I'm sorry for the really long wait, but I had horrible writers block and I have A LOT of crap going on right now... but I'm working on an update for all my Austin and Ally stories ^_^ and then I'm working on 'After All He's a Rockstar' and a Ausly in highschool storie.. which I have most of already written just haven't put up yet xD... But anyways I wrote a really long one shot to make up for the long wait hope you like it (:
Back To December
Ally's POV
I ran into him for the first time in years today. Right when I though I could manage getting over him, and forgive myself for my stupidity he comes back in my life.. in my heart. I hadn't seen him in 3 years. I know you're probably thinking he got his break and left little scared Ally Dawson behind, but you couldn't be more wrong. I did what I did best three years ago and left him, making the stupidest mistake of my life...
It was a cold October. I was putting the finishing touches on my makeup for my date with my boyfriend of 3 months now, Dallas. Deep down I knew leading him on like this was wrong, I love Austin, but it's the best cover I have, plus me and Austin have talked about this. We can never no matter what happens between us be together for Team Austin.
Dallas knocked on my door with a slightly evil grin, that I thought nothing of at the time, and told me how beautiful I looked and he had a special night planned. The night was amazing at first he took me to some restraint an hour out of Miami thats theme was pickles. We danced, horribly, on the pier on the beach at Miami and for a while I thought I was falling for him. That is before he grabbed my arm a little to tight and dragged me into some really small abandoned room. That's when I found out how strong he was, and how much evil hid in those kind eyes. He took all the innocents I had that night and left me on the beach. I was bruised, my arm was bleeding from where he grabbed me, I was sore, my favorite dress was ripped, my makeup was ruined with tears, and all together I was a mess.
I did the first thing I could think to do, run to Austin's house. He lived on his own now. I knocked on the door like some crazy person and almost punched him when he opened, since I was still knocking. He rapped me in a hug and pulled me inside. He disappeared for at least 10 minutes, but came back with some of his old sweats and a t-shirt, a glass of water and a blanket. I changed and snuggled to him in his room watching The Hangover. I knew the dreaded was coming... him asking questions.
"Ally you have to tell me what happened... Did Dallas hurt you?"
I nodded and sighed "He-he rapped me Austin" I said as I started crying again and told him the story.
He whipped away the tears and kissed me. It wasn't a big deal, we've kissed before, which brought on the whole no matter what stay just friends talk from before. But this kiss led into more. I was weak and Austin was not thinking...
A month later towards the end of November I found out about the baby. I didn't know whos it was but I told Austin anyways. And Dallas overheard. It only took a few weeks for the next bad thing.
But telling Austin went well he said he'd be there no matter who the father was, and I was his 'best friend'.
But one night in early December I was walking to my car from Sonic Boom, and Dallas grabbed me. He tried to kill me but Austin showed up and called the police. I was left unconscious in the snow while we waited on the ambulance. I woke up 3 days later, and found out I lost the baby. The news drove me off the edge.
The day I was allowed to leave I found Austin the the parking lot he handed me a white rose.
"Ally I missed you" I'd been in the hospital 3 weeks with no visitors.
I didn't answer I was scared of everyone after Dallas, even Austin.
"Ally I want to be with you. I love you"
"Austin I'm leaving." I said with a little emotion.
"I'll go with you" he says and for a second I'm not scared and am about to agree but he hugs me, which brings back a flash of Dallas grabbing me and I push him off.
"Austin just leave me alone" I yelled backing up then whispered "I just need to be alone." and with that I took off running, dropping his rose one the way to die in the snow. I ran all the way to New York where I became a music teacher.
But recently I came back. Its been 3 years and I'm 21. I was walking in the park thinking Austin was long gone from Miami, but not to long in my walk I hear the oh so familiar voice call my name.
It was awkward at first we talked about our careers, we are both music teachers. We talked for about 20 minutes when I realized I needed to go meet my aunt for a place to live.
"So Austin can we meet up later tonight and talk more" I asked.
"Yeah let's go to the coffee shop at 7. Meet you there?"
"Okay." I smiled and we exchange numbers, but then a brunette girl around our age walks up to Austin.
"Uh -uh" Austin was nerves " Addison meet Ally, Ally this is Addison my fiancé.." I instantly felt a unbearable pain in my chest I knew I deserved.
