Bella woke the next day gasping for air. She had another one of her weird dreams. This one was very peculiar. Bill was in it. There was only flashes that weren't very telling.
Sookie with fangs... Bella lying, bloodied and broken... Godric drenched head to toe in blood, a heart in his hands... Bella licking blood from a wrist... Bill standing and blankly watching Eric being dragged away, chained in silver...
She frowned. This dream didn't tell her anything except that she was in deep shit. Something bad was coming and she had no idea what. Bella had gotten home just after dawn last night. She timed it perfectly as she did not want to have to deal with Bill and Sookie. Thankfully, Sookie was no where to be seen and Bella concluded that either she had fell asleep or slept over at Bills. Unfortunately, she would have to deal with her today. Hopefully they could smooth out the rough patches of their relationship. Things have been rocky between them since she arrived. She missed how close her and Sookie used to be. She would need to warn Sookie about her dream. If it was right she would be a vampire soon! God, how was she going to tell her that? With that thought, Bella sighed and hopped out of bed, deciding it was best if she wrote down her 'vision' so she could remember it. She would need to go to Fangtasia tonight and talk to the vampires about this. It was bad.
Fifteen minutes later, Bella had written every single detail she could remember, down to the clothes that everyone was wearing. Bella decided it was high time to get ready, so she went for a quick shower. After getting dressed and fixing her hair, she sighed. She knew that she had to bite the bullet of Sookie Stackhouse. She couldn't be that mad at Bella, could she? Bella should be mad at her and Bill for behaving like that! Bella sighed, knowing it was no use. She just hoped that she could smooth things over with her cousin.
Bella hesitantly stepped out of her room and walked into the kitchen. No Sookie. Good. No Gran either. Bella shrugged and made herself some cereal for breakfast. As she ate her breakfast, she began pondering the difficult conversation she was to have with Sookie.
Bella heard a car come up the drive. She peeked out the kitchen window. It was Sookie's little yellow death trap. She saw gran exit the car, making her way towards the door with a bag, whilst Sookie started lifting more grocery bags out of her car.
"Hey gran! How are you this morning?" She grinned at the grandmother as she entered the kitchen. Adele smiled at her grandchild lovingly and replied as she began putting items away in the cupboards.
"I am fine, How are you my dear?" She asked lightly. Bella replied with a 'fine' but became quiet as she heard Sookie enter the house.
Bella watched her cousin enter the kitchen, not looking at her once and putting all the shopping away. Bella sat sweating, is Sookie about to scream at her? What is she doing? Perhaps she's not mad anymore? Of course she's mad! It's Sookie! Bella watched Sookie nervously, waiting for the bomb to go off. Eventually, Sookie finished and turned to Adele,
"Well, gran, I'm off to do some sunbathing. Holler, if you need anythin'" Sookie announced casually then exited the room. Bella sat in shock. What was Sookie playing at? Bella eyed her grandmother warily, she looked confused also. Sookie was not the passive aggressive type.
Bella decided to just get it over with. She ran to her room and changed into some sunbathing appropriate clothes and headed out to talk to Sookie. She saw her laying on a lawn chair in a yellow bikini.
She sat down on the chair next to her and began.
"Hey Sook..." She said awkwardly. She waited nervously for Sookie to answer, biting her lip. The sun was beating down hard today. She would need to put some lotion on.
"What d'ya want Bella?" Sookie's exasperated voice said abruptly. Bella took a deep breathe, she had to err on the side of caution.
"Uh, just to talk. Mainly about last night" She began. She heard Sookie huff but she still wouldn't look at her.
"Oh so now you wanna talk? Well its too late for that, Bella. Me and Bill needed to speak to you last night and you ditched us! Family does not do that to each other. I don't even know who you are anymore, Bella. Bill was right about you" Sookie spat.
Bella gaped at her cousin. What! Sookie was furious with her? She didn't understand. What is this about Bill? She was busy last night? She didn't ditch her! What was going on here?
