''Fuck me? Fuck you Carlisle. Fuck you and your whole thing for twisting this into something that it isn't!''

''So, you haven't kissed Jasper Whitlock?''

''No!'' technically I wasn't the one ''He kissed me, and it didn't mean anything. Not for him and definitely not for me.'' I said honestly.

He then pulled over in the middle of nowhere, on the side of the road, turning to me ''Bella, I've had it with your fucking lies. Is there something else you want to tell me?'' he squinted his eyes at me ''Have you fucked anyone else perhaps? Maybe accidentally?''

How dare he? I slapped him, not really thinking about what I was doing, just that I needed to hurt him.

His head snapped to the side, and when he turned to me, all I could feel was his lips on mine. I couldn't help but to respond to his kiss, and pulled at his hair, biting his lip. He pulled away, shocked and I saw I had drawn blood at his lip, and he noticed it too, brushing at it with the back of his hand.

He didn't care and now I didn't care as well, as he pulled me on his lap, and pulled my hair as he kissed my neck and I couldn't help but to moan.

He ripped open my blouse, the buttons flying around us in the small space, his kisses going lower and lower. I opened my bra before he could rip it open as well. He might have not destroyed it, but he did fly to the back seat, as he took to kissing my chest. He assaulted my right chest as he pinched my nipple on the left.

It was rough, it was nasty, and it was heaven all in one.

I tried to unbuckle his belt, but his hands grabbed mine, and went back to kissing my breasts ''You don't get to touch.''

I bit my lip and opened my eyes just realising I had him closed and saw him looking at me with that anger still evident in his eyes. I wanted to slap him again, for not understanding, and I wanted to have him in my mouth in the same second.

This time I closed the space and kissed him.

He let go of my hands and opened his belt with. I was happy as I realised he was going to open his pants, and I let my hands wonder again. I was wrong to think he would let me, and he harshly got them and putting them behind my back said ''I told you something Bella. Fucking listen to me.''

Just them my phone rang, and I took it out of my back. Carlisle moved back to my neck, to assault it with his beautiful mouth. I stopped breathing as I saw Alice's name pop up.

''Don't you dare to pick up.'' He said.

I was angry, and I was hurt at him as well. We never had a fight like this and I couldn't stop from letting my fingers answer the phone ''Alice! How are you?''

He didn't stop, in fact he went back to my breasts as Alice said ''I'm not going to lie, I could be better. But I'm understanding just now that I have to put in more work in this.''

''Now or, never right?'' Even I noticed how I was breathless.

''You alright? What are you doing Bella?'' She asked as Carlisle was grinding against me.

''Sorry, I'm working out'' on your dad ''Can you call me a bit later perhaps?'' I begged.

''Sure.'' She didn't sound thrilled but was still polite and obliged ''I'll you in the evening. I miss you.''

''I miss you too Alice. Bye for now.''

After I ended the call, Carlisle put my hands behind my back and tied them with his belt. He didn't tie it loosely, actually the opposite. I hissed at the rough feel of it and he said ''Why the hell don't you listen to me?''

In an answer I just pushed my hips against his and he hissed in response.

His eyes didn't leave mine, as his hands pushed away my panties. I was really happy I was wearing a skirt today. He pushed a finger inside me and I couldn't help but to grimace in pleasure as he pushed them in and out.

''You like that Bella? You like when my fingers are fucking you?'' I nodded as I was closing in on my orgasms.

Just as I was about to tip over the edge he stopped and pulled them out ''Ahh well, I like that too, but I don't think you get to come jet.''

''Please.'' I moaned.

He just smiled and started to work his fingers again, more harshly. Without any hesitation, I pushed my head backwards and ended up pushing my chest in his face, and he didn't hesitate to draw circles with his tongue.

As I was about to come again, I knew that he would do it again – he stopped, while saying ''I don't think that you should come at all.''

''I'll be good. Please Carlisle, I want to feel you.'' I begged him.

''I need you to be a good girl Bella.'' He said as he shifted his pants, so he could get himself out.

I didn't know if I could be, so I didn't say anything as he pushed inside of me, deep. It almost felt as this was the deepest he has been inside me, and I couldn't help to cry out. He didn't wait for me to adjust to him, and I didn't even want him to. I bounced down on him in response, wanting to hurt myself.

We were both grunting and moaning, breathing in each other's necks, as both of us wanted to find our release. I loved him, and I knew he loved me as well. I knew that both of us didn't know how to argue and that we didn't want to… But life was messy like that.

''I'm going to come.'' I kept repeating, hoping that he was going to let me have this ''Please don't stop.''

''Come Bella.'' He said in a strained voice ''I said come!'' he said in a stern voice and I couldn't help the cry that followed after, as I did.

I couldn't really come down from it as he kept pushing in. I was about to get dizzy with the pleasure I was riding out, when Carlisle joined in, and came as well.

I fell against him and he relaxed in his seat as both of us were trying to catch our breaths.

I listened to his heart rate trying to slow down on its own, as I let myself have this moment. We knew that the fight wasn't over just because we both had an orgasm.

''I didn't wear a condom Bella…'' He suddenly said and I heard his heart speed back up again.

''That's alright.'' I knew he felt better than usual – deeper ''I'll take the pill, and we'll be alright. No worries.''

I felt him move his head, that felt a lot like nodding ''We'll get it. I'm sorry about that.''

''It's alright. Honestly.'' And it was.

I sat up straight and looked at him, as he undid the belt around my wrists.

He arched his brow and I understood it was a question he was waiting an answer to, about why I didn't listen to him ''You hurt me.''

Both of us knew it wasn't the belt around my hands I was speaking of.

''And you hurt me by lying. So, what? We're going to hurt one another huh?'' I was angry that he was making an actual point.

''I didn't kiss him. It came out of nowhere.'' That was the truth.

''But you didn't tell me. That night, you just came home and didn't tell me.'' Again, he was making a good point.

I nodded towards him and I couldn't take it back. We just needed our time to calm down ''Take me home, Carlisle.''