwards.

I swear her touches I felt like had some magical wizard healing shit in them because I didn't feel any of the pain as soon as her finger tips grazed my face.

"Uh. Um." I was a fucking blabbering mess. The pain and her beauty mixed up like a cocktail and I was forced to down it in one shot. I can't even see her properly, she was so blurry but I knew she looked hot as fuck.

My eyes darted everywhere, from her eyes to her mouth and then her soft hands. She caressed my cheek and looked at my head intently with her worrisome eyes and tender gaze. My heart thumped harder and my hands itched to do something.

"Um these are f-for you." I raise the flowers between us with a shaky hand and she looks down immediately and steps back just a little bit. She smiles before taking the flowers in the hand but in the process her hands cupped mine. God damn it I can't stop feeling, I've caught the feels.

"They're so pretty, thank you Taeyeon-ah. That was sweet of you." She starts picking the flowers in the bundle and bringing them to her nose and I could watch her all day.

"Just like you." I blurt out mindlessly with a slight nervous tone in me and when I processed what I had just said, I wish I hit my head a little harder on the pole. Hard enough to knock myself out. Damn it.

She looked taken back at first before her precious eye smiles made an appearance and Jesus Christ her laugh was so cute. It really did sound like music to my ears and I would have it as my ringtone.

"You're really something Tae." I didn't dare to look at her and my gaze was glued to the pavement.

Her hand reached up to cup my jaw and she grazes her thumb over it multiple times. Enough times that it was so soothing like I was able to go to sleep just like that.

"Are you sure you're okay? Your jaw has a red mark on it from the pole."

"Yeah, I'm bueno, good, great, actually superb. Let's never talk about this ever again." I mumble and she giggles. I'd say more stupid shit if I could hear that same laugh one more time.

"How does that even happen? What were you looking at? You need a gps or a pole or something when you walk because clearly you're incapable of being a human." She links her arms with me and I didn't know what to do till she started walking and my feet moved along with her. It's like I also forgot how to walk.

I was looking at you Stephanie. I looked at how gorgeous you look and how I'm going to go on a date with a girl in a white dress for the first time in my life. Well not the first time, but the first time I'll be having a meaningful date that I'll enjoy and want nothing but her company.

"You really like to poke fun at me huh?" I look at her as her head is turned toward the blazing hot sun in the sky. It really gave her face a nice light to look at it and damn it made her look like she was glowing.

"You're a big whiner, it's cute." She says and glances up at me. I got caught staring at her before she smiles and shyly looks away.

I open the door for her and escort her into my car before driving off to the waterfront where my beloved boat was prepped.

"Wow you weren't joking when you said you had a boat. This isn't even a boat it's a yacht." Her eyes gawked when I led her down the sandy cobblestone path to my anchored boat. She hung onto me for dear life as she feared she'd roll down and tumble into the dark endless ocean and die alone. I quote from Stephanie.

I lifted her up the ramp and guided her through the wooden boardwalk and jumped over the railing and into my boat while she opted to go around and be an actual reasonable human being and go through the gate.

"Come here, you're going to be sailing this." Her eyes popped out of its sockets at me and she shook her head cutely as she stood on the front of the boat like a tiny lost person. She played with the ring in her finger continuously and never stopped spinning it.

"I'll guide you, don't worry. If you succeed we'll eat dinosaur chicken nuggets tonight."

"And if I don't?" She whispers and looks at me with an expression that said 'please don't make me do this, anything but that.'

"Then you're scrubbing the deck and feeding me grapes by the vine you poop. Now come here." I wave my hands and then started to do jumping jacks on the deck. She shakes her head and slowly makes her way to me.

She stands in front of me and places her hands on the wheel. Call me cliche but I stood behind her, back hugging her gently as my front side grazed her back ever so slightly.

Fuckity fuck fuck. I swear sometimes my hands like to do things on their own and they did. Without another thought my hands were placed on top of hers, gently gripping her hands underneath the the steering wheel and damn they felt good.

The wind blew her hair back and I had a glimpse of her sweet intoxicating scent. My hands gripped her a little former and her back slowly inched back to mine. My head was raised high but stepped more to the right and angled my head so I could see her face.

She was smiling, and blushing. She looked so shy. So cute as she tried to hide her happy face.

"This is so much fun Taeyeon-ah." She squeals when I grab her hand and steer to the right side. I guess it was fun, only because I was with her.

"Now if you crash into a rock and sink this boat, that's all on you and I'm booking it out of here." I mutter and she turns around me with a cute mischievous smile.

