AN: I have decided to go thought with the whole Camping trip. Thank you for your reviews :) Also, about Callie thinking of Stef and Lena as her moms as well - all good comes with time ;)
Stef POV
Flashback
I was standing in the living room, with a cup of coffee in my hand, watching Callie sitting in her car, that was parked just by our house.
"Is that Callie?" Lena asks walking up to me
"Yep" I said and sipped my coffee
"When did she get here?" she asks reaching for my cup of coffee and takes a sip herself
"6 minutes and 22 seconds ago" I reply after I look at the clock on the wall
"And she has been just sitting there?"
"Yes" I confirm and take back the cup of coffee "What do you think she is doing?"
"…It's not 10:30 yet" Lena replied "I will go tell Jude Callie is here"
I take another sip before I head to the front doors. In few seconds I am by her car and I lean down to tap on the passenger side window. Callie jumps from the noise and looks to me.
"Morning!" I say loud enough so she could hear me from inside the car. She sits there, staring at me for some good few seconds until decides to move. I stand up straight when she get out of the car, she doesn't close the doors behind.
"I know I am early…I know I said I would be here at 10:30 and it is barely 10, but I couldn't sit at home any longer and I thought I would come by sooner and I would drive around the block few times-" she started to ramble fast. I raise my free hand up and stop her ramble.
"Come on in then" I say gesturing with my free hand to follow me, Callie closed the doors and run around the car
"You can come inside, we don't bite" I tell her when she was up to me
"I just…I don't want to intrude" Callie said back shyly as she follows me in the house. Without telling, she takes off her shoes and places them as neatly as she could by the other shoes.
"You are not intruding. Do you want something to drink or some snack?" I reply as I guide her to the kitchen
"No, thank you" Callie replies politely
Jesus was having breakfast when we entered "Jesus, you remember Callie…"
"Hi!" Jesus says casually, Callie slowly raises her hand up and waves at him
When she lowers her hand, I can see she doesn't know what to do with her hands. She was standing pressing more to one of her legs, but then she straightened her stand and crossed her hands in front of her, but she didn't really look comfortable that way, it looked forced.
"Jude said you are planning on going to the Arcade…" Jesus said watching her, Callie nods back "He is really bad Air Hockey, but you need to watch out if you are playing racing games with him…" Callie looked surprised by what Jesus said. She didn't get to reply because Jude and Lena walked in.
"Hi!" Jude said cheerfully when he entered, Callie turned to see him. It felt like she wanted to hug him, but she didn't go thought with the idea.
"It's good to see you again Callie" Lena said smiling to Callie as she walked towards me
"You too, Mrs. Adams Foster. Thank you again for allowing this" Callie replied shyly. We smiled back at her and then Lena reminded "Please, it's just Lena. I want him home by 6!"
"Of course" Callie replied without a hesitation and turned to Jude "Ready to go?"
"Yes!" He said enthusiastic and both of them walked out of the kitchen
"She is so cute when nervous" I whispered to Lena as we watch them both get their shoes on. When they got out of the house, we both hurried to the living room, to watch them go to the car.
"I think she is just scared to mess it up" Lena comments as we watch them get in the car
End of Flashback
I got pulled out of my thoughts, when I heard Lena and Amy laughing sincerely about something.
I looked around me. It was dark, the only light was from the small campfire that was slowly burning out. It was just me, Lena and Amy left sitting outside. The kids had gone to sleep one by one. Lena and I were sitting next to each other, holding our hands, our fingers intertwined. Amy was on the other side of the campfire, gazing to the fire.
"Speaking about kids…" she looked to us and we instantly knew what she was going to ask about "How did it go with Callie?"
I looked to Lena and we shared a look. We didn't exactly know where to even begin.
"It was…" I exhaled and scratched my brows with my free hand
"Oh, that bad?" Amy asks watching me
"It wasn't bad" Lena quickly consoled Amy "But it was, um…it was rough" Lena admitted to Amy
"I assume you talked it out, yes? It just seems like that, because she was sitting with us tonight and didn't avoid either of you…she even laughed at your jokes" Amy said to smiling to me
A moment of silence fell over us. Neither one of us jumped to answer this question, because the answer wasn't a simple and easy one. I glance to Lena, who was next to me and we share a look.
