Emotionless

Chapter 51, Tears of the Emotionless

Ah! I am so sorry I just realized it's been over a week since I've updated this story! XD

Ever since school has started back up the days just been flying by. I'm also beta-ing multiple stories and have been having my own complete or soon to be stories edited by my own awesome beta-helpers. I also have my newest Fairy Tail fanfiction out called the Girl with the Celestial Tattoos if you guys wanna check that out if ya haven't already.

It's different from Emotionless but I still have Lucy's character going through a change of her personality and such. I think I only have three chapters out on the story though, so if you wanna read it later that's fine.

And it's not that this is too much work for me, it's just that my time is so limited! But hey, I would never give up on my readers and fellow authors! I actually wrote this chapter in my extra time in class today so it's no trouble and I did not want to have you guys wait any longer ^.^

Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail

Lucy's Pov..

Do you know what sucks? Having the bloody train station run out of tickets the moment after your partner buys the last one.

Hmm, maybe its just bad karma for making an embarrassment out of the royals, even if it was in private.

"Are you sure?" I sigh for the hundredth time to the question he (aka Gray) never ceases to ask. Gray was getting on this train, even if I had to chain him on the front of the train for that to happen.

Which leaves in the five minutes, actually. He's been trying to talk his way out of getting on the train, but we both knew he wanted to get on this train, he was merely showing courtesy.

"I mean really, what are you going to be doing for the next six hours? It's not like you have any money!" I sigh at Gray and punch his shoulder to get him to shut up.

"I'll figure something out, you forget I've been on my own before Fairy Tail. I can take care of myself. Now get on your bloody train before I have to drag you there unconscious!" I say calmly, smirking slightly noticing my partner shiver slightly.

Strange, I didn't think it was very cold out here..

He slowly scoots over to the train, but with a threatening step towards him he literally leaps into the train as fast as he could, practically shoving his ticket into the ticket man's face before disappearing into the train.

I chuckle and remain at the train station until the train departs, sending a swift wave knowing Gray was looking for it, before leaving to who knows where.

Time passed slowly as I wondered around Crocus, watching and waiting for something, what? I didn't know.

Walking aimlessly can be nice if I didn't have a home to. Yes, Lucy of the Lost Souls has a home, Fairy Tail. After all, I hadn't lied to Rogue when I had told him about our Nakanama, not in the last dimension.

"When this is all over, the guilds will be heartbroken." Rogue said, tonelessly.

I spared him a glance, he had a haunted look in his eyes. "Yeah, they will. We may die like the others too, all we can do now is finish the job and return home."

Rogue looked up into my green and red eyes with his own red ones. "Home.."

I quirked her lips slightly, "Yeah. You're home, Sabertooth. Fairy Tail for me I guess. We also need to return those of the dead back to their homes as well. Even when we're dead we still have a place to call home."

So, even when I live in a world without emotions, I refuse to let it weigh me down. Doing nothing though, I don't like that. What would I learn if I did nothing the rest of my life? How to waste away my life is all I can come up with.

Daylight is still out and will remain for the next half a dozen hours of so.

I eventually ended up laying on my back, on a bench, with my eyes closed and listened to the light footsteps of the citizens in Crocus along with the soft wind brushing against the trees.

"Excuse me?" I force my body to remain as it was and my eyes not to open the moment I recognized the owner of the voice speaking to me.

"You're excused." I reply, biting the inside of my lip to keep me from smirking at her, imagining her expression to my reply.

"No, I-" Hisui began again, but I interrupted her before she could even finish her sentence.

"There's another bench over there. Now, leave." I say simply, but also seep some irritation into my voice to make it sound more believable.

A pause and I began to wonder if Hisui was either glaring at me in anger or frustration.

"I don't want the bench, I just want to talk." She tried again, and the poor girl was really trying not to let her annoyance seep into her tone.

Simply put, she failed miserably.

"Sucks, I don't want to." I reply swiftly, dismissing her. She was too stubborn though.

"Even if it's important?" Wow, she really doesn't give up easily.

I let out a sigh sounding like I was an elder scolding a child. "I know a lot of more important things to do, then talking with a pestering stranger."

She scoffed this time and I couldn't help but peek an eyes open to see her in her noble robes, tiara, and newly returned necklace. She was too busy beating up a pebble to notice me, fortunately.

"Even with the princess?"

I close my eyes when she turns back my way, forcing my shoulders to not tense up to the monster and murderer before me.

"Yes," I clench my teeth and feel my eyes narrow under my eyelids. "Especially with the princess."

"What do you have against you?" Of course, she wouldn't even think that she had something against me. No, she always get's the white card.

"Wouldn't you like to know, Hisui." I say, sitting up and opening my eyes to look at her surprised expression.

"You knew it was me this entire time?" She asks in disbelief, more of surprise that I would speak to the dear sweet princess in such a way than anything else.

I roll my eyes at such an obvious question. "Your voice is very recognizable, Hisui." She stares at me in annoyance for using her first name but sighs in the end, surprising me as she sits on the empty space I created when I sat up on the bench.

I considered getting up and leaving just to annoy her but ended up relenting, I couldn't run from the daughter of the king, no matter how much I would prefer to escape her.

At the close proximity we are at now, it threatens my tolerance. I want to beat her face in until it is no matter recognizable, I want to smash her tiara beneath my heel, and I was to take that necklace I returned to a heartless bitch and disintegrate it with my magic.