"Don't you dare do this on purpose because I'm not ready to die. Yet." I warn and she giggles before gently slapping my shoulder.

I cracked a smile too. We both stared into the endless ocean but I really wanted to stare into her face. I just know that we both were smiling.

"Damn it, now I have to hire someone to scrub my deck." She scoffs and I let go of my hands off hers, letting her take complete control of the boat.

"So I did good?" She squeals in her spot and let's go out of the wheel and I jumped to the wheel, stumbling to my knees and I look like a rag doll on the floor.

"I got this. Chill Taengo." She says nonchalantly and pokes me with her foot as I lay flat on the floor.

"It's Taeng to you." I mumble against my smooth pearly white deck. I was practically kissing the floor when I should've 'accidentally' fell and kissed her.

"Can I have my dino nuggets now. I mean that's the only reason I came anyways." Ow. That hurt, I didn't expect her to come just because of the nuggets but then again she could be pulling my leg and teasing me. Honestly, she's sending so many mixed signals I'm even doubting myself and my ability to woo a girl.

I laid still on the floor. She tried to drag me up and I let her pull me across the floor as I hung onto her arm like my life depended on it. I groaned for a good minute and I think I should've became an opera singer than a business person.

Her cute laugh was fucking adorable. She gave up with a huff and sat down beside me still smiling at me. I peeped up from the floor and tried to match her smile as she pokes my nose.

"Boop."

Boop. Boop? Are you fucking kidding me, boop. That's it my marrying her.

"I own a fucking boat with luxury seats and here we are as you sit on the floor beside me while I'm sprawled out like a damn jumbo starfish on my deck." She giggles and looks awed as she takes a look around us.

Ocean, water, sunset, trees, trees, driftwood, and water. That's all I saw, but then again girls see everything differently. For example, on the way here Stephanie pointed out that she really liked my fuchsia pen in my cup holder. I told her it was pink, and she gave me a fucking lesson about colour theory and how there's different shades and shit. I didn't complain, I mean I love to listen to her talk and have an excuse to state and drool at her.

"I'm so used to seeing these places on television. It's looks so much better in person." She whispers. I sat up right beside her, my legs outstretched as she continued to stare into the sea.

"Are you okay? From you know last night. You've seen a doctor right?" I said, trying to look at her side profile without being noticeable.

"Yeah." I turned my body around to face her yet she didn't even flinch. She still continued to admire the sea.

"Can I see?" I asked pointing at her torso.

She shook her head.

"Oh okay." Getting rejected sucks ass.

But nonetheless I joined her looking at the sea just because I didn't know what else to say or do.

"They're ugly." She suddenly said. I frowned and turned towards her again.

"What's ugly, the bruises?" She nods.

I sighed and shook my head, a little bit disappointed in her. "You can't expect them to be nice. They're literally broken blood vessels that mark an area of your skin temporairly. If anything, you'll just be a purple cow."

She broke out into a laughter and looked at me.

"I'm just hoping you're okay. I mean I don't expect you to after that incident."

"I'm okay." I cocked a brow at her.

"Really, I'm okay." She said with a small smile. I exhaled and nodded running my hands on the deck.

"You're still pretty." I muttered. Eyeing her from the corner of my eye because I sincerely hope she got that.

I got a small reaction from her as she smiled just a bit. That was a win in my books.

I suddenly got up and pulled her up, interrupting her star gazing. She had a whole rant and a bunch of complaints but I was starving.

"You really did get dino nuggets, you are like my best friend now." She takes a few before stepping outside into the deck to gaze some more and leaving me alone. When I texted her 'bestie xoxoxo' I didn't think it would be taken seriously. I just fucking friend zoned myself.

I stood there sitting on the table as I stare at the empty seat that was supposed to be for Stephanie. I set up a good steak and wine dinner with a side of nuggets.; a classic according to that site but minus the nuggets.

The arms around my waist made me jerk in her hold. I didn't expect her to back hug me but when she did I felt so much more alive, like I had a purpose to live. It's like there was something worth being happy about.

"Can I have dinner with you Taeyeon?" She mumbles as I feel her cutely moving her jaw as she chews. I saw her reflection in the glass pane and she was behind me with her face pressed up against my back looking like a tiny person compared to my height.

"It would be my pleasure. Otherwise I wouldn't have spent time walking into a candle store and spending 20 minutes choosing a god damn scented candle for this occasion." Stephanie released me from her hold and I almost squeaked out a long 'nooo.'