"Sookie, I didn't ditch you, I was busy! I didn't realize it was this important, I just thought it was Bill trying to boss me around agai-"
Sookie finally turned around, removed her sunglasses and glared at her, "Stop right there missy! All Bill's been doing since you arrived is try to help you, you ungrateful brat. I should have known after the way you were acting with Eric. Your just like him. I don't want nothin' to do with you, Bella. Your not the person I grew up with, so just stay the hell away from me" Sookie ended her rant calmly and lay back down, put her sunglasses on and ignored her.
Bella was shocked to say the least. She couldn't comprehend what had happened, 'the way I am with Eric?' I thought they had cleared that up in Dallas. Sookie was washing her hands of Bella?
"Sookie?" Bella said in a broken voice. She got no reply.
"Sook... I'm... I'm sorry. I didn't mean anything by it, I was just busy. I don't understand why your so mad at me. Your family Sookie, please don't do this" Again with silence.
Tears began streaming down Bella's cheeks. Sookie had been her best friend, accepted her not matter what and now... well now she was all alone. Except for gran. Thankfully she had her gran. She had no idea what she would do without her.
"Okay Sookie. Ill leave you alone for now and we can talk about this once you've calmed down" Bella sniffed and walked away dejectedly. She walked into the farmhouse, past her sympathetic looking gran and went straight to her bedroom.
She lay on her bed crying. She needed to warn her cousin about her dream but how? Sookie was being completely unreasonable. Bella's tears began to subside as she remembered Sookie's words, Bill was right about you. Slowly, things started to stitch together in her mind. Bella fumed. This was his fault! He was turning Sookie against her! Why on earth was he doing that?! It made absolutely no sense. She knew he was a sneaky little creep! Bella remembered what her great-grandfather had said, that their blood can manipulate. This must be what was happening. She definitely needed to go to Fangtasia now.
The more Bella thought about it, the more confused she became. It didn't make any sense. Why was Bill manipulating Sookie? Why was he turning her against Bella? What did he have against her? More and more questions piled up in Bella's mind.
Bella's stomach rumbled. She checked the time on her phone. It was a little past one in the afternoon. She had been laying in bed for a while. She had a long time until she could go to Fangtasia to talk about her dreams and share her suspicions about Bill. She sighed and hopped off the bed and made her way to the kitchen to make some lunch.
Bella walked into the kitchen and saw Adele pull a pie out of the oven. It was a peach pie; her favorite. Adele turned around and looked at Bella with love.
"Oh, honey. I'm sorry 'bout Sookie. I don't know what's gotten into that girl. She's as stubborn as a mule. I tell ya, she could make a preacher cuss" Adele shook her head, exasperated.
"It will all blow over soon, don't you worry. Even if I have to beat some sense into her myself" Gran said firmly. This made Bella smile. She had her gran.
"I made you a pie, figured you could use some" She added, making Bella grin. Yes, her gran was amazing.
Godric opened his eyes. He had just awoken from his day rest and was feeling particularly giddy. Things were going splendidly between him and his angel. She seemed to make everything better, she brought color back to his life, brightness where there was only darkness and any other cliché he could think of. She was truly remarkable. He would be keeping her, he had no doubt. For eternity. At this thought, doubt started to fill his mind. He had been planning on turning her at a point – after convincing her of course – but now he wasn't sure what he would do. Bella wasn't completely human. She seemed remarkably powerful. She had the gift of sight and a light that burned vampires to ashes. It was curious that he knew this about her, yet felt no caution in her presence. This was unusual, considering how old he was, Godric was very careful and paranoid when it came to potential danger. It was how he had survived as long as he had. It was like somehow he instinctively she was no threat. Well, the more he thought about it, the less surprised he was. She was his mate.
If Bella had a little witch or demon blood then it would be no issue turning her. Some demon half breeds have been turned – they end up extremely weak vampires but that mattered not as she had protection from him. The rare part supe-humans turn into powerful vampires but most are usually weaker than the average vampire, which is why it is usually full humans that are turned. The issue was how powerful Bella was, if she wasn't fully human or was something he was unaware of, she may be unable to be turned. It is unlikely, the majority of supes can he turned. However, he must find out what she is. He needs to know if he can turn her. Or what will happen to her once she is turned. If she is part sprite or such she would live a longer than average human life. This was still not enough. He needed her for eternity. He would have her for eternity. He would make sure of it.