Of course, Kami wouldn't allow me to that, especially time itself. If I did that, not only would I probably be executed but Fairy Tail would be shamed because of me, and I refused to allow that to happen.

So I force my shoulders to relax as I lean into the bench, crossing my arms behind my head and closing my eyes in the process.

"Listen, I only wanted to say thank you properly for returning my necklace." She tells me, and I hold back a sigh of annoyance not replying instead.

"It was my mother's before she passed away when I was younger, you don't know how much it means to me to have this back. And I owe you for it." She tells me, and I could tell she made a move to touch me in some way but my eyes opened revealing narrowed and a very dangerous gaze staring back at Hisui, who retreated her hand from touching my shoulder.

She cleared her throat and got up, I could tell she was a little shaken by the look I had given her, and I was pleased by it.

It was her who ended my life, her who left me in the state I was during the Dragon Eclipse being hunted down by my own guild. Her who didn't lift a finger or say a word during the whole hunt that was after me, for causing it. I didn't cause it, sure I was at some fault but even if I did say no, I would have been thrown back in jail and she would've stolen my keys to do it herself.

She is the worst Celestial mage out there, only learning the magic to get her own selfish deeds down, not even caring about the spirits.

Hell, I could feel the anger but I knew it was raging inside of me. Just because I couldn't feel it did not mean I had no emotions entirely.

I was so overwhelmed with the urge to strangle her I had to close my murderous eyes and lean forward to prevent my body to shake with rage.

Distantly I heard the familiar clinking of coins and knew what she was doing.

"I don't want your money." I snarled, and couldn't help myself. Royals always thought they could get away with everything because of the endless amounts of jewels they had. There were people starving out on the streets in Fiore, and she did nothing with the endless supply she had but use it for her own needs.

The clinking of coins stopped and I imagined she was looking up at me with an expression I didn't know.

After another silence she spoke softly. "I don't know what I or my father did to make you hate us so much, but whatever it was I'm sorry and wish there was more I could do.. this isn't much, but it's the least I can do for you after returning my necklace."

I was so tempted to bare my wolf-like fangs at her and tear her apart, it took all of my will power not to break her neck right then and there.

Sorry, she was.. sorry? SORRY?

Is that the best she can do? After everything she did she thinks she can say sorry and it'll all be okay? She thinks all can be forgiven with a sack of coins.

Nobles, their all the same. So selfish and weak!

I clenched my fists and kept my eyes shut tight and couldn't prevent my body from shaking in rage this time.

"Are you okay?" I hear her ask, and had to force myself not to break out laughing madly at her comment. I've been ignored by my guild twice, betrayed by them, hunted by them, and had to either kill or watch them die and she asks me if I'm okay? If it wasn't for her selfish desires I wouldn't be here time traveling through dimensions searching for the Dark Rogue in the first place!

Because of her poor decision I have been scarred both inside and out for everything that has occurred, I have had my arm cut off and I have died because of her. My Nakanama has been murdered twice because of her and it is her fault my spirits had turned on me resulting to me having to murder each and everyone of them in a blind rage.

Am I okay?

No, I am not fucking okay!

Because of you, Hisui, I have lived through hell more than once and I promise you will pay for what you've put me here. I will make you pay for the pain you've put me through.

If I have to murder someone ever again besides Dark Rogue, it's going to be you.

Just not now, here and at this time is not the right time or place. If I killed Hisui now, everyone would keep believing she was the innocent, that it was everyone else's fault.. that is was all my fault.

Because everything is always, always my fault.

And that's just the simple cold truth..

"You should leave." I tell her, once my body stops shaking. I can feel her hesitation but slowly she begins to walk away, the sound of her footsteps resounding through the streets, and forever echoing in my ears.

I open my eyes and look up, watching as Hisui's hunched over figure disappears from my view and into the mist.

I sigh and bring my hands up to my face, but pull them away when I feel the cold wet feeling against my hands. I stare at my wet hands and let out a bitter laugh.

How sad, I cry even when I can't feel the emptiness inside of me. It feels as though there is a giant hole through my chest, and only I can see and feel it wherever I go.

Out of all my emotions, only one remains.

The feeling of loss.

And I feel so fucking lost.

I comb my hair back with my hands and stare at the ground, my tears falling from my cheek and hitting the pavement beneath me.

So sad, I don't even know why I'm crying.

How can one so emotionless, shed such a thing of tears?

How can one without feelings, still feel lost?

Why is it, the only thing I can feel...

Is Emptiness?

Intense chapter huh? I actually changed it up a little from my written version to make it a little more realistic, not that you guys could tell anyways.

I'll try to have the next update out sooner than this one, since it took this chapter over a week to get in and that's unusual. Don't expect it to continue like that though, Lucy's the emotionless one not me XD

Once again, thank yous to everyone who has supported this story through Favorites, Follows, Communities, Reviewing, and even reading it!

I never expected to have so many readers so far at this point, to be honest I expected just about everyone to drop the story after what occurred in the last dimension.

A lot of readers did actually, but more remained than what left and for that I am both extremely surprised and grateful.

More chapters are coming, this story has literally just begun.

Live and Go Crazy Reading ;)

Sincerely,

The Reaping Wolf

~ Shadows guide you, friends.