We sat and ate, and conversed like any other normal beings right? Except I have a huge crush on her, k fuck that term. Scratch that, I want her to be mine. Every time she talked I watched her like it was the only thing that mattered; and it was.

"Tae. . ."

"Yeah?" I asked in the middle of chewing my steak.

"Taetae." She said with a playful smile.

I shot her a questioning look.

"I'm going to start callign you Taetae now."

"That's a little embarassing."

"It's cute."

"Psht."

Holy crap, her smooth milky white skin was the best I've ever seen. Her eyes always formed that dreamy crescents that was her most notable feature and best part it, was it was paired with her alluring smile. Jesus Christ when she smiled it was so pretty, it came out so natural. Can I jut say her lips were also very attractive? I wanted to kiss them but I mean it's the first date I don't want to ruin anything.

I love everything about her, from her smile to her laugh, to the little shy blushing face she'd have when I tell her that she was really beautiful like every 5 minutes.

We both sat outside near the desk of the boat with our knees touch and or shoulders grazing each other after our dinner. We were star gazing, but I really wanted to look at her. She kept talking but she was on mute in my mind and I stared at her as her lips moved and I felt the corner of my lips tug to a smile.

I exhaled and let out a quiet burp, trying to preserve my dignity and be a gentleman. I didn't stop myself from patting my enlarged stomach though, the food was good. Heh, only because ti was cooked by yours truly.

"Stop staring at me you creep." She said whole pushing my face away.

"Am not." I retaliated.

"Yes you are."

"Did not and am not." I stick my tongue out at her and she just shakes her head.

She leans on my shoulder and I get a whiff of her floral shampoo and damn it. My body just froze still.

"Thank you for today Tae. It was fun, like really fun. I felt like I knew you for a decade after the dinner today."

"Eh, don't think much of it. I just wanted to get out of the office yenno. You're like the only sane person I know in my pool of people. I guess you're kind of cool."

"Correction, very cool. But seriously. Thank you for all you've done for me. Saving me from the pervert at the ally, patching me up, and checking up on me. Then you bring me out here despite being a busy man? I still don't know how to repay you back." She whispers gently and I slowly inch my arm around her shoulder. I slowly draped my arm around her and I could feel her laugh a little bit.

I felt pretty damn good about myself. Operation: put arm around her; check.

I'd like to think I'm a slick guy, and when my arm successfully landed around her shoulder, boy I am so good.

"You wanna know how to pay me back?"

"How?"

"Go on another date with me." I'm so smooth, hot damn.

She moves closer to me and she's breathing right at my neck. My head was still held high and I made no move to look down at her because if I did I'd lose it.

I felt her lips just graze my neck and her hand was creeping up my body. She smiles against my skin and she cups her hand along my jaw. I felt that small shy smile on my neck, she did that.

Her hand slowly brought me down by the chin to look at her glossy eyes.

I felt so dizzy staring at her. Everything was focused into her and only her. Inch by inch our lips got closer and closer, till it touched and I broke out into a small smile and made the move to pull her closer to me.

She kissed me back and it was that same night that I had brought her home all over again. My hands reached out to her face and pulled her closer, it soon went to the back of her silky hair and I had her locks in between my finger tips as I also felt her skin underneath my palm. I've missed her lips so much, but I've ultimately missed the feeling of her.

Something about her kisses weren't needy, desperate, and one sided. She didn't just use me, and it wasn't a kiss that I knew it wasn't going to be my last I'll ever have again with her. It reassured me that I'll have plenty more with her. With that being said, it made me more giddy than I ever was.

"I'll go on another date with you, only if relax and exhale." She giggles and rests her head on my shoulder again.

I returned her back home despite myself not wanting to go. But I must not be greedy I told myself, gotta share her with her little puppers.

I smile small and breathe out. My shoulder started to relax and return to its normal non tensed state. I wanted to kick myself in many painful places. Never in my life have I ever been so embarrassed. But I mentally gave myself a pat on the back.

I whipped out my phone and sent her the bear hugging the pig sticker. It was just a little friend hug but my thumb hovered and contemplated whether or not I should've sent the kissing one. Too soon? Probabaly, but I just kissed her though.

Stephanie: cute. goodnight, my little brown bear. Xx

My heart swooned at my nickname. I'm her little bear, her little brown bear.

I felt butterflies having an intense wrestling match in my stomach.

I just had a date with a girl in a cute white dress that was leaning on my shoulder and was so close to me as we both stare into the sky.

Best of all, I'll have a second date with her as well.

Kim Taeyeon, you fucking scored.