"Fader, is everything alright? You seem very distracted" He heard his son say. Godric did not hear him rise.
Godric turned and looked at his child on the bed, taking in his large frame.
"No, min son. We have a problem. It has just occurred to me that since we do not know exactly what Bella is, it is too dangerous to turn her" Godric stated, matter-of-factly.
Eric flashed up to sit across from him, eyes boring into Godric's. He stared into his sons panicked blue eyes curiously. Eric was nude but this did not seem to bother either of them.
"What! No! Fader, you must turn her! Yes she is not fully human but she is most certainly part human and all part human hybrids of any race have the potential to turn. You know this. Why have you changed your mind? She is your mate! I do not understand" Eric's desperate voice broke Godric's impatience. Eric's eyes were searching his pleadingly.
"Eric, child, calm yourself. I simply meant I cannot turn her until we find out what she is. It will be too dangerous for her. We need to know how her transformation will affect her and any possible side effects. It is unlikely there will be any of the sort unless she is something extremely rare and not even remotely human but I will not take any risks. We must find out what she is and soon" Godric explained patiently to his child. As he spoke Eric began to calm until he was nodding his head in agreement and looked determined.
"Of course, Godric. I will look into it immediately" Eric said dutifully. Godric smiled. Eric was truly a wonderful progeny.
They discussed Bella's potential heritage whilst getting dressed. They decided the best idea would be to find out more about her abilities from her. Perhaps they were over looking something obvious.
They exited their room and made their way to Eric's study, where they heard Pam waiting to be briefed about her evening with Bella.
A thrill went through Godric as he remembered this. He hadn't mentioned it to Bella last night but it would be a nice surprise for her. He was exited about learning about her true feelings for him.
They entered the study and saw Pam lounging on Eric's couch, flipping through a magazine. Eric waltzed over to his desk, sat down and opened up his laptop. Pam approached him, with a bored look upon her face. She held out her hand expectantly to Eric with a perfectly arched eyebrow.
Eric sighed in defeat pulling his credit cards from his wallet and handing them to his child, "Do not spend too much this time" He warned sternly, knowing that it was futile.
"Of course not" She sweetly replied whilst grinning a shark-like smile back at him.
Godric was amused as he made his way to the couch. His grandchild certainly kept his son on his toes.
Pam turned to Godric, "So what exactly are you wanting me to find out from Bella? It is all rather childish, if you ask me. You should just ask her yourself what she thinks of you or if she wants to fuck you" Pam shrugged.
Eric grinned while Godric looked at her in irritation, "It is good that nobody asked you then" He flashed away and appeared a second later. He handed her seven sheets of paper filled with questions he had complied the other night.
Pam sat down next to Godric examining the list. She eyed him, thinking that maybe vampires could go senile.
"You've got to be kidding me! I can't ask her all this casually. This is a dam inquisition, not a polite conversation between girlfriends" She explained, exasperated.
Godric growled in irritation, "Fine, give me the list and I will shorten it" He announced, snatching the list from her manicured hands and furiously scoring out questions with an intense look upon his face.
Eric cleared his throat to gain his childs attention, "Now, Pam you know that you must teach her the basics about sex" He said.
Pam waved her hand dismissively, "Yes, yes, different positions and the like"
"You misunderstand. Bella is extremely innocent. She just found out the other night that you can kiss with tongues" Pam looked at her maker in astonishment. He chuckled at her face.
"Yes, Pam. That innocent. We need you to teach her of such things without frightening her human sensibilities. Make it seem tempting and interesting to her. Do not inform her of the more exotic and colorful aspects of pleasure. We do not want to scare her off" He instructed his progeny, a smile dancing on his lips. Eric wished that he would be the one to educate her on such matters. It would be extremely amusing and give him material to tease Bella for the rest of eternity. He was sorely tempted to have Pam record it. Unfortunately there was no time for such things. If only he had thought of that sooner.
