OK for those who read the original Chapter 20 you need to go back and figure out where I cut it so I could rewrite the second half of the chapter, otherwise you will most likely be very confused.

I wasn't happy with the original at all. I think I posted it only because I felt guilty for not writing in so long. I had writers block and couldn't dig the characters out of the hole I had dug without compromising the story I had built. Of course as soon as I had posted it I had an epiphany and figured out how to move the story forward without selling out to happily ever after so conveniently.

So here is the re-write, I hope its more in character with the story.

Fingers crossed you all like this chapter, I promise that I'm trying to draw the story to a close, honest.

Reviews are very much appreciated.

Thanks for reading.

Chapter 21

Sarah didn't know how to respond to the Goblin Kings declaration of love. She lay in silence trying to focus on the face in front of her. The hand she was holding seemed to have grown very cold.

"You love me?" She asked finally, felling slightly stupid at how the question sounded. She'd dreamt of Jareth saying those words for 9 years but something still felt wrong.

"Sarah Williams I will adore you until my last breath. You made a man out of the spoilt child I have been all my life." He kissed her hand before going on. "But spoilt child or not I did an unforgivable thing."

"I forgive you for taking Toby and Jay. I got back what was mine, I don't mind any more, not if you truly love me."

Jareth forced himself to continue, "You still don't remember, but I did something else, something I can't undo." He pulled his hand away, out of her grip and rose from his chair, unwilling or unable to go any further with his explanations.

"Jareth?" Sarah realised he was leaving and called out, "Please don't go!"

The Goblin King was determined that his willpower wouldn't fail him.

"Don't you dare leave me again!" Sarah tried to rise from the bed again only to be betrayed by her own limbs. Her legs felt so weak she was amazed they supported her weight.

Jareth forced himself to keep moving every instinct and feeling he had told him to run to the woman he loved. He'd made it to the door and was trying to turn the handle. Sarah half ran, half hobbled to catch up with him but ended up collapsing in his arms when she did.

"Don't you dare think that after telling me all that, that you can just run away!" She said firmly and then dragging his head down so his lips met her own.

Willpower melting away, Jareth responded with just as much passion. He carried Sarah back to the bed in long strides. He tried to place her back on the covers gently but for once his fae gracefulness failed him and he misjudged the distance, falling on to the bed on top of her.

Sarah's limbs felt no stiffness now. She still had her arms around Jareth's neck ensuring he couldn't escape. She felt no awkwardness as she pulled at his shirt, freeing it from his leather trousers. There was something very familiar about the feeling of Jareth's taut muscles under her exploring fingers, his spicy scent in her nose and mouth.

Jareth felt a familiar ache in the pit of his stomach and a stirring in his loins as Sarah carelessly ran her fingers over his skin. He forced himself to stay calm, to not rush her, to not scare her off, to not simply disappear to avoid the ruination of this fantasy a second time.

With minimal disruption of their kiss Sarah had managed to remove the Goblin Kings linen shirt completely exposing the pale smooth flesh beneath. But when she realized that Jareth had made no attempt to reciprocate the action she broke off the kiss.

When she looked up at him all the Goblin King could do was return a slightly guilty look of his own. He started to pull away further away but Sarah kept a firm grip.

"Jareth? What's the matter? Did I do something wrong?"

"Never." The Goblin King breathed, putting one hand on her upturned face. "You have never done anything wrong."

She just looked up at the beautiful man in confusion.

"I need you to remember what I did." He removed his hand and turned his head away.

"I told you to it's all a blank." She tried to catch his eye again but he refused to let her for a few moments. "Jareth if there's something I need to know just tell me, I'll find out one way or another."

"Sarah, you are with child," He looked deep into her eyes, "My child." He was searching for something in her gaze.

"You mean we... I can't remember that, not anything." Sarah could feel the headache coming back, "If we... Why can't I remember?"

"It wasn't exactly your idea." Jareth saw Sarah's eyes turn hard and her body stiffen beneath him.

"Did you use magic on me?" The memories of the peach induced dream and it's contents still plagued her.

"No and quite frankly magic would have been kinder. When you first came here, you beat me, you refused me and so I refused to watch you any longer, I planned to forget about you."

"But then you took Jay how does that figure into your plan to forget me."

