Iris
Austin Moon... he's perfect, well at least to me. I'd give up anything just for one touch from him, he's the only person that understands me. He understands my need to be perfect, and he accepts me for who I am. He's like heaven on earth for me, and I don't want to be anywhere but right here in his arms like I am at this moment.
"I wish we could live in the moment forever." Austin breaks our silence. I look up at him and smile.
"I wish I never had to leave your side, you're the only thing that can make me feel alive anymore." Ever since my parents died when we were 16 I went into a depression, and when Austin has been the only person to bring me out of it.
True Trish and Dez they try, but it's never as well as him. He's my best friend. My partner. My Moon.
I knew soon he would have to leave, since we were still teens and still had curfews, well he did I was 18 and lived on my own. Austin though was still 17 and he'd have to leave me, and I don't want to miss him like I know I will.
I don't like anyone to see who I really am anymore, I have some parts of me I even hide from Austin. It's just sometimes I feel like I would be better off invisible. I know that I'm close enough to it anyways, mainly because I know when I let people in they wouldn't understand me. The only person I allow to see me broken is Austin. He's the only one I trust, the only want I want to know who I am.
Watching Ally suffer is the worst thing I've ever had to do. I hate spending everyday watching her try not to cry only to fail miserably. I wish she knew how I feel about her. I love her, but I'm to scared to tell her.
I hate having to lie to my Ally. When she asks if it's going to be okay and I always say "Of course it is gorgeous." but honestly I have no clue. Bad things always seem to happen to us, but there was a hint of truth in the lie, as long as she lets me hold her like this nothing bad can possibly come her way.
In moment like these everything feels like a movie, fairy tale almost. It feel almost fake. I know that's how she sees her life, fake. She's fake around everyone, and it's almost like a horrible drama. She bleeds to feel alive, yet she doesn't know I know that seret.
I know one day I'll help Ally out of her funk, but right now Ii'm content fixing what the universe is so set of breaking, and being the only one to know who she is.