Pam nodded, "Yes master, of course. Tempt her and make her curious. Find out how if she wants to bone Godric, no problem" She spoke in her usual bored tone.
Just then Godric finished writing a new list. Handing it back to Pam triumphantly, It thankfully only had ten questions on it.
Pam scanned the list nodding, "got it. I will see you both at Fangtasia later with my report" she grinned and flashed away to go collect Bella.
Godric and Eric sat in his home office discussing various area business when Eric felt shock radiating for him child. He wondered at this. Just then his phone began to ring.
"Yes" He answered, knowing it was his progeny.
"It appears that kitten is at Fangtasia, she is waiting there to speak with us presumably" Pam's voice came through the phone. Eric furrowed his brows, why was Bella waiting at Fangtasia, it wasn't due to open for a while.
As Pam said this he noticed Godric's head flash up and stare intensely at his phone. He had gone into protective-mate-mode, which wasn't difficult considering his mate was a weak mostly-human.
"I see. We are on our way" Eric announced then hung up. He needed to leave immediately and not find out more information as he would like to, as he knew his maker would be running off to Fangtasia as soon as possible.
He nodded his head once as his maker and they zoomed out of Eric's home and flew quickly to the bar.
Bella stood at the front door of Fangtasia waiting. She had gotten here earlier in hopes that someone be here and let her in. She was wrong. The rest of her day, Bella sat and worried about Sookie, her dream and Bill possibly controlling her cousin. Something wasn't right, according to her dream all of them were in danger somehow.
She bit her lip nervously, she needed Godric and Eric's help badly. She felt nervous standing in Fangtasia parking lot alone with only the company of various hardcore 'fangbangers' who arrived here before dark.
Bella heard a woosh of air and a gust of air flew her hair in front of her face. She turned around to see Godric and Eric now standing a few feet from her. She sighed in relief and gave them a smile. Godric's eyes scanning her figure furiously, seemingly to assess her somehow. She blushed, what was he doing? Was that his fangs she could see?
Before they could speak to each other, Bella heard a squeal. The humans were exited and gushing about the vampires. One women actually bowed to them, another removed her bra and threw it at Eric... Well... That's odd.
Eric nodded to the back entrance and flashed away. She understood. As Bella rushed off she heard the disgruntled noises the people were making.
She made her way to the back door, through Fangtasia to Eric's office, where she knew they must be waiting. She walked in the office without knocking and made her way to the couch. Eric was sitting behind his desk and she appeared to have interrupted Godric mid pace.
Bella sat the couch, bouncing her foot nervously. She looked at them worriedly. Godric flashed over to her side and took her hand in his gently.
"What is the matter, min ängel?" (my angel) Godric asked soothingly. Bella bit her lip looking at Godric's gorgeous face. His eye's looked so concerned about her, her heart melted a little looking at him.
"I had another dream... I mean a vision. It was really scary. Also Sookie is really angry with me about last night. She said she never wants to see me again. I think Bill has been manipulating her with his blood. She's been acting weird since I got here and I think it's because of him" Bella watched as Godric and Eric shared a look. She didn't know what to make of it.
"I'm not being crazy, right?" She asked hesitantly. Godric shook his head but Eric answered,
"No, Bella you are not. I have suspected that he has been coercing her through blood since the day we met and you mentioned her unusual behavior. It would not be unusual. Many vampires use their blood to establish superiority and dominance over their human. Not that they would need to but the younger generation is too liberal with their gifting of blood" Eric shook his head slightly and Godric growled lowly. Bella wondered why.
"You knew?! Why didn't you tell me then? You knew I was worried about her!" Bella gasped. She was hurt Eric would keep something like this from her. Next to her Godric, seeing her distress, moved a little closer and began running his hand down her back in a calming gesture. Her body relaxed without permission and she practically melted into the couch.
"I am sorry, tiny. I did not share this with you as I have no proof. However, after what you have told me it seems certain" Eric paused clenching his fists, "Our primary concern is not that he is controlling her. It is why he would do such a thing. He claims to be mainstreaming. He must have an ulterior motive here. This is not a simple case of a vampire drugging a disobedient pet into compliance. No, he has another purpose. What this is, I am not sure yet" Eric sat staring into the distance. He looked to be concentrating very hard. Although his countenance was calm, his eyes blazed with fury. It seems he is unhappy with the idea of Bill influencing Sookie as she was.
