Finally I have time to update (: I'm sorry it's took so long and I don't want to make a really long AN since you waited so long but pretty much it's been a really hard time lately. I took a break from writing but now I'm back ^^

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Ally's POV

"Austin, why do you act like you don't want me to go to this school. Don't you want me to follow my dream. I stood by you, supported you every step of the way, won't you do the same for me?" I asked.

"Ally, I- I- I just know I'll miss you" I could tell he was hiding something from me, but decided to let it go. My flight left in the morning and I didn't want to fight with him the last night.

"I'll be home at Christmas Austin. It's not like I'm dying."

"New York Ally. It'll be like you are."

"Are you saying that me following my dream makes me dead to you." I said getting angry at him. The last thing I wanted on our last night.

"Ally, please I don't want to fight. If I can't stop you I don't want you hating me."

"Austin you could so easily stop me from leaving. But you're to full of pride to figure out how." I yell walking away. All I wanted was for him to ask me to stay. Say he loves me like I know he does. That's all and I would give up New York for him any day.

The air port that morning, has to be the most heartbreaking day I'll ever go through. My dad was a mess, he cried that whole morning and made me promise to get the earliest possible flight home for Christmas break.

Trish hugged me for a good 10 minutes. She promised to call me daily, and being the only one knowing of my not so secret crush on Austin, promised to make sure no girl got near him. I tried to deny that not wanting him to suffer more than I knew he was, but Trish insisted.

Dez uh Dez gave me his pants as a "I'm always here for you even if we're really far away" present. I really think I'll miss the little goofball more than I expected.

And Austin... Austin wasn't there. At least I thought. Everyone left when my flight was called and I got in line for the plane, and right when I walked on the plane the door slowly closed and I seen Austin. The last thing I wanted was to see him this way. He was broken, he looked a mess and obviously didn't sleep and spent the night crying. I heard him scream my name and I tried so hard to get off that plane but it was to late.

I cried the whole plane ride, I cried til I ran out of tears. I hated that I'd never know what Austin wanted to say. I hated the little cliche movie scene of him announcing his love for me in front of everyone that I daydreamed to much to be healthy. I hated how numb I felt. I hated I left my heart in Miami with my best friend.

Austin's POV

I spent that whole night miserable. I spent so much time trying to figure out how to get Ally to stay. I spent most of the time crying though. Me Austin Moon crying. I hated it, but the one person I love is leaving me, she's leaving me upset at me. Eventually I decided I needed to tell her that I love her.

I ran to the airport, praying with everything I had that I would make it, but right when I got there I seen the plane doors closing, and I desperately called out her name and seen her a way I never wanted to see her.

She was broken, she looked so upset it killed me.

1 month later

I hate life. I hate myself. I'm tired of it all. One month without Ally is like living in hell. I've tried to live without her, but it's been proven impossible.

The Austin that never cries, he's gone. That's all I do now, all I do is cry.

Dez and Trish, they started dating not long after Ally left, so obviously they spend their time being couply without me. So I'm alone.

It's not that I mind being alone, I'm empty, I'm numb, I don't want them seeing me this way. I'm so torn inside.

Honestly I don't know how much longer I'll make it without her. Part of me keeps saying she'll be home in just a few month for Christmas. But then the part knowing she leaves 2 weeks later takes over. It wins me over.

I decided something though. Something I never thought I'd even think of. I'm ending it. My life that is. But not before I try one thing. I'm writing Ally, I'm telling her how I feel. Letting her come home for Christmas. Then I'm doing it.

Ally's POV

The only thing that keeps me alive is the night time. I go on my balcony and look at the stars, it keeps me alive the thought Austin could be looking at the same stars I am.

It makes me feel like I'm with him. I feel so close to him it's like he's right beside me. That's when I hear his voice.

'I'll miss you' Yeah that one replays the most. It kills me. If it's not that it's hearing his broken voice yell my name at the airport.

I gave up writing, without Austin I find it hard to let out my feelings in anyway, even through my book. Well I do have one way, it involves something sharp and shiny, but that's a secret I keep to very well.

