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DEAN's POINT OF VIEW:
Ana and I arrived in Jamaica a couple days ago for our week long honeymoon after our wedding next year I plan to take a month to take her to Australia, Italy, Greece, England and France but for now Jamaica will do. It's been great so far the first day we were here we spent the day on the beautiful beach of Jamaica on our own private section of the beach in the backyard of the beach house we have rented and then spent some much needed alone time in our bedroom that we never get when Natalia is home. The next day we went to hike on a mountain. It was one of the most beautiful things we have done. If you could have asked me 11 years ago if I would be hiking a mountain in Jamaica I would have laughed in your face. I never expected to afford a beautiful vacation like this. Yesterday we went to the water falls and went to a bird sanctuary to see the birds and just this morning we went to get our hair braided before we head to my next surprise for Ana. "You look cute with your hair braided," she says with a smile as we walk hand in hand to my surprise.
"Thanks," I say with a smile. "I like your hair too. I can see your beautiful dark eyes better."
"I like seeing your blue eyes without your hair in the way," she says with a smile. "Thank-you for all of this, I'm having the best time."
"You're welcome, Mrs. Ambrose," I say with a smile. "I'm having the best time too," I say before I kiss her lips softly. "You're about to have even more fun," I say with a smile.
"What are we doing?" she asks.
"Oh, I don't know, maybe swimming with dolphins," I say with a smile.
"Are you serious?" she asks.
"Dead serious," I say with a smile as we walk into the building where we'll be swimming with dolphins. Ana has always wanted to do this. It's something she never experienced out of everything she's done she's never gotten to swim with dolphins. I want to make this special for her and give her the chance to do something she has always dreamed of.
"Oh my God!" she screams with excitement. "I love you!" She says before she wraps her arms around me and I wrap my arms around her. She's so cute when she gets excited like this. I have been with her for 11 years and other than going out to the club or the bar with her I have never really seen her let loose and have some fun. She is usually pretty serious. I blame it on the fact she had to grow up quickly to help take care of her brother and sister after her mom left. I have to admit I'm pretty excited to do this too. I never got experience these types of things growing up. I never even left Cincinnati until Ana and I went to Arizona to meet her mom. I had never been to the beach till I was 18 years old. It's a head trip knowing that I have been almost everywhere in the world because of my job.
We meet up with the dolphin instructor and she gives us wetsuits to put on before she escorts us out to the dolphin cove to see the dolphins. She gives us information on the dolphins and then lets us feed them. It is a different experience. I look over at Ana and she's having a blast as they show us how to give the dolphins commands. Ana laughs as the dolphin does what she does. I love to see her let loose and have fun. I love to hear her laugh. I smile as she kisses a dolphin as she pets it. The instructor helps us into the water and allows us to get close and personal with the dolphins. I have never done anything like this. It's so much fun as the dolphin is right there in front of me. I touch it softly as if I am petting it softly. I never thought a dolphin could be so nice until today. The next step on the agenda is swimming with them. It's a rush and it's amazing at the same time as they push you through the water or as you swim alongside it holding onto it. Ana laughs as she does it and I admire her as she instructs it to spin in a circle before she instructs it to jump over us. It's majestic and enjoyable to watch. I watch her with a smile on my face. She's having fun and I like it. I instruct my dolphin to do a few tricks and before I know it our dolphin experience is over too soon but it was one of the best experiences of my life. I had a blast not only with the dolphins but seeing Ana have fun forgetting about all the troubles we have been facing with the fans and between us.
After our adventure with the dolphins we go to get lunch together before we go back to our beach house to get ready to spend the afternoon on the beach alone just the two of us as the beautiful clear blue water crashes down in front of us as we lay down on the beach. "You're really starting to show," I say as I take my hand over her growing stomach. "I like the belly."
"Me too," she says with a smile. "I'm happy that we're finally having a baby again."
"You have no idea," I say as I rub her stomach. "Still think it's a boy?"
"I know it's a boy," she says with a smile. "I can feel it."
"How can you feel it?"
"I don't know. It's hard to explain," she says, "it's just like I know it's a boy. A cute little boy that looks like you and has your cute little dimples."
"I would settle for a little boy that looks like you with those big brown eyes and that beautiful face and your natural olive skin. What names have you been thinking of?" I ask.
"What about Dean for a boy? Are you okay with naming our son Dean?"
"I don't know you don't even like to call me Dean," I say with a smile.
"Does that bother you?"
"Oddly enough I like it when you call me Jon. I don't mind if you do it but if it would be anyone else I probably would have a fit. Just as long as you never call me Jonathan, that I can't handle."
"I would never call you that. It's just everyone in the world knows you as Dean. I want to be the one person that's different that calls you Jon."
"I know," I say with a smile. "As for naming our son Dean if we have one I don't know. I was thinking more along the lines of Oliver what do you think of the name Oliver?"