"What of your vision Bella, what did you see?" Godric asked calmly. Bella looked him in the eye warily. She was unsure if she should share everything with them. Unfortunately, she needed someone to help her figure out what it all means.
She looked at Eric, seeing his interested expression, she knew she had to tell them something.
"Well, I can only really remember flashes. But it's not good. Not good at all. Eric, I saw you being restrained by silver chains. It was burning into your skin. You were being dragged away" Bella began. Eric looked stunned. He was in potential danger?
"What else, little one? We need to know as much as possible if Eric is in possible danger" Godric said firmly but gently. He continued stoking her back soothingly. Bella braced herself.
"Well, Bill was watching on as Eric was being taken. I don't know if that means anything but..." Bella paused seeing Godric and Eric exchange a glance. Ugh! She wished she could just read their minds. Stupid vampires.
"I also saw you Godric" Bella said hesitantly. Godric looked surprised for a moment then urged her to continue with his hand.
"You were drenched head to toe in blood. You looked... feral... dangerous. Your fangs were out and you were holding a heart" She said slowly.
Eric started to become seriously worried. This sounded a lot like death will make an appearance soon. It is unsurprising considering that he will be in danger and silvered but still. Godric has not been death in several hundred years, things were easier to hide back then. He was concerned for his maker and less so for himself. Something bad was coming.
Eric focused his attention solely on Bella. She looked a little worried. Of course she would be, she saw a vision of Godric in all his former glory. He loved his fader with all his dead heart but even he grew scared of him when he was like that. He can only image how Bella would take it.
"Next" Bella continued, "I saw... Sookie with fangs" Bella dropped another bombshell. Sookie was going to be turned soon? NO! I will not allow this. She will not become Compton's child. She is mine! Eric fumed. He fisted the arms of his chair, attempting to remain in control. He felt Godric send his waves of calm and caution. This helped his remarkably. He sent back a wave of gratitude.
"Finally I saw myself licking blood off of a wrist and I was bloodied and beaten" She concluded, looking down.
Silence. Eric could hear a slight 'snick' of his makers fangs being released, the rage poured off of him.
"Do you know who's wrist you were drinking from?" Eric asked seriously, taking charge of the situation. Bella shook her head. She only saw the wrist not who it could be attached to.
"No, sorry. I only saw the wrist. I would say it was male? It didn't look very petite but I don't really know" Bella sighed frustrated. What did these visions mean?
Bella heard Godric growl next to her. He was trying to contain himself. Bella would be drinking some male's blood which may not be him. No. He would not allow this. It was simple. Godric would make sure this never happened. The only problem was they had no idea what was coming that would cause this. Fortunately with Bella's gift they had a heads up that something wasn't right. They would look into this and find out. They had to. He would keep her safe. Godric wasn't surprised that his persona 'death' was released sometime in the future, if Bella was drinking some other vampires blood then that would surely happen. He would be on the warpath.
"You will be staying at my residence until we figure this out, tiny" Eric said firmly. He could feel his maker sending him gratitude and relief.
"What about Sookie? How can we stop Bill?" She said in a small voice.
"I will take care of Sookie, as much as a I am able" Eric muttered. Bella was confused by this but decided to trust Eric. He would do what he could for Sookie.
They started asking her details about her vision and she answered them dutifully. They were as worried as her apparently. After about twenty minutes Pam walked in the office and flashed Bella a grin.
"I have been dismissed from my duties for the night, kitten. We are to have what humans call a 'girls night'. We are going shopping. I hear you are to be staying with Eric, we will need to get you some things" Pam stated.
Bella was happy she could spend time with Pam but shopping? And why did she need to buy new things to stay at Eric's? Can't she just pick up her own stuff?
"Oh sure Pam, sounds good. I don't really need anything, thanks to Eric buying me all those clothes but I can come with and help you." Bella said cheerfully. She needed something to get her mind off her vision of doom.
