Godric tried his hardest not to stare at Bella as he drove her back to Eric's home. They had just had their first intimate experience together and he wanted to gauge how she felt. He was quickly winding through the streets of Shreveport, exited but nervous to discuss with her what had transpired. He could hear her heart beating nervously but could not see her face and she looked out the window. Oh what he would give to know what she was thinking.
In Godric's opinion, what happened was incredible. He had never felt such intense arousal before and had to use every ounce of his two thousand years of restraint not to ravish her where she sat. Especially when she was begging him. His hands gripped the steering wheel tighter. Dear gods, he remembered her begging. And her wetness, her sweet moans. He needed to calm his head, he was beginning to feel aroused again and was already uncomfortable as it is with his recent release in his pants; he needn't make it worse. Godric could not help but to spill his speed when Bella reached her release, moaning so beautiful and moving so seductively. He had never released without stimulation before, it was an odd experience, one that unfortunately flamed his desire more than extinguished it. But he could not think of his own sexual gratification now, no, he needed to think about Bella. How she was reacting to this. To him. He needed to make her feel comfortable, desired and wanting to explore a sexual relationship with him. He would incorporate the romance later. If he played this right he could claim Bella as his lover tonight. He felt a huge bolt of arousal as he thought this. He needed to control himself.
They pulled up to Eric's home and he zoomed out to hold Bella's door open for her. She would not look him in the eye as she exited, this did not seem good. Hopefully it was just her shyness. He walked with her up to the door and lead her inside. After the door had closed behind them, he turned and touched her upper arm gently to get her attention. She shuddered when his fingers made contact with her skin, was this a good sign or bad?
"Bella, perhaps it would be best if you made yourself comfortable by putting your night clothes on? I will be up to your room shortly and then we can talk" He gave her what he hoped was a reassuring smile, then zoomed off to his own quarters, giving her space.
Godric disappeared into the more secure, underground section of the house where him and Eric slept. Every room was light-tight but this part was restricted to only himself, Eric and Pamela.
As he entered the shower, he began forming a plan of action in his mind. He only had one chance to get it right. After tonight, being so close to Bella, seeing her in all her glory; it would be physically painful to separate from her now. He craved her, like he craved blood, he needed her to sustain him. He could not survive without her.
Bella had just changed into a pink nightdress Pam had bought her. She was not fond of it but it was the lightest thing she owned and it was very warm tonight. Bella stood awkwardly in her bedroom. She was to talk with Godric, what on earth is she going to say? Part of her – a too large part – hoped that he wanted to be with her. It was silly, foolish, unrealistic and just plain dumb. She didn't want to get into another relationship, right? No. She didn't. She couldn't deal with the heartbreak and it would be a million times worse with Godric than it was with Edward. With Edward is was like an extreme infatuation, not anything deeper. But with Godric... no. She couldn't let her thoughts go down in that direction.
Bella sighed and slipped into bed, sitting up against the headboard, waiting patiently for Godric. Anticipation squirmed uncomfortably in her stomach as she waited.
Finally, Godric knocked lightly on her door.
"Come in" She called hoarsely. She cleared her throat. Be confident, you can do this Bella.
Godric entered the room and gave her a half smile. Her insides melted. Ugh! She needed to keep a level head, not get distracted by his dashing good looks. She noticed his hair was slightly damp and he was wearing a thin grey t-shirt with dark cotton trousers. Why did he always have to look so incredible?
He approached the bed and made his way onto the other side of her queen sized bed. She hugged her knees and watched as he sat cross legged beside her. They watched each other closely, waiting for the other to make a move.
Surprisingly, it was Bella who made the first move,
"Godric, Wha-what just happened?" She began nervously. Part of her knew but another was so confused; it was unbelievable. What had brought this on.
Godric inched forward and stroked her upper arms gently, it helped calm her a little.
"Bella, we shared intense pleasure. You gifted me with your precious blood and I stimulated your sweet little pussy. It was divine, was it not? I have not had such an enjoyable sexual experience in my long life, Bella" Godric said calmly. He continued stroking her arms as her face heated up. The way he put it...
"Yeah. It was um... good" She said unsure. It was more than that but she had no idea what to say.
"Just good?" He lifted an eyebrow and she blushed deeper.
"Okay, it was amazing. I have never felt anything like that Godric. Wow, I am so confused but yes I agree with you... it was...divine" She nuzzled her face into her knees a little in embarrassment.
He sent her a warm smile.
"You have never felt this like before?" Godric questioned curiously.
Bella began to feel ashamed. She had felt like that before...
