I was sitting down with Rosalie and Emmett, who had just flown in from California. They had decided to stay there after graduating, of course. They were trying to make it in the sun and I couldn't blame them. I chose to see them in the summers for a couple of weeks, because I did kind of miss the dry heat. I knew that I loved it there, but I didn't belong like I did here, at home, in NYC.
I saw Jasper walking in and waved at him to come our way. I saved him a seat. He was doing so good in his job, better than the rest of us actually. I was happy to have a friend here in NYC, that wasn't kissing me or causing trouble with me and Carlisle.
I looked where Carlisle was, at the front talking with some professor that he knew. Of course, he knew the alumni. More so after Alice went back to study. After the rehab she was very careful, but she grew into herself more and more so in the past four years. I was happy to be at her graduation, even if it was a year later, we were all so proud she did it anyway. Carlisle was so happy. I definitely wasn't complaining – the sex was exhilarating.
When he turned around to spot us, I waved at him. When he came to us, Jasper let him sit next to me and he grabbed my hands. We were less careful of showing our feelings. We weren't exactly kissing in public but holding hands whilst sitting at Alice's graduations was fine.
We still waited for the graduation, but through the time decided that it would be best to start coming out after Alice's graduation. But we ditched some of the act, as Charlie got into a lethal accident and died on the job. I was crushed, and I didn't want anything, but Carlisle was there. He never left my side and mended me when I was broken. Even though he asked me if I wanted to come out with him then and there, seeing as I was breaking in million little pieces, and he was willing to do anything, I still trusted in the original plan, even if Charlie was no more.
I decided to sell the apartment, as it was too hard for me to be there. I had loved my father so much, and I will always feel guilty for not telling him about me and Carlisle. I knew he suspected that I was with someone, but I don't think he knew everything. Carlisle didn't comment much about it when I voiced it. I think I knew he wanted to say that it maybe was for the best and it was good he didn't say it - because I would have slapped him.
I moved in with Carlisle. Concerning Alice, I was in a guest bedroom. There wasn't a real problem with Alice seeing as she had moved in with Jasper, in their place. They visited on the weekends still.
We all cheered when Alice got her diploma, that she had been fighting for. We knew that it was much more about just finishing her studies. It was about her feeling better and being able to concentrate on things other than food, and hurting Jasper.
Carlisle and I were so worried today. We had decided that today was the day. It's been years and we were ready. It felt like we were scared because we kept it for so long. After the ceremony, all of us headed to a restaurant and then to the party we had organised for her. Even Edward had come with Tanya, he was still with. He didn't approve of us, but he wasn't as nasty. He just ignored us, and it was okay. It was better.
Half of the party Carlisle and I spend in the study, plotting, being nervous, kissing and being more worried.
We were just sitting when Alice came in ''Is everything alright?'' she asked us annoyed. We knew it wasn't going to go down smooth, so we anticipated any kind of south mood.
''Alice…'' Carlisle started ''We have something to say.''
''What? That you're fucking?'' She laughed, and we just fell silent. Was she joking?
I didn't dare to ask and neither did Carlisle.
When we didn't answer Alice said while sitting down ''Edward told me… Before rehab. I just felt after that I needed to get myself together, and that helped in a weird way.''
''I'm sorry Alice.'' I spoke up finally, still shocked.
She looked at me, and suddenly her eyes were syphilizing ''Bella, I was angry with you, with Carlisle… But, you both seem a lot more happier and that's the truth. No matter how weird it is.''
I couldn't help but to burst out laughing and crying. This has been crazy, the whole thing. The whole four years and I wouldn't change any fucked-up detail of it.
The End
AN- I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH EVEN IF YOU DON'T KNOW IT
Thank you for being with me.