Devlin's Journal
It has been a month since my… I think it was my third death….. What can I say, life is pain. Despite my… dying I never felt better! Just because of one reason only, Logan. I don't know why but just being around him makes me feel safe, like no matter what life brings it will be fine so long as he is by my side. I love him more than anything… but I feel like we aren't a real couple. We haven't ever been on a date or anything in the like… I hate writing this but maybe he was right… maybe we weren't meant to be.
NO! Forget I ever wrote that in you!
By the way, I lost my eraser….
Anyway Scott's brother Alex decided to move to the institute, Scott was overjoyed! Kurt however was not because he was his new roommate. However after a week they became near inseparable, they were almost more like brothers then Scott. As for Scott himself, he has been a little busy trying to impress Jean to care. It's not like they aren't getting along, just the opposite. They have been as close as brothers as I was with Skylar.
I feel kind of jealous… or rather I just miss my big brother. It has only been two years since he died… I just wish I could see him again. Honestly ever since he died I always felt like the last of my family was lost forever, but Logan and everyone in the institute stopped my loneliness. I'll miss my family but I always have a reminder of them in the form of mom's Spirit-band. It holds all of my family's love inside; as long as I have that I'll be just fine.
Come to think of it… I never gave them a proper funeral…
You know what, I'll do it…
Tomorrow I'll ask Professor Xavier to help me do so. I'm sure he will help, I just need to head to the old place to get mom's special book. It has a bunch of rituals I will need to perform the ceremony. Sky used to tell me about her book and all of the things she wrote in it, some were religious things that might help me with the funeral…
I knew I should have made them take me there to get it before he died… they kind of took me away to the orphanage before I could take anything other than the Spirit-band that I always wore. All of my family's things are still in the cabin we lived in. thankful it is still in my name, the only reason I couldn't stay there after they all were gone was because I was a minor and legally I couldn't.
It's time I go there and get things settled… but I think I'll bring Logan with me. I don't know how I'll handle going back there alone. Plus it might show me if there is anything to our relationship. Thankfully it will be winter soon so we can spend the whole brake alone together.
This is a good idea…. Right?