I was happy that I chose to do my make-up, as I was wearing a slightly crumpled dress. And in chances that something might happen, I was wearing an ugly set of skin coloured bra and panties. I tried not to think about that, as I tried to formulate what I wanted to say to him. We might have talked through texts, but we haven't said anything about the thing.

When we rolled up at his house, he came to my side and helped me out the car. I thanked him for the gentlemen he was. No matter how hard we fought or fucked, he was always a gentleman.

Walking in the house I knew where to go. Where I felt this ass started.

His study.

I sat down on the desk, and he was standing against the door. We were in our positions. And I was ready to start ''Thank you for coming, it meant a lot. Did Rosalie tell you to come over?'' I voiced my thoughts. I knew that it must've been her seeing as she suddenly went to the bathroom after I voiced my concerns.

He nodded ''She did.'' He was honest ''I'm glad she did. She told me that you were worried. Are you?''

I had to think about it for a while. Was I worried?

When I answered I was sure I was telling the truth ''I am. I'm worried that we will always be in the shadows, and I don't think I can do that for the rest of my live. Because the truth is I want only you – that hasn't changed.'' I drew in a breath ''I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Jasper. I realise it wasn't so much as that he kissed me, as it was about me keeping it a secret.''

He nodded and listened carefully ''I understand. I'm sorry for behaving like I did when you told me, that was unacceptable. I just… I saw red. I know it's no excuse, but… '' He didn't continue and sat down.

I was wondering what he had to say so I waited, my eyebrow raised.

He looked at me, with an apology in his eyes, and I knew his words could cut me ''I was just afraid that you would cheat on me, like…''

He didn't need to finish that sentence ''Oh… Like I did with Edward. But I didn't cheat on him, technically I didn't cheat on anyone. And I would never. I'm not going to repeat anything, if you're worried about that. Especially the things I haven't done.''

He smiled ''I know. I know you. I'm just a fool.''

We were both beating up each other for us having a hard time. I stood up and went to sit on my knees. Taking his face in my hands I said ''This isn't about the kiss. I want us to go public. But I also know now is not the time. And I think it's fucking with both of us.''

This wasn't the right time, I think mostly because of Alice, and I couldn't even start to think about how to break the news to Charlie. But those were the issues I was concerned with, there was more on his plate than on mine.

''I'm just afraid that there never will be a right time.'' I finished.

''I know. I think there will be a time, it just seems so far away.'' He said, and I sat back down, looking at him.

I liked that he was giving a window to the fact that he wanted to be open. We have never talked about it being an option, and I was happy with it but I needed to know ''When do you see us being out?''

He searched for something in my eyes and answered ''Perhaps around graduation. I need Alice to not only be healthy but maintaining the health as well.'' I agreed with him wholeheartedly and he continued ''And perhaps as a graduate, people would see you as more of an adult and me less of an adulterer. ''

''It's a long time, and we will be calmer, with less drama.'' I laughed at that bit ''And it's not going to be easy I'm not about to fool us both… But it's something that I'm willing to wait for.'' I finished, and he hugged me.

I know its going to be a long time, or at least it will feel like, but I was ready to work on us, and to work on our image, to see ourselves succeed as a couple in this hard city. It's not like we would be something too bad seeing as a lot of shocking things were happening in NYC, and we would only be a talk for a little while. But I agreed with him – it would be better for a later time when I'm a bit more matured.

AN-Hey guys! It's coming to an end. Just a heads up – next one is the last!