"I like it," she says with a smile. "Oliver Ambrose it sounds good. I like Oliver."
"Me too," I say with a smile. "Oliver Dean Ambrose how about that?"
"I love it," she says with a smile. "It's cute. What about the name Annika Eve for a girl?"
"Annika Eve Ambrose," I say with a smile as I let it sink in. "I love it. I think it's a beautiful name for a little girl. Is there a ballerina named Annika?"
"Yes," she says with a smile. "I figured since we named Natalia after a ballerina that we would name our next girl after a ballerina too but it's okay because I know the baby is a boy."
"Well, I think Annika Eve is a beautiful name and we'll see about the boy thing. So are you ready to start working for WWE?"
"I guess," she says as she props herself up on her elbows. "I mean I'm nervous. I'm walking in there hated already so it's kind of difficult you know what I mean?"
"No one in WWE hates you, Ana in fact a lot of people are big fans of your work and want to see you do well in WWE and see what all you bring to the table."
"It's not them I'm worried about."
"It's the fans," I say. "You're worried about what the fans will think of you being part of the WWE now. I will admit the fans haven't been entirely fair in this situation and hate you but don't let those fans stop you from doing what you love. You love to write and you love to be creative it's what you do. You're talented and you're amazing at what you do if you weren't you wouldn't have been offered this job. People are going to criticize you. You're married to me. It happens most of them are jealous because you have something you can't have but if you let them dictate your life and let them decide what's best you're the only one losing. They're winning because you're giving them what they want. You have two options here, Ana, you can either stand up and embrace the hate and use it to push yourself to do better or you can let the haters get to you and let them stop you from doing something you love but at the end of the day you're going to be the one that regrets it."
"It's just they aren't even giving me a chance."
"So show them that you are great at what you do. I don't know what you chose to do in WWE but whatever it is you show them that you're not just this woman that some idiot is starting rumors about and that you're not just the mother of my children or my wife. Show them that you have talent and slowly they'll start to like you. I don't know why it matters anyway. You don't know those people. They are just people behind a computer screen why should it matter what they think about you? Shouldn't it matter what you think of yourself. I know you've made mistakes, Ana, hell so have I. We're not perfect and we never pretended to be. If you think one of those people didn't make a mistake in their life you're wrong. I'm sure they've made tons of mistakes. I've made mistakes, Ana, you know that and I know you've made some mistakes but that doesn't mean we love each other any less. I love you because of who you are. I love you because you're beautiful not just outside but on the inside too. You were there for me when no one else was and you gave me a chance when everyone else turned their back on me. You could have been just like everyone else but you weren't because you have a beautiful soul. You're not perfect, but you're perfectly imperfect and that's what I love about you. I don't know how our personal business got out there but do not let those haters get to you. Nothing they could say about you will ever make me love you less. I don't care about their opinions or what they think. I've said it before at the end of the day I'm only out there to please you and Natalia and the baby. I'm not worried about what they think. They are jealous girls that wish they could have what you have. Like I said, Ana, a long time ago when I was in jail they probably would have walked away. I was probably one of the guys they would walk past in the hallway at school and not give me a second look. Haters are going to hate and that's what they do but it's up to you how you let it affect you."
"Jon," she says with a smile. "I love you."
"I love you too," I say with a smile, "all your perfect imperfections and all."
"I am pretty imperfect."
"We all are," I say, "besides the ones that hate you don't know me. You're the only person in this world that knows me. You're the only one with that pleasure."
"I know," she says with a smile. "Remember when we were kids and we talked about waiting to get married?"
"Yeah because true love never dies."
"Yeah," she says with a smile. "It doesn't. I still love you the way I did 11 years ago but I think I fall in love with you more each day. Do you think I will do a really good job in WWE?"
"I think you'll do an amazing job in WWE," I say before I kiss her lips softly. "Are you doing creative?"
"As much as I tried not to be on the creative team something keeps calling me to do it. I just need to make sure you and I are okay with that. I don't want you to be upset if something happens that you don't like as far as your career. That's my biggest fear is that something is going to happen in your career that you're not happy about and then you and I are going to get into a fight."
"Ana, I understand that you have a job to do just like you understand I have a job to do. At the end of the day I know we both love each other and no matter what happens on the business side of our lives our personal lives will remain separate and nothing will ever make me love you less. You know how I feel it's not about having the championship for me. It's about having you as my wife that matters to me. I can be the world's longest reigning WWE champion and have all these accolades in WWE but none of that matters as long as I have my number 1 girls in my life."
"And like always we will always be there for you," she says with a smile. She is absolutely beautiful as she lays beside me in her black bikini exposing her growing baby bump and her perfectly tanned body. Her long dark brown hair braided into cornrows with beads at the end of them. Her dark brown eyes covered with her sunglasses. She's never looked more beautiful than she does in this moment. "I really had fun with the dolphins today."
