[Devlin's Journal]

OK…. I don't know how to start this… I ugh…. I think I'm…. oh goddess I hate myself for saying this... I think I'm….. Straight! Ugh just saying that feels…. Icky. Ok let me explain… After Laura was enrolled in the institute we, (meaning Logan and I) have been spending time together with her since the other students are still afraid of her for what she did… you know putting explosives on everyone's heads….

Yah… I didn't mind that after she told me her story. She needed to do it otherwise she would be killed; honestly I might have done the same… I guess… anyway back to the whole might be straight thing. You see whenever we would spend time with her she would always tug on my ears whenever she got the chance. Now the resign this was bad was because it would make me uhhh… well you know…

After a while of this I ended up anticipating it and even… liking it. Now know that I have always ALWAYS known since I was young that I was gay, I never liked looking at girls or anything. I knew I didn't like seeing them naked ether because of my brother, who ordered a certain magazine by mistake and decided to show me a picture inside… I almost vomited on the spot once I saw the girl inside and he laughed like crazy then picked out a magazine from his collection and showed me a picture of a guy, the guy was hot! And he smiled and hugged me telling me that I was gay like him.

Ever since then I have been content of my sexuality and lived with knowing what I was with mu chin held high. But now I feel so different and confused… I don't know what to do and its making me angry… I should probably talk to Logan but… I just want to figure this out for myself… I already have a plan and if it works the way I want it then maybe I'll get some answers. I'll start the plan tonight.

Wish me luck!

/Next day\

Well I chickened out… I'm a disgrace! I hate myself so much right now you don't even know! I guess I should explain… my plan was to kiss Laura on the lips and to see if I felt anything… the problem was getting her alone so no one would think I'm weird for kissing my sister. The plan was a failure because everyone decided to start hanging around her after getting over her mistake. I should have been happy she was making friends… but I was going through a mental crisis darn it!

I'll have to make a new plan… I'll write my results tomorrow.

/Next Day\

DARN IT!

It failed again! My plan's never been so horrible before! I don't know what's going on with me! AGH!

Ok ok I just have to calm down… alright here was the plan, I found out that Burger Blasters a restaurant that served hamburgers was having a reopening and was handing out free milkshakes to celebrate. I told the others and they rushed off immediately just as I planned… what I didn't foresee was the brotherhood attacking together all at once. They overwhelmed the others but in total frustration I tossed a huge fireball at them scaring them off… and most of the other students. But to apologize I offered to buy them free hamburgers which changed their mood instantly…. But because of that I lost my chance with Laura…

Ok tomorrow for sure! I will kiss Laura even if it kills me! Even if I have to pin her to the ground and force her to kiss me! I'm sick of not knowing! SICK OF IT!

/X-men\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\