Lena POV

I was in my bed with Stef. While I was reading my book, Stef was browsing a magazine, reading the articles she found interesting. Two pages in the 11th chapter in my book, we both heard that one of our kids was heading downstairs.

Stef turned the next page, eyes still on the article, and said recognizing her footsteps "Mariana"

I put a finger in my book and closed it for a moment. I listened carefully, wondering why she would head downstairs at this time of day. She was walking around a lot, from one room to another

A moment later she hurried back up, walked back to her room, and then again headed downstairs. I turn to Stef who didn't seem worried about her

"What is she doing?" I ask Stef, even thou I know she knows as little as I do

Stef shrug back as she was reading the article "Who knows why she does half the stuff she does. She is Miss Thing for a reason, love"

"You are not worried?" I ask her back and just then there was a knock on the doors. We both instantly looked over to the doors. I called out "Come in!"

The doors swung open and Mariana walked in, looking way too active for this time of day "What's up, baby?" I ask watching her closely

She had walked in 5 steps when she called out "There it is!"

She hurried up to Stef's side of the bed and grabbed the magazine out of Stef's hand, before Stef could react

"I was looking for it!" Mariana commented as she was already on her way out of the room

"Night!" She called back and hurried out of our room, closing the doors behind her

I slowly look to Stef, to see her reaction. She was still sitting with her hands up like she would be holding the magazine in her hands. Her mouth was open a little, in shock. Stef slowly looked to me with a perplexed facial expression

I let out a small laugh and leaned back to the headboard and opened back my book back up "I told you not to take her magazine without telling her"

"I paid for it!" Stef reason back, but the facial expression did not change "I am allowed to read it, aren't I?" Her hands finally fell down to her lap

"I guess not" I smirked at her and got comfortable

Stef reached for her glasses and placed them on the nightstand "I am going to get it back!"

"Aha…sure" I mumbled back as Stef tossed the blanket aside and got up. She walked out of the room with so much confident, with that fire in her eyes.

After 5 minutes she returned empty handed and her walk was less confident, she was now shuffling her feet. She fell in the bed next to me, face to pillow and whined back "I didn't get it back"

I once again close the book with the bookmark now in and pat Stef's back "There, there honey. Maybe you can get home sooner tomorrow and read it while she is still in school" I say with a smirk on my lips. I was enjoying this too much.

She turned on her back and stared up the ceiling "Apparently Amy has a date, and Callie asked her if she can come with them dress shopping"

"A date?" I was taken by surprise

"Mm-hmm" she nods back

"With who?" I was now intrigued by this

"She didn't know" Stef said back and wiggled her way back under the blanket. Then she reached to turn off the light on her nightstand

Stef then leaned to get a kiss goodnight, but stopped just inch away from my lips "Oh and she is going to be home late tomorrow. Definitely after curfew. Night!"

She put a quick kiss on my lips and fell back to the bed, back turned to me, pulling the blanket over her head. I was left stunned for a moment. I reached to pull down the blanket from her face.

"Did you allow it or did you just give in?" I ask her firmly

"Gave in" She mumbled and turned to face the pillow "Love you, night!" she replied quickly, trying to avoid this

"Stef! You can't just give in like that! It is a school night. She can't be out till 10! She has homework" Stef moved and pushed up on her elbows and was now looking to me

"What do you except? I couldn't even get the magazine back. Besides, she is going to be with Amy, who is an adult, if I may remind you. So she will be fine!"

"She is half-adult! Just like you are! A pretend adult! Young adult at the best…" I reason back with a small smile on my lips

"Still better than no adult" Stef grinned back and reached for my book. Took it out of my hands and tossed it to her side nightstand "Now, stop worrying and cuddle with me!"

I reached for the light, to turn it off and then moved down to bed to be the little spoon

"I can't believe Amy has a date" I said after few minutes of just lying there, cuddling with Stef "Wasn't her anniversary sometime around this time?"

"No" Stef said placing a small kiss on my back of the shoulder "It was in January"

"In January?" I was so sure it was sometime around this time. I can't believe I was so wrong. I have never mixed up dates so much. I was good with remembering important dates. I remember birthdays and wedding anniversaries, date when the twins and Jude got to us, the date when they first called us moms. I am good with details. How could I be so wrong with this?

"In the 19" Stef said in the dark in a soft voice "You gave Callie the first detention that day"

Oh no! – was all that I was thinking at that moment. I wiggle out of her arms and turn back on the light and sit up

Stef was pushing up on her left elbow looking at me surprised "What is it honey?" Stef asks me gently

"No!" I was desperately trying to convince myself that Stef is wrong "It was in May! It was in May, I remember how she told—"

"Her birthday is in May 29th. The anniversary is in January 19th!" Stef told me without any doubt in her voice

"No, I remember specifically—" I still tried to argue back

"Honey, trust me. I know, I attended their funeral. It was in January 24th!"

"Oh no, no, no! No wonder she hated me! She thought I was a heartless" I fell back in the bed, my palms covering my face as I was trying to come in terms with this. I felt awful, truly awful.

That means, Callie was probably trying to help Amy the best way she could to help her mom get thought the day, but I gave her a detention for that. I have never felt worse than I do right now.