"I know," I say with a smile. "I loved to see you so happy and having fun. You don't do that much."
"I know I need to work on that."
"Yes you do," I say, "you don't have to be serious all the time. I like to have fun with you. Remember the days of going to the arcade?"
"Yeah," she says with a smile. "Good times. That's one of the first places we ever went."
"It was and back then if you could have asked me if I would be married to you I probably would have laughed. I never thought I would get so lucky in my life to be married to someone so beautiful and smart. My life with you means everything to me," I say as I cuddle up next to her on the beach. "I wouldn't trade it for anything."
"Me either," she says with a soft smile. "I think we should do our own vows for the wedding."
"You want to write our own vows?" I ask. "I'm not a writer, Ana. I'm not good at writing."
"You don't have to be good at writing, you just have to write what's coming from your heart. You don't have to be a famous author in the world to write down how you feel about someone. I did it quite often in high school. I wrote about how much I loved you and how much you meant to me. How much different you were than Shawn. You were my first experience at sex and even though it didn't turn out like we wanted it too that's the night that shaped our future and the rest of our lives. I wouldn't change that night for anything. If that night didn't happen we wouldn't have Natalia."
"I'm just not good at expressing my emotions," I say, "I know how I feel about you and how much I love you but I don't know how well I'll do at expressing that to you if we do our own vows. And you wrote about me?"
"All the time," she says with a smile. "You were everything to me back then, you're still everything to me now. You're the father of my children, you're the love of my life and you're my husband. You're the sexiest husband alive but inside you're just as sexy and beautiful as you are on the outside. I'm glad you let me see your soul and that you trust me enough to let me know you the way I do."
"You're my everything too," I say with a smile before I kiss her lips softly. "I'll try out this vow thing but I can't promise I'll be good at it."
"And you don't have to be," she says, "I know how much you love me. I just want us to make our own promises to each other and make our own commitment and not let a priest do it for us."
"I know what you mean," I say with a smile. "You make me happy, Ana."
"You make me happy too," she says with a smile. "I'm one of the happiest women on this Earth because of you. My mom said something to me when she was in Connecticut with us. She made the comment if I love you enough and asked if I loved you enough. I didn't get it but I do now I love you more than enough. I love you like a fat kid loves cake, the way peanut butter loves jelly, the way mac loves cheese, I love you with every single beat of my heart and I love you like there's no tomorrow there is never enough when it comes to love. You love someone with your entire being, you love them till you can't love them anymore and you love them for an eternity. I'll never be able to love you enough because you can't put a measurement on how much you love the one that means the world to you. I love you so much, Jon and I know I'll never stop. I want to grow old with you. I want to die with you when we get older. I want to have babies with you and continue living out our dreams together. I never want to live my life without you. There is no such thing as loving someone enough, it's either you love them whole-heartedly or you don't love them at all. There is no such thing as enough. I love you, Baby."
I smile at her and kiss her lips softly. Those were the most beautiful words anyone has ever spoken to me. We've had our ups and our downs. We've had our good and our bad times but through it all our love has come out stronger. There is no such thing as loving someone enough you either love them or you don't. Love is about never wanting to be away from that person, when they're away you find a piece of you is missing, you know them inside and out, you have accepted their imperfections and their flaws but your love has never wavered. True love never dies. It will last a lifetime. Many people say when you find true love at 17 it doesn't last but 11 years later here we are still in love and going strong even after everything we've been through. Her beautiful imperfections are the reasons I love her so much. She's my world, she's my everything and nothing no fan, no job, nothing will ever change that.
In a couple days our trip ends way too fast and we are on our plane back to Connecticut. This has been one of the best weeks of my life with Ana. Just spending time alone with her and reconnecting with her after everything we've been through has been needed. I have fallen in love with her all over again. I got to see her laugh and have fun which is what I wanted to do. I got to listen to her declare her love to me once again as I did my best to declare my love to her. She's everything that I have ever wanted in life and I will never wish for anything different. Our lives have been crazy but at the end of it all there is no love stronger than the one we share together. We've come so far together and yet we still have a long way to go. Our journey isn't over yet but I'm looking forward to the rest of my life with her.
*A/N: What do you think of their trip to Jamaica? Do you think it is what they needed to reconnect and let go of all their stressors? What do you think of the baby names they have picked out for the baby? Do you like them? What did you think of Dean telling Ana not to let the fans get to her? Is he right? What do you think about Ana doing creative? Do you think they can keep their private lives separate from their business lives? What do you think of them stating their own vows do you think Dean will be able to do it? And what do you think of Ana and Dean declaring their love for one another again? Did they need to hear it? Please review and thank-you for reading.