Eric chuckled and Pam shot her an exasperated look, "You need more clothes. Trust me, kitten. Don't worry about it, I've got Eric's amex. Hop along and get your coat, we do not have much time left"
Bella looked at Eric and Godric quizzically. Eric looked amused and Godric looked warm and affectionate. Bella blushed. She stood up and looked at Eric and Godric,
"I guess I will see you later at your house Eric and Godric... I'll see you around" She said awkwardly.
She saw Godric chuckle, "I also stay with Eric, ma petite. I will see you later also" He said gently. Bella smiled hugely at him.
Pam shushed Bella out of the office to go shopping.
Godric was exited as he watched them leave. Part of him was disappointed that he couldn't spend time with her himself but relieved someone was going educate her on sex and find out how she felt about him, he was giddy at the prospect and simultaneously dreading it.
In all of the worry about the vision and Sookie, the excitement with Bella going shopping with Pam, Godric and Eric had forgotten to question Bella more about her heritage.
A couple hours later, Bella sat in the front seat of Pam's minivan, being drove to Eric's home. She had called to inform her grandmother she was staying with a friend for a while, she was fine with it. Its amazing how much you can get away when you've been depressed. Her gran was just so happy she was socializing she wasn't questioned too much. She still had to check in all the time and visit, of course.
Bella sighed, the shopping trip was... intense. She had bought more tonight than she had ever bought in her whole life. Pam was relentless when it came to shopping. Fortunately, she helped pick out things to Bella's tastes. Unfortunately, she made her buy lots of heels. With her clumsiness, they were a death trap waiting to happen. When she admitted that she couldn't walk in them, Pam waved a hand and said she would teach her. Wonderful. she was so looking forward to that.
Bella watched as Pam pulled up in front of a huge white mansion. Her mouth dropped open. The house was beautiful! It was like an old style southern mansion with pig pillars and huge windows. She noted that they had giant shutters also.
Bella exited the car, keeping an eye on the house in awe. It was blocked off by a fence and the area was very private.
Bella picked up some of the shopping bags and made her way to the front door. Pam flashed beside her and opened the front door.
The house was exactly how Bella expected it to look. Huge open spaces, large staircase to the left of the main room. It looked to have three floors. It was very modern, beautiful, filled with rich colors and expensive looking furniture. Very classy.
"Come, kitten. Let me show you your room" Pam said and began walking away, her heels echoing throughout the huge room. Bella trailed behind her soundlessly.
They made their way up the giant stairs onto the first floor. Her bedroom was three doors down.
As Bella entered the room that was given to her she was shocked. This was bigger than her grans living-room! The room was huge with a giant queen sized bed in its center with light green sheets. The walls were a light pink and the curtains were blue. It was a very colorful room but the colors complemented each other perfectly. There was a walk in closet and a ensuite bathroom. It was incredible.
Bella let out a big gust of air, "Wow" She breathed. Pam smirked at her.
"Come, we must put your clothes away now" Pam said then flashed away. Bella groaned, it would take hours to put all that away!
Later, Bella slumped on the couch in Eric's living room kicking her feet up, exhausted. It was cosy, with rich colors, huge couches and a massive television above a fireplace.
Bella never wanted to see another article of clothing ever again. She sat and reflected on the evening, she was surprised that she actually enjoyed shopping, it was not one of her favorite pastimes thanks to Alice Cullen. Alice's enthusiasm was exhausting to be around. But Pam had a wicked sense of humor and was lots of fun to be around. There was never a dull moment with her. She giggled, recalling how Pam had flashed her fangs at a security guard, frightened he stumbled backwards taking down several manikin's with him.
Pam vamped into the living room, sitting across from Bella on the couch facing her.
"Did you enjoy yourself Bella?" Pam inquired and oddly enough actually seemed to care about the answer.
"Yeah Pam. I've never had so much fun shopping before" She admitted smiling. Pam looked satisfied with herself.
"Excellent, we will have to go more often" She replied, leaning back against the couch comfortably. Bella blanched, she didn't think she could keep up with her. In addition, she doubted she would need to buy anything for at least the next ten years of her life.