"So this is the famous Ally" she forced a smile at me and turned back to Austin "Are you ready sweetie"
"Yeah I'll be there in a minute, I'll meet you in the car" she walks off and Austin gives me an apologetic look.
"So Alls I'll meet you at 7 okay? I really want to be friends again."
I gave him a small, sad smile and nodded. "Me to Austin."
At Coffee Shop
" So how's Dez and Trish" I asked, making small talk.
"Married. Trish had a spaz that you wasn't here though she misses you so much, we all do."
"Wow I knew those two were meant to be."
"Yeah" he gave a sad smile.
"How has your life been?" I ask..
"I own Sonic Boom now.." was all he'd say.
"That's great Austin." I smile.
"How have you been Ally" he asked.
"I'm better. I had a lot of therepy and I'm a lot more stable which is why I came back. I'm working on happyy again."
"I'm happy it's just been so long."
"To long" I say.
"I really missed you Ally." he says.
"You have no idea Austin." I said with a sad half smile. That's when we both get nerves and bring up the weather. And then when we're walking out the door I can't toake it anymroe.
"Austin I'm sorry okay I know your guard is up tonight and I know I'm why I'm really sorry."
"Ally walk with me, let's talk about that night."
We walk a few feet before I apologize again.
"Look Austin I don't get this you want to be friends with me still, how do you not hate me. The last time we saw each other I was running from you. You tried everything, even gave me a rose which still kills me when I picture them dieing in the snow, and I was stupid I left you I'm so sorry for that night.. for everything." he hugs me.
"I understand Ally. It's okay."
"Austin really I know it's to late and you're engaged and you're happy but I shouldn't have left. The freedom I thought I needed was nothing but constantly missing you, I should have stayed with you. It's just even with him gone I felt trapped and scared near anyone, but if I wasn't so stupid and would have at realized what we had I keep thinking –
"It could have been us" we say at the same time.
This time Austin spoke. "Do you realize how little I've slept since loosing you Ally. All I can do for the past 3 years is have you leaving on repeat. All the things I regret like not chasing you, finding you, even not calling you on your birthday everything you just can't blame yourself. But when I think about that summer it's when I can be happy just a permeant picture of you laughing at me singing Adel in the car. How you didn't know I'd loved you since that fall.. the fall we met actually. But once that day dream starts, Ally, I have to hide from Addison so she don't see me break coz I can feel the cold of that dark day. How scared I was when I saved you that I was to late, and how I knew you would need the time. How I tried to give you every bit of love I could muster, but you still left with almost no goodby, Ally it killed me."
"I'm so sorry Austin. I'll never forgive myself I love you."
"Ally I-I shouldn't but... I love you so damn much.. I always have I always will." he said before kissing me with every bit of love we've held in for years and then runs off in guilt and confusion.
I was in my room the next day thinking about Austin. I felt like a teenager writing in my book about how flawless his skin still is, and how his smile still took my breath, and how everything with him just feels so right. Even last night and how I screwed everything up feels meant to me and perfect. Then a flashback comes...
It was the night Dallas rapped me. How Austin wordlessly held me until I stopped crying for hours, and how that was the first time he'd ever seen me cry. And how carring he was.
'Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming but if we loved again I swear I'd love you right.' I say to myself, then I smile to myself knowing that my idea is completely crazy and has a small chance of ending well, but I get up and go to the Sonic Boom anyways. I knew Austin owned it now and that no one was in the shop at this time. I walked in and Austin sees me. "Ally -" but I cut him off.
"Austin come to the practice room I need to play this song for you I just wrote." he agrees and we walk up the stairs to the room that still looks the same.
I sat down at the piano and started singing..
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time
Austin smiled at me. "Ally I called off my engagement. I never really loved her she just reminded me of you. And now you're back and I realize I just can't do it I can't marry her when I don't lover her at all. It's you Ally I'm only capable of loving you Allyson Marrie Dawson."
I smile "I love you to Austin Shor Moon." and then we kiss for the second time this week.
"Wait Ally we're not just friends still right." he smiled.
"I hope not."
"Marry me Ally?" part of me knew that it was to soon and we had technically never even dated but I couldn't help but nod and kiss him again.
The End ^^
Review... and review any plot line you want for the next oneshot.. best ones I'll put up (: and if you have a song you want me to to I need another one since Forever and Always is really What hurts the Most to so the winning song replaces What hurts the most REVIEW vvvvv