Lena spoke for both of us when she said "Not going to lie, it was...incredibly hard to hear what she had to say to us. We never realized how much we hurt her, how we made her feel...not until today. But yes, we had a heart to heart and we talked it out...I think we are okay" Amy only nods back listening closely to what we said
"As hard it was for us to hear it, I know it was much harder for her to carry all of that anger and hurt inside…locked inside for years" I added to what Lena said "I wish she had come to us…I wish we had talked with her first…before all of this happened"
"Callie doesn't just walk up to people and start spilling her heart out. She knows you barely for 6 months…" Amy said softly "Even if you had confronted her about it before, the chances are that she would avoid it"
"…I wish I had seen her struggling with it! I don't understand how I didn't see it! "Lena said holding the tears in
"She is a closed of person. Callie has learned to hide her emotion and her feelings from everyone. Even herself...That is what she does best, that's what she did for 4 years…it is a hard habit to break" Amy said back without missing a beat "Don't feel bad, Lena…I live with her, she is my daughter and I didn't see it either"
"The way she talked about her life in foster care…" I said after a moment "We never knew that things were that hard for her"
"How could you? She rarely talks about it and you haven't seen her file. So there really was no way for you to know that"
"Was it really that bad?" I ask warily, not sure if I want to hear the answer
"It don't think it could get any worse" She replied sadly and stretched out her legs and crossed her hands on her chest, she leaned back in the camp chair
"You should have seen her face when she mentioned your name" I say smiling at her, changing the topic to nicer one. Amy raised her eyebrows at me, wondering where I am going with this "Her face, her eyes...light up the moment she said your name. The doomed, empty look and flat voice changed instantly when she said your name"
"That girl…" Lena said pointing to the tent where Callie was sleeping "Loves you so hard. And there is a good reason for it…you saved her life"
"She saved my life too" Amy comments quietly from the other side of the fire "Without even realizing it"
"I remember how scared and nervous she was the first day she came around" that grabbed both of the woman's attention "Callie was parked by the house and she was afraid to come in, because she was like 30 minutes early" Amy listened with such interest as I spoke, she has only heard Callie's side of the story
"When I finally got her in the house, anyone could tell, just by looking at her - how nervous she was. She was afraid to make a wrong move, say the wrong thing. She was all tensed up and stiff…Callie was afraid to mess things up with us" I paused and glanced to the fire in front of me "But she didn't. Callie did everything right. We are the ones that messed up" I said as one tear fell down my cheek
Silence fell over us as I waited for Amy to say something back. In a way it felt like we were waiting for a death penalty or something. Amy shifted in the chair, she hadn't taken her eyes off us. I had no idea how she would respond, but I guess, it was wrong of me to fear her answer.
"Callie forgave you…you should forgive yourselves too" Amy said standing up and smiled at us "I'm going to bed, good night"
July 9th
I thought I was the first one up this morning, so I got the campfire ready and started a small fire so we could heat up some water for tea. But when I sat down, I realized the big ice box was gone. I looked over my shoulder to the boys tent and saw that Jude's shoes were missing. That meant Amy and Jude went fishing.
Callie zipped her tent open 5 minutes later. She crawled out yawing and stepped in her shoes. She scratched her side and yawned again.
"Morning sleepy head" I greet her cheerfully, scaring her a little. Her head snapped to me, but she smiled back. Callie pulled her hands in he sleeves and walked towards me greeting me back.
"You want tea?" I ask as I was getting ready to set the pot so I could heat up the water
"Um…yeah, sure" she nodded and when she was up to the campfire
"Get your cup ready" I said as I put the pot on. She changes her curse and returns with a cup in her hands and to my surprise she sits down next to me. I smile at the progress, but don't comment on it.
"I just put the water on…we will have to wait few minutes" I inform her leaning back to the chair
"That's cool" She says placing the cup down on the ground by the chair
"Your mom is with Jude. They went fishing. How about…uh…would you want to go on a run with me? Train for the races that we signed each other up to?" I ask very warily and smile weakly at her in the end. I had no idea how she would feel about it. She usually runs with Amy and the last thing I wanted, was to ruin something she had with her mom or to force her doing something she doesn't want to do.