"I mean, I guess I have, just not as intense. I just... don't understand. When... when I used to... you know... feel like that, Edward would always get really disappointed in me and seemed almost disgusted, he would pull away from me" Bella looked down, ashamed. It was true, whenever she felt even a little like that Edward would run for the hills and lecture her. It made her feel so mortified to feel that way. Like it was wrong to feel such. But Godric seemed to like it. It threw her through a loop.
As Bella wallowed in shame, she felt Godric move closer to her on her bed. So close she could smell him. He smelled so good. Deep, musky, masculine and oh so inviting.
She lifted her head hesitantly and looked into Godric's eyes. They were dark and glittered in fury.
"This Edward was an incompetent moron, Bella. Do not compare me to him, he made you stifle your desires but I want you to explore them" His voice grew softer as he explained and his eyes warmer.
He lifted his hand and cupped her cheek, "I want you Bella, I want every part of you, your smile, your laughter, your sorrow, your desire. You are a goddess in the throes of passion. Do not ever feel wrong for expressing you wants and needs, it is natural" He finished by stroking his thumb over her lips and staring at them longingly. Her heart rate picked up. What did he mean?
"What... do you mean, you want me?" She said uneasily, eyeing him anxiously. Godric stopped his movements for a moment before continuing, his hand began stroking the side of her head. She stretched her head to give him more access. She felt like a big cat.
"I would like to ask you to be my lover Bella. I would very much like to explore a sexual relationship with you, I would love to teach you everything about pleasure and show you equal amounts in return. You equal to no other Bella, you would make an incredible lover. I want you to be mine" He finished the speech rather strongly. He seemed to really believe what he said and stared into her eyes heatedly and a little pleadingly, perhaps.
This... was... perfect. Utterly perfect. Isn't this what she wanted? To explore sex without the emotional pain? Yes, and with someone like Godric, it seemed too good to be true. She did not even have to consider it.
She beamed at him brightly, "I would like that" She reached forward and hugged him tightly. She was a cuddler, she loved cuddles and Godric was her favorite person to hug.
She felt his arms encircle around her and squeeze her tightly but softly. Bella closed her eyes. She felt, so safe, so comforted, so wanted and protected. Being in Godric's arms was the best feeling in the world, she decided. As much as she wanted to stay there, she didn't want to hug him for too long and make him uncomfortable. Vampires weren't as touchy-feely as humans were.
She pulled back and looked into Godric's face. His eye's shinned in pure, unadulterated, happiness, they almost seemed to glow. Godric's face was lit in way that made him appear more his physical age. His expression was so... affectionate. Her insides felt all gooey and she felt true joy for the first time in forever.
Bella was still all giddy inside at being wanted by Godric. He made her feel beautiful. Desirable. Like she was actually worth something. It was an intoxicating feeling, one she craved but knew it was unwise to get used to.
As she stared at Godric, she wanted to kiss him. Not like earlier today, just a kiss. Chest swelled up from confidence, Bella leaned forward and placed her lips on his softly. She kissed him without rush, simply enjoying the feeling of his cool lips against hers. She wanted to savor his taste, the feel of his lips. It was a sweet kiss and expressed her happiness and gratitude to Godric. Something that she knew she couldn't put into words.
When she pulled back she looked in his eyes and saw them rimmed with red slightly and his eyes were filled with something. Something that made her heart clench and soar.
She sent him a sheepish smile, "Uh, sorry, I don't really know what it entails to be someone's 'lover'. I don't know if that was ok... or..." She bit her lip.
Godric smirked at her slightly, "That was most definitely 'ok' Bella. You are welcome to kiss me at any time you desire"
He continued, "For us, I would like us to be able to touch each other, explore each others bodies, we can do this whenever we like. I will only do what you feel comfortable with but you can do with my body what you wish. I would like to claim you in the vampire way, so I can call you mine"
Bella's heart skipped a beat, "Does that mean that your mine too?" She asked.
He smiled at her and then nuzzled his nose affectionately against hers, "Yes, Bella, Jag har alltid varit din, min kompis (I have always been yours, my mate) he whispered.
Bella smiled happily, one thing she wasn't clear on was... did this mean they were exclusive?
"Uh does this mean that I can't... you know, go out with anybody else?" She needed to know. She could not cope seeing him with any other women.
Godric looked at her firmly, "yes, it does. I do not share Bella. Whilst you are mine other men will not touch you" He stated strongly. Bella smiled a small smile and her cheeks warmed. He didn't seem to like the idea of her with another guy. She liked it when he was commanding like that.