"Now, it is time for the 'girl talk' portion of the evening" Pam announced and started texting rapidly on her phone. She had been receiving constant messages all night. Bella wondered who kept contacting her.
"Girl talk? What's that? Do we have to?" Bella asked cautiously, eyeing Pam warily. Pam nodded seriously.
"Yes, Dear abby says it is an important bonding experience between female friends" She declared. Bella's lips twitched slightly and replied,
"Well, then lets have 'girl talk'" She said wryly. Bella tried not to giggle at the triumph in Pam eyes as she said this.
"Now, do you 'crush' on anyone?" Pam said far too casually looking at her subtly. Bella flushed deep red and choked out a 'what'.
"A crush. Dear abby says this is a human term for someone you desire and you want as yours" She stated patiently. Bella's face would not stop burning.
"No Pam, I don't have a crush on anybody" She said trying to keep her voice strong and steady but it sounded comically strained to even her own ears. Bella's mind drifted to Godric and prayed to the high heavens that Pam's wouldn't either. Pam could be more ruthless than Eric when it came to teasing. Pam had no shame or boundaries.
Pam arched her eyebrow and smirked slightly, "are you sure, Bella?" She stated in an amused tone. Bella choked out a yes.
Pam observed her from a moment before pulling out her phone and sending a quick message.
Bella thanked whatever deity that granted mercy on her in that moment when Pam didn't press her.
"I do not have a crush at the moment, either. I fuck regularly but I do not desire one person in particular" Pam said matter of factly. Bella was a little embarrassed by her candid way of speaking but more curious. It was odd talking to someone who was so blase about sex.
"You like women, don't you?" She asked curiously. Eric had mentioned this to her and although it didn't bother her she had always wondered about same sex couples. Pam smiled at her.
"Yes, I generally desire women more so than men" She said obligingly, pleased that Bella was asking questions.
Bella bit her lip, "I've always wondered... How does that work? Two women. Not that I have anything against it but I've never known how it would actually work" She asked shyly with a pink face, hoping to get some answers and not to offend her friend. Offending a vampire was an extremely stupid thing to do.
Pam looked Bella over carefully and wondered if Bella's interested lied with women. She cringed internally at having to report this to Godric. Although he was much calmer and more amiable than what you would believe from his reputation, Godric could still be terrifying when he wanted. She hoped he was not a shot the messenger type of vampire.
"Besides basic plumbing, it is much the same. Pleasing a women is different than a man but can still be done by touching and stimulating various parts of the body. A cock isn't needed for pleasure, Bella" She smirked at he girl, enjoying her embarrassment as her cheeks deepened in color.
"Oh" she muttered, unsure how to reply to that.
"I am curious. Do you prefer women also?" Pam tilted her head to the side. Observing her for signs of falsehood, not that it would be difficult to detect. Bella could not lie to save her life.
"No, no. I like men. I was just wondering, I don't know much of anything about sex" She said sheepishly. Pam nodded then made a welcoming gesture with her arms.
"By all means, ask me anything you wish" Pam said graciously. Bella bounced lightly on her seat in excitement. This was a perfect opportunity for her. Ever since Edward she always felt any shame and embarrassment when it came to showing interest in sex. He always made her feel so awful for wanting him. Now he was gone, she could wonder about sex and not feel like some sexual deviant. Bella was like any other hormonal teenager and curious but she was too embarrassed to ask anything of her family, Sookie would fly off the rails and most likely buy her a chastity belt. Asking Eric was out due to the immeasurable humiliation she would feel and she couldn't ask Godric without triggering some very delicious but explicit fantasies.
Bella considered this for a moment wondering what to ask, "Does it hurt? Sex?" She began with the simplest. Bella felt a thrill go through her as she said this. If Edward could see her now he would faint!
Pam shook her head in exasperation, "breaking your maidenhead stings a little but other than that sex does not hurt at all. That is an old wife's tale told by stuffy bitches who can't get laid themselves. As long as your lover knows what they're doing you will be fine"
"How do you kiss someone with tongue? Is that not pretty weird?" Bella wondered. It had been on her mind.