"I could bear the separation no longer. For the first time in nine long years I had to see you but I saw Jay too and thought that you had given yourself to another."

Sarah tried to look away but Jareth's mismatched eyes had trapped her gaze.

"So to punish you I took him and again you beat me,"The Goblin King had to swallow to keep the bile from rising from his stomach. "I couldn't forgive you so I wasn't going to give you the chance to refuse me." He was rambling, still searching her eyes. "I drew you back into our shattered dream, we danced and you enchanted me." He smoothed the hair back from her face. Her eyes were still cold, distant. "I didn't know that you had waited for me and..."

"I mentioned Jay's parentage. I tried to tell you and you hit me." She put a hand to her cheek remembering the pain, fear creeping into her emerald eyes.

Jareth could not face that look, he rolled away from her finally, reaching for his shirt. "I deserve to rot in hell for that sin alone but there was worse to come."

Sarah tried to stop the memories from flooding back but it was like trying to hold back the tide. She knew what was coming but couldn't avoid it. "No stop! I don't want to remember!" She was trying to crawl away from him but the bed covers tripped her and she ended up sprawled across the bed.

"I didn't know... It never occurred to me that you were... I never thought... and then it was too late." He tried to take Sarah back into his arms but she was fighting tooth and nail. He could hear the storm clouds gathering outside once more. "Sarah you need to stay calm!"

"Why should I stay Fucking calm?" She snapped and Jareth felt himself hurled away. "You just took what you wanted, as always!"

His impact with the wall was very loud and not pleasant, he had his fae healing to thank for allowing him to rise from the floor so fast but even then it hurt. "I can't change what I did." He responded as his joints realigned.

She tried another blast but Jareth was prepared this time. Unfortunately for Sarah the attack rebounded off his shield and knocked Sarah off the bed. The Goblin King had to stop himself running over to make sure she was fine, that the baby was fine.

"You bastard!" Sarah picked herself up the stone floor.

"Sarah you need to calm down." Jareth repeated moving closer to the irate woman.

"Calm down! Is that all you can say? I waited nine years for you to show up and you do this to me! You seem to love making me feel crazy."

"You could've called out to me at any time and I would have been there in a heartbeat." Jareth replied calmly, too calmly for Sarah,

"Yes, you would have appeared in a cloud of glitter, to gloat, no doubt or talk a load of cryptic Fae bullshit." She sent another blast at the King having somehow figured out how to shield herself. "Why couldn't you have just asked me about Jay? I could have been happily married with a houseful of my own flesh and blood children! Why did I wait for you? Tell me that!"

Jareth staggered back a few steps as Sarah's attack broke through his defences. "I didn't want to know about Jay and that was a mistake." He apologized as he regained the ground he had lost.

"Why was I so stupid as to spend a decade dreaming about you?" She sent another barrage.

"Why couldn't I forget you?" He countered when he picked himself up off the floor.

"Why couldn't you come and explain your love for me after you took my virginity?"

"You banished me from your life." Jareth reminded her.

"And how is it that I'm in your castle now if you're not in my life! If you'd truly cared you would have tried anyway."

Jareth was only a few yards from his champion now. "I didn't know what to say or how to make this right."

"And letting me go seemed like a good idea?" There was an almost tangible field around her now. "That night you looked at me as if I was the most horrific thing you'd ever seen, like I disgusted you. I see that disgust in your eyes even now."

"You are still the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. I feel disgusted with myself not you."

"Am I supposed to feel sorry about that?"

Jareth finally managed to step through her shield but he had no answer for her.

"Your apologies mean nothing because I can't trust you!" Sarah forgot the magic and simply slapped the Goblin King. He anticipated the next blow and grabbed her wrist and then her other arm as it swung towards him. She was trapped in his arms and there were tears streaking down her cheeks. The mask of anger was cracking.

"I know that I have done nothing to deserve or win your trust and I can never apologise enough for what I did. All I can ask for is that you allow me to be a part of your life, part of the life of our child." He managed to place a hand on the stomach of the still struggling woman.

Her anger was ebbing away and she stopped fighting, she was sobbing now. "You idiot," Sarah whispered when she'd found some control, "All I ever wanted was you." She laid her head against his chest, tears still streaming down her face.

Jareth could only hold her as she cried, his only glad thought was that the sky outside the window had cleared.