Sunburn

You're not her
Though I try to see you differently
I tow the line
You see, I'm searching for what used to be mine

I've been away from her for a year now. As the year went on with my tour we had less and less time to talk, it has gotten to the point we don't even bother to talk anymore. We left on such a delicate time in our relationship, but I couldn't give up this tour.

When I left she told me not to think of our relationship to see what it's like with other people during our time apart. I've tried my hardest to move on from her, but I can't. Every girl I try to date never last for the simple reason of she's not Ally. I try to find differences in them that could be better than my Ally-gator but nothing can beat my love. But still in every girl, and trust me I've tried very hard to find someone to make me forget, I can never find someone that is even remotely lost to what use to be mine with Ally.

And I saw your eyes
And I saw Alice staring back at me
So I will try to find another one who suited me as well as her

Some girls are different though, they're to similar to Ally. I'll look into their eyes hoping to find a magic lust to make me forget my true love, but instead all I see is Ally staring back at me. Every single brown eyed girl I see her, but then again no girl could ever have Ally's exact shade of coffee brown, no girl's could ever shine as bright, or be as doe like, or hold so much emotion behind them. But still I try to find someone that can make me feel as she did.

I've moved far away from you
And I want to see you here beside me, dear
But things aren't clear

I've been on tour for so long, and no where near Miami, where my Ally is waiting my return. I wish she was here with me, this preforming thing isn't as great as I thought without my Ally with me. I can't think clearly without her to help me make decisions. I can't function without all nighters to write songs in our practice room.

We're currently half way across america from each other and it's killing me.

When we never even tried
We never even talked
We never even thought in the long run
Whenever it is painful
Whenever I'm away
I miss you
And I miss you

We never even got a chance to try. I had to leave the day we made up. We never got to talk about what happened that day. I never got a chance to see if we were indeed finally ready. I kissed her the day I left, I told her I loved her. She returned the favor happily, but then told me I'd be gone for over a year, and we should see other people in that time. Those words playing back in my head are painful, I don't know which is worse the thought of Ally in the arms of another, or the fact I haven't heard her I love you's in months.

I miss her so much, we tried skyping and phone calls but it only made the pain worse, plus over time our lives to time away from technology.

She was mine
I was hers and all that's in between
If she would cry
I would shelter her and keep her from the darkness that will be

We were Austin and Ally. Everyone knew we were each other's life, she still is mine. I was always the one that when she cried would got and comfort her, make her blind to the cruel world around us. She would keep my head out of the clouds, keep me grounded. We completed each other.

If I moved far away from you
And I want to see you here beside me, dear
But things aren't clear

The tour is slowly ending, but I'm still far away from my darling. We finally got a chance to skype tonight though. It was painful to see her and not be able to hold her.

"Hey Alls." I said giving her a sad smile.

"Austin! I miss you so much!" yelled a much different Ally. She looked thinner, her eyes were darker, her hair duller, and I knew I was the cause of this.

"You have no idea, Ally I'm never going on tour again if you don't come." I said honestly, I couldn't handle this again.

"Don't say that Aust, you can't let your fans down."

"You're much more important babe."

"Austin I love-..." and the internet connection went out leaving me with an unclear frozen picture of a slightly happy looking Ally about to tell me she loved me for the first time in months. It hurt.

"I love you too." I whispered to her frozen image before closing the computer.

Don't drop me in
It's not my turn
If you cut deep
Then I might learn
That you scarred and left me
Like a sunburn

The tour was ending soon, and my biggest fear is Ally won't want me anymore. I can't handle if Ally dropped me without even giving me a chance. She cuts deep in my skin, leaving a mark in mean that made her my life. She's made me learn what love is and I love her for it. She scarred me, but left me like a sunburn.

We never even tried
We never even talked
We never even thought in the long run
Whenever it was painful
Whenever I was away
I'd miss you
And I miss you

I knocked on her door finally. It took her a minute to open, I heard her running around the house yelling for me to hold on. She had no idea I was on the other side of the door, she didn't know I would be back today.

"May I help- AUSTIN!" she yelled before jumping on me in a bone crushing hug.

"Ally love I've missed you so much, it was painful. I hated leaving you at were we left, how we never talked about it and never had a chance. Please tell me you didn't stop loving me?" I begged.

"Austin I couldn't even give another guy a chance I couldn't do it to you. It was so painful how much I missed you, I love you still darling." I smiled and kissed her. Ally had left her scar on me, just like a sunburn, but more joyful. I'd never leave her again.