"Okay, and you will not touch anyone else or feed on anyone else?" She asked hopefully with a smile dancing around her lips.
His eyebrows shot up a little, "Of course not Bella. Only with you, alltid bara med dig (only ever with you)"
Bella smiled smugly then decided she was pretty tired. She stretched then lay down on the bed, on her side so to face Godric. He did the same and lay on his side, looking at her.
"Good, I don't like to share either" She teased, feeling confident and happy for the first time in... well her whole life.
Godric arched a brow, "You don't?"
She shook her head and grinned deviously, "No, I want you all to myself Godric" Her eyes flashed with mischievousness and his seemed to darken.
She heard a slight 'snick' but ignored it. She then yawned deeply and stretched again, into a more comfortable position.
"You are tired, try get some sleep" He murmured and helped to tuck the covers around her more securely. She smiled smugly and closed her eyes, happy to have him take care of her.
"Okay" She sighed sleepily.
As Bella drifted into slumber, Godric examined her face. She seemed so peaceful, so happy. More so than she usually was, was this because of him? He hoped so. He wished he could bring as much joy into her life as she did with him.
He lay watching her for a while before his need became too much. He was very aroused at her playful behavior and needed to take care of the situation. He loved this new side to Bella, he would nurture it. As much as he wanted to spend the day with her here, he had to retire to his and Eric's room. Her Were bodyguard would be arriving tomorrow and he must be secure in the closed off section of the house. It was not that he did not trust the Were but he was being over cautious. He growled at this. Another reason to hate weres: keeping him from his wonderful mate.
Godric flashed downstairs and into the shower. He took care of the situation with his hand, imagining Bella from earlier. Unfortunately, he was still a little exited afterwards, he was giddy that Bella was now his lover and exactly what that entailed.
He entered the bedroom nude, seeing Eric sitting on the bed. His son shot him a shit-eating grin.
"Congratulations, fader. Finally, some progress. Tell me, how was she?" He smirked and sniffed the air, looking from some lingering scent of Bella. There was none. No matter, Eric thought. His office still lingered beautifully with her release.
Godric growled slightly in warning and slipped into bed.
"everything I ever imagined and more" Godric sighed and smiled serenely at his son.
Eric sighed dreamily, "I can imagine, I knew she would be fiery in the bedroom. Too bad you washed her all off" Eric pouted.
Godric shot Eric a look, "You are welcome to be in her life as a friend and brother but do not delude yourself into thinking you will ever be more. You are attempting to gain favor with her kin, humans take monogamy and fidelity towards family relations seriously. You are out of luck, my son" Godric send him a superior look.
Eric simply grinned back devilishly, "Ah yes, humans. Your little mate is not fully human and it is to my understanding becoming less so with her 'maturation' process. Fae have very different views of such. In fact, they seem to even accept inter-family relations more so than any other race, due to wanting to keep certain powers and abilities prevalent within the bloodline" Eric grinned at his maker in delight.
Godric then had an urge. One he had never had before. He felt like face-palming himself. He saw many humans do this in reaction to something or other and often wondered why they would do such a silly thing. But now he knew why.
Eric continued, "I am hoping on a threesome between my Sookie and my sweet sister. If you ask nicely, perhaps you can join us" His son smirked at him.
Godric shook his head in exasperation. What was he going to do with his progeny?
"Have you told her you are her mate yet?" Eric questioned curiously, blessedly changing the subject.
Godric shot him a look of disapproval, "no, not yet. She is just comfortable with the idea of being lovers, I do not wish to overwhelm her. The last instance in which a vampire claimed her to be his mate did not go well for her" Godric explained, looking towards the ceiling.
Eric scoffed, "Say what you will, fader, I know it is simply because you are worried of her rejection. Bella has problems but would never reject you, she is your mate. You should have more faith in her" Eric commented.
Godric did not reply as his son was correct. He was terrified of her rejection. He could not cope with it, something terrible may happen. Like his inner beast emerging and whisking Bella away. He had a plan, he would ease her into aspects of their relationship, she has emotional scars that he will need to help heal along the way and allow her time to trust him. And he will do so gladly. Because she is his. His love. His life. His mate.
Godric closed his eyes with a smile on his face as the sun pulled him under.
A/N: Okay, short and sweet chapter; I hope you like. One thing I am curious about is that I am wanting to spend a little time exploring Godric and Bella's relationship here, going into detail and not focusing heavily on the storyline. Let me know what you think. I don't want it to become boring but I want to describe how Bella and Godric's relationship develops and I want it to go at a realistic rate. So please let me know if this would just bore you to tears. I do not want that, obviously.
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