Her left leg bounces up and down few times "Yeah, we can do that"
"What were we thinking? I mean…that was pretty dumb move from both of us, right?" I say laughing about it
"You started it. I had to pay you back. I couldn't just let you get away so easy" Callie replies laughs softly
Some hour later we are both running along a path that lead thought the woods. It was much harder to run in the woods than in the city around your block or park, because there were a lot of roots here, from the trees. And the ground wasn't plain. One minute we were running upslope, the next downwards. The air thou, is much fresher and I had a feeling I got like an extra boost just because I was in natures lap.
Callie wasn't lying when she said she can run 40 minutes without stopping now. It was almost 35 minutes in and she hasn't stopped once, she has kept up the pace we started with. It was quite impressive, she hasn't been training for that long.
Right now, Callie was very much concentrated on where she places her foot so she doesn't slip of fall, or twist her ankle. I could also tell that she was concentrating on her breathing. We weren't talking that much, but it was perfectly okay. It was a comfortable silence.
We have passed few people already. Some were cycling, some were just walking in the woods, some, just like us, were running. Right now, on a crossroad in front of us, stood two more people, on bikes with map out. As we got closer, I heard the two guys talking about directions and they were pointing their hands different ways.
"Guess they are lost" I said to Callie as we were almost up to them. Callie only now looked up from the path up front and when she did - she froze. She stopped running and just started at the two men in front of us. I come to stop much more slower and head back towards her, where she stood frozen in her spot.
Callie had a panic look in her eyes as well as complete and utter fear. I couldn't really tell if her breathing changed, because we were in the middle of a run and we were breathing heavily before. She didn't hold the look on the two guys for long, she tilted her down, like trying to hide from them, so they wouldn't recognize her. She took a small step back, like retreating.
"Callie?" I say her name softly as I reach for her hand, trying to pull her out of this state. I looked back to the two guys, trying to see what could have caused this
"Excuse me! Could you help us, we are lost!" One of the guys got off his bike and came toward us. He was pretty short guy, black hair, glasses.
I stood myself between them and Callie just in case "We are not locals" I inform him
"We aren't either. My friend and I went for bike ride and we got lost. Do you have any idea how we can get back to the main road…" he said holding the map in front of him
I looked behind him - to his friend. He was much taller, that I could tell. Looked more muscular. He was light haired guy, pretty average looking guy. Neither of them set off any alarms for me.
"Um…well, I know if you go down this path" I point down the path we were heading "You can reach a campsite in like 5 minutes or less, and then from there you can take the road that leads down to the main road and the lake"
"Uh...the camp Kaspian?" He asks looking at the map
"Yeah...just 5 minute ride...maybe less" I confirm it
"Oh, okay. Thank you so much" He says folding the map and heads back to the bike that his friend holds it up to him
"Thank you! Have a nice day!" The other guy calls back
I feel Callie move behind me and next thing I know she is standing next to me, not behind me. She tilts her head to right as she keeps looking at the two men. There is no longer fear and panic in her eyes, she looked confused, her lips parted, her body no longer tensed up.
"I thought…" she mumbles quietly to herself as she watches the two men ride their bike away
"You thought what, honey?" I ask gently, still worried about her. People don't just freak out like over nothing. I once again gently touch her forearm, telling her silently, that she is not alone, that I was here with her.
"I saw…he looked…" she didn't finish either of those sentences. Callie looks sideways to the ground and shakes her head. She didn't voice it, but I thought I saw her mouth something. A word, a name – Liam.
Callie looks up again, she shakes her head lightly and raised her right hand up and runs her fingers softly over her forehead.
"Are you okay, honey?" I ask watching her carefully, how she gathers herself up. Callie looks to me with the same confused look, runs her tongue over her dry lips and then shakes her head, she lowers her hand back down. Her features instantly changes the next second.
"Yeah, I'm good" She replies casually, like nothing had happened "Let's finish our run" Callie says and runs off
Lena POV
The kids were all eating breakfast, when Amy and Jude returned from their fishing trip. We could see and hear them from afar. There was a very distinct sound they were both making as they walked over.
When they were in the camp, neither of us could contain the laughter. They were both wet to bone. Both of them stopped when we started to laugh and so did the squelch sound that came with them.
Jude, without putting the fishing rod down, pulled on his sweats that were barely holding on to him. Amy set the ice box down and placed her fishing rod on top of. Just like Jude, Amy pulled up her sweatpants that were seconds away from falling down to her knees. Next she gathered as much of the shirt fabric as she could squeezed out all of the water she could. Then, Amy bent down and jumping on one of her foot she took off the other shoe. She turned the shoe upside down and poured out water.
