Colder Weather
She'd trade Colorado if he'd take her with him
Closes the door before the winter lets the cold in,
And wonders if her love is strong enough to make him stay,
She's answered by the tail lights
Shining through the window pane
She didn't go to the window till she heard him quickly close the door trying to keep the winter cold outside. He'll never understand how she would have gave up Miami for him to take her with him. She thought that maybe how much she'd grown to love him would make him stay with her, she thought, up until two minutes ago when the tail lights shining through the iced over window proofed her wrong, that he would stay with her. But she knew he'd go after his dream. She knew he was growing restless in Florida, she knew it was only a matter of time before he would pack up and leave. But she thought he'd take her with him, she thought that he knew she didn't care about what was in Miami. After all her two best friends have already moved from the state to California. They were happily together, soon to be married, following there dreams as one, everything she wanted. She thought that after finally confessing that they loved each other things would change but now she knew it was only wishful thinking, she wasn't on the same page with who she believed was her soul mate.
At a truck stop diner just outside of Lincoln,
The night is black as the coffee he was drinkin',
And in the waitress' eyes he sees the same 'ol light shinin',
He thinks of Colorado
And the girl he left behind him
He didn't really know why he left, well he knew he needed to follow his dreams, he didn't know why he left her behind. All the trip has done so far is depress him, but he knew going back would be a mistake he'll never learn how to be in one place. But right now he sits at a truck stop diner about a mile out of Lincoln starring down at his black coffee he knew he wouldn't be able to drink. It reminded him that he was alone in the cold and black night that awaited him outside, and it was bittersweet which reminded him his love. The waitress all to soon brought the check signaling it was time for him to leave. The eyes of the youge girl almost killing him, they were almost the same her. He leaves the diner with more thoughts of Miami and the love of his life he stupidly left behind.
Well it's a winding road
When your in the lost and found
You're a lover I'm a runner
We go 'round 'n 'round
I knew I should move on, that who was suppose to love me abandoned me in the middle of a winding road. I felt like that ugly sweater that's been in the lost and found all of high school because no one wants it. Deep down I know that he really does care, but I also know that the person that said opposites attract should be fed to big mama. When one of the half is a runner and the other a lover, nothing can happen except going round in continues painful circles.
And I love you but I leave you
I don't want you but I need you
You know it's you who calls me back here
I don't want her I know that I'm not good for her she deserves the best, but something won't let me let her go, I need her. I know I should be there, I love her more than anything, but my second nature is to leave. I know she thinks I don't care but she has to know that she's the one that brings me back everytime I torcher her with another one night where I'll be gone before she wakes up.
He said I wanna see you again
But I'm stuck in colder weather
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Can I call you then
Today he decided to break my hear just a little more, I got a letter from him.
I want to see you, I really do love you, but I just had to go. How we are is like when the power goes out in a blizzard. The heats gone and no matter how many blankets and cloths you wear you're still stuck in the colder weather. No matter how many miles I go and people I meet I still only want you I want you to heal my freezing heart. Maybe soon I'll be able to see you. Maybe tomorrow will be better Can I call you then?
She said you're ramblin' man
You ain't ever gonna change
Got a gypsy soul to blame
And you were born for leavin
She cursed him for sending her a letter,she just wanted to forget so she wrote him a final goodbye hopping he'd leave her to heal and move on.
Tomorrow is a land made up by people who don't want to commit it's wear all things undid lay and it's where you've kept me for to long. You're a rambling man, and I've finally realized that's never going to change. You can't help your gypsy soul you have to blame , you can't change the fact you were born for leaving. You love the adventure of being alone and going anywhere. I know you can't handle us, you'll leave once you feel tied down like ever other time.
Oh I wanna see you again
But I'm stuck in colder weather
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Can I call you then
Cause I'm a ramblin' man
I ain't ever gonna change
I gotta gypsy soul
And I was born for leavin'
He called her once he got the letter he knew she was right but he wanted to still make it work.
"Hello" her voice sounded weak when she answered it killed him.
"I need to see you I'll always want you but I'll never get out of the colder weather, I just have to keep promising tomorrow."
"Tomorrow will never come we both know that so don't promise you'll call, write, come back don't promise me anything."
"I know I'm a rambling man I know I'll probably never change. I was born with a gypsy soul, I'll always want to leave, but I can't be without you."
"Dez I can't keep this up. Do you have any idea how jealous I am of Austin and Ally happy in California. When's the last time you even spoke to them. Do you know how badly it hurt them when you didn't even come to their wedding, how hard it was to explain I had no idea where you were. They have a son now. He looks just like both of them. He has Austin's eyes and noise and Ally's hair and smile. They named him after you. But you didn't even know they were married did you, much less had a 9 month old. Did you know Ally and Austin have there own label she's over stage fright. But she is almost 26 and has a husband like Austin. You know the last 6 years they've begged me to come live with them in Cali but I refused to leave Miami thinking you'd finally come back for good and I wouldn't be there. Did you know I've managed Sonic Boom in Ally's place for 2 years, longest job I've ever had. I wish I could tell you a big update on my life like I could Austin and Ally but honestly all I've done is wait for you, I'm done waiting I'm going to California to be a manager at A&A records. Goodbye Dez, for good this time."
"I understand Trish. Tell Austin and Ally congrats and I'm sorry. And I love you so much Trish I want to be able to stop running but I don't know how."
"You never will it hurts but I've accepted to. I love you Dez" she said before hanging up.
And when I close my eyes I see you
No matter where I am
I can smell your perfume through these whispering pines
I'm with your ghost again
It's a shame about the weather
I know soon we'll be together
And I can't wait till then
I can't wait till then
Its been a year since that phone call and still every time I close my eyes, no matter where I am, I see Trish. I can smell her strawberry perfume everywhere I go. It's almost like she haunts me. I realize now no matter how popular my video diaries get it's not worth it. I flip open my camera and point it towards myself.
"Hey everybody it's Dez and yep I'm on the Hollywood sign. This will be my last video I'm sorry but I can't run anymore. For years I've ran from the one person I can't live without. Trish if you're still watching these videos I'm done running. I love you. I'm going to learn to control my gypsy soul, and even if I can't I want you with me wherever I go. The stupidest thing I did 8 years ago was leave you behind in Miami. It's hard to believe it's been 8 years since I've seen you. I guess it was the cold weather. ,he laughed to himself and smiled sadly., Trish soon really soon it's going get better. I hope you'll let us still be together I can't wait to see you soon. I can already see Ally writing a song about this, Austin showing me his son and if the internet's right twin daughters, but most of all I can't wait for you to probably beat me senseless for leaving. These past 8 years filming have been amazing. Goodbye everybody." he closed the camera and walked off for the last time, he went to her and swore he'd never run again.
I know it's different from what I normally write on this story but I really wanted to do a Trez story. I hope to have another one shot up today. Let's make a deal thinger review which one shot was your favorite and the song you want me to do next and I'll do those stories first but I'll be able to put them up sooner if you give an idea with your sond vote ^^ Please Review