Amy POV

May 14th

I got in the squad car together with Stef. I took the seat behind the wheel as Stef took the seat next to me. Once we both had buckled up, I drove out to the main street. But once I did, Stef spoke up

"A blind date?" She asks l with the smirk on her lips

"How do you know about that?" I ask forgetting the fact that Callie called Mariana last night

"Mariana" Stef says simply back

"I should have known" I nod back "Yes, I have a blind date. Is something wrong with a blind date?" I answer her

"No, no" she shakes her head, but the smile never leaves her face "I just…" she scratched her brows "I never pictured you as a blind date kind of person" I stop the car at the first junction, at the red light

"Is that a bad thing? I never pictured myself as blind date person too, but is that a bad thing?" I ask her confused, looking at her

"No, it is not a bad thing. It just means that…I can't picture you going on a blind date. That's exactly what it means" Stef was having trouble explaining what she meant by that

Stef takes a small pause and then adds "I just have to ask – why didn't you ask me to set you up on a blind date?"

"I didn't ask Hernandez to set me up, okay?" I clarify quickly "He just came up to me yesterday and told me he had set me up on a blind date. I didn't ask him to do that. I didn't want a blind date to begin with, okay?" I reply as I drive out when the light turns to green

Stef shifts slightly in her seat and then says back "It is hard picturing you with someone else but Aaron. You were in this committed, loving relationship for over 20 years. I know, I barely knew him, I met him like 4 times, but you two looked so in love and happy. You had a family together and it is just, it is kind of hard picturing you on a date with someone else, but him"

"You saying I shouldn't go on this date?" I ask after a small pause, now considering to cancel it

"No, no, not at all. I think you need to go. I think it will be good for you. Get back out there. I understand that-okay, I don't understand, how hard it is to get back to dating after… but maybe that's why this blind date thing will be perfect. It will just help you get over the nervousness and all what comes with from starting to date again." Stef was gesturing a lot with her hands as she spoke

"You think there will be a next date with the blind date guy?" I ask kind of scared of that happening

"That is up to you and only you. But if you ask me, I wouldn't put too much hope in this blind date guy" she says after a moment of thinking about it

"Have you ever done a blind date thing?" I ask curious and peak a quick look her direction

"No. I jumped from Mike straight to Lena without any weird dates" Stef said smiling

"Is it weird that I am..." I couldn't find the right word to describe how I was feeling about it. It was all these feeling mixed together.

"Scared?" Stef offered

"No, not really scared…I can't really explain it. Okay, yes, I am a little bit scared, I am nervous and anxious and concerned, but part of me, I think, is excited too. Part of me is looking forward what this date could bring and honestly, I just want this first date after Aaron to be over. I feel like I have been dragging it along with me. And I won't get rid of this feeling that I have, not until I actually go out for first time." I tried to explain it the best way I could

"Deep down I know, Aaron would want me to be happy, to find someone, but I also have this feeling, that if I do go on this date, it will be like cheating, in some strange way. Like I have betrayed him or something…I don't know, it is really confusing"

I have been having these mixed feeling from the moment Hernandez told me that he had set me up on a blind date. I was kind of glad he gave me the little push I need. The push I couldn't give myself.

"Well…" Stef started as she rested her right hand on the door, just by the side window "That part, up until you started talking about the cheating part, sounded a lot like what I was feeling, when I was going on first date with Lena. The transaction from Mike to Lena…it was really confusing at me at first, and scary, but still exciting. Add sexually confused to what you are feeling. But in the end it turned out to be exactly what I needed." Stef shared with me

"I am not the person to talk about the second part" Stef said and was now looking at me, as I saw It in the corner of my eye as my eyes were on the road "But, I would want Lena to be happy too, if something happened to me. I wouldn't want her alone and sad—"

"How could she be alone- she has 5 kids!" I chip in quickly with a smile

Stef chuckles back but then adds seriously "You know what I meant" I nod back as I got the real meaning of it

"Of course I would never want for something to happen to me, my goal is to grow old with her, but if something did happen to me, I would want her to find someone who would love her, take care of her. In no way, that would be considered cheating."

"For some reason I keep thinking back to Callie too. I need to set up a good example for her, you know. I can't just go around sleeping with guys, having one night stands, different guy every night. She has had her share of unstable family life for most part when she was in foster care. I don't want to put her thought that again" I say back and then take a small pause

"When I was her age, I looked up to my parents, to their committed, loving relationship. They both respected one another so much. I knew I wanted a relationship like my parents have. And I had that relationship - with Aaron. But now, I need to start from scratch. It scares the hell out of me, because I have Callie to think about. I am doubting myself, whether or not I could find a guy like that. Someone who is okay with my past and with me having a kid. Callie needs to like him, if she doesn't…there is no way the relationship could ever work"

I was glad I could finally get it off my chest, what I was keeping to myself. I could never shared this with Callie, I was thankful for a friend like Stef who I could talk about things like this, adult things.

Stef replies gently "I have no doubt that you will find a guy like that. There are good guys still out there. You just have to believe that yourself" I nod back to that and concentrate on the road.

AN: Good news for you, not so good for me. So i will probably will be updating pretty frequently for the next couple of days. Why you ask? Because today I ruptured a tendon (i hope i translated that correctly) in my right leg. I am basically on bed rest, because my leg f# #$ hurts. Plus I am high on pain meds (slightly) at this moment. Also i am bored. That's what i get for playing basketball :( Anyway, hope you still like it. I know this chapter was kind of boring, but i hope you will stay with me...