"It's not funny" She said seriously as water dripped out of her shoe. Jude headed over to the tent to change out of his wet clothes. Amy meanwhile carried the ice box to where our supplies stood. She then walked to the campfire, extended her arms towards the fire and second later crouched down to feel the heat.
"…I think it would work better if you change out of your wet clothes, first" Jesus chuckled watching how Amy tried to dry herself up, she shot him a look back
"How did this happen?" I ask Amy when didn't answer to Jesus. She sighted and stood back up, then walked to one of the camp chairs and sat down. Water was just dripping down from her. She exhaled and started their story "We decided to rent a boat..."
"That was smart…" Brandon laughs because he knew as well as I know do now, what happened
"We rented a boat…" she repeats that part ignoring B laughing "We went deeper inside the lake, thinking we could catch different type of fish there. We had caught like 7 fishes or so, and we decided - just one more and then we will head back to the land" She was looking at the fire in front of her
"Jude's bobber went under..." Amy leans down pressing her elbows on her knees and looks around the camp to us
"I saw a glimpse of the fish, it looked really big" She took a pause and then added slowly" Jude decided to stand up...IN THE BOAT!" She called out the last part, looking over her shoulder to the boys tent where Jude was now
"It thought it was a more stable boat!" Jude called back, but Amy called back with a smirk on her lips "It WAS A BOAT…boats are not stable! THEY WOBBLE! Boats wobble!"
"I thought this one wouldn't!" Jude called back
Amy shook her head back as she looking to the kids who were sitting around the campfire eating "Boats wobble…they all wobble! Every…singe…one of them wobble! Okay, they wobble!" she was eager to get the message to the other kids
"We got it…they wobble" I conclude with a smile and ask her to continue "What happened next?" Amy sights and continues
"Like I said…Jude was having some trouble with reeling it in, so he stood up…The boat under his feet starts to wobble as he is struggling with the fish. The fish…pulled hard and so did Jude, but when he leaned backwards - the fish got off the hook and swam away, causing Jude to fall backwards a bit. He lost his footing because of the boat wobbling under his feet and fell overboard" Amy explains, her voice was intense the whole time
I gasped out in worry. It was silly of me to do that, because Jude was after all safe and sound in his tent. But the way Amy told the story, she managed to get that reaction out of me.
"I wait it out till the boat stops wobbling to stand up and get to the side where he fell over to help him in. But..." she clapped her hands and looked down, looking ashamed and even embarrassed "The boat wobbles because Jude tried to pull himself in the boat and as I try to get my balance back, I trip over his fishing rod. Next thing I know, I am in the water next to Jude...and that's it" Amy finishes the story and rubs her hands to her thighs
"Mommy and Callie are back" Frankie called out pointing to the road, right after Amy was done telling the story
"Whoa!" Callie said surprised when they run up to us and saw Amy "What happened to you?"
"Boats wobble!" Frankie concluded perfectly causing all of us to burst out in laughter, expect for Stef and Callie, who looked utterly confused as to why that was funny
Callie POV
About hour later, we have packed for our hike. We got our water, our sandwiches ready, first aid-kit just in case. We all had sunscreen and hats on, because the Sun was shining bright even at 10 in the morning.
Amy is the navigator this time. I think only because this hike, that we are having today, was her idea and she had planned it. I didn't really care who leads the way, my only wish is that, it is someone who knows what he or she is doing. Getting lost in woods, isn't something that is on my bucket list.
We all walk out in one big group when we leave the camp, but when we start to walk thought the woods on the small paths, we stretch out in one long line. Starting with Amy up front, then followed by me and Jude. The twins were behind us and then at the end there was Brandon with Frankie on his shoulders. And of course Stef and Lena, watching us all from the back.
We took our first small break after some 30 minutes. When we all got back on the road to continue our hike - Stef stopped me, by holding on to my hand softly.
"What?" I ask as she holds my hand, others walk pass us, leaving us to be the last in the line
"Walk with me in the back" Stef says quietly
"O-okay…" I drag softly and we start to walk only when others are some 10 steps in front of us
We walk in silence for a minute or two until Stef speaks up in hushed yet very gentle voice "May I ask you a personal question?"
"Um...yeah, sure" I agree hesitantly and glance up to her
"Can you tell me who Liam is?"
