Hey guys so this update is super late and I am sorry for that. I just got really busy, but I am back and ready to work hard on this story. I have also created a new way to show a break in the story since I found out mine didn't work before, so here is what it will look like. ~SPN~

Cas's POV

Hand in hand, Dean and I walk along the sandy beach. The sun is slowly setting, causing the water to glistening in the orange and red light. I sigh, content. Turning to look at Dean, I see a small smile on his face.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Just how amazing this feels." He looks at me, his eyes full of adoration and joy.

"I know what you mean." I lean my head on his shoulder and Dean wraps his arm around my waist. "Dean, thank you."

"Why are you thanking me?"

"Just for being so understanding and patient. I am sorry that I have been rude and that we haven't been able to have more moments like this in the last month."

"Hey, it's alright. What matters now is that we are together."

"I know, but you must have hated me and wished you never married me." Dean stops suddenly and I look up at him. Turning to me with tear filled eyes he grabs my face.

"Cas, I could never hate you. I never stopped loving you even for that rough time. I mean everyone has a rough patch, but god, please don't say I regret marrying you because that is the worst thing imaginable. I married you for a reason and I don't regret it one bit. I love you with every inch of my being and god I would never let that go for anything." I shiver at his words before raising my hand and wiping the tears from his eyes.

"I… Dean…" Not able to find the right words I pull him into a kiss, expressing all my gratitude, love, passion, desire, and happiness into it.

"I love you so much Cas." He breaths as we pull away. I smile, panting slightly.

"Dean, I need to tell you why I was upset." He nods. "I was… I was hurt. The thoughts of killing Zachariah have been haunting me and whenever I was around you it seemed to have gotten worse. I was so lost Dean. It hurt so badly because I didn't know what to do. Dean I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't bring myself to do so. Now my heart aches more for I didn't tell you and got you hurt in the process. I just feel as though I am hurting everyone. I am just going to get everyone I love or once loved killed. I can't imagine losing you, but I know it will hurt like hell if I do. I mean, damn it, I am so lost and so torn and so broken I don't know what to do." I drop down on my knees, putting my face in my hands. Tears pool in my hand, leaking through my fingers. "I needed your help and I still do, but I don't know how to ask. I don't know what to say. Dean…" I choke and continue to sob, shaking. I feel hands pull on mine, pulling them from my face. Then I feel a warm embrace as Dean pulls me to his chest.

"Shhh. It's alright baby. I am here for you now. It doesn't matter what happened in the past. I promise I will always be here." He kisses my head and continues to comfort me on the empty, peaceful beach.

~SPN~

I lay curled up in Dean's embrace as the sun streams in through the blinds. Recalling the events of the previous night, I smile. I know I made things complicated between Dean and me over the past month, but that is in the past and now we are ready to move on together. I know Dean will always be here.

"Good morning angel."

"Morning handsome." I smile up at him and he smirks.

"Handsome?"

"Shut up." I lay my head on his chest, taking comfort in the rise and fall of it. "You know you are adorable."

"Well yeah I know that, but you said handsome. Last time I checked those mean two different things." I smack his arm and he chuckles.

"You're lucky I love you."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means no one else is willing to deal with your ego."

"Hey, girls found my ego and personality very intriguing."

"Yes, but you're not with a girl now are you."

"Yeah I found something so much sexier." One of his dashing smiles appears on his face.

"Wow how flattering." I roll my eyes.

"What sexy not enough? How about gorgeous, enchanting, brilliant, lovable, kissable, superb, and so much more?"

"That's a little better." I smirk before kissing him on the lips. Dean brings his hand to my neck and I wrap one around his waist and the other goes to his cheek. Even though we have kissed many times before this one felt so different and so much more powerful, I melt into it never wanting it to be over. Dean smiles into the kiss before slowly pulling away. I begin to pout, but Dean quickly fixes that when he runs his fingers through my hair and gently kisses my neck. I sigh, even though we have our passionate moments these moments are better. Where simple, innocent touches mean the world and just being held and kissed by the man I love was the greatest thing anyone could experience.

"Cas, I am going to head out and get some food for us." Dean whispers.

"Ok." Dean slowly pulls himself from me before heading to get ready. Lying back onto my pillow, I relax. Closing my eyes, I begin to drift off, that is until I hear a loud bang.

Again sorry it is so late and it is another filler chapter, but it is going somewhere obviously by the last sentence. Please Review and I love you guys more than you will ever know.