One night I considered what it would be like to let it go to deep, let my white sheets turn red, see if I woke in the morning after passing out from what I knew would be a long lasting release.

But before I found my needed tool, I seen a letter from my mail on the table. His name on the label.

Dear Ally,

At the airport, I know you probably think I wasn't there, but I came. I seen you get on the plane, I was late, but I had something so important to tell you. I wanted you to know I love you. And now without you, I love you so much more than I ever thought I could. I know what you're thinking, why don't I tell you this in a few months when you come back for Christmas. Well I won't be there to see you. I won't see anyone. I'm sorry but I can't handle anymore time waking up knowing that day I won't see your face. Nothing much has changed... Okay that's a lie, but no one's took your place. I don't have a new song writer... Actually I don't really sing anymore. But a lot has changed... Dez is dating Trish, and me I'm a mess. Every day gets harder... Ally I miss you. I love you. Please reply I want to know how you feel before I... leave.

love,

Austin

I was crying reading this letter and as soon as I seen him hint towards any form of injuring himself I started packing.

Austin's POV

Today was the day. That night would be the end. I got a letter, I was afraid to read. But before it ended I needed to know her response.

I sat down at my desk, I had a bottle of pills in one hand and the letter in the other. I sat the pills down ready for use when I finish, more than likely, crying over her letter.

Dear Austin,

You have no idea how reading that letter did so many things for me. For one on a lighter note it's about time Dez and Trish got together... but I know that means they probably leave you in your lonesome a lot now. I've learned that being lonely isn't a healthy thing... You pick up some nasty habits. Austin, you say you love me more, and if I wasn't so torn so broken right now, I would say it's impossible. Impossible for you, someone so perfect so amazing, to love someone like me, especially when I've been gone for so long. I'm so sorry for how we left things... I'm sorry I left at all. Austin I'm scared by how you sounded in your letter. Please don't do anything you'd regret... I hope this letter safe you from doing something stupid... Yours sure saved me from doing it. Look please just give it a few days.. I'm coming home for the weekend. I want to spend it with you.

See You Soon,

Ally

Was it just me or did Ally hint that she tried to do what I was so close to doing. I can't go through with it. If Ally would have it would have killed me for sure. I can't do that to her. So for an hour a stared at the bottle, through tear glazed eyes, opening and closing it, taking out the pills, putting them back. Then I heard my door open. I jumped at first thinking it was a parent.

"Austin?" I heard a much weaker version of that familiar beloved voice.

I turned around and stood up, I thought I was hallucinating "Ally?" I said my voice cracking.

"Austin!,'' she ran and hugged me "It's so good to just hear your voice again. I hope you're doing at least a little better than me. God you have no idea how much I miss you."

All I could manage was "Ally" I was in shock.

"Austin. I can't believe I'm here with you. You have no idea how many nights I wished to stars you'd be by my side again."

"You have no idea how many nights I've done the exact same thing Alls." I smiled weakly.

"Austin please what did you want to say at the airport... Please Austin I only have a few days please tell me."

"You're leaving again?" my heart broke knowing she'd be gone in a couple days.

"I don't have to. Austin if you ask me to stay I will."

"That's all you wanted that night isn't it? All I had to do was ask you to stay." I finally figured out.

"You said everything but the one thing I needed to hear."

"Ally, I love you so much. I'm sorry I've came in between your dream this way, but please Ally stay I need you. If I have to watch you leave again I know my heart will just stop all together. I'm always going to love you, I'll always hold on to you." I begged.

"Austin, I never want to loose you, I just about did." she said taking the forgotten pills out of my hand. "I'd choose you over any stupid dream school any day. You're my dream Austin. Of course I'll stay." She said and for the first time in 2 months we both smiled. I leaned in and kissed her, and we both at the same time said "I love you."

So I wrote this at 3am and am running on no sleep so it's probably not my best work.. but I'm pretty proud of it ^^. Review please and tell me a story line you'd like for Marry Me by Train. I hope to have it up in the next few days (: