This missing scene begins after the end of Season 4, Episode 5 – The Killer…
It wasn't restful, but it was all Elena could think of to do. She was lying in bed, eyes closed, not resting, mind racing. She had no idea what was wrong with her or what she could do to fix it.
She did know that Damon was in her room. She wasn't sure how long he had been there with her, she didn't notice when he arrived, but she knew he was there now. Not that either of them had said anything, but she had told Stefan to stay away, and knew he would. Jeremy would have made noise. Damon was the one with her now.
Her mind was still racing, still wondering what was wrong with her, but it was also wondering if she wanted to send Damon away like she had Stefan. She decided she didn't and said, "I know you're there."
She kept her eyes closed as he said, "I'm not hiding,"
"I told Stefan I wanted to be alone," she said, finally opening her eyes.
She could see him sitting by her window, concerned look on his face as he answered. "So tell me, if that's what you want."
Elena closed her eyes and shook her head. "Something's wrong with me."
"Don't say that," he whispered. She could tell he had risen and was walking towards her, but she kept her eyes closed. "You did what you had to do."
"That's not what I…" she started, then cut herself off and rubbed her head. The guilt was overwhelming.
"I know what happened," Damon continued, speaking softly, "Jeremy would have died because of him. You saved Jeremy just like you saved April – who also would have died because of him."
It took her a few seconds to realize what he was saying, that she had saved them by giving them her blood.
"And he tried to stake me – twice," Elena said, eyes still closed, mostly speaking to herself. "None of that helps. I still killed him."
Damon risked touching her hand, which was still on her forehead as if she had a headache. She found herself opening her eyes as he said, "If you hadn't, I would have – if I hadn't been all vervained and ringless. You did what you had to do."
Elena shook her head and closed her eyes again. "I don't know how I can ever trust Stefan again. A deal with Klaus? How could he do that to us?"
When Damon didn't say anything, she opened her eyes and looked at him. "He knows what Klaus has tried to do to me, and now he's making deals with him?"
She kept her eyes open, but had to look away from Damon as she continued, "And what he did to you…all you do is help me, and he took you out. He took you out and wouldn't let me help."
"But you ignored him," Damon said. "And you weren't even offended when I said you were like me."
"I don't want to be like Stefan," Elena said, shaking her head again. "Lying to me, leaving my brother to die."
"You're not like him, Elena," Damon said, quickly. She could tell he almost said something else, but stopped himself.
"Something really is wrong with me, Damon. I'm having hallucinations again."
"Elena!" he said quickly, sounding concerned. Her eyes followed his to her arms as he added, "Maybe he got you with werewolf venom."
She shook her head as she held her arms up, letting him grasp her wrists as he examined them. "I'm not getting sick. No venom."
"Then what?" he asked, letting her arms go. "I've never heard of guilt hallucinations,"
"I don't know," she said as she leaned back against her pillow. "I don't know what to do."
"Elena," Damon whispered, leaning over her, "We'll figure it out."
She shook her head, "Not Stefan. He wouldn't let me help because this might happen. All he can do now is look at me like I'm about to lose it."
"Ah, your chosen one,." Damon said, a slight mock in his voice. "The one you trust with all of your trials as you go through the transi…"
She sat up so suddenly he almost didn't get out of her way. "Just…don't…rub it in. Ok? This is hard enough."
"You can always reconsider your choice."
Elena was obviously irritated when she asked, "Damon, are you here to be a smartass, or are going to do what you usually do?"
Damon tilted his head, looking a little confused. "What I usually do?"
"Are you going to help me?" She said, her face serious. "I need help. Are you going to help me?"
She watched him move to the other side of the bed and plop down next to her. She had to roll her eyes as he said "Your knight is here, damsel."
She closed her eyes and shook her head as she laid back down, trying keep her face from showing the comfort she felt at knowing she could still depend on him to help her.
Oooh…50 chapters. I can't believe it. And so many actually reading this for all that time. Thanks for reading and commenting. It's what make this fun…
And where is the show after 50 chapters? Tyler has joined Stefan as a TVD saint (though maybe he'll be a good saint, I don't think he's done the damage Stefan has). Elena is saving person after person by passing her blood out, while taking hardly any in…
Oh, and Elena seems to blame Damon for killing (she said "you told me to kill him and I did"). Or maybe she was swearing her loyalty to him – him being her sire and all…
Or maybe she'll be human again after all. I could deal…