"You tilt your head to the side and gently caress you tongue with theirs. The kiss can be soft or demanding depending on how aroused you are. It is natural, you just go with your instincts. Sex is much like that, you do what feels good and natural for your body without thinking too much" Pam explained to her patiently.
Bella nodded. Pam looked at her expression Bella appeared to be extremely interested in what she was saying. She was pleased.
"That sounds... interesting" Bella answered. Pam smirked.
"Yes it certainly is. You should try it sometime" Pam tempted.
Bella sighed loudly, "Yeah, I am curious but its not that simple" She muttered bitterly, thinking about Edward again. Ugh.
"How so?" Pam inquired. Sex was extremely simple, perhaps Pam did not explain it right.
"Well, I don't want to just have sex with a stranger. It will be my first time, I want it to be with someone I know and trust. I couldn't have sex with someone I didn't care about, but I don't want to get into a relationship. I just got out of one and have barely recovered from it. I am curious and kind of wanting to explore this but I can't deal with the relationship drama and deep feelings at the moment" Bella sighed in frustration. Since moving to Louisiana and being around such sexual people she began to be extremely curious and exited at the prospect of having sex or even just kissing someone with passion. Especially since having met Godric her mind kept drifting to what it would be like, with him as the star of her fantasies.
"I see. What you need is a lover. Someone who you trust, are friends with but with no romantic entanglements, yes?" Pam said.
Bella nodded warily, wondering where Pam was going with this.
"What about Godric?" She said casually. Bella's blush returned full force.
"G-Godric?" She stuttered in shock. Did Pam notice how she practically drooled over him?
"Yes Godric. He would be a good lover for you. He has had plenty of experience to make it enjoyable for you and is attractive enough, do you not find him attractive Bella?"
Bella looked down in shame, "it doesn't matter if I do or don't. Godric would never go for a freak like me. He-he's well utterly perfect and I'm... well I'm just me" She muttered with tears stinging her eyes.
Suddenly Pam was on the sofa beside her. She placed a finger under her chin and raised it until her eyes met Pam's blue ones.
"You are a beautiful girl, what makes you think Godric would not find you appealing?" She asked in an un-Pam-like gentle tone.
"I am average looking at best, Pam. Godric is... well Godric, you know. The epitome of male perfection, so stunning it should be illegal." She confessed and continued,
"Good looks aside, he is an amazing person. There's no way he could possibly be interested in me. He could have anybody he wanted, why would he slum it with me?" She muttered.
Bella continued looking down, feeling extremely depressed when she heard Pam's voice,
"You 'crush' on Godric, don't you?"
Bella sighed and admitted defeat, "Yes, I do. I'm trying hard to ignore how I feel but it's difficult. He makes me feel things. When I'm with him I feel exited, soothed, exhilarated, nervous but most of all... happy. Content. Whole. I love seeing him smile or laugh, it feels like I'm burning up inside when he's near. I feel a pull to him, a draw that is irresistible. He feels like home" She revealed.
It was quiet for some tense moments before Pam finally replied,
"I was not aware you felt so deeply for him" She stated.
Bella smiled slightly, looking up at Pam's solemn expression, "Yeah, I'm trying my best to not let it show. I am not delusional, I can handle him not feeling anything for me. What I couldn't handle is not being in his life at all, it would hurt too much. This way we can still be friends" Bella sounded defeated. She was bone tired and understandably depressed. Bella rose from the couch,
"I'm going to bed now Pam, I will see you tomorrow night. Can you please not tell anyone about this? I don't want things to be awkward" Bella bit her lip and gazed at Pam pleadingly. She nodded seriously back.
Bella sighed in relief, she tried to smile at her and leaned forward to give Pam a grateful hug. Pam placed her hands on Bella's shoulders accepting the gesture. With that Bella wished Pam goodnight and went to bed.
Pam watched Bella retire for the night and stood. It was time to return to Fangtasia and be debriefed about her evening with Bella. Pam considered her situation and what she would reveal as she made her way out of Eric's home, slamming the door behind her.