So I will be writing Kaname, Yuki and Zero. I've revised this one a few times in hopes of making everything flow smoothly together. As always, thanks for reading and reviews!

Ena-

YUKI:

"Zero! Hold on okay? I'll go get the blood for you." He was panting and reaching for me.

I ran to the fridge and threw the top open, grabbing a blood packet of Kanames because for some reason this time it seemed really bad and I wanted the assurance of the strength in his blood. It wasn't very often that you bled a pure blood vampire and never for something like this. I punctured the top with my fangs and ran to him without thinking.

He grabbed my wrist rather than the blood packet and pulled me down on my knees in front of him. "Mine" he had growled lowly in a way that was hard to understand.

"Zero don't" he hesitated; I could feel it but couldn't stop himself. I let him do what he needed going limp in his arms that held me to his chest rather than jacking up his hunting instinct by struggling.

I noticed he was holding me gently and stroking my hair even as his fangs were bared and he radiated insanity.

He was still there so in the end I tilted my head back, allowing him to go right ahead and bite me but I threaded my fingers through his hair too trying to soothe the beast.

It hurt like a bitch, he had no regard for being careful at all, just bit down and slurped, sliding fangs in and out of my to open the wounds which only made it hurt more.

His hand caressed my back and he made whimpering sounds to match my own though so I wasn't afraid, he wouldn't kill me.

I guess it was stupid of me to let him do this, to force him to live at all but letting him die was something I couldn't even think about doing. It was selfish because I needed him in some warped sort of way which was the entire reason I refused to allow him to find 'eternal peace'.

I tried to focus on the way his hand moved on my back in slow circles so that I could do something other than focus on how dizzy I was getting, this was always the worst part. Soon everything would go black and I would be lost in a sea, flowing with angry waves on water threatening to swallow me up.

I was pushing it, I would drown one day and I knew it but damn, it wasn't about the drowning. It was about the hours that I would be lost at sea, not able to know if I was enough to pull him through this time.

The edges blurred together and I heard a loud whining and felt arms tighten but not the familiar slide of fangs from my neck, he was still drinking.

Hey, I might die after all. But if it was to save Zero even one more time than I didn't mind. I felt my fingers slip from his hair and black swirled until it enveloped me.

I woke with a start and looked around to find myself in the basement as I had the last few times. Kaname did this just for me, so I wouldn't hurt anyone when I woke up.

I looked over at Zero, his eyes tracking me. Without thinking I crawled from the bed to the edge of where he could reach, but this time I couldn't walk. "Get away from me" he growled. My heart hurt to see him so down, so lost.

"Lavender?" I asked smiling. "Don't you dare come that close to me" he hissed. I always gave him a bath after he ate, a sponge bath but it was the best I could do. "I'm going to have that cage built for you soon, the bars are almost done."

They had to be charmed so he couldn't get away. "Leave me." He insisted. I lay down just out of his reach, feeling good being this close to him. "Get off the damn floor. Are you crazy?" I ignored him in favor of watching him like he did me.

He was beautiful, I don't care what anyone said. His lavender eyes were full of hatred now though, for everything around him including me. It made me sad to look at such a stunning face and see nothing but anger and emptiness.

"Yuki please, just leave. Don't come down here any more, I came way too close to killing you. Please" he looked like he might cry and it was killing me. I got on my hands and knees and crawled closer, in his reach now all the way to him.

He'd plastered himself against the wall but I curled up to him, in his lap. "You won't hurt me right now. You're okay" I insisted.

"You don't hurt me you know, I hurt me. I make you" I confided my worries. He shook now, with what I wasn't sure.

"I'm awful and selfish and…" tears welled up in my eyes, this was usually the only time we had together where he didn't want to rip my head off, the first and this was how I was wasting it.

His hand lightly brushed a tear from my face. "Please, just let me die okay? We had a deal but it didn't include anything like this misery you put both of us through Yuki. I don't want to hate you for keeping me" I sat up way too fast to look him in the eye.

"I don't care if you hate me! This is why I keep you, because you're still in their aren't you!? And the deal was when every part of your humanity was gone, I would end you. You're talking to me, you're touching me, and you aren't trying to kill me." I insisted fervently, making myself almost pass out again.

"Shh" he said reaching for me. "Okay, it's okay. Calm down." He soothed, holding me to his chest. "For you I'm not going anywhere. After I get a TV and stuff down here well hell, I might like it a lot better" it was a lie and I knew it but I was willing to accept it as long as it meant I could keep him with me. As long as using the pistol from so many years ago that was under my bed was not needed.

I cried silently into his shoulder, his head rested against the wall and arm around me while his legs circled my kneeling ones. "Please hate me. For you and for me." I deserved all his hatred, because I was a vampire and I was forcing him to live.

"No, I could never hate you, I love you more than anything."? That truth haunted me in every moment I forced from him.

Kaname opened the door, walked down to check on me. I looked at him from my place with Zero and his face twitched enough for me to notice it. He was livid and I hated making Kaname mad, though as a vampire I'd grown a backbone along with the fangs.

"You're awake." He stated before turning to walk back up the stairs. "We will all have to have a talk in a little while about what happened. I'm taking the key away from you."

I shot up from my spot, got dizzy and fell right on Zeros lap. Not caring I began to argue. "How am I supposed to keep him alive if you don't let me see him?" I tried to be as persuasive as possible, in retrospect Kaname had done so much for me I had no right to yell.

"My prime focus is keeping you alive, so I don't care to know. What I do know is you will not be down here unsupervised ever again after the twenty four hour window when you feed him."

I hated people telling me what to do but I always bowed to Kaname, I had no right not to. He was superior to me in every way but to endanger Zero was not something I could allow.

"Well then someone always better be available for me to see him. You aren't taking my key, I swear I'll ask everyone I can find." I wasn't bargaining that. "But you don't get to complain when I wake you in the middle of the night to come here to make sure he's okay. It will be you, always for that."

He looked mildly perplexed and sort of pissed off. "We will talk about this later" he said closing the door before I could get another word in.

"Why do you insist on doing that to him?" Zero asked.

I rested my head back against his chest and sat with my butt on the floor between his legs. "I do what he tells me with everything but you. You aren't his so he doesn't get a say in it."

In truth this was the only argument we ever had. I was happy to stand beside him as the support he needed, he had still been the one to save my life even if I saw it from a slightly different light now.

"This is his house, you do what he says." Zero mumbled.

"No one is taking my key from me. I come here when I want and it's not going to change any time soon. I can accept an escort but I will not hand over what belongs to me" I mumbled back, maybe I hadn't found all of that backbone yet.

"He's just trying to keep you safe" Zero retorted. "You aren't going to kill me! You won't I know better, even this last time you were there, you rubbed my back! You were responsive!" I was unsure of who I was trying to convince with my yelling.

He flipped me around and shook me lightly. "I would have. If you wouldn't have started crying, I would have killed you. I smelled the tears and managed to stop, but that was the only reason!

This isn't like when we were in school, I'm dangerous and you damn well know it."

Well right now I didn't care if I was dead or alive. I had things to attend and people to speak with, a whole life neatly planned out. It was almost as if I wasn't needed at all, I could be replaced by anyone with a pure bloodline.

I opted to stay put the rest of the night and just lay with him until he fell asleep. I snuck out from in the circle of his arms and made my way up, back to the living.